Hello cyber world.

I'm going to LOVE the new TR program.  Listened to most of disc 1 yesterday and already want to hear it again.  Packed full of great information.  I listened while partially distracted (I do know better), but I was so excited to start.

So today is hopefully a second listen followed by next disc.

Full house as expected with today's addition of my hubby's best friend (hello golf weekend).  Timing is a bit of a bummer, but he deserves a fun weekend.

Making pulled chicken for "easy" bbq sandwiches today.  And that's about it on the required work list.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about changes in my career.  I love my job, hate my commute and am tired of a "call" requirement.  I'm also a bit bored of the same thing for almost 5 years.  I want to do something that fits better into the life I want to lead right now.

But change is hard for me.  And I think this has given me a lot of subconscious stress because whenever I actively think about it, I freak out.  Am I doing the right thing?  Am I doing it for the right reasons?  Am I falling into the "grass is greener" trap?  Will I regret the change?  So never mind - and I push the thought back and continue on.

Compounding my indecisiveness is this feeling that life can be short, things can happen.  This last year was big on that message.  I lost 2 friends unexpectedly and it's really played with my sense of urgency to ease up a little and ENJOY my life.

This is a really good time in my life.  Financially, physically, emotionally - you name it - it's all good.  So why am I not taking advantage of this "prime-time?"  Why am I still just going through the motions of life?  Planning for future, being responsible, being conservative.

I wonder if that's why I feel in a funk right now ... why while I'm having a good life on paper, the reality doesn't feel as good as it should.

The "right" decision is becoming more clear.  The details are what need some work.  Bring on TR!!