The Sun

Weather has continued to improve and it looks like we'll see the sun for the next 2 days. I also think I'm over the worst of the stress and metaphorically heading back to sunshine. 

It wasn't pretty for a minute. The morning ended in a shocking confrontation at Whole Foods. A woman went crazy on me, I actually thought I was getting punked -- such a long story, but I didn't do anything. She walked up to me and said she was going to go ahead of me in line. I had 5 things in my cart and she had an overflowing cart -- I said no. She kept at me, yelling, calling me names, pushing her cart into mine and then I verbally lost it on her. Called her names, was sarcastic and mean. "Leave me the $%#$ alone." "You are a crazy @$%@#$." Not my best moment. I will say, she was horrible and entitled and relentlessly aggressive, but that was no FS moment for me. Geez.

Then the sun came out. 

Run was strong -- even in the wind. Earrings arrived from amazon and both are an option. Phew. Early check-in secured at hotel. Phew. Welcome bags delivered and the first one was already opened (and appreciated for the personal touch). Started a fun text group with my original wedding party for weekend details, fielded tons of family questions. Dogs at sitter. Packed.

Unfortunately, I slept like crap again. My temperature is up and that seems to be hormones. My body is trying to get a period. Woke up stupidly early -- but good timing because I had to field a call BEFORE 5am from Publix bakery about the pastry tray. I answered the call because it was local -- but I was very suspicious lol. All worked out and I'm glad they troubleshot it now and not at pickup time. 

I think today will be JOY forward. I'm going to work hard to remember to see the happy stuff, connection, celebration, fun.

Now that I have earrings in gold-toned -- shoes can stay and I can wear this vintage bracelet I got in Asheville a year ago. I saw it and bought it to wear at the wedding. It's probably not a look everyone will like, but I like it a lot. Checks so many boxes for me.

On one last note, I asked people attending rehearsal dinner to give me one word to describe our couple. The only one I hadn't received was from the bride's mother, but no names attached to the words so I wasn't going to follow up, didn't matter. People chose beautiful words. She texted yesterday -- "compatible." Really, that's the word you chose as the mother? Made me laugh. It was, by far, the most pragmatic word on the list. She's a tough cookie. 

I thought about this little story because we are so different. She'll be in FULL glam. She even reserved a bridal suite for herself so she has a dressing room for her gown. She'll hate my simple, vintage look. There would've been a time when that would make me feel insecure. Not anymore and not in any way. I like this part of getting older. Also, she'll look amazing and arguably more appropriate for a glamorous, formal wedding. I will look like myself and that's the look I wear best these days. We are different -- neither good or bad, but it's been an interesting experience doing "wedding" with her. And it's nice to feel like we both get to show up honestly -- embracing different, instead of pretending.

I'll be back after the wedding. Pictures, details, all-the-things. Probably stressed about the house closing, so there's that -- do I really change lol?!?

Later gators.