Lots of fun planned - HAPPY weekend ahead (with perfect weather to boot). I'm packed (the worst part of any trip for me) and ready to go ... after cleaning ladies, tabata, Starbucks, dog walk lol. We're leaving around 11:30. It's only a 4 hour drive.
Tonight is just dinner and walking the town (adorable town!). Tomorrow is a waterfall hike, Biltmore with wine tasting and a yummy dinner. Sunday is a drive to JMU to see our eldest and his girlfriend. We're doing a hard cider tour and dinner. Monday is the dreaded 10 hour drive home ... yuck. But I have a good book (I started a new one for the trip - couldn't help myself) and a car that massages my back. There are worse days.
Last night I slept like a baby. My body was exhausted. This is the second week in a row I was super tired after lifting. I wonder if the exhaustion was from lifting. I'm thrilled if it is ... that means it's changing something (and is a better workout than I give it credit).
I also had an unexpected stomach distress last night. Landed me in the bathroom many times. It's lingering a bit this morning. I packed lots of veggies and food for lunch and snack - now I'm a bit gun shy to eat it. Tad case of food poisoning?? (I ate some of everything for dinner last night.)
This is a quickie today. Off to get everything set for the day. See you all Tuesday. Later gators.
Friday, September 30, 2016
Thursday, September 29, 2016
Late Night
Thanks to a group text - ugh. I hate group text messages. I can't "leave" a group (since my phone is old) and I keep my volume on when my husband is out of town. Passive-aggressive me wants to respond to the text when I wake up ... good morning ladies ... but I chose "nice" over "asshole" lol.
The chocolate and wine night got changed to next week and is later in the evening. I'm going to pass ... even with my say YES motto. I don't want to be up late drinking wine and eating chocolate. If there were other foods, other reasons, etc - that's a different story. I can't go and just stand there - I'd have to eat and drink. The same group of ladies is getting together the following week for our monthly gathering. I said YES to that night and am looking forward to it. And this night immediately follows our out-of-town trip. Timing is bad.
The upside to being awakened (every 10 min) is I gave up and stayed up to finish the book. It was good. I'll read the W30 book when I get home and then onto War and Peace. I'm curious if I can really comprehend and enjoy it.
Today is a chill kind of day. Weightlifting and packing and prepping to be out of town (dog, etc). Hubby is returning early from a trip, so I'll have him around this afternoon.
I'm super excited for the trip, but am a little apprehensive too. That all-or-nothing is acting up! I will have 3 1/2 days of eating out. I can handle the "treats" aspect, but I will miss my healthy foods. A side of veggies is not enough. Breakfast will be tough. I don't want to come home and battle feeling crappy. I just am getting back to normal with my energy and stamina. I'm not ready to battle it again. It's the length of the trip that's hard - 3 1/2 days is a long time. When we go on vacation for a week, we usually have a refrigerator, etc. so just a portion of the day is eating out. This is a long time for no alternatives. I need to remember my HAPPY.
I plan to write tomorrow morning (if time allows) but then radio silence until Tuesday. My routines are all messed up lol. This CERTAINTY girl is going full-blown VARIETY.
Off to walk my dog on this cool morning ... hope the crisp air stays.
The chocolate and wine night got changed to next week and is later in the evening. I'm going to pass ... even with my say YES motto. I don't want to be up late drinking wine and eating chocolate. If there were other foods, other reasons, etc - that's a different story. I can't go and just stand there - I'd have to eat and drink. The same group of ladies is getting together the following week for our monthly gathering. I said YES to that night and am looking forward to it. And this night immediately follows our out-of-town trip. Timing is bad.
The upside to being awakened (every 10 min) is I gave up and stayed up to finish the book. It was good. I'll read the W30 book when I get home and then onto War and Peace. I'm curious if I can really comprehend and enjoy it.
Today is a chill kind of day. Weightlifting and packing and prepping to be out of town (dog, etc). Hubby is returning early from a trip, so I'll have him around this afternoon.
I'm super excited for the trip, but am a little apprehensive too. That all-or-nothing is acting up! I will have 3 1/2 days of eating out. I can handle the "treats" aspect, but I will miss my healthy foods. A side of veggies is not enough. Breakfast will be tough. I don't want to come home and battle feeling crappy. I just am getting back to normal with my energy and stamina. I'm not ready to battle it again. It's the length of the trip that's hard - 3 1/2 days is a long time. When we go on vacation for a week, we usually have a refrigerator, etc. so just a portion of the day is eating out. This is a long time for no alternatives. I need to remember my HAPPY.
I plan to write tomorrow morning (if time allows) but then radio silence until Tuesday. My routines are all messed up lol. This CERTAINTY girl is going full-blown VARIETY.
Off to walk my dog on this cool morning ... hope the crisp air stays.
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
Post # 3 ... why not?!?!
Tucked into my bed ... computer on lap ... book waiting by my side ... dog already asleep. It's a good night.
Tomorrow (FINALLY) looks to be a cool weather day. The first "cool" front this week was a bust - still hot and humid. Weatherman assured us today that this front would actually happen. Hmmmm... fool me once ...
My unexpected HAPPY today came from Starbucks (as it often does lol). They ran out of venti cups, so my americano came in a trenta size. Oh, the coffee pleasure!
Tomorrow is weightlifting day. Can't wait. I plan to use some heavier weights and see where that gets me. (I hope the baby duck comes too!)
I changed my hair appointment to a new stylist to keep my schedule on track for pictures and holidays. It means I have to wait an extra 10 days, but better than going too early. And I can keep my feathers in ... I hope they stay put. I love them!
I made my new recipe today. Shrimp scampi and citrus riced cauliflower. Easy, good. Maybe needed some other flavor punch, but overall I liked it. Not delicious enough to make for company though. On to the next find next week.
Baking went well. Somedays the baking gods love me. Today was one of those days. Froze most of it to take on our road trip (left some out for hubby tomorrow). Only a brief "wish" for a lick of batter. It's been enough lately to just enjoy the smell of baked goods without needing to eat them (and then feel crappy). Won't this be awesome if it lasts?!? I enjoy the smell (savor it - deep breaths in) and then picture how crappy it would feel to eat it. Strange, but it's working.
I shopped a little today (told you I had the bug). I needed black ankle boots (ended up with 2 pair). I'm actually not a big shoe person (hubby would disagree, but he's a guy and has no clue what most women buy). I go for basic and comfortable - ALWAYS - kind of boring. But nothing gets me grumpy like a tight pair of pants or uncomfortable shoes. I think it's the nurse in me. Both pairs are great and I'll keep them forever. I also got a house gift for the friends we are staying with later in the month. Shopping success.
Time to hit my book. I'm a little over halfway - enjoying it a lot more now. It's a dark subject before bed though. I really want to finish it since the W30 book will be waiting for me when we get home. I want to start it right away. Sometimes if I "leave" a book too long, I lose interest ... so must make myself finish this one before I start another.
Nite-nite.
Tomorrow (FINALLY) looks to be a cool weather day. The first "cool" front this week was a bust - still hot and humid. Weatherman assured us today that this front would actually happen. Hmmmm... fool me once ...
My unexpected HAPPY today came from Starbucks (as it often does lol). They ran out of venti cups, so my americano came in a trenta size. Oh, the coffee pleasure!
Tomorrow is weightlifting day. Can't wait. I plan to use some heavier weights and see where that gets me. (I hope the baby duck comes too!)
I changed my hair appointment to a new stylist to keep my schedule on track for pictures and holidays. It means I have to wait an extra 10 days, but better than going too early. And I can keep my feathers in ... I hope they stay put. I love them!
I made my new recipe today. Shrimp scampi and citrus riced cauliflower. Easy, good. Maybe needed some other flavor punch, but overall I liked it. Not delicious enough to make for company though. On to the next find next week.
Baking went well. Somedays the baking gods love me. Today was one of those days. Froze most of it to take on our road trip (left some out for hubby tomorrow). Only a brief "wish" for a lick of batter. It's been enough lately to just enjoy the smell of baked goods without needing to eat them (and then feel crappy). Won't this be awesome if it lasts?!? I enjoy the smell (savor it - deep breaths in) and then picture how crappy it would feel to eat it. Strange, but it's working.
I shopped a little today (told you I had the bug). I needed black ankle boots (ended up with 2 pair). I'm actually not a big shoe person (hubby would disagree, but he's a guy and has no clue what most women buy). I go for basic and comfortable - ALWAYS - kind of boring. But nothing gets me grumpy like a tight pair of pants or uncomfortable shoes. I think it's the nurse in me. Both pairs are great and I'll keep them forever. I also got a house gift for the friends we are staying with later in the month. Shopping success.
Time to hit my book. I'm a little over halfway - enjoying it a lot more now. It's a dark subject before bed though. I really want to finish it since the W30 book will be waiting for me when we get home. I want to start it right away. Sometimes if I "leave" a book too long, I lose interest ... so must make myself finish this one before I start another.
Nite-nite.
Thought for (EVERY) Today
More isn't better.
Better is better.
Melissa Hartwig W30
A safety net is NOT a trampoline.
Melissa Hartwig W30
Roosters and a Duck.
There was a 2 day old baby duck at tabata yesterday. Yep - TWO DAYS OLD (our instructor lives on a farm). She was rescued (the duck, not my instructor lol). The most adorable little thing you have ever seen. Running, jumping, tumbling, learning, quacking. Nature is beautiful. If playing with a baby duck doesn't make you HAPPY, nothing will. Baby duck joy - it's a real thing!
Oh - and I have a rooster feathers in my hair. I'm THAT cool!! My aunt plugged it in yesterday after lunch. They survived the night and look perfect. They blend into my hair - it's subtle (like me) but just a touch of whimsy (like me too lol). I feel like I have a super cool little secret (like when you have "fun" panties on under your sweats). Finally a Happiness Project success story!!
She gave me some pink hair chalk for October. It's a one day wear thing (I can do as much as I want though) and it will give me my pink hair fix.
I bought a bottle of kombucha to try. It's on MHP List too. I want to try both the Kona coffee and kombucha next week.
Today is an active rest day. I'm taking a light walk on the treadmill and zoning out to some good music. My sweet boy is heading to the groomers, so no walk this morning (getting beautiful takes a lot of energy for an old guy).
Then - baking. Lots of baking. I'll be careful - a perfect storm could be brewing. Afternoon (aka witching hours), home alone (hubby out of town) and a workout rest day. Knowing and planning help a lot. I have both knowledge and a plan. Yea ME!
I chose a salad yesterday. It was an easy choice. I had to answer to the choice a couple of times (inquiring minds wanted to know why no pizza), but I held strong, made no big deal out of it and moved on. The salad was good (I tried a new one) and I didn't regret my decision AT ALL. A win.
Slept so well last night. No snoring husband does wonders for a good night's sleep.
Making it a HAPPY day and finding my treadmill ZEN.
Oh - and I have a rooster feathers in my hair. I'm THAT cool!! My aunt plugged it in yesterday after lunch. They survived the night and look perfect. They blend into my hair - it's subtle (like me) but just a touch of whimsy (like me too lol). I feel like I have a super cool little secret (like when you have "fun" panties on under your sweats). Finally a Happiness Project success story!!
She gave me some pink hair chalk for October. It's a one day wear thing (I can do as much as I want though) and it will give me my pink hair fix.
I bought a bottle of kombucha to try. It's on MHP List too. I want to try both the Kona coffee and kombucha next week.
Today is an active rest day. I'm taking a light walk on the treadmill and zoning out to some good music. My sweet boy is heading to the groomers, so no walk this morning (getting beautiful takes a lot of energy for an old guy).
Then - baking. Lots of baking. I'll be careful - a perfect storm could be brewing. Afternoon (aka witching hours), home alone (hubby out of town) and a workout rest day. Knowing and planning help a lot. I have both knowledge and a plan. Yea ME!
I chose a salad yesterday. It was an easy choice. I had to answer to the choice a couple of times (inquiring minds wanted to know why no pizza), but I held strong, made no big deal out of it and moved on. The salad was good (I tried a new one) and I didn't regret my decision AT ALL. A win.
Slept so well last night. No snoring husband does wonders for a good night's sleep.
Making it a HAPPY day and finding my treadmill ZEN.
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
I choose HAPPY.
Hubby snored all night. Woke up super early. Extra hungry (already ate 2 eggs). That's me in a nutshell this morning lol.
Sitting with my three drinks ... one of which is the amazing peach tea.
Tabata Tuesday. Yea. It's the end of the month so these last couple of workouts are hard. I finish feeling pumped and strong. She "starts over" at the beginning of the month - those workouts are usually too easy - it builds as the month goes on.
Going to a pizza place for lunch today. Might get a slice, might get a salad - game day decision. One piece of pizza won't "hurt" me, but I want to eat W30 this week. I'll have a few treats over the weekend and that's my "special" for the week. And I'm baking for a couple of afternoons - I don't want to be on the carb train when I start making goodies - dangerous territory.
After lunch, I'm getting my feather put in - exciting.
BUT ...
Yesterday, I got a call from my hair salon. My hair dresser is leaving - UGH!! She can take me 2 weeks early to get one more appointment. She's going to manage a store - not sure if she'll still do hair. The conversation was a bit confusing.
Now the feather will be in for my hair appointment. Crap. And my hair schedule is "off" for my family pictures. Crap again. Trying to find someone AND an appointment the week before Thanksgiving will be tight. My new appointment is Tuesday so I'll find out some details. I might call back and ask for some more information. If I'm going to use someone new, maybe I can just hold the appointment and go with the new person later in the month. I don't need my hair done yet and I hate to spend the money.
Changing hair people is hard lol!! Cue the vanity panic.
And it's screwing with two of My Happiness Project things. But even with the "problems" and the flops, the list is still fun and making my HAPPY. That's the point. The details are secondary.
So today I choose HAPPY.
Sitting with my three drinks ... one of which is the amazing peach tea.
Tabata Tuesday. Yea. It's the end of the month so these last couple of workouts are hard. I finish feeling pumped and strong. She "starts over" at the beginning of the month - those workouts are usually too easy - it builds as the month goes on.
Going to a pizza place for lunch today. Might get a slice, might get a salad - game day decision. One piece of pizza won't "hurt" me, but I want to eat W30 this week. I'll have a few treats over the weekend and that's my "special" for the week. And I'm baking for a couple of afternoons - I don't want to be on the carb train when I start making goodies - dangerous territory.
After lunch, I'm getting my feather put in - exciting.
BUT ...
Yesterday, I got a call from my hair salon. My hair dresser is leaving - UGH!! She can take me 2 weeks early to get one more appointment. She's going to manage a store - not sure if she'll still do hair. The conversation was a bit confusing.
Now the feather will be in for my hair appointment. Crap. And my hair schedule is "off" for my family pictures. Crap again. Trying to find someone AND an appointment the week before Thanksgiving will be tight. My new appointment is Tuesday so I'll find out some details. I might call back and ask for some more information. If I'm going to use someone new, maybe I can just hold the appointment and go with the new person later in the month. I don't need my hair done yet and I hate to spend the money.
Changing hair people is hard lol!! Cue the vanity panic.
And it's screwing with two of My Happiness Project things. But even with the "problems" and the flops, the list is still fun and making my HAPPY. That's the point. The details are secondary.
So today I choose HAPPY.
Monday, September 26, 2016
A quickie.
Just a quick "hello" since I'm sitting at my computer thinking away lol.
The gas shortage is no longer an issue - hallelujah. Now if Trader Joe's gets the frozen riced cauliflower back - my world will be right again. Since a tank fill-up is now possible, I ran a bunch of errands before finishing my house chores. Back to spoiled gas gluttony.
And my to-do list is done. Yea me.
