This is a skip month or a very late month -- thanks, Perri. My mood is rotten, but I need to ignore it now. I've been "hormonal" for 2 weeks. Enough is enough. Mentally moving on.
I'm having a flare up of chilblains. I've had problems for about a decade, but I usually can keep it from a full reaction (swollen, painful toe tips with sores). I reacted my toes the day I voted in the cold and they've been on the edge ever since. Christmas cold blast sent me into a full reaction because I didn't put on boots before I took the dogs out -- rookie mistake. Once I'm reactive, I'm reactive for the entire winter. Have to keep my toes dry, not squished in shoes and no sudden temperature changes.
This is problematic for my Peloton shoes (tight and sweaty) and for the cold showers. I skipped both yesterday because my toes were weeping in a couple of places. Yuck (!!) I'll do my best with them today. No way I'm stopping both biking and cold showers when I'm hormonal though so both are back today. It takes about 2 weeks for the sores to calm down, but I'm trying to balance healing them and keeping my mental mood above water.
I went on another book buying search yesterday (bought 2) after I saw a post about book recommendations from a local ATL epidemiologist who covers the pandemic here in GA. She thought it would be a fun post for a change and it was LOL. I'm back to a buying halt until I read a few. It's a good place to be though. Nothing better than a stack of good books. I choice delayed shipping for all of them, but I'll post once I have the stack to share.
I finished The Umbrella Academy on Netflix. I liked it a lot, but I like those kind of shows -- sort of X-Man like, but more heart. I'm holding off starting something new so I return to more reading again. More reading vs more TV is one of my core healthy habits. Doesn't mean I don't watch TV, but the time should lean toward more reading. It was one of the things I wrote down during this experiment. If I spend the afternoon reading, I feel good. If I spend the afternoon watching TV, I don't feel good. Not sure exactly why, but it's always true. I can watch a couple hours of TV and feel fine (like a movie), but more than that and it moves to dial to something less good.
Apeirogon (Colum McCann) is like no other book I've read. I'm about 150 pages into a 450 book and it's so interesting and so heartbreaking. Hard to describe, but an incredibly woven story. I was planning to start a true non-fiction (this is a mix of fiction and non-fiction), but I'm going to read this alone.
This week continues to be a test for me to hold my boundaries. I held firm yesterday on a big one and have to work on one for Saturday. Our very carefully COVID friends invited us over to sit outside around a fire pit for another one of our happy hour chats. It's become dinner out of the blue (with choices I can't eat -- gluten and heavy diary). I declined the dinner part, politely and appreciatively, but it didn't work. She pushed back. I know the intention is kind, but I said 'no thanks' and I mean 'no thanks.' I'll revisit this today or tomorrow. "Kind" boundary violations are the toughest to hold. I can't eat what she's making and she doesn't understand gluten -- I've had this issue before and caved to eating what she thought was okay. I feel too lousy these last couple of weeks to introduce gluten and heavy dairy. Boundary is a must on this one.
I might delay taking down Christmas because I ordered a few new storage bins. They're primarily for the tree so maybe I'll take down the rest and wait on just the tree. I'll watch shipping because it might be delayed and then I need a plan B. I won't keep the tree up THAT long.
That's the update from here. Hope you have a good day with some happy sprinkled around. I'll be looking for both too. Stay well. Later gators.
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