Still missing the holy-jollies

This is a dragged out, down-n-dirty PMS.  Still going ... hopefully moving beyond today.

Time for true confessions of a moody bitch.
I hit the "treats" last night.  Brownies, sandwiches with cheese, more cheese.  Not my happy place.  Big girl panties on now.  No more - period (no pun intended).  I felt like crap last night.  Sore throat, moody, headache, moody, achy, moody, stuffed sinuses ... you get the idea.  I just gave up and gave in.  I really don't want to get sick (and eating junk was just the solution - ugh).

My youngest is back at school today for his final exam.  I cloroxed the entire house lol.

I think I'm going to take a rest day from working out.  I usually don't make a same-day decision, but hear me out.  This needs to be a modified schedule this week since we are going out of town.  Also, my knees are a bit crunchy from the run yesterday.  I don't want to run again today.  I also lifted yesterday and will again tomorrow.  It doesn't give me much of a choice for today.  I will have a more solid workout if I switch with Wednesday.  I'm also not feeling it mentally today.  I have a day in the kitchen planned and I want to get at it.  My concern is I need to eat healthy today.  No excuses.  Without the mental "lift" from my workout, can I do it?  Duh ... yes I can.  Always and forever my choice.

Here's some good news.  This weekend was the last of the big, must-indulge, party-like-crazy days of this crazy 4 months.  We have lots of special days left, but none revolve around as much around alcohol.  I made it.  A bit beat up, a bit out of form this morning ... but I still standing (and fitting into my pants).  Now to return to my regularly scheduled health.  That feels hard this morning (that darn mood still getting me).

The slippery slope is way too close.  Time to take some steps back - quickly.  Okay, the kitchen is calling.  I'm starting with (finally) making my soup and then beginning the cookie-palooza.  Wish me luck health.  My goal is to be able to report a good day today.  I need a small win with a baby step - that's all it takes to get the ball rolling.

P.S.  I'm making some progress with War and Peace.  Reading a little every day.  Rumor has it, the first 100 pages are the most difficult with so many characters introduced.  I'm almost there lol.