Planning the weekend. Workout room 24 hours at hotel - check. Refrigerator - no luck. That means breakfast will be an issue. I refuse to do carbs for breakfast. I'll have to search for some options (time will be tight all 3 mornings) - not great news. I'm actually thinking tuna pouches ... over-the-top?? Maybe. I bought a few protein bars I really like - healthy beef stick basically. Delicious - but watch the breath - knock off your socks (for hours!). Tuna and beef stick - what's better for a couple's trip lol.
I tried on a couple of the staples in my closet. Everything fit. Maybe I'm just being strange about "gaining."
Since I know the scale is a no-no for me right now, I need a way to measure changes - bring on the fat pincher. I was doing some research and came across a blogger (fitness trainer). His message aligns with what I'm learning and he recommended the product. (Plastic thing for $8.) This doesn't carry any previous baggage for me, so I thought I'd use it as a tool. My instructor suggested the same thing. Stay tuned ...
My run was most very excellent. I only do cardio two days and I miss it. It's like an old friend. I listened to the HAPPIEST song for some of the run - it's good.
And a happy little find today. I've been drinking my peach tea again (thinking it was caffeinated so limiting it to one diluted cup). When I bought it today (can only find it at Sprouts), I noticed it's caffeine free. OMG. Bring on the peach tea! And I found a few new ones to try. (I'm happily sipping an iced cup of it now.)
My new recipe is scheduled for Wednesday. Shrimp scampi and citrus cauliflower "rice." W30 approved and looks amazing. I'll be using my new grill pan for those shrimp - perfect. Tonight is the last night of Thai (I'm ready to be done - I should have frozen some of it).
I have a bit of a shopping bug happening. (Scaring my hubby!!) Nothing expensive, but I need to pull it in a bit. Amazon prime is just too easy. I paid bills today and OUCH. I will be doing my pictures upstairs still. Frames are expensive, but I'll wait for a sale at Michaels. And we have our family photos in November. My Happiness Project takes some $$$ lol.
I already know what I want for Christmas (very unusual of me!). Weight lifting bar with a few extra plates and a good spiralizer. I have a hand-held, but it doesn't work well. The counter ones aren't expensive and I know I'll get great use out of it. All set. That will make hubby happy - he stresses over Christmas ideas.
Time to go do some reading. I need to make progress on the WW2 book. It's good, but I keep back-burnering it. War and Peace is waiting AND I have the new W30 book coming next week (yep - amazon prime).
Later gators.
The gas shortage is no longer an issue - hallelujah. Now if Trader Joe's gets the frozen riced cauliflower back - my world will be right again. Since a tank fill-up is now possible, I ran a bunch of errands before finishing my house chores. Back to spoiled gas gluttony.
And my to-do list is done. Yea me.
Planning the weekend. Workout room 24 hours at hotel - check. Refrigerator - no luck. That means breakfast will be an issue. I refuse to do carbs for breakfast. I'll have to search for some options (time will be tight all 3 mornings) - not great news. I'm actually thinking tuna pouches ... over-the-top?? Maybe. I bought a few protein bars I really like - healthy beef stick basically. Delicious - but watch the breath - knock off your socks (for hours!). Tuna and beef stick - what's better for a couple's trip lol.
I tried on a couple of the staples in my closet. Everything fit. Maybe I'm just being strange about "gaining."
Since I know the scale is a no-no for me right now, I need a way to measure changes - bring on the fat pincher. I was doing some research and came across a blogger (fitness trainer). His message aligns with what I'm learning and he recommended the product. (Plastic thing for $8.) This doesn't carry any previous baggage for me, so I thought I'd use it as a tool. My instructor suggested the same thing. Stay tuned ...
My run was most very excellent. I only do cardio two days and I miss it. It's like an old friend. I listened to the HAPPIEST song for some of the run - it's good.
And a happy little find today. I've been drinking my peach tea again (thinking it was caffeinated so limiting it to one diluted cup). When I bought it today (can only find it at Sprouts), I noticed it's caffeine free. OMG. Bring on the peach tea! And I found a few new ones to try. (I'm happily sipping an iced cup of it now.)
My new recipe is scheduled for Wednesday. Shrimp scampi and citrus cauliflower "rice." W30 approved and looks amazing. I'll be using my new grill pan for those shrimp - perfect. Tonight is the last night of Thai (I'm ready to be done - I should have frozen some of it).
I have a bit of a shopping bug happening. (Scaring my hubby!!) Nothing expensive, but I need to pull it in a bit. Amazon prime is just too easy. I paid bills today and OUCH. I will be doing my pictures upstairs still. Frames are expensive, but I'll wait for a sale at Michaels. And we have our family photos in November. My Happiness Project takes some $$$ lol.
I already know what I want for Christmas (very unusual of me!). Weight lifting bar with a few extra plates and a good spiralizer. I have a hand-held, but it doesn't work well. The counter ones aren't expensive and I know I'll get great use out of it. All set. That will make hubby happy - he stresses over Christmas ideas.
Time to go do some reading. I need to make progress on the WW2 book. It's good, but I keep back-burnering it. War and Peace is waiting AND I have the new W30 book coming next week (yep - amazon prime).
Later gators.
Trust is Hard.
Last night I was feeling a bit off about my body. I am working diligently at eating healthy, working out (in a new way), but I felt "bigger" and less fit looking. Is it my imagination?
For almost 3 months, I've eaten better than I have most of my life. I don't have to lose weight, but I don't need to gain weight either (fat that is ... bring on the muscle). I was actually tempted to step on the scale. I'm glad I resisted ... it would've been a disaster.
Usually if I am eating well, I continue to lose weight. Not a lot, but bits and pieces. I am happy with how my clothes fit, but I absolutely have extra fat in areas that should be slowly melting away. Instead, those areas seem to be growing.
Is it my new workouts? When you are stressing your body (i.e. new exercise), things get jumbled and your body can hold weight and holds water for tissue repair. Is it hormones? Honestly, ovulation is getting to be a big old pain. Is it my reduction in cardio? That worries me the most. Giving up days of cardio is scary for me.
I'm eating a lot. I always do following W30 parameters. But I'm actually hungry (not false hunger, not cravings). If I have a smaller meal, I get too hungry. The first time I did W30, I had to gain weight after (I lost too much). This time I did 60 days and still continue (with just a couple of treats) ... and I'm not having the need-to-gain problem.
I need to TRUST the process. Trust I'm doing the right thing for my body and health. Trust my body will find it's HAPPY weight. Trust I can find the right balance in workouts.
Trust is hard.
Here's what's happening today.
Interval run. I love run days! Intervals are hard, but the workout flies by. Awesome.
A few errands.
Paying the bills.
No hike (I think they completely ditched me - lol)
I'm itching to do my closet de-clutter (with the new parameters from the book) and my organization of memorabilia (so I can start the new picture shelves). Both are big projects and we are heading out of town this week. Lots to do in front of the trip. Probably not the best week. I'll hold off.
Yesterday, I took a trek to the dreaded mall. I'm not a mall-lover, but it was actually fun. My old (and favorite) lipstick had run out - needed the replacement. However, they don't sell that anymore (it's been that long!). The sales lady helped pick a new one - love it too. A bit pricey, but you can tell the difference. I also had Pottery Barn cash to spend. I got a new picture frame and coordinating glass box (to put old pictures in). I'm looking forward to doing the new pictures.
The last stop was Total Wines. I spent the morning planning our trip to Napa and I had wine on the mind! Found some fun stuff and some fall beverages to take this weekend when we visit our eldest. I love buying wine. Even though I'm not drinking much lately, I still love "hunting" for that next bottle.
I feel better having venting my woes this morning. Thanks for listening lol! (At this point, I would fall over if someone else found this blog. I like talking to myself - more than I thought I would!) I resisted journalling for a long time - but I'm hooked.
For almost 3 months, I've eaten better than I have most of my life. I don't have to lose weight, but I don't need to gain weight either (fat that is ... bring on the muscle). I was actually tempted to step on the scale. I'm glad I resisted ... it would've been a disaster.
Usually if I am eating well, I continue to lose weight. Not a lot, but bits and pieces. I am happy with how my clothes fit, but I absolutely have extra fat in areas that should be slowly melting away. Instead, those areas seem to be growing.
Is it my new workouts? When you are stressing your body (i.e. new exercise), things get jumbled and your body can hold weight and holds water for tissue repair. Is it hormones? Honestly, ovulation is getting to be a big old pain. Is it my reduction in cardio? That worries me the most. Giving up days of cardio is scary for me.
I'm eating a lot. I always do following W30 parameters. But I'm actually hungry (not false hunger, not cravings). If I have a smaller meal, I get too hungry. The first time I did W30, I had to gain weight after (I lost too much). This time I did 60 days and still continue (with just a couple of treats) ... and I'm not having the need-to-gain problem.
I need to TRUST the process. Trust I'm doing the right thing for my body and health. Trust my body will find it's HAPPY weight. Trust I can find the right balance in workouts.
Trust is hard.
Here's what's happening today.
Interval run. I love run days! Intervals are hard, but the workout flies by. Awesome.
A few errands.
Paying the bills.
No hike (I think they completely ditched me - lol)
I'm itching to do my closet de-clutter (with the new parameters from the book) and my organization of memorabilia (so I can start the new picture shelves). Both are big projects and we are heading out of town this week. Lots to do in front of the trip. Probably not the best week. I'll hold off.
Yesterday, I took a trek to the dreaded mall. I'm not a mall-lover, but it was actually fun. My old (and favorite) lipstick had run out - needed the replacement. However, they don't sell that anymore (it's been that long!). The sales lady helped pick a new one - love it too. A bit pricey, but you can tell the difference. I also had Pottery Barn cash to spend. I got a new picture frame and coordinating glass box (to put old pictures in). I'm looking forward to doing the new pictures.
The last stop was Total Wines. I spent the morning planning our trip to Napa and I had wine on the mind! Found some fun stuff and some fall beverages to take this weekend when we visit our eldest. I love buying wine. Even though I'm not drinking much lately, I still love "hunting" for that next bottle.
I feel better having venting my woes this morning. Thanks for listening lol! (At this point, I would fall over if someone else found this blog. I like talking to myself - more than I thought I would!) I resisted journalling for a long time - but I'm hooked.
Sunday, September 25, 2016
Good Morning (again!)
Yeah, I know I already posted, but I'm feeling chatty this morning lol.
My run was really good. I think the new workout routine is working. My run "feels" faster. I'm pushing harder through the entire run (not relaxing on the downhills) and I'm recovering quickly (fitness is in the recovery time). My mood is tenfold better after the run too. And it was really humid - that usually signals a crappy run - so extra HAPPY.
I don't want to time my run. It feels like the scale. It will either validate what I know (my pace is improving) or leave me disappointed (because my "improved" pace still sucks). I don't see an upside. When (and if) it carries no self-worth measure, I'll time it for fun.
I do some "heavy" weights after the run. Three set of two moves - slowly - hit the "fail" at about 7 reps. That means I'm using the "right" amount of weight. Time to put on the big girl panties and actually lift WEIGHT (not tons of reps with 5 lbs).
My dog gets an off-leash walk after the run. It's still dark at that time and quiet on a Sunday. He loves off-leash and I love combining my cool-down with his "run." (He sniffs, stops and then races to catch up to me - intervals for the old man!)
Early Sunday morning - my favorite morning of the week.
New ME and my new ME schedule are going strong.
I'm proud of my patience. I normally (only) do things that give immediate validation (ie. strict diet, etc). But lately, I'm doing things that require time and patience to show results.
What you ask?
Eyelash grower (yep - still doing it, still loving it - maintaining good lash!!)
Collagen peptides (joints, skin, nails, hair - hair is absolutely thicker - shedding less)
Weight training (getting stronger - slowly - but no injury)
Healthy diet (becoming more a habit than an effort)
I rock. Yep, I do.
Designing my life. Designing my HAPPY. It works.
P.S. I got confirmation of a wine tour in Napa (for November) - it's the one I really am excited about - woohoo!!
Starbucks is calling. Later gators.
My run was really good. I think the new workout routine is working. My run "feels" faster. I'm pushing harder through the entire run (not relaxing on the downhills) and I'm recovering quickly (fitness is in the recovery time). My mood is tenfold better after the run too. And it was really humid - that usually signals a crappy run - so extra HAPPY.
I don't want to time my run. It feels like the scale. It will either validate what I know (my pace is improving) or leave me disappointed (because my "improved" pace still sucks). I don't see an upside. When (and if) it carries no self-worth measure, I'll time it for fun.
I do some "heavy" weights after the run. Three set of two moves - slowly - hit the "fail" at about 7 reps. That means I'm using the "right" amount of weight. Time to put on the big girl panties and actually lift WEIGHT (not tons of reps with 5 lbs).
My dog gets an off-leash walk after the run. It's still dark at that time and quiet on a Sunday. He loves off-leash and I love combining my cool-down with his "run." (He sniffs, stops and then races to catch up to me - intervals for the old man!)
Early Sunday morning - my favorite morning of the week.
New ME and my new ME schedule are going strong.
I'm proud of my patience. I normally (only) do things that give immediate validation (ie. strict diet, etc). But lately, I'm doing things that require time and patience to show results.
What you ask?
Eyelash grower (yep - still doing it, still loving it - maintaining good lash!!)
Collagen peptides (joints, skin, nails, hair - hair is absolutely thicker - shedding less)
Weight training (getting stronger - slowly - but no injury)
Healthy diet (becoming more a habit than an effort)
I rock. Yep, I do.
Designing my life. Designing my HAPPY. It works.
P.S. I got confirmation of a wine tour in Napa (for November) - it's the one I really am excited about - woohoo!!
Starbucks is calling. Later gators.
Where is Heck is Fall??
Yesterday was hot ... hot and humid. Not the kind of day that just peaks at a high temperature for a minute but otherwise comfortable - if only. Yesterday felt like mid-July. Hot and humid from the start to finish. Blazing sun ... the works.
But it was super fun. I love watching golf. Extra fun with friends. VIP was not as good as previous years, but still free (especially cold drinks) and nice air-conditioned bathrooms. Both were appreciated.
My back is tired from standing so much (reminiscent of work). Walking is so much easier. We did that too. Combination of hot, walking, standing - I was bushed last night.
But I didn't sleep well. Toss and turned and sweated like crazy. I think ovulation-time is becoming a real "thing" for me. Cravings, mood, sweaty, water retention, boobies swollen ... not fun. Hopefully, today will be the last of it. I recognized the cravings last night and put a stop to snacking my way through the evening - progress.
I'm up early to run. Looking forward to it, but I actually feel a bit run down this morning. Yesterday? Ovulation? I don't know. I hope I feel better when I start the run.
Tomorrow is hike day. I'm bagging it. It was planned as a real-deal hike - beautiful, challenging. One person mentioned she could go only if the hike was local. The "cool" hike is changed to basically a walk in the neighborhood. I don't know the ladies well (except for my friend who invited me to the group - she can't come). It feels weird and not fun. Sometimes even YES doesn't come together. There will be other chances. (And I have plenty of people to hike with - even if this group ends up a bust for me.)
Nothing else on the agenda today. Actually, today and tomorrow are open. I need it. I love adding VARIETY. I love going, going, going and having fun. But I need calm, down-time too. Reading on the porch sounds nice (but probably too hot lol). The friends we watch the Steelers game with won't be home so that leaves us on our own (also a nice break).
Weather man promises (again) that a cool front is coming through this week and there might be a couple of season-appropriate temperatures this week. I've heard it before - all broken promises lol! But fall has to come eventually - right?!?!
But it was super fun. I love watching golf. Extra fun with friends. VIP was not as good as previous years, but still free (especially cold drinks) and nice air-conditioned bathrooms. Both were appreciated.
My back is tired from standing so much (reminiscent of work). Walking is so much easier. We did that too. Combination of hot, walking, standing - I was bushed last night.
