Nevermind

I'm up early and I have time to say hello after all :)

Yesterday was an interesting day.  Things tend to happen in pairs (or threes) and that was yesterday afternoon.  Two postponements with "favors" -- but here's the thing, I had my own back.  Neither worked for me in my current situation and I said no AND I also spoke up about it -- nicely, but still spoke up.

It feels yucky in the moment, but ultimately the best thing.  I'm pretty sure I annoyed my GF, but sometimes I'm not available to twist and turn because she decides to change things up last minute (she does this ALL THE TIME).  In this case, the change was a problem for my back and I'm not willing to take that risk.  I'm disappointed (and annoyed too) because she just assumed I was able to adjust so she could add "an appointment" to her day.  She's out of town next week, so we can both have space and will regroup another time.  

A reoccurring theme in my life is my stuff doesn't count or isn't a priority -- and the truth is I'm the one who doesn't make my life a priority.  I'm working on changing that.  Sometimes changing plans is not a problem, but sometimes it is and prioritizing ME when it doesn't work is what I need to do.  In both cases yesterday, I couldn't make the changes (or do the favor) without creating a problem for me.  

Anyway ... rest of the day was good.  I decided to walk in the rain and about 15 minutes into the walk, the rain stopped.  I was able to do a full outside walk.  I worked on Spanish, read and did a quick doodle in prep for rock painting.

I'm going to be tired today.  My back was bad last night and I'm up early this morning.  Since I'm sleeping poorly lately, I've been getting up around 5 or 6 and sometimes 7 -- this morning's alarm for 4 o'clock was jarring.  No walk today after the appointment.  I need to give my body a rest day.  My foot and hip are bothering me (princess and the pea).  Everything is out of wack and I need to be careful not to overdue it.

It's another early day tomorrow, but not nearly as big of a deal as today.  Bed early tonight.

Have a good day.  Later gators.