Hello, Tuesday

I'm a broken record and I hate to say it again, but my mood is in the tanker.  I figured out a lot has to do with being upset about the Delta variant and breakthrough COVID cases.  A friend (vaccinated, medical background, smart, careful) had an exposure from an unvaccinated person and has a significant case herself now.  That got me all up in arms.  I chatted with her to get more details and her thoughts -- still upset about it.  She's going to be fine, but holy cow (!!)

This has me concerned with the wedding in August and a few other things on the calendar for the fall. 

Mask mandates are coming back (yeah!) but that has the anger (and asshole baby) levels up again.  Tension everywhere you look.

When I get anxious, everything feels worrisome and that feeling sucks.  I'm working on working these thoughts out.  Guess I'm tired of these waves of uncertainty, feelings of overwhelm and disgust with human behavior -- all those feelings come from my thoughts.

Once again, I need to reevaluate what feels safe and where my comfort levels falls.  This means being the "strange" one again.  I worry that relationships won't last if I'm always putting restrictions, etc.

Goodness.  

Also, my TV seems to be broken.  Maybe it needs to be unplugged to restart, but I can't reach it -- my arms aren't long enough and it's up on a mantle.  Hubby is out of town.  Good thing I have good books.  I'm reading The Seven Wives of Evelyn Hugo (Taylor Jenkins Reid).  It's a fun beach-like book.  I have a stack of books in "The Read" pile and this is a good time to get cooking on some of them.

Did I mention, I had a super fun bookclub meeting on Sunday?  Only 4 of us so it was easy to manage on Facebook chat room.  We talked about the book instead of boring bookclub questions -- much more interesting conversation.  We've set a date in September for a Botanical Gardens meet-up (outside and we're ALL vaccinated) at my prompting for a field trip to meet in-person.  Working on tweaking the bookclub experience instead of quitting.  Problem solving. 

Lunch plans with a foster friend today, but rain is in the forecast.  We moved "lunch" to 11 o'clock so we can sit outside.  I won't do indoor eating here in GA (probably not anywhere until Delta is controlled now).  I spoke up even though I felt uncomfortable being "that person" again.  She was totally receptive so that uncomfortable-ness was all in my head.  

Today is the BIG HARVEST day for my one and only cucumber.  Pictures and all the details tomorrow lol (!!)  I want to revisit the 21 for 2021 goals list as we are midyear -- see how it's going.  Grow something to eat was on the list and I hit that one just fine -- herbs, tomatoes and a cucumber. 

Have a happy Tuesday :)