More Acceptance

My year of good-to-feel-good is officially postponed.

Kidding, but not kidding.

Still working on the INNER good.  Finding the good.  Being the good.  Etc.

What's postponed in the year of FUN-good.  What keeps me worried is wondering IF any of the planned fun can be salvaged for this year.  The reality is probably NOT.  Trips, celebrations, weddings.  Probably NOT happening.

Accepting this new (hopefully, relatively brief) reality is CALMING.  Now I can concentrate on enjoying WHAT IS.  Striping down to some basics in life isn't necessarily a bad thing.  A cleaner perspective, learning to conserve, remembering what matters, enjoying SIMPLE, being in community, caring about your neighbor ... not a bad recalibration.

That said, still getting wedding stuff ready for whenever the wedding happens.  Shoe #3 came and it's going back this week.  My little piggy toe is not contained.  I'll do a shoe post later this week since (again!!) I forgot to take pictures.

My backup gray dress came too.  I'll gather all this stuff together and report back - hah.  The dress is okay, but I don't think it'll fit yet.

Speaking of that ... did pretty crappy on the eating last week and I didn't (don't) care one little bit.  I was in a heavy place and that was the best I had to offer.  Now I'm surfacing back to my old self and back to healthy eating (shocking yo-yo ... I see the eye rolls, I'm rolling too).  During this isolation period and bare-shelved world, conserving food is NECESSARY.  Portion control, etc.  Can't run out and grab a cartful of junk food (or any food for that matter).  Not a bad thing for me.

I'm feeling confident in The Green Dress fitting by my birthday.

I started experiment #4 in E2 (Squared).  48 hours to ask the universe for something VERY specific. This time, you MUST believe it fully.  When I sat down to think of what goodie I wanted ... what popped in my head was MY DOG.  It starts today.  Yesterday I was in a place of total confidence.  Today, I'm wavering so that's not cool.  Got to get into a better headspace.

My specifics ... must be able to pick up the dog (S-M sized), either boy or girl, must get along with Duke, must be a cuddle-bug, must be a dog in NEED.  I'm ready!!  I don't have to have the dog by Monday, just know what dog is coming by Monday night.  This is big and I wonder if it's too big --- eeeeek ... if I say this, it can't happen.  It can be a dog that I find on my porch -- doesn't have to come from Releash.

I picked out a bunch of names last night.  Prepare your hearts -- they are AWESOME!  I sucked at naming dogs and I'm finally getting better.  Mimi was my favorite name, but, alas, I can't reuse her name.  (BTW, say a little prayer that she finds her home soon ... love this girl.)

Girl names:
Cookie
Penny
Josie (Jo)
Primrose (Prim)
Starbucks (Star)

Boy names:
Bologna (Bo)
Hanx (how Tom Hanks signs on Instagram)
Jelly Bean (Bean)
Tater Tot (Tate)

I need to see my dog first, but naming is so much fun!!  My favorite name keeps changing -- I love them all so much.  My sweet Parker was the most amazing dog, but we failed him on the name.  Never worked well.  I've found my naming rhythm -- now I need a dog to name.

Stay well.  We've got this.  Later gators.