Coaching, Evaluating and WORTH IT

I've mentioned before, this Whole30 is bringing to light more than just my-pants-don't-fit.  I noticed I was eating-drinking daily frustrations away.  Saying 'no' with no results left me frustrated and upset.  Not having an option to SNACK away my feelings brought them front and center.

I'm steadily working on getting a balance of compromise that also honors what I need.

Another "side-effect" from Whole30 (at least the last 2) is that I'm evaluating lots of WORTH IT moments - not just food related.  Food Freedom Forever philosophy on what is worth it or not spills over into my daily life.  (In a good way!!!)  I read it during my last Whole30 and that's why it's become part of my Whole30 protocol for these last 2 rounds.  At first, it's all about food.  Adjusting, adapting, working the program ... but as it becomes routine, the focus turns outside of food.

Case in point:
I belonged to a MyFitnessPal private group from my lifting class.  I logged in everyday and MFP counts and notes milestones of days logged (triggering almost an OCD of making sure I don't break that streak).  Every time I logged in, I thought two thoughts.  (1) I miss this group.  (2) I'm disappointed with my instructor.  She left with reasons of health, but it turns out it was just a desire for another gym.  That's not a bad thing, but the mis-truth doesn't sit well with me. EVERY DAY I felt a little sad and a little annoyed by logging into MFP.  Yet I did it anyway.  Religiously.

This week I deleted the MFP app.  And it feels good.  I'm grateful for the learning and fun and memories, but it is long overdue to close this chapter.  If it opens again with any of these lovely ladies or this instructor - that's welcomed, but it will be something NEW and FORWARD.  Not longing for something from the past.  And it will be with eyes opened a little further.

Thanks Whole30 for triggering this evaluation - it wasn't WORTH IT.  I didn't even notice.

I also did another clean-up on Facebook.  ANY post about shit that is mean, uncaring and downright disgusting - instant UNFOLLOW.  I don't need this in my life and I don't need closed minded asses with closed minded thoughts polluting my day.  People are people and it disgusts me the hate for OTHERS.  I wouldn't unfriend a select group of people in the past because it seemed rude and they might notice - and we had a lot of history together.  I don't care anymore and I don't care who it is either.  Good-bye.  It feels right and it feels good.

Another evaluation this week is that I'm extending my Whole 30 for at least 10 more days (total 40 days).  I'm not where I want to be (pictures - ugh) and I don't feel like I have my STUFF worked out enough that I trust myself.  I need to do some more housecleaning and self-reflection before I'm ready to tackle food freedom.  This weekend's lake trip is also postponed (that's two in a row - funny) so I can easily extend.  Thanks Universe for this helping hand!!

Finally, I'm really excited about the program in August.  I like the idea of a slow-roll of good habits and trying something new.  I'll be finished with my Whole30 coaching and have a month "on my own" before the next program.  This will be a good opportunity to see what I do and don't do with that freedom - where the trouble spots hide.

I said no more Whole30s needed - I learned everything I needed to learn.  I guess I was wrong.  Working on that growth mindset, Whole30-style.