Storms. Really, Universe?!?

Here's some general babble (of course, it's mostly babble most days anyway).

I woke up to my period. First in 10 weeks. It explains a lot of my mood and my lack of sleep the past 3 weeks. I slept much better last night and am expecting my recovery stats to improve quickly. I knew my body was trying its hardest to get a period. 

I'll scream it from the rooftops -- hormones are no joke. 

So, you'd expect I could mentally calm down this weekend as my hormones level out, but, nope. HUGE storms predicted overnight and we have all houses in the path with big trees on every property. Why do I feel an incredible sense of impending doom?!?!? In a time that impending doom is already around every corner. My poor nervous system. Fingers crossed this is an overreaction from overstimulation and/or the storm weakens.

I'm risk adverse -- always have been and I feel like I'm in the craziest risk time of my life. We love trees and shade on our property, but it comes at a risk when there are storms. I don't want to live in a generic, sterile bubble until I do (like with big storms are looming). And, of course, this big move feels like nothing but risk right now since the payoff is a long way off and times are incredibly uncertain. 

BUT ... "one wild and precious life." I don't want to finish my life on a vanilla porch rocking chair with regrets piled high.

I don't have much else to report. I hiked with a friend yesterday -- short and easy. We were both tense the entire hike -- personal issues and world issues weighing heavily as much as we tried to relax. I was able to have a little moment before we hiked though -- birds singing like crazy, ran into a park ranger and had a nice chat. Clinging to moments like that to keep my sanity.

I did focus on some things that should help with my generalized anxiety over everything which I'll share this week. Of course, that's delayed until storm passes because I'm not that enlightened and this has taken over my nervous system. Three people have already texted about the storm this morning -- that's part of the problem. Everyone "needs" to talk about all the stress and it's a never ending ping, ping, ping of reminders of everything crappy. I have notifications on because of house stuff. I look forward to going silent when the move is finished. 

What am I doing today, asked no one? Let me tell you anyway.

Going to the new house with hubby to go over a few things before he leaves for Belgium (assuming his flight gets out). Charging everything in the house and then spending the day planning, regrouping, dreaming, visualizing -- moving forward to a good headspace. I'm back to rock painting and I forget how much that makes me happy.

If I'm back tomorrow, we survived the storms hah. If not, horrible news or internet is just out lol. Praying everyone is safe and secure this weekend. Later gators.