New Week, New Me?

I'm feeling better.  I have pockets during the day when I have NO PAIN -- woo hoo!  And when I have pain it's not as strong.  I have aches and pains sleeping, but that's more from being confined to 2 positions and I get uncomfortable.

Dare I say that I'm finally getting over the hump?

Morning walks are up to 3.5 miles at a faster pace and I'm able to walk the big hill in the neighborhood a few times during the walk.

PT this Wednesday.  I have to call the insurance company to work out the issue with billing -- not confident in success.

Next week is another appointment with the chiropractor (acupuncture too).  My expectation is I can start working out in April.  Fingers crossed.

Spanish class tonight.  The time shift will make it feel earlier and that's a win.  I'm DREADING it even though I studied and practiced all week.  I get in the class and I freeze up -- forget all I learned.  NERVES (!!)  I'm counting down until the end.  I have a SCS 20 minute coaching call on Friday and this is the topic.  I need a better attitude.  I looked into the one-on-one tutoring and it's not expensive.  Maybe this is the next route so I can go at a pace that works better for me.  This "impossible" goal is living up to its name.  Feels like I'll never get there.

I had to table the Final Girls book -- too scary to read when I'm home alone.  Yep, no big girl panties when the lights go off.  It's the last thing I need at night.  I have a super short window to read it when hubby gets home.  I'm not starting anything new so I can read it over the weekend.

I finished Victoria and it was really good.  Sadly, the pandemic put it on hiatus and no dates to continue.  I cued up a few other British shows on Prime -- most I have to pay for though.  I like the historical series and the crime shows.  I'll start something new this week.

On top of the back pain (and maybe primarily because of it), I've been in the dumps about some other circumstances happening now too.  Family dynamic changes that have me feeling left out or a little lonely.  I feel out of sync with my husband too.  When I'm out of commission, I get resentful he doesn't "understand" enough.  He's pragmatic and I'm looking for empathy.  He's currently on another ski vacation and I'm grumpy he isn't feeling sorry for me being alone and limited.  He's having a super time with friends while I continue in this predicament.  He brings up insurance issues and the dogs after he tells me all about the fun he's having.  Ugh.

I know this is compounded by a month of pain and isolation.  I'm working on being understanding with myself and also trying to get a different perspective.  This week feels hopeful -- better than the last few.  I have a lot of "feelings" to work out around all of this still.  Best to problem solve from a better attitude.

Let's make this week the best it can be -- later gators.