I'm not the only one.

I just read one of my regular-read blogs and the blogger described my last week of gluttony perfectly in terms of her last week of gluttony.  I'm not the only one and I'm not alone.  It's somehow comforting.

Yesterday was good.  I ate compliant (boy that was hard); I ate too much fruit (oh boy - that was a gassy horror); I kept my promise (about time).

It feels good.  The social months from crazy-land are over.  I have the girlfriend weekend this week, but I need to treat it like a normal hiccup (not an all out crazy pig-a-thon).  I was really good about that balance along those 4 months ... right until the last couple of weeks when it felt more like old on-off behavior.  It was that little change in INTENTION ... the little shift in FOCUS.

My intention changed from acting healthy, being healthy to how-much-can-I-get-away-with.  My focus changed from being HAPPY, finding HAPPY to what-am-I-going-to-pig-out-on.  And, yep, my pants still fit, but the rest of me is noticeably less healthy-like.

So I'm declaring my INTENTION for this weekend.  Enjoy some great girlfriend time reminiscing about our high school days, catching up on the last 20 plus years, laughing, chilling, being HAPPY.  Food and wine will be there, but it's not the top of any list and should hold no focus.  The FOCUS is FRIENDSHIP and FUN.

Plus, honestly, my poor stomach needs a break.  Eating poorly shows me how much my stomach needs eating healthy.  I don't want to ruin the weekend with stomach misery.

I still give myself high marks for how I handled the crazy-train these last 4 months.  Looking back, it could have been catastrophic to my new normal.  A couple of weeks of feeling out of control is not too bad.  The good news is getting back in control should be a piece of cake.  This is the first January I haven't been miserably too-big-for-my-pants and trying to figure out which diet is the least horrible. Good job ME.

I've said it many times ... the important part is getting right back to it.  That's where I am now.  I might need to fight a bit harder since I moved away from it (for a little bit), but it is WORTH-IT.  Always and forever.