Long Post :)

Yesterday was the longest (and most blah) day I've had in a long time.  I don't know why, but I didn't enjoy the day at all.  Lots of little hiccups.  

Starting with Whole Foods.  NO tuna at all -- fresh or frozen.  Some sort of issue with their seafood vendors.  UGH.  I went for 2 things -- tuna steaks and GF pastry stuff for Christmas Eve.  I went to the GF frozen section and the aisle was packed with boxes and employees restocking.  Couldn't get near the area if I wanted -- and especially since I wanted to peruse options.  Double UGH.

Then a little light ... I checked out the kombucha because someone I follow on Instagram raves about the orange flavor of a particular brand.  Can't find it in the other stores.  Success (!!)  It's called Happy -- which is ironic and extra ironic that I didn't really like it.  Doesn't taste like a creamsicle to me.

Speaking of a little light, on the way to the store, my engine light came on.  Fun times.  I think it's the gas cap that isn't clicking into place well.  I don't need an appointment, just the quick fix line but I'll wait until the weather is a little better.  We're getting a rain storm today.  Quick fix still takes time and I'll be waiting outside.

Installation of the blinds went well (I need to take pictures when we use them).  It took all day -- just as they said.  Even though they were outside, it felt intrusive.  Guess I've become an old lady hermit.

I got an idea to try and make black sesame crackers.  Not sure if the problem was the substitution of flour (GF) or what, but they were horrible.  I make a half recipe and a test batch of 6 crackers so it wasn't an enormous waste.  Tasted like I mixed flour and salt.  Reminded me of fake baking as a little kid.

Then I tried a GF cookie recipe because I was in a mood -- dang, not my best moment.  They were horrible too.  I baked one batch and tossed the rest, but not before I ate cookie dough.  I feel like crap this morning and it's totally my own fault.  What a mood meltdown in the afternoon.

I watched Prom on Netflix.  It was cute with tons of big names.  I fast forwarded over a lot of the singing numbers.  The songs weren't awesome, but the rest was fun.

I read a lot of The Widow of Rose House -- it's good.  Hope the ending holds up.

I'm going to do a little Spanish work in 2021 and the workbook arrived.  It gets great reviews.

I got influenced by an advertisement and ordered this "game."  It a conversation starter in game form.  You can play the game or just use the question cards to start conversations.  I looked at a few and it's dumb.  "What's your proudest accomplishment?"  The video makes it seem like the questions are unusual and interesting.  They're basic and uninspired -- from what I see.  I'll give it another look before I totally give up on it.

Looking back on yesterday, I can see why I had a total meltdown (cookie dough followed by cheese and carbs).  It was a perfect storm of very few of my healthy habits and lots of annoyances.  No workout, no meditation, cold shower was a combo with my regular shower, no long walk (because of workers at the house and crappy weather).  Then no tuna, no GF options for Christmas, no cracker success, no cookie success, engine light on.  I gave into old crappy habits for some relief.  Lesson noted.

This has me rethinking my Christmas treats too.  I want to feel good on Christmas, not all junk fooded up -- bloated, stomach ache, swollen, mood, low energy.  Good lesson to see this week (which is PMS again).

Today is a recovery day.  Treadmill run, long meditation, long cold shower, etc.  I'm tabling cookie making today because I'm taking some of my options off the table.  I don't want them anymore.  Today is healthy habit day to bring me back to feeling good.

I'll be looking for my happy in good habits -- hope you find some too.  Stay well.  Later gators.