Oh the excitement! Three more shifts! I (mostly) can't wait. But based on my dreams, my ego is still taking a hit at being an "off" nurse right now (or "off" in 3 shifts). That said, I slept so well last night (even with crazy dreams) - woke up minutes before my alarm - perfect.
I think what I'm most nervous about not working is being bored. Bored = boredom eating = pants don't fit. Last night I went to bed really early since I'm working today. Today I will go to be early because I've gotten up so early. No eating problems either night. I get this reprieve at least 4 nights a week. Soon I can stay up later (and should stay up later - who goes to bed at 7pm just because?!?!). Nights are hard.
Time to stay focused. Except all of a sudden I have these cravings ... and in a couple of weeks will host a happy-hour party ... let the okay-to-drink start again. I worry it's a slippery slope.
My goal is very specific - STOP YO-YOing!! I know I can always "get back" to here, but it's usually not until I go through a weight gain, mental boxing, etc. Not good mentally, not good physically.
I know the choice is mine. I want to be strong enough, smart enough, focused enough to do this - I know I CAN, but I don't know I WILL?? Sounds crazy - like I'm two people - but sometime I think there is a little crazy brain that takes over!
Food for thought. Now off for a run.
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