Volunteer Day

One way or another -- this too shall pass.  I don't mind the volunteer bit (that's why I agreed to it).  It's the set up and clean up that's at issue.  Hubby and I both have bad backs and the stuff is HEAVY.

No problem -- pull the van right up to the tent for unloading and loading and we have volunteers to help.  Guess what?  Nope and nope.  There's another festival in the area so unloading is not on location AND 3 hours earlier than normal.  None of the set-up volunteers are coming that early.  We have no one who signed up for clean up.  Hubby and me and our wonky backs.  Between the heavy lifting is 10 hours of standing.  Taking bets on whether we can be upright tomorrow.

It was my ONLY concern and my ONLY parameter -- totally out the window.  That's why this is a NEVER AGAIN moment.  No good deed ...

I hate being cynical but, let's face it, not surprised.  I think it's more of a not-getting-fooled-again feeling.  Glad to help, glad to NOT be in charge -- it's never "just" an easy favor.  Healthy boundaries -- this one snuck in before I decided to draw my line in the sand.

(P.S. The lady who asked this favor had no idea this would happen.  She's been apologetic and concerned.)

Anyway ... eyes are finished.  Great experience.  It's a fancy, girly office and where a work buddy is now working.  I caught up with her and got 10 years younger.  My eyes are swollen this morning, but looked great after she did it -- takes about a week for the swelling to go down.  Looks like I've been crying.  Smoothed out the uneven parts so the darker circles are faded.  I have extra problems in this area.  No one noticed last time (even though they knew I had it done) but I noticed.  It doesn't change my look, just corrects for problem area that is aging faster than it should.  My eyes are tender, but it's not painful.

I WAS able to turn around my mood yesterday.  Brooke Castillo's podcast -- oddly, since I wasn't a fan of Part 1 last week and reading a new personal growth book, The Universe Has Your Back (Gabrielle Bernstein).  Another book that references A Course In Miracles.  I'm seeing her speak in November so I want to read a couple of her books before then.

Apparently (according to EVERYTHING and EVERYONE - lol), this is all ONE BIG lesson that I can't seem to learn.  Over and over and over -- until I learn it.  Oh, and it's EXACTLY what I've asked to learn.  There you have it.  My current situation in a nut shell.  Dang.

On that note, time to head out for a run.  Might be my last morning standing for awhile ... just kidding, not ACTUALLY putting that out in the universe :)  Later gators.