Eye-Day Fri-Day

I couldn't resist a rhyme.  I'm super excited and nervous all at once.  Stay tuned ... if it happens I'll fill you in (pun alert) and have some pictures.  I need to take a close up BEFORE picture too.

I took off the SNS yesterday and I like my new color.  A pinky light tan - neutral with a little twist.  I tried to take a picture but it looks different on camera.  My nails seem to be "healthy" enough, but I still want a break before I go into the holidays.

I chose my new books yesterday.  Re-read of The Seat of the Soul (Gary Zukov) and The Girl with Seven Names (Hyeonseo Lee).  I never really "got" Seat of the Soul" the first time.  I think it will make more sense now and I listened to a podcast about it too.  A podcast helped with Byron Katie's book.  The Girl with Seven Names was recommended by my Virginia bookclub as one of the best books they read this year.  It's a true story written by a young lady who escaped North Korea.  So far - fascinating and it reads really quickly.

I'm feeling a little overwhelmed again this morning.  I need to "explore" what's going on.  I'm feeling about 75% better, but still fighting low energy.  I'm not getting in my self-care stuff as much as I want and now it's been about a week (plus) of spotty "work."  The habits are new and not well established and I'm getting worried that they are falling off my radar.

Yesterday, hubby took an earlier flight and I lost my afternoon time.  Today, everyone is home early.  The weekend followed by hubby working from home on Monday sets me up for continued lack-luster healthy habits.  I need to MAKE the time and just do it (thanks Nike).

There's also the same reoccurring issue coming up at home.  I feel better, so now I need to spend all my energy back to doing for the family - cook, grocery shop, walk dogs, etc.  AND, everyone wants ATTENTION.  Don't relax, pay attention to me.  No one cares that I might need some time to get caught up or I might still need a reduced schedule of DOING or I might want downtime.  It's as though my time is up on being sick.

I know this comes up a lot.  I know I need to figure it out.  It's harder when I don't have a lot of spare energy or mental stamina to stand up for myself and to not let this get to me.  Instead of working it out, I want to give a big middle finger and be angry.  I've got some learning to do on this.

Sorry to end on a bitchy note, but I noticed the time.  I need to get moving for my appointment.  Fingers crossed ... later gators.