Hair Day!

I love a hair day.  This hair day is my no-highlight hair day - cheaper, quicker, but leaves my hair kind of dark.  I'm going to talk to my hairdresser about lightening my base (again) ... or something.  Since I pull my hair back, highlights are lost with just a gray cover-up.

Yesterday was a great day.  Youngest's house (and room) are awesome - he's doing great which is even 'AWESOMER" ... fun to see him for the afternoon.

BBQ was a blast.  My family is loud and funny.  Lots of laughs.

Food was manageable.  A few people not drinking, so that was no big deal.  I came home and had a desire to raid-the-pantry again.  I didn't - just ate a good dinner.  I guess "party" mode or "fun" mode gets me in the mood to eat crazy crap.  I've spent about 45 days of clean, healthy eating and it's so darn easy to slip back into bad habits.

W30 talks about habits giving one last push as they are ready to fade.  Maybe I'm having a push before some good things happen!?!?  I expect this week to be very good eating.  Nothing (food wise) on the schedule until Friday.  No junk in the house.  Whew!

I was talking to my (male) cousin yesterday.  He's younger (about 7 years maybe) but is going through the same sort questioning - searching I am.  He's actually getting ready to read The Happiness Project too (crazy - right?).  I mention he's a man, because I found it refreshing that he admits to the same struggles.  Feels likes he's grinding on and on and not really enjoying now.  Gave me some good references for more reading (and learning).  I love when conversations go "deeper" and it's a good lesson to be open and share.  Look what I would have missed otherwise.

Today is a do-something-nice moment.  Long story.  I have new neighbors ... neighbors who found the house because of running into me and hubby while they were at the club house with our old realtor (house wasn't on the market yet).  They seem grateful and ran into hubby again and were very nice.  I wanted to give them a welcome goodie (rice crispies) and our numbers.  I got their cell phone numbers, reached out ... "could I drop off something the next day" ... was told that didn't work, could I do the following day.  I was working ... texted both asking what other day works.  Never heard back from either of them.  I send nice chatty, friendly texts ... nothing at all from the wife.  The number is right.  I planned to forget about it.  But in the vain of do-something-nice (and hubby nudging) I'm doing it today.  I would have just left it, but weather is so hot.  I'm leaving it this morning.  Then sending a text.  Then letting it go.  I've done my "nice" and that's enough.  If it goes further, great.  If not, fine too.

A lesson in ego.  I think the problem is I feel rejected.  I tried to be polite (texting before).  I tried to be nice (making a treat).  I tried to be welcoming (giving our numbers).  I even thought of asking her to lunch just to break up what is usually lonely days when you first move.  And I got nothing.  This shouldn't be about my ego.  I'm not doing this for me ... I need to stop making it about me.

Anyway - workout time.  Home tabata.  Need to make a list - big arm day.  Later gators.