WTF Concussion!!?!?

Yesterday turned out to be a stressful day.

Came out of nowhere.  Not really a horrible event but I sure made it that in my mind.  Is this part of the concussion syndrome??  Overreaction to stress.  I don't know.  I was emotional (crying which I don't often do), anxious (for no reason) and angry (which I couldn't let go). I had a physical weight on my chest from anxiety that wouldn't relieve itself, even after the stressor passed.  That's never happened.

Today I am drained.  Emotionally, physically.  It's all strange.  I'm fighting feeling sad and overwhelmed.  FOR NO REASON!!!!  I don't get it.  I have my oddities, but this is not one of them.

I'm seeing a chiropractor, acupuncturist today.  He helped with my back injury (golf!) about a year ago.  I'll see what he says.

I feel like I'm slowly going crazy (a different crazy from my normal crazy - lol).  Brain stuff is hard to figure out.

I may return to work tomorrow.

If the drive to doctor's today goes well (about an hour highway).
If HR lets me return without clearance (my stress from yesterday - no return to work clearance - must see neurologist first - stupid!!)
If my boss agrees with HR.

I'm ready to go back AND I'm not ready to go back.  I think I'm nervous I won't be able to do it.  But I miss it and I'm bored.  I had an out to quit yesterday, but I didn't take it.  I don't want to leave yet and I don't want to leave under these circumstances.

As much as I don't want to workout today, I'm going to give it a go.  That helps boost my mood (always - usually - hopefully).

I'm gaining an appreciation for people who suffer from mental difficulties (anxiety, stress, depression).  I sometimes experience these feelings, but they are situational and quick to resolve.  I don't live there and I don't go there for no reason.  But this month I have ... over and over.  Just when I think I've behaved out of it ... wham ... I go there again.  I honestly want to crawl in bed today and cry.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY BRAIN!!??!?!  This concussion is winning and that pisses me off.

Okay - enough for now.  Later gators.