But I didn't sleep well. Toss and turned and sweated like crazy. I think ovulation-time is becoming a real "thing" for me. Cravings, mood, sweaty, water retention, boobies swollen ... not fun. Hopefully, today will be the last of it. I recognized the cravings last night and put a stop to snacking my way through the evening - progress.
I'm up early to run. Looking forward to it, but I actually feel a bit run down this morning. Yesterday? Ovulation? I don't know. I hope I feel better when I start the run.
Tomorrow is hike day. I'm bagging it. It was planned as a real-deal hike - beautiful, challenging. One person mentioned she could go only if the hike was local. The "cool" hike is changed to basically a walk in the neighborhood. I don't know the ladies well (except for my friend who invited me to the group - she can't come). It feels weird and not fun. Sometimes even YES doesn't come together. There will be other chances. (And I have plenty of people to hike with - even if this group ends up a bust for me.)
Nothing else on the agenda today. Actually, today and tomorrow are open. I need it. I love adding VARIETY. I love going, going, going and having fun. But I need calm, down-time too. Reading on the porch sounds nice (but probably too hot lol). The friends we watch the Steelers game with won't be home so that leaves us on our own (also a nice break).
Weather man promises (again) that a cool front is coming through this week and there might be a couple of season-appropriate temperatures this week. I've heard it before - all broken promises lol! But fall has to come eventually - right?!?!
Saturday, September 24, 2016
VIP at the PGA
Off to the PGA East Lake Tournament today with some friends. I love watching golf (in person). Beautiful, relaxing, inspiring ... but HOT again today. Climbing to 90+. Come on Georgia - you need to do better. It's almost October for crying out loud!! It still will be fun, but I'll be hunting the shade and sweating like a mad woman. It helps we have VIP tickets for free food, drink and nice bathrooms (all in the AC). The finer things.
New recipe was a hit, movie was fun. Nice night. I like the new recipe a week idea. It's been fun searching for different flavors to try. I'm on the search for a shrimp recipe for next week.
I spent some time planning our trips to Napa and Asheville yesterday. I'm getting excited for both.
Between now and the end of the year, we have 2 weekends with no plans, Everything else is booked. Fun couple of months ahead! Lots and lots of variety - which was missing in my life.
As MHP is underway, I find the two most important parts of my HAPPY are spending time (and making time) with family & friends and adding VARIETY to my day. Both take effort, but the rewards are well worth it.
I also find MHP is contagious. People respond to enthusiasm ... people like trying new things ... people like being HAPPY. Hubby is starting to "look" for things for him too. A couple of my friends asked to be included in the project. Happy IS contagious and HAPPY grows as it spreads. Win - win.
Another tidbit from this project is making an effort to keep a schedule (i.e. get up early) is important for a productive day. I'm a morning person. I like my day to start early. Hubby asked why I keep getting up early ... I don't want to miss the best part of my day. Quiet, peaceful ... no phone, no TV, no chatter. I really like the dark too - weird, I know. I think I'm the only person who loves "fall back" and the early darkness.
A side note ... I have been running so hot lately (hormones??). I'm sitting here sweating while I drink my hot tea and coffee (and iced tea) ... yes, still 3 morning drinks (variety is great, but I still need my certainty!). Lordy!! Winter, where are you?!?!
I've got to wake my dog up to go for a walk (old man sleeping in today). Time is tight this morning and I need my Starbucks for the road! Later gators.
New recipe was a hit, movie was fun. Nice night. I like the new recipe a week idea. It's been fun searching for different flavors to try. I'm on the search for a shrimp recipe for next week.
I spent some time planning our trips to Napa and Asheville yesterday. I'm getting excited for both.
Between now and the end of the year, we have 2 weekends with no plans, Everything else is booked. Fun couple of months ahead! Lots and lots of variety - which was missing in my life.
As MHP is underway, I find the two most important parts of my HAPPY are spending time (and making time) with family & friends and adding VARIETY to my day. Both take effort, but the rewards are well worth it.
I also find MHP is contagious. People respond to enthusiasm ... people like trying new things ... people like being HAPPY. Hubby is starting to "look" for things for him too. A couple of my friends asked to be included in the project. Happy IS contagious and HAPPY grows as it spreads. Win - win.
Another tidbit from this project is making an effort to keep a schedule (i.e. get up early) is important for a productive day. I'm a morning person. I like my day to start early. Hubby asked why I keep getting up early ... I don't want to miss the best part of my day. Quiet, peaceful ... no phone, no TV, no chatter. I really like the dark too - weird, I know. I think I'm the only person who loves "fall back" and the early darkness.
A side note ... I have been running so hot lately (hormones??). I'm sitting here sweating while I drink my hot tea and coffee (and iced tea) ... yes, still 3 morning drinks (variety is great, but I still need my certainty!). Lordy!! Winter, where are you?!?!
I've got to wake my dog up to go for a walk (old man sleeping in today). Time is tight this morning and I need my Starbucks for the road! Later gators.
Friday, September 23, 2016
29 Years Down... Forever To Go.
Today is our 29th dating anniversary. For some reason this date has always been easy to remember (so much so I sometimes give it as my wedding anniversary inadvertently). We dated for 5 years before we got married. Went to the movies and out for a Fribble at Friendly's. And as they say ... the rest is history.
We don't actually celebrate the day, but I thought it would be nice to save today as new-recipe day (crockpot W20 Thai). Hubby recorded a movie. It's a date lol.
Author night at bookclub was well worth going. She an interesting lady - that I expected - but not the same interesting I pictured - made it extra interesting. The conversation was intriguing. The bookclub itself is still a cast of odd characters - the oddness that eventually drove me away - but seeing them after a 2 year break ... well you know what they say about absence. I'll give it another go. Why not - nothing to lose. Bookclub is always a wealth of book chatter ... and I love books.
Tabata today. I need to be careful. My back is tired from lifting yesterday. Not injured, but tired can lead down that road. Careful is key. I don't want to derail my path to STRONG.
Update on all things HAPPY ...
On MHP list is a reorder of my favorite t-shirts. Love the message, love the design, love the fit, love the color. Problem is they are stained ... grease and bleach. But I wear them anyway - workout, walk the dog, etc. After reading The Happiness Project, I decided to take her cue and throw away (or replace) this kind of stuff. Re-order came yesterday. The sizing (which I duplicated exactly from the tags) has dramatically changed. The one shirt (uni-sized) is so big it's unwearable. UGH! Oh well. I put it in my gift-giving pile. The other is different too, but I think I can still wear it.
Lesson - HAPPY can be in the doing or trying - not always in the result. Maybe as a gift it will bring on the HAPPY. (And I'm keeping one of my stained shirts ... the bleached one - found my HAPPY lol!!)
I started MHP book. Made the cover, chose the design ... now I can add as things happen.
The hair feather came in the mail yesterday too. Feather is the new pink lol.
That's my day in a nutshell folks.
We don't actually celebrate the day, but I thought it would be nice to save today as new-recipe day (crockpot W20 Thai). Hubby recorded a movie. It's a date lol.
Author night at bookclub was well worth going. She an interesting lady - that I expected - but not the same interesting I pictured - made it extra interesting. The conversation was intriguing. The bookclub itself is still a cast of odd characters - the oddness that eventually drove me away - but seeing them after a 2 year break ... well you know what they say about absence. I'll give it another go. Why not - nothing to lose. Bookclub is always a wealth of book chatter ... and I love books.
Tabata today. I need to be careful. My back is tired from lifting yesterday. Not injured, but tired can lead down that road. Careful is key. I don't want to derail my path to STRONG.
Update on all things HAPPY ...
On MHP list is a reorder of my favorite t-shirts. Love the message, love the design, love the fit, love the color. Problem is they are stained ... grease and bleach. But I wear them anyway - workout, walk the dog, etc. After reading The Happiness Project, I decided to take her cue and throw away (or replace) this kind of stuff. Re-order came yesterday. The sizing (which I duplicated exactly from the tags) has dramatically changed. The one shirt (uni-sized) is so big it's unwearable. UGH! Oh well. I put it in my gift-giving pile. The other is different too, but I think I can still wear it.
Lesson - HAPPY can be in the doing or trying - not always in the result. Maybe as a gift it will bring on the HAPPY. (And I'm keeping one of my stained shirts ... the bleached one - found my HAPPY lol!!)
I started MHP book. Made the cover, chose the design ... now I can add as things happen.
The hair feather came in the mail yesterday too. Feather is the new pink lol.
That's my day in a nutshell folks.
Thursday, September 22, 2016
Don't Stop Me Now.
Focus brings results. This shocks me Every. Single. Time.
I want to "say YES," do more, add variety and BAM ... there it is ... right in front of my face for the picking. I have a really interesting girls night planned for October (women's forum ... I'll write about it later). Out weekend in VA is the International Gold Cup (that's steeple chase - I looked it up lol). Fun, fun, fun!!
There is so much fun on my calendar for the next few months, I need to make time for some of my work-ish projects too!
I hope focus on my health and fitness yield results too. Some days I think ... oh yeah, getting stronger, leaner, healthier ... other days, not so much. Today is a not-so-much day. I woke up feeling a bit blob-y, less definition (where there was little anyway). I know progress in this area isn't linear and muscle healing (growth) brings water to the table. I just hope for the day I wake up all buff, bad-ass, kicking strong lol!
Yesterday, I heard there was a study on the HAPPIEST song ever written. Naturally, I downloaded it. Queen - Don't Stop Me Now. Not sure I actually recognize this song. Based on a "scientific" algorithm, it was determined to be amazingly HAPPY. I can't wait to listen to it next treadmill day (and I downloaded some other Queen stuff I do know). And I "found" the monk chanting music I downloaded some time ago (powerful and meditative - so they say) that I "lost" in the mix of stuff. (Actually, I created a new folder for it, and promptly forgot - dumb ass.)
Finished the wine book last night. The author writes for publications (Forbes, etc) which explains why it felt like I was reading a long article. The descriptions were trying too much (not authentic, fancy and overly poetic) but I read she's Harvard educated - so maybe it is authentic. Tonight I get to meet her. It will be interesting to match "her" to my vision-of-her. After reading the book, I liked her ... the book not so much.
Weight lifting today. My muscles might lack in the bad-ass department, but I'm dressing the part today. We got a "free" t-shirt from the nutrition class (advertising the trainer) with guns blazing and biker logos ... oh yeah. Bring it. (The t-shirt is so comfortable - I really like it - even with the guns lol.)
I noticed my word of the moment is "bad-ass" ... I've used it lots recently. I do that. I like a pattern - I like repetition.
So in that vain, I'm off to have a bad-ass day ... starting with a bad-ass dog walk.
I want to "say YES," do more, add variety and BAM ... there it is ... right in front of my face for the picking. I have a really interesting girls night planned for October (women's forum ... I'll write about it later). Out weekend in VA is the International Gold Cup (that's steeple chase - I looked it up lol). Fun, fun, fun!!
There is so much fun on my calendar for the next few months, I need to make time for some of my work-ish projects too!
I hope focus on my health and fitness yield results too. Some days I think ... oh yeah, getting stronger, leaner, healthier ... other days, not so much. Today is a not-so-much day. I woke up feeling a bit blob-y, less definition (where there was little anyway). I know progress in this area isn't linear and muscle healing (growth) brings water to the table. I just hope for the day I wake up all buff, bad-ass, kicking strong lol!
Yesterday, I heard there was a study on the HAPPIEST song ever written. Naturally, I downloaded it. Queen - Don't Stop Me Now. Not sure I actually recognize this song. Based on a "scientific" algorithm, it was determined to be amazingly HAPPY. I can't wait to listen to it next treadmill day (and I downloaded some other Queen stuff I do know). And I "found" the monk chanting music I downloaded some time ago (powerful and meditative - so they say) that I "lost" in the mix of stuff. (Actually, I created a new folder for it, and promptly forgot - dumb ass.)
Finished the wine book last night. The author writes for publications (Forbes, etc) which explains why it felt like I was reading a long article. The descriptions were trying too much (not authentic, fancy and overly poetic) but I read she's Harvard educated - so maybe it is authentic. Tonight I get to meet her. It will be interesting to match "her" to my vision-of-her. After reading the book, I liked her ... the book not so much.
Weight lifting today. My muscles might lack in the bad-ass department, but I'm dressing the part today. We got a "free" t-shirt from the nutrition class (advertising the trainer) with guns blazing and biker logos ... oh yeah. Bring it. (The t-shirt is so comfortable - I really like it - even with the guns lol.)
I noticed my word of the moment is "bad-ass" ... I've used it lots recently. I do that. I like a pattern - I like repetition.
So in that vain, I'm off to have a bad-ass day ... starting with a bad-ass dog walk.
Wednesday, September 21, 2016
HAPPY birthday!!!!
To my sweet dog - #10. Grateful for that big, goofy ball of fluff. Have I mentioned, I love him to pieces?!? We celebrated starting last week with a hike and chicken & biscuits, new toy on Sunday (which he traveled to pick himself) ... and today ... well not much planned (bad mom). It's too hot for the dog park (original plan) - so a walk, car ride, playing, petting, goodies ... the usual day!
For me ... a 90 min massage (bad mom). My muscles are sore - can't wait. My usual lady left, so going back to using my other choice. Pros and cons, but hey, it's a massage.
The remainder of the trail mix is in the trash. Apparently, this is my nemesis. Snacked on some last night. In my defense, I was hungry and didn't have anything cooked (not good) so I thought a couple of handfuls would be fine. But then I wanted more. So I had more. Then I wanted more. So I threw it away. Goodbye trail mix.
The movie Sully was fantastic (and we saw the part filmed in our neighborhood). AND we learned Tuesday is discount day. Win -win. More Tuesdays at the movies in my future. I also shopped (just a bit since I had store "cash" burning a hole) and got a new workout top. Now that I'm going to the studio 3 days a week, I need to rotate another shirt in the mix. Blue camo ... sounds bad ass (lol) but it's really subtle and flattering.
Today is a to-do list day. Some errands after the massage. Just relaxing. I need to finish the bookclub selection (not my cup of tea - glad I only paid the $4 kindle price instead of $24 print). I'm still interested in hearing the author speak. The idea of the book is fascinating, the execution is a bit boring. Saying YES.
Walking the dog, then an easy walk on the treadmill. I like to "move" before a massage (so I don't randomly start sweating). It's nice to easy walk with music. Walking the dog is start, stop, sniff, pee, poop (him, not me) ... not exactly that meditative, repetitive motion I enjoy.
Making today HAPPY. Finding my little bit of ZEN. Later gators.
For me ... a 90 min massage (bad mom). My muscles are sore - can't wait. My usual lady left, so going back to using my other choice. Pros and cons, but hey, it's a massage.
The remainder of the trail mix is in the trash. Apparently, this is my nemesis. Snacked on some last night. In my defense, I was hungry and didn't have anything cooked (not good) so I thought a couple of handfuls would be fine. But then I wanted more. So I had more. Then I wanted more. So I threw it away. Goodbye trail mix.
The movie Sully was fantastic (and we saw the part filmed in our neighborhood). AND we learned Tuesday is discount day. Win -win. More Tuesdays at the movies in my future. I also shopped (just a bit since I had store "cash" burning a hole) and got a new workout top. Now that I'm going to the studio 3 days a week, I need to rotate another shirt in the mix. Blue camo ... sounds bad ass (lol) but it's really subtle and flattering.
Today is a to-do list day. Some errands after the massage. Just relaxing. I need to finish the bookclub selection (not my cup of tea - glad I only paid the $4 kindle price instead of $24 print). I'm still interested in hearing the author speak. The idea of the book is fascinating, the execution is a bit boring. Saying YES.
