Inside or Outside?

Sitting here debating a treadmill run or my 1st outdoor run.

Treadmill means music, ac, ability to run to bathroom or change distance.
Outdoor is humid, hilly, fixed distance but it goes by so much faster (in my mind).

Treadmill has a more appeal in this moment.  But sometimes I hate change.  I get used to treadmill or used to outdoors and changing it is like pulling teeth.  The appeal for treadmill today is the weather.  It's so ungodly humid ... it will take forever to cool down (I sweat big time!)

Stitch fix was a disappointment.  I tried on some of the things and will check it out tomorrow.  Cute shoes, but high heals - not for me.  Weird tops - super heavy with beading, etc.  Too hot for summer if you ask me.

I'm trying so hard to get pumped for this trip.  This BUCKET LIST trip.  I was so excited and now that it's less than a week away, I'm not excited ... at all.  I can't believe it.

What's running through my mind?
I'm going to have my period (and this is the "bad" month)
What to wear ... period, hot, weight up ... limits the choices.
Weight is up (I planned to be the "perfect" weight for this trip).
It's over my birthday (which was fun at first, now a bummer - like I'll miss my birthday altogether).
I'm nervous for fire walk.
I'm nervous about spiders.
I'm nervous about weather.
I'm nervous I won't like it.

I hope I can get it together.  I need to get a lot together.  Goodness gracious ... what is wrong with me lately?!?  I don't "live" in this place usually.  I can't seem to pull myself up for more than a few days and then I crash back down.

On that happy note ... see you later.  Inside or outside??  Guess it will be an audible call (is that a proper football reference??).  Stay tuned ...