Experiments

Lordy, this is crazy.  Remember my question (E2 experiment) ... is the wedding happening on May 30, 2020?  I didn't think an answer could happen within the 48 hours.  Kids were set on waiting until early May to decide.  How could I know the answer in 2 days?

The kids called yesterday and told us they're changing the date.  Answer received.  Wow.  Seriously, wow.

The next experiment involves growing seeds -- I don't have any and not the time to shop for them.  This is on hold.  The next, next experiment involves the scale and weighing yourself -- nope, not for me.  The premise is interesting though -- bless your food before you eat it.  Food has vibration, energy ... it can pick up on your vibration.  Sending positive energy and thanks to your food will help you release extra weight (must be sincere in the blessing -- no shadow doubt thoughts behind it).  Easy enough to try -- I'm not doing the scale part though.

I woke up in the night with my mind spinning -- I'm writing this at 3am ... so I read the next experiment.  We are all connected.  Send a telepathic message to someone you've met and ask for some acknowledgement of them receiving it.  I went for the GUSTO on this.  Jen Hatmaker.  Yep.  I've met her, hugged her, seen her speak 3 times.  I entered a contest for her book release party -- didn't win.  My message is to send me some acknowledgement by choosing me to win some give-away (she does give-aways regularly).  48 hours ... go.  I'm ready ...

Sizing up for the hug ...

Hug!!

Thanks, Jen!

A little more on the wedding date change.  Only dates available were a couple of Sundays in August. They got their second choice -- August 23, 2020.  It has it's challenges, but no worries.  They will be married.  It will be wonderful.  It doesn't matter who can come still or the logistics of a Sunday in AUGUST in Atlanta (!!) -- this is their best option with what has happened.  Making a decision and moving forward is key.  Still, so dang proud of them!

Mimi is going out on trial on Friday.  Wish her luck.  I hope this adopter is willing to give her time -- that's all she needs.  She is precious.  She happy peed when she saw me -- made me want to cry.  I love her so much.  She deserves a family -- I wish it was us.  I need to remind myself that I am part of her story, just not the ending.

Okay, time to try and sleep a little more ...

... slept and woken rudely (hah) by my alarm.  I'm keeping a consistent schedule and not sleeping later.  That's the kiss of death for my day when I sleep in on a regular basis.  I've been waking up with some mild hot flashes, but last night I couldn't fall back to sleep -- my mind was spinning on everything.  Not EXACTLY worry, but close.  I had to get my head back in the game by playing the "what if" game to conclusion.

What if my friends can't come to the new wedding date?
Doesn't change much since I won't be able to spend much time with them anyway.
I know they WANTED to come -- everyone had already responded yes to the May date.

What if my family can't come?  I know this date presents a problem for a few close members.
It will still be a great time and what's important is for the kids.  It's not my day.

What if it's super hot?
Could be hot on 5-30 too.  It's a crap shoot in Atlanta summers.  AC baby.  All. The. Way.

Lots of little things percolating in my mind since we only found out about the change last night.  I've worked out my head now and back to happy and excited.

Yesterday was a big EMOTION day and I did a good job feeling it.  Mimi (heartbreak).  Son's company did layoffs (concern, sad for many people).  Wedding change (disappointed for kids).  Canceled updo hair appointments (concern for my hairdresser -- she owns a gym and hair salon).  I felt the emotions, allowed them.

It's extremely hard to balance information and over-stimulation -- social media, news, conversations.  My light-hearted Instagram stuff is posting and reposting all the same "warnings" and heartbreaks.  Too much heavy energy to hold.  Today, I'm working on balancing HELPING with protecting my energy.  Best way to protect my energy is do MY things -- workout, journals, meditation.  I'll limit my social media scrolling and focus on finding some FUN today.  It's movie "night" so that's already a bonus.

Hope everyone has the best day -- how ever it looks.  I know there are heavy days, better days and lots of rollercoaster emotions.  Stay well.  Do the things.  Show up the best you can in the moment.  Later gators. XO