Walking the dog, then an easy walk on the treadmill. I like to "move" before a massage (so I don't randomly start sweating). It's nice to easy walk with music. Walking the dog is start, stop, sniff, pee, poop (him, not me) ... not exactly that meditative, repetitive motion I enjoy.
Making today HAPPY. Finding my little bit of ZEN. Later gators.
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
My Happiness Project Update
Some of the things on my list are proving harder than expected.
Pink in my hair - the dye is OUT (washes out really quickly, messy on pillowcases, etc). Extensions IN (but so hard to find a salon to do it). Turns out my aunt has tools to do feathers (long and skinny) and they can be washed, styled, etc. Perfect - meeting her next week. Then un-perfect - sold out of pink. Oh boy. I'm trying the neutrals to see if I like it. So pink October hair might be a brown feather lol!
No powder nails. I got the full scoop at the nail salon and I'm not sold. He thought it wouldn't work well for me (and my short nails). So got my usual "american" but at a new salon. He uses a different technique - I like it. AND it was $12 cheaper. Winner. The switch is possible (I'm loyal to the bitter end to my nail and hair places.) The only issue is they don't do appointments. That can be frustrating. We'll see how it goes.
As you can see, I chose the deep, meaningful items on my list to tackle first lol!
Starting War and Peace will be delayed too. I'm reading the book for book club (it's just okay, but a really fast read) and am still going with the WW2 novel. Probably delayed for a couple of weeks.
I need to start one of the clean-up projects on my list next week. And I need to work on starting the documentation in picture book form this week. I can't find the Rosetta Stone (hubby may know, but he's not home the next few days). And I have my new recipe planned for Friday (our 29th dating anniversary!).
What is going AMAZINGLY well is connecting, visiting, making time for friends. On that note, I have a new trip on the calendar for October - VA friends with hubby. Awesome! Honestly, that one of the most important things on MHP list. You can't be HAPPY without friends.
Also, saying YES is in full swing. Yes to bookclub, yes to hike next week, yes to feather, YES!! (Yes is a lot easier without a work schedule lol.)
Now for today ... tabata Tuesday. Woop woop!! Then a movie with a friend. Fun, easy day. Eating was back on point yesterday and I'm rewarded with a HAPPY morning. Up early, no mental beating, energy strong. Off to walk the dog!
Pink in my hair - the dye is OUT (washes out really quickly, messy on pillowcases, etc). Extensions IN (but so hard to find a salon to do it). Turns out my aunt has tools to do feathers (long and skinny) and they can be washed, styled, etc. Perfect - meeting her next week. Then un-perfect - sold out of pink. Oh boy. I'm trying the neutrals to see if I like it. So pink October hair might be a brown feather lol!
No powder nails. I got the full scoop at the nail salon and I'm not sold. He thought it wouldn't work well for me (and my short nails). So got my usual "american" but at a new salon. He uses a different technique - I like it. AND it was $12 cheaper. Winner. The switch is possible (I'm loyal to the bitter end to my nail and hair places.) The only issue is they don't do appointments. That can be frustrating. We'll see how it goes.
As you can see, I chose the deep, meaningful items on my list to tackle first lol!
Starting War and Peace will be delayed too. I'm reading the book for book club (it's just okay, but a really fast read) and am still going with the WW2 novel. Probably delayed for a couple of weeks.
I need to start one of the clean-up projects on my list next week. And I need to work on starting the documentation in picture book form this week. I can't find the Rosetta Stone (hubby may know, but he's not home the next few days). And I have my new recipe planned for Friday (our 29th dating anniversary!).
What is going AMAZINGLY well is connecting, visiting, making time for friends. On that note, I have a new trip on the calendar for October - VA friends with hubby. Awesome! Honestly, that one of the most important things on MHP list. You can't be HAPPY without friends.
Also, saying YES is in full swing. Yes to bookclub, yes to hike next week, yes to feather, YES!! (Yes is a lot easier without a work schedule lol.)
Now for today ... tabata Tuesday. Woop woop!! Then a movie with a friend. Fun, easy day. Eating was back on point yesterday and I'm rewarded with a HAPPY morning. Up early, no mental beating, energy strong. Off to walk the dog!
Monday, September 19, 2016
A Better Conversation.
Good morning (lol).
The agenda today is a good mix - productive mixed with fun.
Downloading a book for bookclub on Thursday. I stopped going a couple of years ago - didn't love it, but now that I have the time - why not?!?! There are a couple of ladies I enjoyed and I wouldn't mind trying to connect with them again (expanding that friend base - saying YES). The book is a quick one (stories centered on wine). Shouldn't have a problem finishing. Best part - author visit. I really enjoy listening to an author speak about her work. Fascinating. So I'm saying YES, making an effort and going. Yea ME!
Productive stuff ... getting a package ready for mailing (bff b-day next week), paying bills (computer makes it so fast), washing sheets (almost done), return some emails (done). Dinner is already made for tonight (thanks hubby for grilling chicken yesterday).
Fun stuff. Nails and eyebrows (hopefully). I planned to go to my usual place for my manicure and an eyebrow but they had a pipe burst and are closed until repairs are done (bummer for them). I have a trust issue with eyebrows and fingernails lol ... so dilemma.
I think the collagen is making my eyebrows grow. I usually get them done with my hair appointment and pluck between. I can't wait this time - can't keep up with the tweezers! A friend recommended a threading place for eyebrows - not sure if they are open on Mondays. If so, I'll give them a try. I've done threading before and a place that specializes is usually good.
Now nails. MHP list includes trying the powder polish - no lights, and should last much longer. Downside is it's more money (but if it lasts, it evens out the price). I still have money left from a gift certificate - I could use it to try the powder (but a lot of the techs aren't great - and I'm picky). I could try the less expensive salon near me - don't know how good they are at the powder, but they are good at everything else. Game day decision. Maybe I'll call both places and ask a few questions.
A friend from VA just texted me and we're going to catch up via phone in a few minutes. Then off to workout. It's going to be a good day (after all) ... probably because I'm making it one!!
Later gators.
The agenda today is a good mix - productive mixed with fun.
Downloading a book for bookclub on Thursday. I stopped going a couple of years ago - didn't love it, but now that I have the time - why not?!?! There are a couple of ladies I enjoyed and I wouldn't mind trying to connect with them again (expanding that friend base - saying YES). The book is a quick one (stories centered on wine). Shouldn't have a problem finishing. Best part - author visit. I really enjoy listening to an author speak about her work. Fascinating. So I'm saying YES, making an effort and going. Yea ME!
Productive stuff ... getting a package ready for mailing (bff b-day next week), paying bills (computer makes it so fast), washing sheets (almost done), return some emails (done). Dinner is already made for tonight (thanks hubby for grilling chicken yesterday).
Fun stuff. Nails and eyebrows (hopefully). I planned to go to my usual place for my manicure and an eyebrow but they had a pipe burst and are closed until repairs are done (bummer for them). I have a trust issue with eyebrows and fingernails lol ... so dilemma.
I think the collagen is making my eyebrows grow. I usually get them done with my hair appointment and pluck between. I can't wait this time - can't keep up with the tweezers! A friend recommended a threading place for eyebrows - not sure if they are open on Mondays. If so, I'll give them a try. I've done threading before and a place that specializes is usually good.
Now nails. MHP list includes trying the powder polish - no lights, and should last much longer. Downside is it's more money (but if it lasts, it evens out the price). I still have money left from a gift certificate - I could use it to try the powder (but a lot of the techs aren't great - and I'm picky). I could try the less expensive salon near me - don't know how good they are at the powder, but they are good at everything else. Game day decision. Maybe I'll call both places and ask a few questions.
A friend from VA just texted me and we're going to catch up via phone in a few minutes. Then off to workout. It's going to be a good day (after all) ... probably because I'm making it one!!
Later gators.
Trail Mix Confessions
Damn you trail mix! I picked, snacked and ate altogether too much of you. And I ate a few slices of cheese. What happened??
Good day, great run. No festival because of rain. Instead went to a friend's house for the football game. I'd already eaten, so no issues.
Came home ready for dinner. Got a phone call from a friend whose father is dying. Talked for a couple of hours. And I snacked and picked (and ate dinner) while on the phone with her.
I saw the behavior starting and just let it happen. Lesson noticed, but I need to learn the lesson too.
Consequently, I slept in this morning until 7am. Kind of sluggish, sweaty (will workout soon), headache and general blah.
The biggest issue is the mental beating last night and this morning. I don't want that again. I like waking up ENERGETIC and PRODUCTIVE and HAPPY and PROUD. I can't do that when I eat like a moron. That food wasn't good, wasn't special, wasn't appreciated (ate while distracted on the phone). It's a no-no in my new lifestyle.
It's over. Begin again.
Best way to move forward is to MOVE FORWARD. So finishing my morning "drinks", workout, and then continuing with my plans today. Forcing myself to be productive will fix the ills of last night. Sheets in the wash, bills stacked to pay, workout clothes on, emails returned ...
Confession made, mental beat-down over so I'm ending this post and starting a new one. Choosing a better conversation to start my day.
Good day, great run. No festival because of rain. Instead went to a friend's house for the football game. I'd already eaten, so no issues.
Came home ready for dinner. Got a phone call from a friend whose father is dying. Talked for a couple of hours. And I snacked and picked (and ate dinner) while on the phone with her.
I saw the behavior starting and just let it happen. Lesson noticed, but I need to learn the lesson too.
Consequently, I slept in this morning until 7am. Kind of sluggish, sweaty (will workout soon), headache and general blah.
The biggest issue is the mental beating last night and this morning. I don't want that again. I like waking up ENERGETIC and PRODUCTIVE and HAPPY and PROUD. I can't do that when I eat like a moron. That food wasn't good, wasn't special, wasn't appreciated (ate while distracted on the phone). It's a no-no in my new lifestyle.
It's over. Begin again.
Best way to move forward is to MOVE FORWARD. So finishing my morning "drinks", workout, and then continuing with my plans today. Forcing myself to be productive will fix the ills of last night. Sheets in the wash, bills stacked to pay, workout clothes on, emails returned ...
Confession made, mental beat-down over so I'm ending this post and starting a new one. Choosing a better conversation to start my day.
Sunday, September 18, 2016
Sunday Funday
Good early morning. Glad I set an alarm. I woke up 15 minutes before the alarm - thought I'd just get up and WHAM back to sleep. Thank you alarm.
I don't want to miss my early Sunday pre-sunrise run. And I like the discipline of getting up early.
Since I only run outside 1 day each week, I'm really look forward to the run. If I feel one day isn't enough, I'll revamp my schedule (i.e. if it gets too hard to run 3 miles - I'll need an extra day). Mondays are also a run day, but treadmill intervals. I wish my run days didn't fall back-to-back, but that's the only way right now. I might be added a second weightlifting day - then things will change up again. Trying this way first.
I feel loads better this morning. Energy, tummy more settled ... now I just need a good sweat and I'll be back to my old self.
Today is the European Market Day (outdoor festival) shopping with a friend. Should be fun - but it's STILL crazy hot here. Close to the record of the hottest summer on the books. I believe it. She wants to walk from her house (little under a mile). NBD except I will get hot and sweaty - maybe she'll change her mind!
Tomorrow is an open day on my schedule. Planning to use it wisely (after some house errands, etc). I want to set-up MHP book on-line. I also need to get reading. My book list is growing (the official one is the same, but I have so many recommended reads waiting on the side-lines). I need to finish the WW2 novel before I start anything else. I'll read War and Peace along side other books. That will probably take me until next year to finish lol! And I want to see if I still have the set-up for Rosetta Stone this week. Yea - busy, fun, HAPPY.
No that note, time to run.
I don't want to miss my early Sunday pre-sunrise run. And I like the discipline of getting up early.
Since I only run outside 1 day each week, I'm really look forward to the run. If I feel one day isn't enough, I'll revamp my schedule (i.e. if it gets too hard to run 3 miles - I'll need an extra day). Mondays are also a run day, but treadmill intervals. I wish my run days didn't fall back-to-back, but that's the only way right now. I might be added a second weightlifting day - then things will change up again. Trying this way first.
I feel loads better this morning. Energy, tummy more settled ... now I just need a good sweat and I'll be back to my old self.
Today is the European Market Day (outdoor festival) shopping with a friend. Should be fun - but it's STILL crazy hot here. Close to the record of the hottest summer on the books. I believe it. She wants to walk from her house (little under a mile). NBD except I will get hot and sweaty - maybe she'll change her mind!
Tomorrow is an open day on my schedule. Planning to use it wisely (after some house errands, etc). I want to set-up MHP book on-line. I also need to get reading. My book list is growing (the official one is the same, but I have so many recommended reads waiting on the side-lines). I need to finish the WW2 novel before I start anything else. I'll read War and Peace along side other books. That will probably take me until next year to finish lol! And I want to see if I still have the set-up for Rosetta Stone this week. Yea - busy, fun, HAPPY.
No that note, time to run.
Saturday, September 17, 2016
Something Interesting.
I expected to be full of cravings today with the left-over goodies haunting me.
But something interesting instead.
I feel yucky. I feel like that wasn't worth it. I actually feel like the goodies are gross. The thought of sweets, wine, cheese - not good. Makes me actually feel a little queasy. And I didn't have that much. I really did pace myself and the treats after dinner were minimal (by my old standards).
I want my healthy eats today.
Good lord. Could this be the progress I need?? Did 60 days cement some good habits in a way that 30 days didn't quite accomplish? Praise be if that's the case.
I am very relieved in this moment. I was worried a treat meal was going to start me on the slide again.
I think I'm okay. HAPPY day.
(P.S. light blue, almost gray on my toes - looked for a light pink - no luck, but HAPPY with my choice.)
But something interesting instead.
I feel yucky. I feel like that wasn't worth it. I actually feel like the goodies are gross. The thought of sweets, wine, cheese - not good. Makes me actually feel a little queasy. And I didn't have that much. I really did pace myself and the treats after dinner were minimal (by my old standards).
I want my healthy eats today.
Good lord. Could this be the progress I need?? Did 60 days cement some good habits in a way that 30 days didn't quite accomplish? Praise be if that's the case.
I am very relieved in this moment. I was worried a treat meal was going to start me on the slide again.
I think I'm okay. HAPPY day.
(P.S. light blue, almost gray on my toes - looked for a light pink - no luck, but HAPPY with my choice.)
The Lowdown (is this a word?)
The night was fun. Meatballs were better the next day. Salad was delicious (if I do say so myself). Company was great.
And the count is over.
I had wine (several glasses, but paced well). I ate compliant until dessert. It would have been rude and strange to not partake (both reasons allow the exception). Cupcake actually tasted great. But I did end up picking at some chocolate and cheese while cleaning up ... that was my no-no for the evening. Not horrible, but it didn't follow my plan and was not at all necessary.
Overall, I give myself high marks. Special night, special eating ... that's living.
Now the trick is to get IMMEDIATELY back to "normal." One night can't turn into 3 days. Special doesn't lurk behind every afternoon.
I feel lousy today. But I got my period overnight and am in full crampy mode. Junk food, wine and cramps - hard to distinguish what's what. Good news is as of now, I'm not craving anything crappy (sometimes after a big night, I wake up wanting more). It's good to get all the feel-bad finished in one day.
In a strange way, I'm glad to have the count over. It's time to test my bike riding skills. Time to work the MODERATION.
Interestingly enough, today is a nutrition class at my yoga studio (I signed up for the 2 classes this fall). I guess the timing is good?!?!
I'm adding in some more fun today too. Polish change on my toes. Doesn't sound like much, but it does make me HAPPY.
Today is also a planned rest day. That's hard after a night of drinking and the start of my period. I want to sweat it out. But my muscles are tired - got to work the plan. Tomorrow is my outside run and I'm really looking forward to it.
