Caffeine.

I am sensitive to caffeine.  Came on quite suddenly in my early 30's.  Tremors (was worried about MS), nervous feeling, sleep disruption.  Before that dreaded year, I never understood why DECAF was a thing.

Most of the time I stay pretty caffeine-free (or at least caffeine-low).  My Starbucks is decaf (so still has small amount of caffeine) and occasionally I will have iced tea when I'm out to lunch.

Cue the head injury.

Found some delicious new tea flavors while I was off work for 7 weeks.  Plus found some grind-your-own coffee and I mix just a bit of the regular stuff (because I liked the flavor).  I don't put anything in my tea or coffee, so I LOVE the flavored stuff.

Not working.  Taking naps.  No schedule.  Why not?!?

And here we are today.  Too much caffeine.  Not enough to bring on tremors, but I wonder if it's contributing to my TIRED all day feeling.  Could it be messing up my sleep cycles??  Maybe.  Possibly.  Enough question that I need to cut back is a BIG way and see what happens.

UGH.

I love my new teas and coffees.

And it's become part of my ... well ... bathroom regularity.  I never needed it before, but when I don't have it now ... things don't move as smoothly.

So let the TAPER begin.  Not in the mood for cold-turkey.  Sugar withdrawal is plenty enough right now.

I am determined to feel back to normal.  Cold is fading nicely.  Just some lingering night symptoms, but my energy is still bottomed out.  Could be still related to being sick.  I went to bed early (as always before work), slept reasonably (2 bathroom wake-ups), woke-up just before my alarm AND I still feel UNRESTED.

Need to figure it out.  Caffeine?!?  We'll see.

So the plan Stan?

Bye caffeine (or back to it's low, low level)
Whole30 (eat well, feel well)
Vitamins (on order)
Fish Oil (good luck to me on this one! also on order)
Sleep and exercise are already (and always) on my list.

I feel success lurking just behind all these good ideas.

I'm kicking butt through my "hard" 2 weeks.  One week down.  Call finished (in 3 hours from now).  Three long days this week, but sandwiched with two fun days.  Tuesday = Mart.  Thursday = Hair.

My goal through these 2 weeks was to feel better.  Cold fading (already feel 10x better), working on the fatigue thing.  Incantations going strong.  Last night I got stuck in some negative thinking and all of a sudden .... "I'm happy energy" in my head.  Lordy incantations are powerful for me.

So as soon as my coffee does it's bathroom job (remember taper not cold-turkey!!lol) (and I'm overdo for some success in that department) off to outside run and "I AM HAPPY ENERGY" land.

I choose to make this hard day a HAPPY day.