We must all suffer one of two things.  Pain of discipline or pain of regret. - Jim Rohn

Last night was tough.  It's those witching hours when I do the damage, sabotage the work, listen to the voice that so relentlessly compels me to follow bad habits.  I just kept repeating ... "it's never worth it."

And it isn't.  I ALWAYS regret giving in - almost immediately in fact.

So what spurred the struggle last night??  A friend suggested a night out in a couple of weeks with a group of friends we don't see very often.  I'll be on day 14 of Whole30.  I decided if plans happen, I'll stop my Whole30 and resume the next day.  One dinner of moderate eating will not make a difference - a missed night out with friends I don't get to see often will.

I'm working around all sorts of social functions.  They aren't a big deal, but this is something I don't want to miss and working around isn't COMPLETELY possible (I can keep the meal compliant-ish but I will be drinking a bit).

Oh, and it's worth mentioning, when I say "never worth it" I mean something spontaneous, not planned, crappy junk from the pantry eaten alone, eaten in secret ... not worth it!

So that f***ing (excuse my French) "all or nothing" hit me again.  Well, if I'm not really doing a Whole30  ...

Ugh, ugh and double ugh!!!

So here's the fault in that logic brain of mine.   LISTEN UP!

It's what you do consistently, regularly that shapes the results - not the every-once-in-awhile stuff.  This dinner may not even happen (there's a reason we don't see these friends often - schedules are tough!)
This is about long-term goals, living a life, breaking the pattern of all or nothing.
Oh, and IT'S NEVER WORTH IT!!!

There was such relief when I went to bed last night.  Conversation over, struggle finished, battle won.  I read my book, did my breathing (and tapping - boy that feels good), applied my lash grower and found a little zen.