Starbucks is calling my name. Later gators.
Friday, September 16, 2016
Bonus Post
Prepped and ready for tonight. Just a couple of last minute things, but otherwise I'm ready.
Thought I'd check in and realign my plan for tonight. It's already getting tough. Prepping the usual suspects of a delicious night (cheese tray, goodies, etc) has me really in WANT mode. Even washing the wine glasses has me practically drooling.
My plan for tonight is to eat well. I made lots of compliant, delicious (even if the meatballs are dry) food options. There is no need go into stuff-my-face mode. It's that old all-or-nothing sneaking up on me again.
My focus needs to be on friends and fun - not just the food.
I'm not making excuses, but being at the hight of PMS is not making it easy. I'm hungry, craving junk, feel tired, etc. All the things that make me want to eat. I'm actually considering a nap (cue gasp!) ... I'm that blah right now.
Actually, a nap might be just what I need to perk-up (without the help of sugar). I haven't showered yet so a nap is possible lol.
Okay - tomorrow will reveal the good, bad and ugly of tonight. Later gators.
Thought I'd check in and realign my plan for tonight. It's already getting tough. Prepping the usual suspects of a delicious night (cheese tray, goodies, etc) has me really in WANT mode. Even washing the wine glasses has me practically drooling.
My plan for tonight is to eat well. I made lots of compliant, delicious (even if the meatballs are dry) food options. There is no need go into stuff-my-face mode. It's that old all-or-nothing sneaking up on me again.
My focus needs to be on friends and fun - not just the food.
I'm not making excuses, but being at the hight of PMS is not making it easy. I'm hungry, craving junk, feel tired, etc. All the things that make me want to eat. I'm actually considering a nap (cue gasp!) ... I'm that blah right now.
Actually, a nap might be just what I need to perk-up (without the help of sugar). I haven't showered yet so a nap is possible lol.
Okay - tomorrow will reveal the good, bad and ugly of tonight. Later gators.
Guest Post
Today's post is brought to you by PMS (lol - sort of).
Oh boy, the perfect storm has formed ... party and PMS.
Yesterday's cooking did not go well. New meatball recipe is odd, sauce turned out funky (I've only made it dozens of times without a problem) and W30 meatballs are dry. UGH. At least the wine will be good.
And I thought I was getting another cold sore. Don't know what it was (I used the cream IMMEDIATELY) ... irritation, pimple? Today it seems okay. Dodged that bullet.
PMS today = sweaty, case of the "uglies", cravings, bloat. I'm a regular old beauty today.
My only real HAPPY thought for today - I realized I am seeing effects of the collagen peptide. No more hair monsters in the shower. Even hubby noticed. I'm shedding a lot LESS. Maybe healthy joints, beautiful hair, thick nails and perfect skin are right around the corner lol!
Okay, me and my grumpy self need to get things moving.
Stay tuned for the update tomorrow. How did she handle the wine? Were the meatballs a total flop? I do love a cliff-hanger.
Oh boy, the perfect storm has formed ... party and PMS.
Yesterday's cooking did not go well. New meatball recipe is odd, sauce turned out funky (I've only made it dozens of times without a problem) and W30 meatballs are dry. UGH. At least the wine will be good.
And I thought I was getting another cold sore. Don't know what it was (I used the cream IMMEDIATELY) ... irritation, pimple? Today it seems okay. Dodged that bullet.
PMS today = sweaty, case of the "uglies", cravings, bloat. I'm a regular old beauty today.
My only real HAPPY thought for today - I realized I am seeing effects of the collagen peptide. No more hair monsters in the shower. Even hubby noticed. I'm shedding a lot LESS. Maybe healthy joints, beautiful hair, thick nails and perfect skin are right around the corner lol!
Okay, me and my grumpy self need to get things moving.
Stay tuned for the update tomorrow. How did she handle the wine? Were the meatballs a total flop? I do love a cliff-hanger.
Thursday, September 15, 2016
Barbells and Meatballs
I'm trending for the second week in a row ... weight lifting and afternoon in the kitchen. Last week it was baking, this week it's meatballs (two ways) and Thai dipping sauce (for veggies appetizer).
Good news is my stomach is more settled this morning.
Less good news - it's that time of month (in a few days). Cue the less-than-happy mood. And I know, I know - I have the "power" to change my attitude, but the grumpy keeps sneaking in.
And the craving to eat junk is lingering around every corner. Just in time for my dinner party tomorrow. I need to be VERY careful. I will have wine tomorrow. Gladly, joyfully but it needs to hold at SOME wine. I don't want to be a drunk at my own party (since it's been over 2 months since I drank - I'll be a light weight) AND I don't want to set my stomach up for mass hysteria over the weekend. Okay. Plan in place. Now to remember it when I've had a couple of glasses of wine!!
Yesterday was AWESOME. Just a perfect blend of a day. Dog joy (one of my favorite joys), great company, opportunities for an open mind and generous spirit - that I didn't ignore (but had to consciously acknowledge - progress) and time with hubby in the evening.
Today is a simple day. Workout and cooking. That's it. But I have plans to make simple FUN and HAPPY. I need simple days sometimes. No make-up, no hair styling, breather from MHP, break from "thinking" like crazy ... simple.
Not even a dog walk this morning. My old man is zonked from the long hike and all the excitement yesterday. Gave him his pill for his aching bones (per the vet) and letting him rest. He was so HAPPY yesterday. It was contagious. I LOVE dog joy.
Next week I'll get to my set-up for MHP documentation (start a book), take some pictures, etc. And I'll start looking at my list for the NEXT check mark. I have some I'm really excited to start.
Time to hit the kitchen. Getting the crockpot (W30) meatballs started before my lifting class. I love that class (I know I've only gone once). The equipment is really nice. If I still love this class (and get through the next couple of months injury-free), I'm getting a set for Christmas. Already priced it out. Not expensive at all. When I buy exercise stuff, I use it - hubby never gives me grief about it either - win, win. (I typed that as "wine, wine" - guess I know where my subconscious is hanging!)
Later gators.
Good news is my stomach is more settled this morning.
Less good news - it's that time of month (in a few days). Cue the less-than-happy mood. And I know, I know - I have the "power" to change my attitude, but the grumpy keeps sneaking in.
And the craving to eat junk is lingering around every corner. Just in time for my dinner party tomorrow. I need to be VERY careful. I will have wine tomorrow. Gladly, joyfully but it needs to hold at SOME wine. I don't want to be a drunk at my own party (since it's been over 2 months since I drank - I'll be a light weight) AND I don't want to set my stomach up for mass hysteria over the weekend. Okay. Plan in place. Now to remember it when I've had a couple of glasses of wine!!
Yesterday was AWESOME. Just a perfect blend of a day. Dog joy (one of my favorite joys), great company, opportunities for an open mind and generous spirit - that I didn't ignore (but had to consciously acknowledge - progress) and time with hubby in the evening.
Today is a simple day. Workout and cooking. That's it. But I have plans to make simple FUN and HAPPY. I need simple days sometimes. No make-up, no hair styling, breather from MHP, break from "thinking" like crazy ... simple.
Not even a dog walk this morning. My old man is zonked from the long hike and all the excitement yesterday. Gave him his pill for his aching bones (per the vet) and letting him rest. He was so HAPPY yesterday. It was contagious. I LOVE dog joy.
Next week I'll get to my set-up for MHP documentation (start a book), take some pictures, etc. And I'll start looking at my list for the NEXT check mark. I have some I'm really excited to start.
Time to hit the kitchen. Getting the crockpot (W30) meatballs started before my lifting class. I love that class (I know I've only gone once). The equipment is really nice. If I still love this class (and get through the next couple of months injury-free), I'm getting a set for Christmas. Already priced it out. Not expensive at all. When I buy exercise stuff, I use it - hubby never gives me grief about it either - win, win. (I typed that as "wine, wine" - guess I know where my subconscious is hanging!)
Later gators.
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
3000 Flags
Today I'm hiking Kennesaw Mountain (actually taking a walk around) to see the September 11th display of 3000 American flags. It should be very beautiful.
Today is doubling as a birthday celebration for my sweet boy (turns 10 next Wednesday). He's coming with me (hence the "just walking") and my aunt and her sweet girl. We'll stop at an amazing chicken and biscuit place and get my pup (and his cousin) their own chicken. He LOVES it (no surprise lol).
None for me. Not a problem. I've had it before, don't need it again. Also, my stomach is still all wonky. Had me up last night and again this morning. I stopped the fish oil (but then had salmon 2 days in a row - don't know if that mattered). I think it might be the fresh cauliflower I ate the last two days. I usually can't eat much cauliflower, but the frozen doesn't bother me. Maybe the fresh still does.
Tabata was great. September is strength month. Fits beautifully with my goals. Today is a rest day. My muscles needs it. I'm excited to have a new schedule that includes TWO rest days. It's such a nice mental (and physical) break.
Universe lesson yesterday - ask and you receive - intention and focus (and the written word) yield results. MHP list includes getting together with out-of-town friends and traveling "just because" with hubby. Both got on the calendar yesterday. High school reunion with 4 other friends at my house in January. February trip to Florida with hubby and a visit from an old friend when he's working (she just moved to Orlando). Fantastic!!!
Speaking of MHP - I booked a photo session for family pictures over Thanksgiving. Check. War and Peace came in the mail. Partial check (the reading is like 5 checks!!). I'm reading another book right now (WW2 novel - one of my favorite genre) ... W&P next. Kona coffee (decaf) came too. Waiting for my stomach to settle before I try it. I also really like the change in password thing (although I often type my old one first lol).
Things that haven't made the list (but stuff I'm working on) ... tried a new restaurant for lunch yesterday (VARIETY) ... going to an artist market on Sunday (said YES) ... reminding myself to keep an open mind and be generous in spirit.
Open mind and generous spirit. I need that reminder A LOT! I am realizing (slowly) how much I default to bitchy mode. Excited about hosting my friends (super excited), but all of a sudden started bitching in my mind about drives to the airport, prepping kids rooms (they are home on break but away on vacation that weekend), etc. Not necessary, not helpful and a huge buzzkill to my HAPPY. I stopped it in it's track. OPEN MIND and GENEROUS SPIRIT. Honestly, if that's all the "good" in me - that's enough. It's that important (it is bold after all lol).
Today I will think about all the lives lost and remember. And in honor of life, I will have the best day I can and be grateful.
Today is doubling as a birthday celebration for my sweet boy (turns 10 next Wednesday). He's coming with me (hence the "just walking") and my aunt and her sweet girl. We'll stop at an amazing chicken and biscuit place and get my pup (and his cousin) their own chicken. He LOVES it (no surprise lol).
None for me. Not a problem. I've had it before, don't need it again. Also, my stomach is still all wonky. Had me up last night and again this morning. I stopped the fish oil (but then had salmon 2 days in a row - don't know if that mattered). I think it might be the fresh cauliflower I ate the last two days. I usually can't eat much cauliflower, but the frozen doesn't bother me. Maybe the fresh still does.
Tabata was great. September is strength month. Fits beautifully with my goals. Today is a rest day. My muscles needs it. I'm excited to have a new schedule that includes TWO rest days. It's such a nice mental (and physical) break.
Universe lesson yesterday - ask and you receive - intention and focus (and the written word) yield results. MHP list includes getting together with out-of-town friends and traveling "just because" with hubby. Both got on the calendar yesterday. High school reunion with 4 other friends at my house in January. February trip to Florida with hubby and a visit from an old friend when he's working (she just moved to Orlando). Fantastic!!!
Speaking of MHP - I booked a photo session for family pictures over Thanksgiving. Check. War and Peace came in the mail. Partial check (the reading is like 5 checks!!). I'm reading another book right now (WW2 novel - one of my favorite genre) ... W&P next. Kona coffee (decaf) came too. Waiting for my stomach to settle before I try it. I also really like the change in password thing (although I often type my old one first lol).
Things that haven't made the list (but stuff I'm working on) ... tried a new restaurant for lunch yesterday (VARIETY) ... going to an artist market on Sunday (said YES) ... reminding myself to keep an open mind and be generous in spirit.
Open mind and generous spirit. I need that reminder A LOT! I am realizing (slowly) how much I default to bitchy mode. Excited about hosting my friends (super excited), but all of a sudden started bitching in my mind about drives to the airport, prepping kids rooms (they are home on break but away on vacation that weekend), etc. Not necessary, not helpful and a huge buzzkill to my HAPPY. I stopped it in it's track. OPEN MIND and GENEROUS SPIRIT. Honestly, if that's all the "good" in me - that's enough. It's that important (it is bold after all lol).
Today I will think about all the lives lost and remember. And in honor of life, I will have the best day I can and be grateful.
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Being ME
One of the lessons gleaned from The Happiness Project was the idea of "being ME." Being true to myself ... accepting who I am ... accepting my likes and dislikes.
This is not to be confused with not growing, not changing, not challenging conceptions, not try new and different.
It's things like - I like to get 8+ hours of sleep. Shouldn't apologize for it, shouldn't try to be discrete about it, shouldn't worry that others may find it lame - lol. I own it. It's me. I feel my best with regular, good sleep. Being ME. (But when circumstances exist - either for want or need - I am fine with nights of less-than in the sleep department.)
That philosophy helped me edited my List.
The number 60 is "my" number this week. 60 on the List. Day 60 of W30 today. I did it. Tried the W30 for 60 days (I get that sounds weird - now it should be W60 - except it isn't!). I was curious to see if 60 days would yield even more amazing results. But 60 days is a long time to put friends on hold, social life on hold-ish. Luckily, logistics happened in my favor and I was glad to take advantage of a rare schedule.
Good news is I don't feel any better than I did 30 days out. That's good because I don't feel compelled to extend. This IS how I feel when I eat well. Sure, over lots more time, there might be slightly more "good" to be had, but it will crimp my LIFE living! I know my "top" level - the level where I want exist to be healthy and happy.
Now the challenge is keeping this level of GOOD with still living my social life. Not surprisingly, this is a harder challenge for me. Gray areas mean head conversations, bartering, mental fatigue. Black and white is easy. No need to think - it just is.
Things for me to remember:
Let HEALTH dominate the reasons why (not just pants fitting).
Focus EVERY social event on the event (fun, friends, family, etc). Food/drink should always be down on that list (it can still make the list, but not the primary focus).
Sitting on the sofa isn't SPECIAL. This doesn't count as a reason to indulge.
Off to start my day. Tabata this morning (yea - it's been a couple of weeks), lunch with a friend and a Costco run. Later gators.
This is not to be confused with not growing, not changing, not challenging conceptions, not try new and different.
It's things like - I like to get 8+ hours of sleep. Shouldn't apologize for it, shouldn't try to be discrete about it, shouldn't worry that others may find it lame - lol. I own it. It's me. I feel my best with regular, good sleep. Being ME. (But when circumstances exist - either for want or need - I am fine with nights of less-than in the sleep department.)
That philosophy helped me edited my List.
The number 60 is "my" number this week. 60 on the List. Day 60 of W30 today. I did it. Tried the W30 for 60 days (I get that sounds weird - now it should be W60 - except it isn't!). I was curious to see if 60 days would yield even more amazing results. But 60 days is a long time to put friends on hold, social life on hold-ish. Luckily, logistics happened in my favor and I was glad to take advantage of a rare schedule.
Good news is I don't feel any better than I did 30 days out. That's good because I don't feel compelled to extend. This IS how I feel when I eat well. Sure, over lots more time, there might be slightly more "good" to be had, but it will crimp my LIFE living! I know my "top" level - the level where I want exist to be healthy and happy.
Now the challenge is keeping this level of GOOD with still living my social life. Not surprisingly, this is a harder challenge for me. Gray areas mean head conversations, bartering, mental fatigue. Black and white is easy. No need to think - it just is.
