Rollercoaster of a Day

Well, the feelings made themselves known -- out of nowhere yesterday morning.  I couldn't get onto the insurance website because there was a "random" security check with questions hubby set up.  What was your first phone number?  What was your first car make and model?

One wrong answer and you lose.  I had to text him and wait for a reply.  Then I got a super flip and rude customer service person.  Shockingly a jerk.  "If it's billed right, it's covered.  If it's not, you'll have to pay.  That's for you to figure out, don't know what you expect me to do."  I tried to explain what I needed from him again and he said, "you're repeating yourself and I already answered it. If I don't have anything new to say, then we're finished with this call."  Seriously??  I actually couldn't believe him -- it was over the top rude.

So I cried.  Sobbed for a long time.  I'm drained from all the things this month.

After the big cry, I called the insurance company back, reported the first call, spoke to a supervisor and she said it's fixed.  She called the PT office everything should be okay and if not, her name and the reference number are noted in my file.

Then I cried some more.

I went on a 4 mile walk in the sunshine and that helped a lot.  But you know after you've cried long and hard, there's no complete recovery that day.  Eyes puffy, feeling drained and "off."

I was exceptionally nervous for Spanish class.  So nervous I couldn't remember what I had practiced and knew reasonably well when I tried to review a few minutes before class.

Turns out, I did fine and class was actually super fun.  I MUST stop these pre-nerves for no reason.  Good lord.  So unnecessary.

I'm making an executive decision to get out of the house today -- Trader Joe's run.  My mental health needs attention.  Hubby didn't even call me yesterday.  The lonely is strong and the emotional pity party is in full swing.

Physically, my back is doing a lot better.  More and more periods of no pain.  Funny enough, the top of my left foot is struggling from walking, I guess.  It's so sore when I move it.  Hopefully it doesn't get any worse because then I'll have to moderate walking outside.  

Heavy rain is expected this afternoon, Wednesday and Friday.  I'm concerned walking won't be an option.  It's the highlight of my day and the only highlight option.  Last week's rain had convenient pockets of no rain so I hope it's the same. 

That's all from here.  Same old same.  Hope it's a good day -- later gators.