Twisting and Turning

Yesterday wasn't what I expected.  Why am I always surprised?  Shouldn't I expect more unexpected than planned? 

Anyway.  I left to go to the grocery store and I watched the garage door go down (as I always do) and springs broke and the double door fell off.  All wacky, bent -- what a mess.  Good news is I found a garage door repair that had a late afternoon appointment.  Better news was they had a cancelation and he showed up an hour later.  $600 later and all is well.

I handled that unexpected news super well.  Got to work fixing it and didn't get all up in my head about why me and such.  Feeling grateful it happened when it did (and not a couple of days earlier) and that my car was already out of the garage. 

Then I went to work on plans for the next few weeks and EVERYTHING was a bust.  All noes -- not one person was available for anything AND one cancelation for plans this week.  I had assumed everything was happening because things were already discussed a bit.  When I did the official asking it was ... oops, I forgot I have *fill-in-the-blank*.  I didn't take things personally, but it was a wallop of disappointment all at once and wasted time in the morning planning everything out.  Menus, activities, etc.  Got all excited for my "plans" and then crickets.

That brought up all the feelings.  I didn't eat my feelings though so yea, me.  Not sure why I got so bummed out.  Guess it's the 50/50 Brooke Castillo teaches. 

Today, I moved right into my morning routine so I wouldn't flake out in self-pity party mode.  Big workout, meditation, Spanish, plant-forward lunch and now journalling.  I also ended up with a coffee date on Friday so that feels good too.

That said, I still feel BLAH.  I need to figure out some fun stuff to do with me alone or me and hubby to fill in gaps.  I'm also physically tired after a hard and long workout.  Not motivated to do much and that's the kiss of death for my mood.  

Should I finish out my day on the sofa ... reading and TV and letting myself sit in a low mood OR should I push to get out of the house and run some errands and such.  I already feel accomplished this morning after banging out a really solid morning routine so I could go either way.

Guess I need to regroup and figure out this day.  It's only noon right now.

I'll leave with a picture of the pretty hydrangea from my Asheville neighbor.  The color is so beautiful.  Have a happy Wednesday :)  Later gators.