Things for me to remember:
Let HEALTH dominate the reasons why (not just pants fitting).
Focus EVERY social event on the event (fun, friends, family, etc). Food/drink should always be down on that list (it can still make the list, but not the primary focus).
Sitting on the sofa isn't SPECIAL. This doesn't count as a reason to indulge.
Off to start my day. Tabata this morning (yea - it's been a couple of weeks), lunch with a friend and a Costco run. Later gators.
Monday, September 12, 2016
The List
That was a project! Formatting, adding, subtracting, modifying ... but it's finished.
60 items. All designed for me, by me. Being ME.
I left some spaces to add things as they come up. I don't want to limit my HAPPY just because I didn't think of it now.
Things to read.
Things to watch.
Places to eat.
Things to try.
Things to do.
Things to do regularly.
Places to visit.
Those are the categories. BAM!
In the coming week (or so) I will set-up the photo documentation. I need to charge the camera and start creating the pages in either Shutterfly or LuLu.com. Today was busy. Rome wasn't created in a day. I need to pace myself or this will feel like work, not like HAPPY.
This week is completely full. Lot and lots of fun stuff. And some work. Getting ready for a HAPPY hour (timely name) and a dinner party Friday means lots of prep. I'm glad to entertain again. It's been too long. Said YES to lots of stuff this week too. YES is a good word I need to use more often.
Variety. The name of the HAPPY game.
60 items. All designed for me, by me. Being ME.
I left some spaces to add things as they come up. I don't want to limit my HAPPY just because I didn't think of it now.
Things to read.
Things to watch.
Places to eat.
Things to try.
Things to do.
Things to do regularly.
Places to visit.
Those are the categories. BAM!
In the coming week (or so) I will set-up the photo documentation. I need to charge the camera and start creating the pages in either Shutterfly or LuLu.com. Today was busy. Rome wasn't created in a day. I need to pace myself or this will feel like work, not like HAPPY.
This week is completely full. Lot and lots of fun stuff. And some work. Getting ready for a HAPPY hour (timely name) and a dinner party Friday means lots of prep. I'm glad to entertain again. It's been too long. Said YES to lots of stuff this week too. YES is a good word I need to use more often.
Variety. The name of the HAPPY game.
Thought for (EVERY) Today.
There are times in the lives of most of us
when we would have given all the world
to be as we were but yesterday,
though that yesterday had passed over us unappreciated and unenjoyed.
when we would have given all the world
to be as we were but yesterday,
though that yesterday had passed over us unappreciated and unenjoyed.
William Hartpole
List Day is Here!
Official Make-The-List Day is today. I did a sloppy copy (2 actually) of the list yesterday.
I started to write the list and promptly forgot all but 4 things that I wanted to put on the list. (Hindsight shows I should have kept a running list as I thought of things lol.) Took some time, but I eventually got my groove back and started "listing."
The list is right around 50 (including the multiple-times stuff). I want to type it up today.
Some things are BIG. Some things are not. Some are HARD. Some are not. Some will take a long time. Some will not. All will make me HAPPY (either in the doing, completing or both). But I'm excited about them all.
Important rule - If it's not making me happy, then I'm ditching it. I know I can distinguish between being lazy and really not enjoying the process or outcome.
For example ... I have a lofty goal of reading War and Peace. Often listed as one of the greatest novels of all time. A mere 1440+ pages. I'll give it a proper effort, but if I find it horrible ... well, it's a read for another day. I ordered a three hardback book set so it will double as a book-oration after. I love displaying books. Double HAPPY!
And the piece de la resistance ... I'm going to document My Happiness Project. Pictures, quotes, insights into a book. Either Shutterfly or LuLu.com. I think I should be "writing" the book as it happens. If I wait until the end, I'll forget or get too busy with a new job, etc.
How did I ever find time to work lol!!
The only problem is I want to start EVERYTHING now lol. I love a list. I love marking-off a list. Patience my friend. This is not a sprint.
Oh my lordy - my happy level is bursting just imagining the list. And I should include the list in my book. Okay - now I need a book-list so I remember all my ideas. (Just started it lol!)
Breathe, enjoy, savor - Oh HAPPY day!
I started to write the list and promptly forgot all but 4 things that I wanted to put on the list. (Hindsight shows I should have kept a running list as I thought of things lol.) Took some time, but I eventually got my groove back and started "listing."
The list is right around 50 (including the multiple-times stuff). I want to type it up today.
Some things are BIG. Some things are not. Some are HARD. Some are not. Some will take a long time. Some will not. All will make me HAPPY (either in the doing, completing or both). But I'm excited about them all.
Important rule - If it's not making me happy, then I'm ditching it. I know I can distinguish between being lazy and really not enjoying the process or outcome.
For example ... I have a lofty goal of reading War and Peace. Often listed as one of the greatest novels of all time. A mere 1440+ pages. I'll give it a proper effort, but if I find it horrible ... well, it's a read for another day. I ordered a three hardback book set so it will double as a book-oration after. I love displaying books. Double HAPPY!
And the piece de la resistance ... I'm going to document My Happiness Project. Pictures, quotes, insights into a book. Either Shutterfly or LuLu.com. I think I should be "writing" the book as it happens. If I wait until the end, I'll forget or get too busy with a new job, etc.
How did I ever find time to work lol!!
The only problem is I want to start EVERYTHING now lol. I love a list. I love marking-off a list. Patience my friend. This is not a sprint.
Oh my lordy - my happy level is bursting just imagining the list. And I should include the list in my book. Okay - now I need a book-list so I remember all my ideas. (Just started it lol!)
Breathe, enjoy, savor - Oh HAPPY day!
Sunday, September 11, 2016
September 11th
So many lost that day. Some friends, all heroes. We will always remember. XO
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I finished The Happiness Project book yesterday. Turns out when I read awake (not sleepy before bed) the reading goes faster lol. It was a lot of words for thought. I used the highlighter function and want to go back and read my highlights tomorrow. Good quotes, good ideas. I think I might check out her blog too.
Started the Longevity book. Mainly base level "how your body works" information. Parts of a cell, organs, etc. So far, not info that's helpful. I'm scanning more than reading, but I'll scan the rest. Can't hurt.
I'm up before my alarm. A bit "forced" since I didn't want an actual alarm to go off (wake hubby on weekend). When I woke up to go to the bathroom, I stayed aware of the time. I want to run outside, but I want to still run in the dark (weird I know).
Advantages of the dark:
I wear an oversized reflector vest so I can wear anything underneath.
Run in the street. I can see cars coming to jump on sidewalk (sidewalks are so uneven for running).
No sunscreen, hat or glasses needed.
People can't "really" see me!!
Way, way less pedestrian traffic. Pain to run around dogs, kids, chatty lady groups, etc.
Workout finished early!!
I want just one day of outside running. So one day I need to get up early. Seems reasonable to me. I need to keep up the getting up, getting going, active days ... otherwise I can (and will) become a blob on the sofa.
So I did one thing ahead of MHP tomorrow (but I'll still put it on my list!) ... changed my password to an empowering message. I've heard that before and was reminded reading the book. So every time I log on the computer I need to "think" and write that message. Turned out it was a pain to do ... lesson in frustration and patience. And the computer wasn't happy with my choice of empowerment - the nerve. We finally agreed lol. The task was not happy, but the result is ... suck it computer!!
I really have nothing in particular planned today. I might start my list today ... at least start a sloppy copy to get the brain juices flowing.
I need to cook too. On empty and even when I'm not working it's a problem to cook every meal to order. I get hungry and coming home to cook (sometimes takes 45 mins or longer) is not a good option all the time. I was scrambling yesterday. I don't want to eat just eggs and green beans!!
I'm finally getting in a good head space about stopping the "all" this Friday for my happy hour night. It's time. I need to make that balance happen. I also need to understand that BALANCE is WORK too. All too easy for me to forget. The focus will be on friends, fun, entertaining, etc and I will also enjoy some wine (not a bottle, but enough). Then life will continue just like today. Eating healthy, no junk, no drinking. When a special occasion happens - I can choose what I want. When it's not special, then I choose HEALTHY.
Okay - off to run. Later gators.
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I finished The Happiness Project book yesterday. Turns out when I read awake (not sleepy before bed) the reading goes faster lol. It was a lot of words for thought. I used the highlighter function and want to go back and read my highlights tomorrow. Good quotes, good ideas. I think I might check out her blog too.
Started the Longevity book. Mainly base level "how your body works" information. Parts of a cell, organs, etc. So far, not info that's helpful. I'm scanning more than reading, but I'll scan the rest. Can't hurt.
I'm up before my alarm. A bit "forced" since I didn't want an actual alarm to go off (wake hubby on weekend). When I woke up to go to the bathroom, I stayed aware of the time. I want to run outside, but I want to still run in the dark (weird I know).
Advantages of the dark:
I wear an oversized reflector vest so I can wear anything underneath.
Run in the street. I can see cars coming to jump on sidewalk (sidewalks are so uneven for running).
No sunscreen, hat or glasses needed.
People can't "really" see me!!
Way, way less pedestrian traffic. Pain to run around dogs, kids, chatty lady groups, etc.
Workout finished early!!
I want just one day of outside running. So one day I need to get up early. Seems reasonable to me. I need to keep up the getting up, getting going, active days ... otherwise I can (and will) become a blob on the sofa.
So I did one thing ahead of MHP tomorrow (but I'll still put it on my list!) ... changed my password to an empowering message. I've heard that before and was reminded reading the book. So every time I log on the computer I need to "think" and write that message. Turned out it was a pain to do ... lesson in frustration and patience. And the computer wasn't happy with my choice of empowerment - the nerve. We finally agreed lol. The task was not happy, but the result is ... suck it computer!!
I really have nothing in particular planned today. I might start my list today ... at least start a sloppy copy to get the brain juices flowing.
I need to cook too. On empty and even when I'm not working it's a problem to cook every meal to order. I get hungry and coming home to cook (sometimes takes 45 mins or longer) is not a good option all the time. I was scrambling yesterday. I don't want to eat just eggs and green beans!!
I'm finally getting in a good head space about stopping the "all" this Friday for my happy hour night. It's time. I need to make that balance happen. I also need to understand that BALANCE is WORK too. All too easy for me to forget. The focus will be on friends, fun, entertaining, etc and I will also enjoy some wine (not a bottle, but enough). Then life will continue just like today. Eating healthy, no junk, no drinking. When a special occasion happens - I can choose what I want. When it's not special, then I choose HEALTHY.
Okay - off to run. Later gators.
Saturday, September 10, 2016
Rest and Recovery
Today is an R&R day - in lots of ways.
My body gets a break from working out. (I can "feel" my lifting workout, but I can still move - yea!!)
I need my "work-hangover" recovery too. I'm tired. And, unfortunately, my stomach woke me up at 4:45am for multiple bathroom trips. So now I'm "up" ... barely. Did I mention I'm tired??
Yesterday was very nice. Felt the love. Lots of kind words, big hugs, compliant lunch (they scrapped breakfast since I "eat weird" lol) and a $100 Starbucks card. I mention the amount because - wow!! Let the coffee drinking begin! I have a lot of mixed feelings (but I'm tired so they will have to wait lol).
We have a bit of stress back in our lives. This crazy work time for hubby got unexpectedly extra crazy. Sale may be on hold. It's not a horrible thing (and in the long run might be a good thing) but for now it means stress.
Also, (probably no big deal) I'm having trouble with food feeling "stuck" in my throat. Am I chewing like a moron? Rushing my eating? A couple of days ago a green bean got stuck. And I often think it feels like I have a lump in my throat. I clear my throat for about 10 min after I eat. Just odd stuff. Someone mentioned thyroid nodules. Had an (unofficial) ultrasound at work yesterday. Nodules - some of concern - just a watch and see. I need to schedule a physical. But doc said they wouldn't cause my lump issue. I'm probably being paranoid ... ugh.
I was too tired to read last night. I'll have to push to get through The Happiness Project by Monday. I hope it picks up again. Not as relatable (for me) as it was in the beginning. I'm glad I'm waiting until Monday to begin all this HAPPY lol- gives me a couple recovery days so I'll be pumped and energetic to get started.
I did well expecting a rough eating day. I ate a lot, but all good stuff. Planning does help - doesn't always work, but it does help. Yesterday it worked.
Late this afternoon we are playing golf. My first time back. I might not play every hole - pacing myself (per orders!). Either way, it will be nice relaxing time with my main man.
The rest of today is full of R&R. Walk the dog, Starbucks, watch hubby play tennis and a couple of phone call catch ups planned. By tomorrow I should be rested, recovered and AMAZING!!
My body gets a break from working out. (I can "feel" my lifting workout, but I can still move - yea!!)
I need my "work-hangover" recovery too. I'm tired. And, unfortunately, my stomach woke me up at 4:45am for multiple bathroom trips. So now I'm "up" ... barely. Did I mention I'm tired??
Yesterday was very nice. Felt the love. Lots of kind words, big hugs, compliant lunch (they scrapped breakfast since I "eat weird" lol) and a $100 Starbucks card. I mention the amount because - wow!! Let the coffee drinking begin! I have a lot of mixed feelings (but I'm tired so they will have to wait lol).
We have a bit of stress back in our lives. This crazy work time for hubby got unexpectedly extra crazy. Sale may be on hold. It's not a horrible thing (and in the long run might be a good thing) but for now it means stress.
Also, (probably no big deal) I'm having trouble with food feeling "stuck" in my throat. Am I chewing like a moron? Rushing my eating? A couple of days ago a green bean got stuck. And I often think it feels like I have a lump in my throat. I clear my throat for about 10 min after I eat. Just odd stuff. Someone mentioned thyroid nodules. Had an (unofficial) ultrasound at work yesterday. Nodules - some of concern - just a watch and see. I need to schedule a physical. But doc said they wouldn't cause my lump issue. I'm probably being paranoid ... ugh.
I was too tired to read last night. I'll have to push to get through The Happiness Project by Monday. I hope it picks up again. Not as relatable (for me) as it was in the beginning. I'm glad I'm waiting until Monday to begin all this HAPPY lol- gives me a couple recovery days so I'll be pumped and energetic to get started.
I did well expecting a rough eating day. I ate a lot, but all good stuff. Planning does help - doesn't always work, but it does help. Yesterday it worked.
Late this afternoon we are playing golf. My first time back. I might not play every hole - pacing myself (per orders!). Either way, it will be nice relaxing time with my main man.
The rest of today is full of R&R. Walk the dog, Starbucks, watch hubby play tennis and a couple of phone call catch ups planned. By tomorrow I should be rested, recovered and AMAZING!!
Friday, September 9, 2016
One and Done.
This is it - final day. Oh boy. Good and bad. It's time. I'm ready.
I was sound asleep when my alarm went off. Probably lots of muscle recovery happening. I'm sore-ish but not too bad. Maybe I'm starting off better than I thought? (Or maybe the sore is still coming lol.)
Final EARLY, EARLY morning run. I'll miss it. I'll still do one outside run a week (early, but not this early). First, I need to wake up. I'm moving so slowly this morning - so glad I prep EVERYTHING - practically can start my day in my sleep.
Read some more of The Happiness Project book last night. It's losing a bit of it's thunder for me. Chapters are dragging out a bit, but there are still "gems" to make it worth the read. I need to finish it this weekend. My list is calling!!
I don't even have my list written and I ordered something for my list lol!! Monday is create-list-day.
Today is going to be a challenge in the eating department. I mentioned the breakfast ... probably carb central. Then a friend said he was buying me lunch. I declined (my lunch is packed already) but he's insisting. We'll see. Again - don't want to be rude, but I need to be careful. A not so good breakfast and lunch (topped with celebration, etc) can lead me face first into junk tonight. It's tonight that I'm worried about. Staying focused.
