Friday Pep Talk

Since the holidays, I've been loosey goosey with a routine.  Still hanging in with good habits, but feeling oddly out of sorts.

It's strange because I'm doing things -- cleaning, cooking, reading, etc.  But without a plan it feels wild and is too much decision making each day.  Does this make sense??  When I take 10 minutes to make a weekly plan, there's something so satisfying about it.

Fewer decision, knowing the week will accomplish what I intend, etc.

I'm starting that back up for next week.  Routine makes me relax and I need every ounce of relax I can muster.

The wedding has me a little frantic.  Guest list will include my mother.  The ONLY person coming from my family and we'll be seated for brunch with her.  God help me.  The nightmare just got a shot of reality. The wedding is NOT about me, but I was looking forward to so much of it.  I need to  do a sharp 180 to get my head around what it's become (my mother!!) and my expectations. 

This will be a hardy dose of BOUNDARIES with her -- please let her decide to stay home.  

I can get in a better headspace with some deliberate changes in thoughts.  Problem solving, changing my focus, expecting good things.

I started to let myself get excited about external things for 2021 and I need to continue my focus INWARD.  The external is still unpredictable and, frankly, sets me up for disappointment and worry.  External fun WILL come back, but we are solidly in the thick of things for at least the first half of the year.  I worked intentionally to create "good" days during the pandemic and I need to keep that energy.

Pep Talk # Ten Zillion.  

I can do this.  We can do this.  It's all okay.  It's going to happen either way so I can choose how I experience it.  I CHOOSE FUN and JOY and HAPPY and LOVE and EASE.  New focus.  New energy.  New attitude.  

Smile.

Breath.

Laugh.

Love.

Do you feel pepped up?!?!  LOL.  No more "complaining" about the wedding.  I'm going to view it from a curious heart and a fun-loving attitude and I bet that makes it exactly that.  Stay tuned for all the prep fun.

Stay well.  Later gators.