Hopefully, My Last Ramble for a Bit

My plate is officially full ... for now. 

That revelation feels good. Doors are closed, waitlist only. 

I took on a chunk of pie last night helping with our homeless initiative -- one woman in particular that I brought to a hotel on Sunday. 

I have a balance that feels right. 

I'm focusing on the things I've said 'yes' to and making sure to give them time and attention. 

Focusing on the doing.

Why is this a revelation?

It's taking non-action things off my plate -- like meetings about potential things on the horizon. Meetings about what's been happening. Essentially, busy-work. I know that the meetings serve a purpose, etc. but since I'm not taking on anything more right now, they're not the best use of my time.

I need THAT time to regroup and take care of myself. Have fun. Laugh. Garden. Rock paint. See friends. Happy things. AND put effort into the things I'm DOING on the volunteer and activism front. 

I needed a boundary.

But I didn't realize I needed a boundary until this thought came to me last night. 

Yes.

This is feels so much better.

And I really like where I'm putting my time. 

It's things that are making a difference to people. 

Worthwhile. 

Community.

Hard things.

It feels like a relief AND an energy burst. Focus, balance. 

What's today?

Acupuncture for my foot. Fingers crossed.

Then an afternoon re-writing the court report -- things have sadly changed since last week. I spent hours on this family's situation last night. Up until 9 o'clock working. Phone calls, emails, etc. More of this today. As a collective, I hope we can get the family help. 

Maybe (and hopefully) a little time to check out the new coffee shop and a library stop. I love walking around town and it's warm enough now.

Got a couple of things from eBay yesterday. 

Vintage PRIDE pins.
Ready for June.

Vintage brooches for
my coats -- old pins are in :)

I'll leave it here today. I need to re-write scripts for my representative calls. I rambled too much yesterday and hit time limits -- geez. 

Have a good day. Later gators.

Monday

I spent yesterday helping in the community. We transported people to hotels to warm for the night, gave out food, toiletries, and blankets. It feels good to take action. Often, it feels like so much time is spent talking about helping, and less time actually helping. 

This is an ongoing focus with our group that I'm pleased to give my attention. 

Now for this week. 

It feels like a lot.

Feels like I'm tired and it's only just begun. 

And, that's not really true. 

I have a lot on my plate, and time to do it.

It's not helping me to say it feels like a lot. 

It's actually only a few things that are hard. 

Have you ever heard the thought that sometimes you say you had a bad day and it was actually only one little part of the day that was bad and the rest was good?? That's what I think I'm doing with this week. Saying it's hard and a lot -- and it's only a few things. 

The volunteer position is worrying me. The family is not doing well and I have to figure out how I approach with my role. It's weighing on me heavily and coloring my perception of the week. This is the hard for this week. 

Okay, enough woe-is-me stuff. It helps to think it through. Probably boring to read though ...

Best get going -- it IS true that this is a full, full week. I have to sneak in things between things, etc. and that includes during my morning time. 

Hope you're set for a good week and a warmer day. Later gators. 

Sunday Updates

Another bitter winter day. The snow missed us -- hit just north (old house) and it's a mess that'll stick around until at least tomorrow. Our town got lucky this go-around. 

Grow-room is setup. 

I'll plant this week. 

I need to mix the soil and such outside and it's too cold right now. 

Heated storage area.
All rigged and tested.

We babysat our grandson for the afternoon because the kids are sick. 

Elmo loves his new bed :)

Not sure what today brings. I might be volunteering in my community because of the cold temperatures -- we don't have information yet. The group went out yesterday and made a big difference for a lot of people. Our group will be doing this going forward too. I have issues with my foot circulation and standing in this level of cold is a problem for me. That said, I'll help today if it's needed -- and absolutely, going forward. 

Taking a break from the news and volunteering yesterday was what I needed. I feel restored enough to go forward again. That used to happen with work too -- sometimes the weight of the unfairness and pain of so many people was too much and I had to step back for a minute. It's why nurses joke around in ways that might seem strange to outsiders -- you have to laugh and blow off steam or you won't be able to handle all the awful. 

There's a time to cry.

A time to laugh.

(Starting to sound like that song.)

A time to take a break. 

All without guilt (and this is the hardest part). 

That's all for today. Hope you stay warm. Later gators.

A Break

Today I'm taking a mental step-back. 

No news today.

No volunteering today. 

Just for today.

Yesterday drained me silly -- until 10:30 at night. I was exhausted. Feel that sort of hangover feeling today. Not recovered, not feeling myself. Possible all day volunteering tomorrow. 

So today needs to be something else. 

Hello, gardening my friend. 

Grow room set-up today. 

Fingers crossed the set-up survived the move.

A friend mentioned a local Native Plant organization that hosts lots of information. It's not on the agenda for our spring projects, but I want to start learning. The goal for my little yard. I know as little as one can know -- lots of room to learn. And, it'll be interesting. 

One goal ahead of native plant landscaping is a cutting flower garden. I wonder if I can make that work this year? It might be a stretch because the yard isn't ready, but maybe starter version?? Something to look into.

And what about this storm?? Nothing on the ground at all and it seems like nothing coming for my area. Unless I'm missing something ... looks like snow missed us. What's left is cold and wind -- which is a horrible situation for many and that's what volunteering is focusing on right now.

