I've been thinking a lot lately about why I can't make EATING WELL and EATING ENOUGH (not over eating) a life philosophy.

I do it well, but I do it UNTIL.

Until the vacation.
Until the 30 days.
Until my goal weight.
Until the party.
Until a stressor.

I say the right words ... "it's a life change, not a diet."  But I don't treat it that way, not really.  Some nice lip-service to the concept.  I know the tag line well.

A real decision if measure by the fact that you've taken a new action.  If there's no action, you haven't truly decided. - Tony Robbins

So time for new action.  Time to accept that this needs to be lasting change, lasting work, lasting results.  Forever seems like, well ... forever.  But if I focus on this as a positive, inspired, exciting change ... something I WANT to do ... forever is possible, achievable, desirable.

And it is a MUST.  I must do this for my health.  I must do this for my sanity.  I must do this because I deserve to feel great.  I must do this because I've worked too hard to fail.  Must, must, must.  And I CAN and I AM.

This may seem like a duh moment.  Umm, of course, you need to do this forever?!?!  But it's actually a big epiphany for me.  I didn't consciously realize I didn't actually make it a life philosophy.  I guess I'm good BS'er and I fell hook, line and sinker for it.

I'm excited I "found" something to change.  I felt so discouraged by the fact that I've tried everything ... I know everything ... but I couldn't succeed.  It's rare (actually never) I've given so much focus and work toward a goal and not succeeded.  I was frustrated, angry, defeated ... but I came back to give it another go.  IT'S THAT IMPORTANT to me.  I can't let it go.  I have to find a way.

And I have.  Sound the sirens, raise the roof ... folks this is real ... it's a MUST.