Where's the therapy couch?

Last night was an odd one.  I had an early dinner (I was hungry).  Then remembered I hadn't picked out my new recipe for this week (Taj Mahal Chicken - yum).  Ran to the "easy" grocery store for a quick shop (time is tighter today - that helps!).  Came home and WHAM - cravings GALORE.

WTH!?!?  Where did that come from?  Cravings and feeling blue (so much I checked the calendar - nope got a couple of weeks).  I started on the snack route with an apple and couple bites of meatballs (after all, I had an early dinner).  Fortunately, I recognized sneaky brain talk and just went to bed.

Obviously, I wanted to eat my sad away.  But where did the sad come from?  My dreams were all upsetting, sad ones too.  Odd for sure.  This morning I'm still a bit out of sorts (probably because the dreams are still vivid).  I'll focus on HAPPY today.

I am HAPPY, HEALTHY ENERGY.

I had an experience at Dr. Sun's office yesterday.  I know it's bothering me ... but making me sad??  Appointment went well (realigned C5 and my back; acupuncture to my knees; recommended a stretching technique - more on that).  BUT, he told me I was uptight (using nice words - he's a really nice person).  I can be.  I know I'm excitable (especially when I'm the "patient") but I'm a fast talker and I wanted to give him my background (I know he doesn't look at previous records).  I told him it was situational - no worries, I'm fine.  He told me I'm lying to myself.

Hmmm.  I don't think he's correct, yet it's bothering me (thou doth protest too much) - is he right?  He's not a god - he doesn't know me.  I'm trying so hard to re-design me.  Mind, body, spirit thing. I felt slammed (and too defensive) by the comment.  (BTW - I see him in a month and I will be MAD CHILL - so there lol!)  Information and reflection is a good thing.  Something struck a cord.  I should "listen" to it.

The thing is ... I am really chill lately.  Working my HAPPY.  Working my ZEN.  Doing my thing.  Maybe it's just insulting - it was insulting to my work, insulting to my progress.

I don't know.  I hear the whiny, defensive talk in this post (see - I am self aware lol).  Yet it bothers me.

Talking it out feels better.  Thanks for the free therapy session lol.  Off to a new post (I don't like long posts and I don't like "down" with "up").  Wait for it ... HAPPY post coming your way!