A Few Little Things

Kind of same old same old.  Hubby just left to help our youngest's GF move from Chattanooga to GA.  She doesn't have any family who could help and that's a lot for just the two of them.  It's just a day trip.

I worked a smidge on rock painting yesterday, but used sharpie markers.  When I was reading about painting, a suggestion was to use a fine tip sharpie to outline the paint for definition.  I ended up using all marker on a small rock.  Lady bug with words on the backside.  Fun and cute ... then I sprayed it with the weather sealer.  Totally "melted" the marker.  So that's not an option.  I want to trial techniques so when I have a painting gathering, I know what's what.  Next up ... paint pens.

Good shine, but the face is totally gone.

Didn't spray the back.
Runoff from the front.

Spanish papers are taking over my world.  I have a little side table I borrowed from our movie room to offload some of the mess.  I like to have everything front and center -- makes me more likely to study.  I have multiple study guides, flashcards and lists.  I use them all.  I ordered an office cart yesterday.  Pictures when it comes.  I like it because it's a piece that you can use many ways.  It's on casters so easily moveable too.

Here's my mess yesterday and everyday.

I've said this before and it didn't stick for long -- I need to get my shit together.  Enough is enough.  There's plenty I can do during the day with my back.  I CAN eat healthy.  Not working out isn't the reason to forego healthy food (exact opposite in fact).  I'm rapidly growing out of my clothes and I super duper don't need that problem when I'm finally ready to get back to a normal day.  I'm "saving" so many projects that I could work on in little bits -- just because I can't do it all, doesn't mean I shouldn't do anything.

This week hubby is home until Thursday (then to Asheville for an HVAC issue).  I'm going to take advantage and have him help me get some gardening ready.  I need muscles to lug old soil to the back and get new for this year -- in the one big planter.  The rest have new soil with very few roots.  

I also need a trip to the paint store for primer for The Little Free Library.  My goal was to have it up and running by my birthday LAST YEAR.  Holy cow -- this in one big procrastination project.

The week after next I have a few "fun" things added to the calendar.  Nail appointment and lunch with a friend (weather pending).  That feels like something to look forward to and motivation to fit into my clothes before the outings.  

Can I do it?  Yep.  Will I do it?  That's not as clear.  I wish I could shout a big YES, but I know myself.  Terrible, limited thinking -- you bet.  I need to work on this mentally a bit.  It's nothing drastic, just get back to eating healthy.

I've added a lot of sweets to my day AND I found Trader Joe's GF sandwich bread to be AMAZING toasted.  I've been eating melted cheddar on toast everyday, every meal.  It's one of my core bread things I miss and I've gone to town on it.  One slice a day -- no issue.  Two slices EVERY MEAL -- an issue lol.

Part of the issue is working out and sleeping well stabilizes my emotional, mental state.  Neither is an option right now and it's making it a huge chore to stay clear of easy, cheap pleasure to feel better in the NOW.  

Another part of the issue is by afternoon, my back is toast (which leaves me wanting TOAST).  I'm sofa bound with nothing to do but watch TV (or read) and eat.  This is the part when I need to figure out what I CAN do during that time that's more productive or at least better for me.

My initial plan was to give in while I was down and out and THEN get back to it.  Problem is "down and out" is lasting MONTHS now.  Have to trash the plan ASAP (!!)  Months is a whole new me in a very crappy way.

I wish MORNING ME lasted all day.  Why is AFTERNOON/EVENING ME such a brat?!?!

Stay tuned ... this is going to be a saga, I'm sure.

Have a happy Saturday.  Later gators.