Coaching Recap

Well, COVID strikes again -- no hair appointment on Friday because my hairdresser tested positive.  Her husband was well out of isolation so I think she contracted it from work.  Roots and more roots.

Coaching call was interesting and a bit weird -- close your eyes kind of thing.  Talk to your younger self.  Also a bit strange.  I'm working on the idea that I'm not important enough -- other people (friends, etc) take priority.  I let them.

This is about the little things.  Change a walk time because your errands are running late (what about my time).  I call you to talk about something and the conversation turns back to you (so you must have something more pressing).  Little things like this that upset me and reenforce a strong belief from childhood.  I won't go into all those stories, but I know how it developed.  The problem is I can't seem to stop the pattern.

I know I have a strong reaction (over reaction) and I want to change that because it's creating a lot of aggravation and resentment.  I speak up for myself and if that's not heard or respected or acknowledged, I have no idea what to do next.

No solution yet.  We're going to role play some situations and see what I could do differently or think differently.  If I can work through this issue then FOR SURE the coaching will be worth the money.  

Speaking of coaching, I have the 20 minute SCS session this morning.  I don't have my question yet, but I think I'll bring the more petty things (for lack of a better description) to these calls.  I don't have a specific one this week, but I can bring one of the little things I felt less important and see what they say ... hmmm.  This is the issue with the calls -- not long enough or same coach so things need to be quick and simple.

Another home day today.  I'm thinking about taking my dogs to the park for a sniff.  I finished Dexter -- no spoilers but, dang (if you know, you know).  

Have a good day and stay well.  Later gators.