A Not-Chipper List

This probably won't be a chipper post -- you've been warned hah!

Let's make it a list.

1. Hubby sealed roof vent. We'll see if it holds. I hope it's that simple. Nothing is leaking, but the rain has been lighter. 

2. Chiropractor visit. I feel a lot better. Shoulder is good. Foot is back to normal. He said there was some emotional issues showing up around my stomach area. Holding too much emotion and worry. Hmmmm. 

3. PVCs are back in force this morning. Hello, worry. I'm going to make an appointment or see Urgent Care this week. Something is going on and I need to make sure it's not serious. I probably need to tell my husband too. Ugh. 

I keep waiting thinking it's a combination of all the things and my body will figure it out. Travel, time adjustment, sleep, little sick, too much caffeine. 

4. I have anxiety through the roof. It could be the PVCs making me feel physically like you'd feel when you're anxious and my mind is trying to attach a reason to the physical response. I have NOTHING to be anxious about (except the PVCs). Hah, I guess it's a vicious circle. 

But it is making me feel like every little thing is a catastrophe and every little hiccup extrapolates to awful. 

What if the PVCs are from hormones.

Then I have to go off them.

Then all the menopause symptoms return.

Then I'll have no energy.

I'll get out of shape and old.

I won't be able to hike or run.

I won't be able to play with my grandson.

Or have active vacations.

I'll be one of those people who you wonder how that happened.

"She used to be so active and now look at her ... never leaves the house."

See ... this was the thought train I had this morning. Nonsense and CRAZY. Dang.

5. I'm adding to my upset because I feel I'm ruining a really good calendar week. Easy mornings. Not much on the calendar. Should be a week for hiking, creativity, me-time, etc. 

Instead, I feel crappy, anxious, sad ... and feel like doing absolutely nothing but being a sofa slug. 

Okay, I'm going to leave it all here. The PVCs seem a little less as I've been fussing around this morning. Fingers crossed. Later gators.

Threes and a Pity Party

Things come in THREEs ... 

1. Roof leaked during the heavy rains. Looks like a vent that needs to be sealed. More heavy rains today and tomorrow. Eeek. 

2. Kids can't change date in Asheville, so I'm not able to go with a friend to a weekend event this fall. No good deed ... not really, but feels a little like it.

3. PVCs back in force yesterday. I had a little bit of caffeine again and a harder workout. Now to figure out if one or the other is a problem. Either way, if it happens again, looks like I'm in for a cardiac workup. I'm okay so far today. 

I'm not having the best moment this morning ... also in THREEs.

1. I'm worried about the PVCs -- mainly why. Possible beta blocker or ablation in my future (after lots of doctors and medical bills). 

2. I also don't feel well. Not really sick, but not well. Chest cold coming on? 

3. My left foot keeps tingling. 

So now I'm worried this is all related. I'm somehow dying or on the cusp of a bad diagnosis. A little dramatic?!? Boy, I hope so.

I'm a few weeks out from the menopause and birthday celebrations. I want to feel good and strong and happy. Not looking like any of that from this vantage point. How did things seem to change so rapidly from a week ago?!?

My Oura ring stats are fine. Temp, heart rate, recovery, O2 saturation. Not that that tells a full (or completely accurate) story, but it's not sending up any alarms. 

It could be my body is stressed from the trip and sleep issues, and a little sick, etc. and is having a strong reaction. 

I see the chiropractor/acupuncture today. Maybe that'll be a start to healing. I'm on strict dietary protocol too. Nothing that traditionally stresses my heart rate. Caffeine, sugar, white carbs. 

Anyway ... in other news ...

I got the tomatoes tamed a bit and cleaned up the garden. I need to see how everything weathered the storms. A number of big trees down on the road behind us (a bit scary when they went down) and huge run-off on the trail. They were powerful storms. 

Babysitting our grandson again today. Kids are all snotty too, so not really worried about spreading anything around. 

I have nothing in the mornings until Friday. This should be ultimate morning joy. I hope I can rally to appreciate such an unusual week. Not this morning though -- I'm in full blown pity party and worried mode. 

Well, that's enough cheer for this Memorial Day hah. 