Here are a couple of pictures, just because. 

Letting out my dog.
Morning view of the craft room.

"Blanket" finished.

Stay warm and safe and check on your neighbors. 

Have a good day. Later gators.

New Lows

Life feels really low right now. 

Voter rolls from 2020 taken from GA. Every ounce of evidence is in the hands of the federal government now and they'll give whatever narrative that works for them to prevent a free and fair election in GA. And they control the evidence so no one can say differently. They are stealing the mid-term elections right before our eyes. 

What the actual f*%K. 

The hits keeps coming. 

Standing up to ALL these things is exhausting for people. 

Today is an all-hands to help our community. 

And, the volunteer court position is spinning out of control. The family unit is struggling and it's heartbreaking. I have a call that I'll step out of my meeting to take to try and figure out a way to help this family. 

Ugh. 

And, another storm on Saturday which delays all the action steps until roads clear. 

I'll leave it at that this morning. Looking for an upswing and that comes in the doing. 

We have to help each other -- not just clutch our pearls. 

Later gators.

Elmo Bed

Yesterday was a nice day.

Starting with the thrifted lamp and my morning view. 

Cozy and peaceful.

I stopped for a coffee a bit out of town to donate men's shoes. Ethiopian owner -- incredible person. Love this place, but, sadly, rarely stop by because I have so many great choices in my town. He takes worn sneakers to be recycled into playground mats and others get donated directly to people in need. 

Texted my eldest and we met for a lunch -- political chat and how to get involved. 

Came home and made my grandson a bed for his Elmo doll out of craft scraps I had around. I'll make the blanket today. He's into imagination play right now -- so adorable. 

(It's sloppy, but it's just for a little playtime fun.)

Today is another mostly open day because I postponed the trip to Asheville. My cancel friend (who almost got a new moniker) canceled coffee today late last night. I'm sure it has to do with her grandchildren -- she says "too many moving parts" today. The coffee plans were initiated by her -- day and time too.

I'm trying (and a little failing) to let this roll-off, but it feels disrespectful to MY time to have a late cancel. I didn't opt for a lunch with someone today to hold this time. I could've said "something else came up" but I didn't. And, I know she's busy before she leaves to visit family this weekend -- so I "should" be more understanding. It's a pattern with her though. I don't believe she can't fit an hour in for a coffee so I expect this is a last minute babysitting ask from her daughter. 

I was starting to trust her ability to hold plans again, and this feels like a slide backwards. Her daughter ends maternity leave in February and my friend will be helping with 3 kids because they don't have a full-time sitter. Writing is on the wall. 

Anyway -- I have a social/political meeting tonight. The local organizers of No Kings is holding a social gathering to be with people who are standing up. We'll talk about what's happening, next steps, recruiting others, and share some time together. One of the head organizers in our area is a friend's daughter. The next No Kings Protest is March 28 -- my calendar is marked, signs are made. 

Hope you have a good day. Country is a shit-show, FBI entered Atlanta for voter records ... but we MUST find the good in our days too. Find the helpers. Be the helpers. Later gators.

Books and TV

Good morning. 

I just finished morning calls to my representatives. 

Urging you to do as well.

Important votes this week.

I got the court report written yesterday. Final read-through and edit today. I pushed ahead so I didn't get any of my little treats in, but it was worth it. Coherent and concise -- maybe, I'll find out today. There's so much redundancy in the sections so I need space before the final edit. 

Today is a relatively free day and you bet I'm having some fun today. I put out 2 last minute invitations for lunch and both were a no-go. Looks like it's me-myself-and-I AND a book. That makes me equally happy (if not a bit happier). 

Speaking of books, I finished this one from the author day. I liked it -- probably liked it more because of my time listening to the author. It's more interesting when you know extra details. Her writing process, her research, her background, her intentions, the editing, the cover design, etc. 

(Of course, that didn't help AT ALL with my hairdresser's book.)

Started this one. Rosamunde Pilcher is a comfort read for me. Not a palette cleanser, fast, engaging (like a suspense book) ... but a slow, quiet, lovely read. It's a chonker and I read it slowly, but it's exactly what I need right now. A quiet escape to help fill my tank a teeny tiny bit. I absolutely LOVE the way she writes -- her stories are a slow burn, but the writing engages you all the way. 

Speaking of comfort ... I'm rewatching Rizzoli and Isles. Not sure I'll watch the entire show again, but it's nice for now. I know, it's murder, but it's cozy murder. And the relationships on the show -- family and friends feels comforting to watch. It has a lot of funny one-liners. 

I'm super slowly reading this book. It's NOT a tank filler, but feels important to read. I probably won't finish the entire book (skim parts), but I want to get a sense of the messaging. 

The question is which book today? Comfort or important?? Maybe I'll bring both along and decide. I need to go to a coffee shop to drop a donation AND I want to go to lunch. One book for each? Actually, Abundance might win out because I want to get it finished and it's not a good book to read before bed. Hmmm.

I made an appointment next week with my acupuncturist because my foot isn't completely healing. Hopefully, this can get it to the finish line. I miss hiking and running. 

That'll push my Asheville trip yet another day. Of course, weather is still iffy with a potential storm over the weekend so who knows when I'll get there. 

That's winter for you --- and I'll take it. Worth the inconvenience. 

Have a good day. Later gators.