Do I Look Different?

Coming to you on a new gold laptop.  I'm about halfway setup.  So far, it's meh.  I'm sure I'll love it once I get fully setup and used to using it.  Right now it feels like effort to do most everything.  I FINALLY got my email to sync and load to the email "spot" on the computer.  Proud that I figured it out myself -- gold star for the gold computer.

Apple is very user friendly, but I'm not interested in "exploring" the new stuff -- just get me up and running.  Then I can fiddle at my leisure (aka never lol).

The good part -- key pad touch is really nice.  I like the feedback when you type.  The keyboard is a slightly different size though so I'm messing up a bit more than usual.

I need to transfer photos which I'll try this weekend.  I decided not to sync the computers because I don't need the junk transferring over too.  I might not have a choice though and this might need a call to Apple Support.  Until then, 2 computers.  

In other news ... I'm in a crazy anxiety mood.  I think it's hormones, but holy cow, it's bad.  I don't have anxiety on the regular, but I'm worried about everything right now.  That's how I know it's not real.  I kept waking up last night in a panic.  Still feel off this morning.

The Ashwagandha was helping a lot, but it is the cause of the heart palpitations.  It might be that I was taking half the dose (only at night) and then increased to take the morning dose too.  I'm thinking about going back to the half dosing (which was working) and see if that's okay.  It might also have been the duration, but that seems less likely to me.  I certainly don't want to have a heart issue from taking it, but I'm on the struggle bus with so many things and it was helping.  Prescriptions are an option, but not without side-effects too.  Many of my friend's doctors have suggested Ashwagandha to them so it seems safe enough.  I couldn't take fish oil because of esophageal spasms of all things.  I'm sensitive to things.  

I need to get going to submit my coaching homework.  I hand wrote it and now I need to type it in.  This was one of the things I woke in a panic about -- I need to submit it today and what if I forget.  Seriously?!?  Generalized anxiety.  I'm doing reasonably well with stopping it each time.  Reminding my brain this is just hormones and off the rails thoughts causing these feelings -- there are no real concerns happening.

Jeez.  

Let's make this an A-okay week.  Can we do it?  I hope so -- I know most of us are having a hard time.  Stay well (so I don't need to worry about you too).  Later gators.