January Rollercoaster

I was feeling reasonably steady eddy for the last several months.  A few bigger downs (usually hormonal), but nothing major.  January has been a rollercoaster again.

What up?

I got a mini-monthly for a few days -- all the things, but only lasted a couple of days.  Hello, hormones.

Capital upheaval and all the ugly it's bringing to the surface.  Also, lots of worry as groups make stronger and stronger threats.  Ugly needs to be seen to be changed, but this is a constant stress push.

Wedding plans need to be decided for the kids.  They still and always have a mature perspective, but this call is the hardest.  We'll know in a couple of weeks.  My heart hurts for them.

COVID is everywhere.  Hubby has a call with his board to tell them he won't be in the office until the outbreak at the company has passed -- all holiday related.  If they say no, he will still stay home and expect to be let go.  UGH.  STRESS (!!)

I posted a re-post on Facebook yesterday in support of banning Trump from Twitter.  I had a bit of trolling happening.  It was polite-ish, but upsetting.  These are fosters and I stayed friends with them (unfollowed) so we can communicate with the group.  That said, I had a lot of nice PERSONAL support too -- including other fosters.  Compliments on keeping things respectful.  That was another emotional rollercoaster.  And whenever I speak up (which is a must for me now) and get a few punches, I think about how my privileged allows me a choice in punches.  Don't speak up, no punches.  Others don't get that choice and get punched on the regular.  We need to do better.

All this to say, life feels heavy again.  Heavy and sad.  

I need to focus on my GOOD LIST and doing things that make me feel good while I let all this emotion process and (hopefully) dissipate. 

Steelers lost.  Bummer for the family (not so much me, I just join along).  Game was on late, so pups and I didn't stay up, but I could tell from the way hubby sulked into bed (and I confirmed online this morning).

Coby is doing well.  He's been super quiet and sleepy and I'm not sure if that's needed rest or his personality.  We'll see over the next couple of weeks.  He did fantastic with the grand-dogs and LOVES Monti.  Twinning to keep me confused LOL.

I made crab and parsnip soup and it's GOOD.  I had a container of crab to use from the holidays.  The parsnip soup is like the carrot soup recipe.  Roast the parsnips, mix with a soup base (leeks and spices) and blend.  I didn't have white wine so I used white wine vinegar -- probably better with the wine.  I forgot to buy a little container (you know, those sippy cup kind at the grocery store).  Next time, I'll add more spices too.  You add the crab right before serving.  Now I need to see if I can freeze it.  Googling this morning.  Guess this is an expensive soup if you had to buy the crab and wine.  I'm not sure you have to have either though.  Leeks made a nice flavor.  I LOVE the smell of cooked leeks. 

What's up for this week is low key and I'm here for it.  Organize and put away Christmas ornaments -- all the new storage containers arrived.  Duke has a grooming appointment (curbside drop off and pick up).  Clean the house -- that uses up my back on those days.  The rest is taking care of ME -- reading, workouts, meditation, etc.  Nesting and staying safe.

Have a good day -- the best you can.  Stay well.  Hang on.  Later gators.