Have a good Monday that feels like a Sunday. Later gators.

A List

Good morning!

Let's do a list (in no particular order).

1. RAIN. 

In droves. 

So needed.

Bummer on a holiday weekend.

2. Had to postpone taming of the tomatoes until today. It's going to be a big project. Also, taking out the one type of pea that's finished and planting more cucumbers. 

3. Grandson over all day yesterday. What a joy! We watched the rain. Played in the rain (when it wasn't storming). Picked from the garden in the rain. Delightful day. I think we're sitting again tomorrow.

4. I'm a itty bit sick. Hope it holds to be just a little bit. 

5. Chiropractor/acupuncture tomorrow. Odd he's open on the holiday, but glad to have an appointment. My shoulder feels much better, but I think I'll get an adjustment anyway. Put the old bod back in alignment. 

6. Texted all day yesterday with 2 women from my local group. I initiated the text and then it went crazy. Books, cooking, crafting, art, gardening, travel. It felt good. This is a group dynamic that I'm enjoying. 

We're all different. Don't agree on everything. Bring different perspectives. I love it. 

7. Which is such a contract to this group dynamic. Tuesday hiking group IS hiking this Tuesday and I made other plans on Tuesday. I'm not going. I have no interest. None. Zero. Zip. 

Why? I don't think I'm super aligned with the group anymore. What started as a "let's get more involved" turned out to be a "let's complain and pretend that makes a difference." 

Where I'm conflicted (still) is I like a number of the women in the group. Can I imagine that this is simply a hiking and lunch group? Okay, but they hike slowly and the hikes are short. Lunch is usually a complaint session about politics. Neither is that interesting to me (I'd rather hike and lunch solo). And this keeps me involved with "that" person. 

My plan is to hike next week with them and see if that brings some clarity. Why not this week? The way the text thread is going, the conversation will be a direction that's prickly. I feel like hiking this week would hold a heavy bias. Looking for a more neutral week to evaluate. 

8. Group dynamics. Complicated. I don't completely trust my perspective. Probably a good topic for coaching. 

9. Thanks to Group Life program I have some ideas for my bookclub. We're taking the summer off and I'm not sure if that'll be the beginning of the end (again). People may completely lose interest. It always hangs by a thread and the thread may have broken. We'll see. And, I'm not sure if these ideas are too far removed from bookclub. I try to keep it a little more interesting than JUST discussing a book. I think the trick is to link the activity with a particular book. Hmmmm. 

This week is a live session workshop in Group Life to get help with a gathering. I'm bringing bookclub to the table. Maybe the group can help troubleshoot the issues. 

10. Once the rain lifts this week, I'm all in on trying to attract a crow friend. So fun! Fingers crossed. 

11. Might be hosting another friend in Asheville in October. Have to work through a conflict of dates first. I'm very happy to be using the house so much again.

Best get going before more rain. Have a great day. Later gators.

Holiday Weekend Begins

Eeeek ... I'm getting sick. No "real" symptoms yet, but I feel rundown in a way that expects something to be brewing.

I'm also having a lot of PVCs -- those heavy, off heartbeats. I can see them on the EKG function on my watch too. In and of themselves, nothing dangerous, but the question to ask is WHY. If it doesn't resolve, I'll need to go to the doctor. 

Might be related to caffeine. I got a little loose and heavy while on vacation. I need to pull off. That, combined with sleep issues and hormones can absolutely be the reason. It feels a bit scary when it happens. My body is so sensitive to things now.

I have a full day today. Skipping a workout which is unusual for me, but I need to listen to my body -- something is off. I might even drive to my Friday meeting -- shock!!! 

I don't feel sick enough for sure to miss the meeting (I don't want to get anyone sick). Maybe, possibly, I'm just rundown. It's not like we're hugging and such so I'll be okay to be around people. 

Lunch with a friend (possibly 2 friends). 

5 o'clock volunteer home visit up north. Hello, holiday weekend traffic. 

Of course, all up for changing if I start to feel really sick. Ugh. There is a price to pay for a big vacation -- before (the work) and after (the recovery). Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it. It is (hard to feel it today though), but it's a reason I'm like time between vacations. 

