Setting Up

Yesterday was a good day.

Productive morning getting bed linens washed and rooms back together.  Cleaning crew came and polished it up.

I ran on the trail -- super sore NECK after the run -- must have been running with stiff shoulders.  I used my new running headphones and free Spotify.  More on this in a few days (I forgot to take a picture of my headphones).  I don't run outside with music, but the trail has no cars, slow bikes only, divided line for direction, only one path (can't get lost) and populated so I didn't feel unsafe.  (That's a lot of criteria, but I'm nervous about zoning out.)  Anyway, lots to tell another day soon ...

I put away about a 1/3 of the decorations too.  I'll slow roll clean up over the next couple of days.  I have quite a bit of decorations that are on the possible give-away list for next year.  I want to rearrange the boxes so I can evaluate for next year-- some possible save for the kids, bunch to Goodwill and some for the trash.  Taking my time -- getting it right.  Future ME will be thankful next December.

I'm in SETTING UP mode over these next 10 days.  I've set January 6 as my focus date for 2020.

This might seem odd -- maybe it is strange.  I feel overwhelmed at the thought of EVERYTHING this week.  I need a warm up.

My overwhelmed feeling are probably a lot to do with too much GLUTEN and too much junk (sugar, alcohol).  I'm also set to get my monthly next week.  The perfect storm of EMOTIONS.  To avoid the overwhelm, I'm using this time to SET UP for a full start in January.  By January 6 my monthly will be over, family party finished and diet fully cleaned up.

Yesterday evening I was upset, nervous, sad -- for no reason.  This MUST be poor diet and hormones.  In the name of ALLOWING all this, I'm not rushing the process.  Sort of a SET UP, sort of a DETOX.  Purging all the yuck -- from extra water weight to swirling emotions.  Letting it all go.  I turned off my phone and hibernated with my mood.  I missed phone calls, texts, etc but I wanted to sit with the feelings and not have to put on a fake facade.  People can wait until today.

This feels manageable.

Since I ate well yesterday, I was up 5 times to piddle during the night -- water weight is exiting the building.  It's an indictor how "off" I am (spoiler -- 5 is A LOT!!).  And, every time I was up, my mind got frantic about some "worry" coming up.  That was fun hah.

As for TODAY ... hubby is golfing, I'm home alone.  I want to do some meal planning, a little cooking and some prep work for 2020 (reading, meditating, journaling).  If I'm extra motivated -- a little Christmas un-decorate too.  I'm looking forward to a hibernation today -- building up my energy reserves again.

Have a happy day -- later gators.