Get Back to Me

I am not recovering as well as I expected. 

Sleep and recovery stats are in the tank (amplified by too much sweets and late evening eating). There are so many little (and medium) fires for the close this week and I'm saturated with dealing with things like this. Of course, junk food is NOT the answer, but it was the answer that presented last night. I haven't slept well in a couple of weeks and it's caught up to me -- especially mentally.

For example, the closing attorney was a no-show to our appointment to get closing details. His partner doesn't know where he is and can't reach him. Of course, I hope he's okay, but it's more likely he's just being irresponsible. Now we have no idea if we can close or not on Thursday. Our entire schedule is up-in-the-air. Now we have to accommodate and rush to be ready for closing. I postponed Asheville because we were promised the close this week.

There's a list as long as my arm with issues. Everything works out (usually), but it's SO MUCH. I need to get back to the things that keep me level -- hiking in particular, but everyone's mess ups and changes mean I keep having to postpone solo hiking plans and Asheville and social plans. Never mind group hikes -- not even signing up since I can't commit at all.

And the extra annoyance is people seem to think we just need to accept their excuses, but we don't get to have excuses. We HAVE to be ready, but, literally no one else does. A kid's birthday -- can't do what we promised, but you have a wedding -- tough luck, make it work. Actual example!! Seriously?!?!

I'm exhausted and need to sleep. I still think a big part is hormones. I feel like my body wants to get a period and can't -- hormones are surging with no results. I lay awake at night feeling exhausted and unable to sleep. Nothing is helping -- not even a sugar coma lol.

I need a solid re-group and re-think today. Yesterday was a spillover from wedding duties and that's finished. I swear I'm not doing one more wedding related chore (!!) 

Intention for this week -- GET BACK TO BEING ME. I'm going to make a list of these things -- no chore list, just a me-list. Rock painting, nature, garden, creativity, quiet time, etc. 

Hubby has a big meeting overseas and is gone for the week starting Saturday. This massively limits me with the house on the market. I'm already loosing this week so I need to prioritize and set boundaries. I'm not going weeks without being able to do anything. 

Time to plan. Time to re-set. Wheels are already spinning with a few ideas. Have a good day. Later gators.