I know I sound nuts - too obsessed. Soon I'll start "riding-my-bike" and that is the time when I fall down the slippery slope. I need to focus on balance. Treats are for special moments. NOT a night sitting on the sofa, or junk eating in the car on the way home from work, or crappy food during the day "just because."
The balance is keeping treats to special times. Actual SPECIAL times. I can make anything in my head "special" ... today doesn't meet my criteria.
Speaking of which (treats that is) - baking went off without a hitch. No cravings, no desire for a batter-lick - easy peasy. It's so funny how sometimes it's no big deal at all and other times I have to practically tape my mouth shut. I'll take the easy. Of course, I'm greedy - I want ALL easy!!
Okay it's that time. Wish me luck. Wish me focus.
I was sound asleep when my alarm went off. Probably lots of muscle recovery happening. I'm sore-ish but not too bad. Maybe I'm starting off better than I thought? (Or maybe the sore is still coming lol.)
Final EARLY, EARLY morning run. I'll miss it. I'll still do one outside run a week (early, but not this early). First, I need to wake up. I'm moving so slowly this morning - so glad I prep EVERYTHING - practically can start my day in my sleep.
Read some more of The Happiness Project book last night. It's losing a bit of it's thunder for me. Chapters are dragging out a bit, but there are still "gems" to make it worth the read. I need to finish it this weekend. My list is calling!!
I don't even have my list written and I ordered something for my list lol!! Monday is create-list-day.
Today is going to be a challenge in the eating department. I mentioned the breakfast ... probably carb central. Then a friend said he was buying me lunch. I declined (my lunch is packed already) but he's insisting. We'll see. Again - don't want to be rude, but I need to be careful. A not so good breakfast and lunch (topped with celebration, etc) can lead me face first into junk tonight. It's tonight that I'm worried about. Staying focused.
I know I sound nuts - too obsessed. Soon I'll start "riding-my-bike" and that is the time when I fall down the slippery slope. I need to focus on balance. Treats are for special moments. NOT a night sitting on the sofa, or junk eating in the car on the way home from work, or crappy food during the day "just because."
The balance is keeping treats to special times. Actual SPECIAL times. I can make anything in my head "special" ... today doesn't meet my criteria.
Speaking of which (treats that is) - baking went off without a hitch. No cravings, no desire for a batter-lick - easy peasy. It's so funny how sometimes it's no big deal at all and other times I have to practically tape my mouth shut. I'll take the easy. Of course, I'm greedy - I want ALL easy!!
Okay it's that time. Wish me luck. Wish me focus.
Thursday, September 8, 2016
I did it!!
Today was the first day EVER I did strength training only - no cardio at all. And it was FABULOUS! I'm going to be sore. Oh so sore ... but yea!!! I signed up for the rest of the year. It books up so quickly (only 10 spots). I'm set!
I also figured out what my new workout schedule will look like most weeks. I like having a plan - but a plan with flexibility. I think it will be great. Since I'm up-ing the workouts, I now have 2 days off. Rest, recovery - yep!
I wonder if I'll be able to lift my arms tomorrow???
I also figured out what my new workout schedule will look like most weeks. I like having a plan - but a plan with flexibility. I think it will be great. Since I'm up-ing the workouts, I now have 2 days off. Rest, recovery - yep!
I wonder if I'll be able to lift my arms tomorrow???
Dichotomy - Barbells and Baking
Pumping the proverbial iron today. First time EVER. I probably won't be able to move tomorrow (or the next several days lol).
Then baking for my last day at work. Lots of goodies. Need to be careful - baking in the afternoon is "dangerous" for me.
Had an unexpected visit from youngest yesterday. Came for dinner. Love those quick visits, love seeing that guy - just a good night.
Lunch with my realtor (and friend) was great. On-point conversation. She's had a concussion and we talked about how "crazy" we felt. Helped validate the experience for me (I really felt crazy some of the time - still do sometimes). She is also very knowledgeable about yoga, strength training, meditation, etc. Learned some good stuff and made me even more excited to begin this new focus on fitness.
Tomorrow will also be a red-letter day (is that an expression?). Last day of work = celebration. Situational craving (an "I deserve" moment). I need to find another focus - not junk related. Find another way to celebrate.
Also, work is making breakfast for me - I'll need to do some creative moves to avoid eating stuff I don't want to - I don't want to be rude. But I also want to respect myself. I wish they didn't do anything (honestly) or did lunch - better choices. Breakfast will be a slew of carbs. But I need to be gracious and appreciative - it's really a nice thing!!
I had a little (and I mean little) "spell" yesterday in the grocery store. Just a moment of that weird feeling. I really hope it was nothing. I plan to golf Saturday. If that feeling comes back again, I'll visit Dr. Sun and see what's going on. I like golfing A LOT and don't want to give it up! (I'd LOVE it if I was better at it lol.)
I was too tired last night to read. I want to finish the book by Monday so I can begin my list (armed with lots of good information and ideas). (And I have another book waiting in the wings - a novel - love a good read). Oh, and I forgot about a book I was reading (Longevity) - found it tucked away. Fits with the changes I'm making.
Good stuff happening.
So a dichotomy day it is - leather and lace - barbells and baking.
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
MHP coming into focus.
I'm doing some more "thinking" on My Happiness Project as I'm officially beginning it next week. Taking inspiration from the book - I'm going to create a MHP bucket list. Things to do while on this hiatus - things I want to learn, try, experience etc. I'll type it up, print it out and see it everyday.
I think this will go a long way to keep me from being bored or lazy or too complacent.
In my "research" on HAPPINESS, this kind of try-new-things is a fun way to explore EVERYTHING! I've done simpler versions during times in my life and I know it resonates with me. I'm actually really EXCITED to do this (or dare I say ... just making the list makes me HAPPY?!?). Anticipation of achieving goals, anticipation of being HAPPY ... that's an element in having a happy day, month, life.
The list will cover everything - big, little, fun, to-do projects that need to be completed (not fun, but the completion should bring on the happy!!). You name it. And when I work the list, I'll try to get to a nice round (or meaningful) number - because I like order lol!!
I think most will be single experiences, but I also want a sub-list that has stuff I want to work on regularly.
Try a new recipe (once a week??)
Re-visit Rosetta Stone spanish (if I can get it working again)
Review some nursing notes (I actually like doing this a lot)
Do a good deliberate good deed (once a week??)
I want to put some parameters on how often, but I don't want it to feel too scheduled or too much an obligation - this should be fun, make my HAPPY - not annoyed. And if I don't like something, I want to be able to LET IT GO. (On a side note - I just heard this song for the first time on the way into work - I added a couple of new XM stations - good song.) I don't want the list in anyway to make me feel bad about myself - that is not the point to this project. That said, I want to push myself too. I think I can make that distinction.
Oh, how fun this will be (*hand clasp*)!! The "stuff" will be great, but I do LOVE a list and this is the mother-load of a list. Check, check, check!!
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So after that fabulous revelation, here's the scoop on today.
Workout is one of those odd days again. Tomorrow is my first weightlifting class and I want my muscles rested - but I want to workout today. I think a quick down-and-dirty is the way to go today.
BTW, my running the last few times was really good. I don't know it it's the cooler weather or I'm FINALLY improving. I'm tempted to time the run, but wonder if that's like the scale (doesn't matter). If the trend continues, I will take a timed run (probably!).
Lunch with our realtor who just helped the odd rice crispies neighbor find the house. Turns out, this lady blows everyone off. So I'm no longer offended, but I'm done reaching out. All good. It will be nice to catch up with Pamela and the restaurant it a good one!
Trip to WholeFoods for some exploration of W30 new sauces. Expensive to order, but I think they might be sold there.
And Starbucks, walk the dog, wash the sheets ... all that stuff too :-)
I think this will go a long way to keep me from being bored or lazy or too complacent.
In my "research" on HAPPINESS, this kind of try-new-things is a fun way to explore EVERYTHING! I've done simpler versions during times in my life and I know it resonates with me. I'm actually really EXCITED to do this (or dare I say ... just making the list makes me HAPPY?!?). Anticipation of achieving goals, anticipation of being HAPPY ... that's an element in having a happy day, month, life.
The list will cover everything - big, little, fun, to-do projects that need to be completed (not fun, but the completion should bring on the happy!!). You name it. And when I work the list, I'll try to get to a nice round (or meaningful) number - because I like order lol!!
I think most will be single experiences, but I also want a sub-list that has stuff I want to work on regularly.
Try a new recipe (once a week??)
Re-visit Rosetta Stone spanish (if I can get it working again)
Review some nursing notes (I actually like doing this a lot)
Do a good deliberate good deed (once a week??)
I want to put some parameters on how often, but I don't want it to feel too scheduled or too much an obligation - this should be fun, make my HAPPY - not annoyed. And if I don't like something, I want to be able to LET IT GO. (On a side note - I just heard this song for the first time on the way into work - I added a couple of new XM stations - good song.) I don't want the list in anyway to make me feel bad about myself - that is not the point to this project. That said, I want to push myself too. I think I can make that distinction.
Oh, how fun this will be (*hand clasp*)!! The "stuff" will be great, but I do LOVE a list and this is the mother-load of a list. Check, check, check!!
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So after that fabulous revelation, here's the scoop on today.
Workout is one of those odd days again. Tomorrow is my first weightlifting class and I want my muscles rested - but I want to workout today. I think a quick down-and-dirty is the way to go today.
BTW, my running the last few times was really good. I don't know it it's the cooler weather or I'm FINALLY improving. I'm tempted to time the run, but wonder if that's like the scale (doesn't matter). If the trend continues, I will take a timed run (probably!).
Lunch with our realtor who just helped the odd rice crispies neighbor find the house. Turns out, this lady blows everyone off. So I'm no longer offended, but I'm done reaching out. All good. It will be nice to catch up with Pamela and the restaurant it a good one!
Trip to WholeFoods for some exploration of W30 new sauces. Expensive to order, but I think they might be sold there.
And Starbucks, walk the dog, wash the sheets ... all that stuff too :-)
Tuesday, September 6, 2016
Two, 2, Dos, Deux
Can you guess it? Two shifts left. I'm still in that odd place - two seems like forever (when will it be over?) and two makes me sad (I'm going to miss my friends). I live so far from work, I won't see them again. They'll become Facebook buddies and fade out of my life (and me out of theirs). The commute is horrible - the job and people are fantastic.
Eating was great again yesterday (i.e. cravings under control). I think the situational thing has merit. Now I know a weak spot and, hopefully, can control it. Did I mention how excited I am for the W30 book to come out in a month? I have high hopes this will help guide me through this BALANCE.
I love the way my clothes fit. I love how I'm sleeping. I don't want that to be over in a month. I don't want to start over AGAIN. I want to keep going in BALANCE - adjustments, tweaks, etc - no problem. That's normal, expected - part of living.
My focus has been on feeling better. I do (mostly) but I also have days I don't. 53 days in ... I imagine that won't change. I think that's where some of the willpower is fading - is this the best it gets? Time to adjust my focus a bit. I want to see how "fit" I can get with my new workout routine. Stronger, leaner, muscle definition. All that needs a good diet, focus and motivation.
Also, the cornerstone to My Happiness Project is feeling good and feeling good about myself. I won't be as happy as I want if that is not in place.
Good - 3 focus points, 3 reasons for BALANCE.
Good health.
Good fitness.
Happy Project.
Speaking of which, I did some more reading last night. I'm about halfway through. Now that Game of Throne is over (AMAZING season!!), I'll be back to night reading. Next week I'll write MHP plan and get busy making me HAPPY!!
Time to run. Later gators.
Eating was great again yesterday (i.e. cravings under control). I think the situational thing has merit. Now I know a weak spot and, hopefully, can control it. Did I mention how excited I am for the W30 book to come out in a month? I have high hopes this will help guide me through this BALANCE.
I love the way my clothes fit. I love how I'm sleeping. I don't want that to be over in a month. I don't want to start over AGAIN. I want to keep going in BALANCE - adjustments, tweaks, etc - no problem. That's normal, expected - part of living.
My focus has been on feeling better. I do (mostly) but I also have days I don't. 53 days in ... I imagine that won't change. I think that's where some of the willpower is fading - is this the best it gets? Time to adjust my focus a bit. I want to see how "fit" I can get with my new workout routine. Stronger, leaner, muscle definition. All that needs a good diet, focus and motivation.
Also, the cornerstone to My Happiness Project is feeling good and feeling good about myself. I won't be as happy as I want if that is not in place.
Good - 3 focus points, 3 reasons for BALANCE.
Good health.
Good fitness.
Happy Project.
Speaking of which, I did some more reading last night. I'm about halfway through. Now that Game of Throne is over (AMAZING season!!), I'll be back to night reading. Next week I'll write MHP plan and get busy making me HAPPY!!
Time to run. Later gators.
Monday, September 5, 2016
Labor Day.
Yesterday was "normal" ... my new normal. Ate just fine, not too much.
I had a brief craving for some wine - not even a craving so much as a thought. Hubby poured a drink (he doesn't drink often) and asked if I wanted something. It would have been nice - sipping with him, drinking-loves-company sort of thing. But I said no-thanks and the thought was over.
I wonder if my cravings are just situational. Friday and Saturday both felt vacation-mode (at least holiday weekend mode) and I "craved" all day. Had a big woe-is-me party - why can't I drink, eat junk and totally stuff myself? Everyone is having a FUN, PARTY weekend (or even week) and I'm cooking green beans. Wow - living the life.
The choice is mine. There is no wrong answer, just what I want my life to be - my goal, my life.
I knew it would get harder the longer I've been "good." The "I deserve" thoughts are coming on strong. The goal is balance. I'm not at balance yet (still doing the "all").
It's a start to a mindset shift. But just a start. This food reward is well ingrained in my brain. I still "fear" when I let myself start to drink again - will every situation become "special?" Will it taste so good, feel so good (temporarily) that I want it (have it) too much?
I was thinking recently about a pendulum. I swing all-or-nothing through the entire range of the pendulum. If I swung the full "all" (because I like that) and just allowed myself to swing to midline (not all the way in the other direction) ... that feels like BALANCE to ME. (Even thought it's ironically not balance in a pendulum - lol.) A couple of glasses of wine is not a big deal. It is when it's every night and it's with cheese, crackers, cupcakes - you get the picture - it is a big deal.
Lordy, this is a challenge. Challenges are doable with work. I'm working it.
Anyway - today ...
I woke up with a headache (again). Allergies or a little cold - I don't know but I am under-the-weather. Not sure what workout is in the books. This week's workout schedule is a little mixed up and I have a few "freedom" days to figure out - today is one of them. I'm running tomorrow so I guess tabata today with arms focus?? Next week starts my full new workout regiment (super excited to finally go at it) ... so I'm not overly concerned about this week. I'll do what feels good (which is such a nice break!).
The rest of the day is some errands, some bill paying and (hopefully) the final 2 episodes of Game of Thrones (woohoo!).
Off to find my zen. Happy Labor Day.
I had a brief craving for some wine - not even a craving so much as a thought. Hubby poured a drink (he doesn't drink often) and asked if I wanted something. It would have been nice - sipping with him, drinking-loves-company sort of thing. But I said no-thanks and the thought was over.
I wonder if my cravings are just situational. Friday and Saturday both felt vacation-mode (at least holiday weekend mode) and I "craved" all day. Had a big woe-is-me party - why can't I drink, eat junk and totally stuff myself? Everyone is having a FUN, PARTY weekend (or even week) and I'm cooking green beans. Wow - living the life.
The choice is mine. There is no wrong answer, just what I want my life to be - my goal, my life.
I knew it would get harder the longer I've been "good." The "I deserve" thoughts are coming on strong. The goal is balance. I'm not at balance yet (still doing the "all").