In some good news. 

Cucumbers are delicious. Woo hoo. Favorite thing to grow. 

I made a version of Cowboy Caviar using garden stuff yesterday. Leftovers for dinner. 

First excellent watermelon of the season. I stuffed myself silly and peed 12 times in 2 hours lol. No chill -- ate the entire container. 

That's all I have time for this morning. Have a good start to the holiday weekend. Later gators.

Short, Sweet, Boring

Well, the bots will be extra bored this morning as I have really nothing to update. 

Hair day. I'm 2 weeks behind because of the trip. I decided to wait until I got back because salt water and chlorine can muck up a fresh keratin. My hair feels too long and my roots are plentiful -- what a difference a couple of weeks makes. It'll feel extra good today.

Am I less jet-lagged? I don't know. I think a little bit. 

Today is really chill. 

No workout (rest day). 

Hair appointment.

Grocery store.

NOTHING else -- what?!!? 

Sofa surfing and TV is on the afternoon agenda. I need to be cautious it doesn't become a junk food fest too, especially with a grocery store run on the agenda. I need recovery, not a food coma. 

That is all I've got this morning. Short, sweet, boring. 

Off to pick the garden. 

Hope you're having a good week. Later gators.

Go Away, Bots

I really, really, really hate when the bots show up. 

They come, they go.

I wish they'd go.

I wonder what triggers them to come?

I'm fighting the good fight -- jet lag and perimenopause sleep issues combined. 

Dang. 

I'm forcing myself back to a regular schedule. 

I was awake in bed for almost 3 hours last night. 

Sleep, wide awake, sleep, alarm. 

It's a strange schedule. 

No real election results yet, except for disappointments. All the incumbent judges won (people didn't research and just voted for the "non-partisan" incumbents). Spoiler alert ... they aren't really non-partisan. 

K. Bottoms took the nomination for governor and she won't win. We'll have a very mega, rich republican governor elected in November. Again, name recognition without thinking, researching, understanding. Her record as mayor of Atlanta is not good. She's going to be eaten alive. I hope I'm wrong.

Now for some better news. 

The garden ...

First of the cucumbers

Last of the spring peas

She's WILD!!
And over-planted!!!!

I need to do some tending. Probably this weekend. My mornings are all spoken for this week.

In other good news, re-entry is finished. I'm organized and back to my regularly scheduled life ... just jet-lagged. I'm trying to see if forcing a sleep schedule is a better option. It usually takes me a couple of weeks after Hawaii to get back to regular sleep hours letting it all happen naturally. That's too long to be "off." 

Hope your week is going well. Later gators. 

Re-Entry Day(s), Election Day

Hello again this morning.

We landed at 6 am yesterday.

Yesterday (and a little of today) are re-entry day(s). Unpacked, reorganized. Tending to life, but nothing extraordinarily crazy -- just some basics. Trying to get sleep and eating times back to this time zone. No easy feat for me. 

Today is a hardier mix of life-back-to-normal. Yesterday was very basic. Ripping the bandaid on the jet lag. 

Chores this morning ...

Watering indoor plants (ugh).

Tending to a very, very grown garden (yea).

Picking up my porch plants.

Fun this afternoon ...

Pedicure (I go after a beach trip, not before because sand ruins toes immediately!)

Picking up our grandson (I missed him).

Evening tour of their new house (exciting).

I read 7 books over vacation. 2 books each flight. Most were excellent. One was a bust and I left it at the hotel LFL. (Miss Benson's Beetle -- great reviews, but I hated it).

(The flight out is so long ... 2 books 2 movies, and an hour nap). 

I ran out of books, so I got one from the hotel LFL exchange and one from the airport (horrible selection in Hawaii airports and $$$$$). 

Read first Pride and Prejudice for my June book flight.

Remembered to send a postcard from Hawaii to my book penpal. Had a lot of books to list! 

Today is Election Day. I'm hopeful, and a bit nervous, and a bit excited. 

Okay, best get moving. Lots to do this morning and I got up 2 hours later than normal. 

Have a good day! Later gators.