More TV

Well, yesterday was another TV watching day set around some cooking.  Dang, this back is a problem.  Good news -- feels better this morning.  Better, as I can actually do something today.

What did I watch?  Oh, some good ones.

Dirty John.  One season only.  Based on a true story.  It was interesting.  I'd say enjoyable, but since it's got some truth to it, that seems unkind to enjoy watching a family's living hell.  I started it the other day and finished it up yesterday.

You (Season Two).  I'd been holding off because my gal pals didn't love the new season.  What?!?  It's AWESOME so far.  Clever, clever, clever.  Reminds me of Dexter and they even had a character make that comment (guess they were aware of the similarities of a likable killer).  I have about half the season left and you bet I'm watching more tonight.  (I'm sure my back will be ready for some rest by then.)

Reading Wanderers .... still.  Now and forever.  50% read.  400 MORE pages left.  It's good-ish.  I like the story, but wish they'd get on with it.  I have a feeling I'll say that it was a good read, but could've been half the length.

I have a list waiting behind this book, but if I start something else, I'll never go back to this story.  BTW, I was looking up movie times and noticed the book I've owned FOREVER (and moved to my "read" list) is now a movie.  Weird mojo in selecting that off my shelf.  Not sure if I'll read the book or see the movie.  Just Mercy.

I also worked on getting my dress for my son's wedding in May.  Found 2 places that specialize in mother's dresses and don't need appointments.  Other places don't seem to want the business of just ONE dress -- they want the bride, bridesmaids, etc. too before they will give you an appointment.  I'll go this month.  Once I have a few "good" days under my belt, I'll make the appointment.  Right now, I look like CRAP.  I'm one of those people who cries for 5 minutes and looks strange the rest of the day.  Hair appointment on Tuesday -- so after that.  I think the first time I'll go myself -- get girlfriends involved later if I need help.

I'm still sad.  Nowhere near where I was though and it's getting better each day.  Good memories outshining the sadness.  I knew I'd miss my old sweet boy and I knew I'd be sad, but I didn't expect it to hit this hard.  As I said yesterday, it's time to start moving out of hibernation.  Pulling myself out of the sad is not as easy as I thought, but you got to fake it til you make it.  His memory is EVERYWHERE and keeps hitting me in unexpected ways.

It's like I'm in a hole and don't want to get out.  I'm sad, but this is more of a mood that has taken hold.  I don't want to use the BIG word (depression) because this isn't that -- more of a temporary, little bump of depression.  Nothing feels fun.  Nothing feels inspiring to do.  Not dress shopping.  Not going out.  Not cooking.  I want to be in bed all day.  Back pain isn't helping matters.

Today ends the hibernation and, hopefully, ends this mood.  Sad will stay on-and-off, but this overwhelming mood must go.

Off to the treadmill for some sort of workout.  Fingers crossed.  Later gators.