It's a start to a mindset shift. But just a start. This food reward is well ingrained in my brain. I still "fear" when I let myself start to drink again - will every situation become "special?" Will it taste so good, feel so good (temporarily) that I want it (have it) too much?
I was thinking recently about a pendulum. I swing all-or-nothing through the entire range of the pendulum. If I swung the full "all" (because I like that) and just allowed myself to swing to midline (not all the way in the other direction) ... that feels like BALANCE to ME. (Even thought it's ironically not balance in a pendulum - lol.) A couple of glasses of wine is not a big deal. It is when it's every night and it's with cheese, crackers, cupcakes - you get the picture - it is a big deal.
Lordy, this is a challenge. Challenges are doable with work. I'm working it.
Anyway - today ...
I woke up with a headache (again). Allergies or a little cold - I don't know but I am under-the-weather. Not sure what workout is in the books. This week's workout schedule is a little mixed up and I have a few "freedom" days to figure out - today is one of them. I'm running tomorrow so I guess tabata today with arms focus?? Next week starts my full new workout regiment (super excited to finally go at it) ... so I'm not overly concerned about this week. I'll do what feels good (which is such a nice break!).
The rest of the day is some errands, some bill paying and (hopefully) the final 2 episodes of Game of Thrones (woohoo!).
Off to find my zen. Happy Labor Day.
Sunday, September 4, 2016
More words for (every)TODAY
The real value of setting goals
is not the recognition or reward,
it's the person we become by finding
the discipline, courage and commitment
to achieve them.
A good goal should
SCARE you a little
and EXCITE you a lot.
Joe Vitale
Words for Today (and EVERYDAY)
Peace is the result of
retraining your mind
to process life as it is,
rather than as you think it should be.
Wayne Dyer
A Close Call.
The hike and picnic yesterday was AWESOME! We had the best time. The hike was beautiful and we doubled back after to eat on the rocks with our feet in a pool of water and running stream all around. The weather was best all summer - lower humidity - actually cool by the water. The picnic food "bento" boxes were fun.
On the way home I started feeling crappy. Hello cold?? or allergies?? Headache, sneezing, stuffy head.
We decided to hold the bbq until tonight. (We were both tired.)
Late afternoon (and through all evening) I was MASSIVELY craving eating junk and opening a bottle of wine. It took every ounce of willpower and every trick in my book to resist. Was I tired? Was I feeling crappy? Was I jealous of my hubby eating junk all night? I have no idea. I ate "compliant" but not "well." No veggies with dinner - just strawberries and nuts (with my eggs and ham). And too much eating.
It was a very close call.
I wonder if I need to relax my crazy restrictions and start "riding-my-bike" (as W30 calls it). Maybe the tight restrictions are backfiring a bit. Sixty days is just a made-up number (by me). But I need the off-roading to be worth it - special - not a throw-in-the-towel moment, but a planned, fun, delicious moment. Like when I finish work next week - a celebration.
I hate that I feel crappy today. I know "everyone" is sick with back-to-school colds, etc. I hoped HEALTHY me was more immune. I am rundown this morning. Legs are super tired (tabata plus hike). I'm taking today completely off working out.
Hitting the range (first time since fall), getting my nails done (I broke 3 on the hike - bummer!), having an easy bbq with hubby on the deck (weather this weekend is spot-on) and last but not least Game of Thrones (season 6 is fantastic!).
RECOVERY is the theme today. Recovery from hard workouts (you're welcome legs). Recovery from too much eating (lots of veggies today). Recovery from the mental beating last night (I wasn't happy how I handled the cravings and the head talk was exhausting).
One of the "tricks" last night was thinking about having to write about a slip-up this morning. I know I'm the only one here, but I sort of pretend I'm not (still crazy). It helps hold me accountable.
Okay folks - that about does it. Looking for my zen today. This Happiness Project is harder than it sounds!
On the way home I started feeling crappy. Hello cold?? or allergies?? Headache, sneezing, stuffy head.
We decided to hold the bbq until tonight. (We were both tired.)
Late afternoon (and through all evening) I was MASSIVELY craving eating junk and opening a bottle of wine. It took every ounce of willpower and every trick in my book to resist. Was I tired? Was I feeling crappy? Was I jealous of my hubby eating junk all night? I have no idea. I ate "compliant" but not "well." No veggies with dinner - just strawberries and nuts (with my eggs and ham). And too much eating.
It was a very close call.
I wonder if I need to relax my crazy restrictions and start "riding-my-bike" (as W30 calls it). Maybe the tight restrictions are backfiring a bit. Sixty days is just a made-up number (by me). But I need the off-roading to be worth it - special - not a throw-in-the-towel moment, but a planned, fun, delicious moment. Like when I finish work next week - a celebration.
I hate that I feel crappy today. I know "everyone" is sick with back-to-school colds, etc. I hoped HEALTHY me was more immune. I am rundown this morning. Legs are super tired (tabata plus hike). I'm taking today completely off working out.
Hitting the range (first time since fall), getting my nails done (I broke 3 on the hike - bummer!), having an easy bbq with hubby on the deck (weather this weekend is spot-on) and last but not least Game of Thrones (season 6 is fantastic!).
RECOVERY is the theme today. Recovery from hard workouts (you're welcome legs). Recovery from too much eating (lots of veggies today). Recovery from the mental beating last night (I wasn't happy how I handled the cravings and the head talk was exhausting).
One of the "tricks" last night was thinking about having to write about a slip-up this morning. I know I'm the only one here, but I sort of pretend I'm not (still crazy). It helps hold me accountable.
Okay folks - that about does it. Looking for my zen today. This Happiness Project is harder than it sounds!
Saturday, September 3, 2016
Today is brought to you by My Happiness Project.
Variety, uncertainty, "adventure" ... all part of My Happiness Project. Trouble is, I do this with people ... and by people, I mean not just me and hubby.
I'm changing that.
Today is a hike. I've been once before, but it's so worth going back. Beautiful water, challenging hike, old ruins from grain mills (parts of Hunger Games filmed there) - it's great. About 45 min away. Packing a picnic lunch to eat out on the rocks overlooking the running water.
Before MHP I'd never have "gone to the trouble" for just me and hubby. Someone else would need to make it worth while. We'd go for a walk (maybe) but local and no picnic.
If I'm really going to make an effort to be HAPPY ... enjoy the everyday ... WE are worth the effort. Things worthwhile require an effort. And, honestly, the effort itself is fun.
And it fits the new "game plan" for adventure (i.e. not all about eating junk and drinking). The lunch is healthy (and delicious) and we'll be hungry after the hike. A holiday weekend would normally look like eating out and drinking (probably 2 of the 3 nights). The adventure would be "where should we go?" I need to stop longing for THAT as my only option- it's forgettable, average, boring, unhealthy. Today is a healthy day mentally, physically - and I bet we remember it long after a bottle of wine.
Anyhoo...
I'm up just ahead of my alarm today again. Relaxing morning. I'll walk the dog, pack the lunch and start the day.
P.S. I haven't read anymore of the book. Too tired the past few nights. I'll get back to it soon. Once I finished work next week, I'm going to work on more details of MHP. I have some ideas brewing.
I'm changing that.
Today is a hike. I've been once before, but it's so worth going back. Beautiful water, challenging hike, old ruins from grain mills (parts of Hunger Games filmed there) - it's great. About 45 min away. Packing a picnic lunch to eat out on the rocks overlooking the running water.
Before MHP I'd never have "gone to the trouble" for just me and hubby. Someone else would need to make it worth while. We'd go for a walk (maybe) but local and no picnic.
If I'm really going to make an effort to be HAPPY ... enjoy the everyday ... WE are worth the effort. Things worthwhile require an effort. And, honestly, the effort itself is fun.
And it fits the new "game plan" for adventure (i.e. not all about eating junk and drinking). The lunch is healthy (and delicious) and we'll be hungry after the hike. A holiday weekend would normally look like eating out and drinking (probably 2 of the 3 nights). The adventure would be "where should we go?" I need to stop longing for THAT as my only option- it's forgettable, average, boring, unhealthy. Today is a healthy day mentally, physically - and I bet we remember it long after a bottle of wine.
Anyhoo...
I'm up just ahead of my alarm today again. Relaxing morning. I'll walk the dog, pack the lunch and start the day.
P.S. I haven't read anymore of the book. Too tired the past few nights. I'll get back to it soon. Once I finished work next week, I'm going to work on more details of MHP. I have some ideas brewing.
Friday, September 2, 2016
A thought ...
Today was a good day. Great tabata class, fun lunch with thoughtful conversation, shopping for a picnic lunch after our hike tomorrow ... and yet, I started wanting MORE.
Fun Friday + holiday weekend + post-stress weeks = want to celebrate = want to eat, drink and be merry. It's interesting how the craving come on with great force. Sudden and sneaky bastards.
Fortunately, a yummy (and big) dinner solved the problem. I'm frustrated having to "fight" all of a sudden. Still hoping this is some last breathe of the big demon before it become a tame and manageable "whatever."
Well, that's my thought for tonight. Battle won. War raging on.
Fun Friday + holiday weekend + post-stress weeks = want to celebrate = want to eat, drink and be merry. It's interesting how the craving come on with great force. Sudden and sneaky bastards.
Fortunately, a yummy (and big) dinner solved the problem. I'm frustrated having to "fight" all of a sudden. Still hoping this is some last breathe of the big demon before it become a tame and manageable "whatever."
Well, that's my thought for tonight. Battle won. War raging on.
Soon everyday will be Friday!
Happy Friday.
Up way before my alarm so guess I'll get the day started early.
Fun list today with added dog walk and Starbucks run (now that I'm up).
I was thinking last night how much I enjoy this blog (actually more a journal). It's a good therapy session. So many "experts" recommend a journal - I now understand. At first it felt self-serving ... but duh, that's the point. There is a magic in writing, not just thinking.
I'm relieved to have those cravings under control again. When I'm stressing my willpower bank, I get worried I'll give in (give up). I had an awesome food dream where I ate everything crappy and loved it!! These dreams are perfect - I get the "feelings" with out the guilt! Cake, ice cream and wine - was just going for the cheese when I woke up lol!
I wonder where they came from?? The night of nuts and dried fruit?? That seems like a stretch. Obsessing on happy hour in September - maybe? Hormones - maybe? I can't say it enough - this time the goal is to STOP YO-YOing!! Balance, moderation - NOT ON-OFF!!!
Focus on the goal. Focus on being healthy. My Happiness Project. Lots of details to be planned still but the focus has shape already. A worthwhile goal takes work, energy, focus, determination. I am working this goal ... not just "hoping" this goal. That's the difference.
Okay folks - it's that time. Off to zen my Friday.
Up way before my alarm so guess I'll get the day started early.
Fun list today with added dog walk and Starbucks run (now that I'm up).
I was thinking last night how much I enjoy this blog (actually more a journal). It's a good therapy session. So many "experts" recommend a journal - I now understand. At first it felt self-serving ... but duh, that's the point. There is a magic in writing, not just thinking.
I'm relieved to have those cravings under control again. When I'm stressing my willpower bank, I get worried I'll give in (give up). I had an awesome food dream where I ate everything crappy and loved it!! These dreams are perfect - I get the "feelings" with out the guilt! Cake, ice cream and wine - was just going for the cheese when I woke up lol!
I wonder where they came from?? The night of nuts and dried fruit?? That seems like a stretch. Obsessing on happy hour in September - maybe? Hormones - maybe? I can't say it enough - this time the goal is to STOP YO-YOing!! Balance, moderation - NOT ON-OFF!!!
Focus on the goal. Focus on being healthy. My Happiness Project. Lots of details to be planned still but the focus has shape already. A worthwhile goal takes work, energy, focus, determination. I am working this goal ... not just "hoping" this goal. That's the difference.
Okay folks - it's that time. Off to zen my Friday.
Thursday, September 1, 2016
Let the Weekend Begin ...
... after a good night's sleep.
I'm SO excited to be down to 2 shifts - goodbye traffic, goodbye backache, goodbye call ... yea!
Today felt better on the eating front. No cravings at all. Ate a good (but big) dinner and felt "done." Belly full, body tired, mind accomplished and ready for bed.
Tomorrow will be fun. Tabata (finally - I've missed it), lunch with an old high school friend (at the "fancy" mall), errands to avoid the cleaning ladies, sofa time with hubby and Game of Thrones. Sounds like a winner to me.
Labor Day Weekend and I'm over grilled stuff. Summer is LONG in the south. I've been hunting for a new recipe to try this weekend. I'll do some more searching tomorrow. A home cooked dinner sounds like a plan this weekend. Maybe I'll just do burgers and homemade french fries. Hubby would be happy and it works for me too. Easy to shop and make too. Okay - I'll postpone the new recipe thing - it's a plan!
Goodnight all.
I'm SO excited to be down to 2 shifts - goodbye traffic, goodbye backache, goodbye call ... yea!
Today felt better on the eating front. No cravings at all. Ate a good (but big) dinner and felt "done." Belly full, body tired, mind accomplished and ready for bed.
Tomorrow will be fun. Tabata (finally - I've missed it), lunch with an old high school friend (at the "fancy" mall), errands to avoid the cleaning ladies, sofa time with hubby and Game of Thrones. Sounds like a winner to me.
Labor Day Weekend and I'm over grilled stuff. Summer is LONG in the south. I've been hunting for a new recipe to try this weekend. I'll do some more searching tomorrow. A home cooked dinner sounds like a plan this weekend. Maybe I'll just do burgers and homemade french fries. Hubby would be happy and it works for me too. Easy to shop and make too. Okay - I'll postpone the new recipe thing - it's a plan!
Goodnight all.
Three ... (Two ... One ...)
Oh the excitement! Three more shifts! I (mostly) can't wait. But based on my dreams, my ego is still taking a hit at being an "off" nurse right now (or "off" in 3 shifts). That said, I slept so well last night (even with crazy dreams) - woke up minutes before my alarm - perfect.
I think what I'm most nervous about not working is being bored. Bored = boredom eating = pants don't fit. Last night I went to bed really early since I'm working today. Today I will go to be early because I've gotten up so early. No eating problems either night. I get this reprieve at least 4 nights a week. Soon I can stay up later (and should stay up later - who goes to bed at 7pm just because?!?!). Nights are hard.
Time to stay focused. Except all of a sudden I have these cravings ... and in a couple of weeks will host a happy-hour party ... let the okay-to-drink start again. I worry it's a slippery slope.
My goal is very specific - STOP YO-YOing!! I know I can always "get back" to here, but it's usually not until I go through a weight gain, mental boxing, etc. Not good mentally, not good physically.
I know the choice is mine. I want to be strong enough, smart enough, focused enough to do this - I know I CAN, but I don't know I WILL?? Sounds crazy - like I'm two people - but sometime I think there is a little crazy brain that takes over!
Food for thought. Now off for a run.
I think what I'm most nervous about not working is being bored. Bored = boredom eating = pants don't fit. Last night I went to bed really early since I'm working today. Today I will go to be early because I've gotten up so early. No eating problems either night. I get this reprieve at least 4 nights a week. Soon I can stay up later (and should stay up later - who goes to bed at 7pm just because?!?!). Nights are hard.
Time to stay focused. Except all of a sudden I have these cravings ... and in a couple of weeks will host a happy-hour party ... let the okay-to-drink start again. I worry it's a slippery slope.
My goal is very specific - STOP YO-YOing!! I know I can always "get back" to here, but it's usually not until I go through a weight gain, mental boxing, etc. Not good mentally, not good physically.
I know the choice is mine. I want to be strong enough, smart enough, focused enough to do this - I know I CAN, but I don't know I WILL?? Sounds crazy - like I'm two people - but sometime I think there is a little crazy brain that takes over!
Food for thought. Now off for a run.
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