A Change in FOCUS

Good morning.  Up early, feeling SOOOO much better.  Almost back to "normal" ... just a couple more days and a few eating tweaks and I should be there.

All this said, I'm concerned I could be making a small adjustment in the wrong direction.

Let me explain.

I had a big goal to get through all these events (over the 4 months) feeling good, fitting into my clothes, being stronger, being healthy, etc.  Good news - I achieved my goal.  Bad news - goal is over.  I'm down to the final 2 weeks of this crazy, fun stretch and I feel my focus changing.

Also, I wanted to see what 4 months of doing all my new habits got me.  Now I know.  The consistent discipline is not as urgent anymore.

I'm not focusing on the "being" goals (healthy, strong, fit) ... I'm focusing on the "not being" goals (don't overeat, don't be unhealthy).  It's a small shift, but it's making a difference.  I need to get the other focus back.  Changing focus leads to small thoughts of .... "I can get away with this" ... "I deserve this" ... "I have lots of time" ... "Tomorrow I can get back to it."  DANGEROUS.

This should be easy to fix (whew).  I need to focus on some new fitness goals and a new time-marker.  It will actually be fun to redesign and realign my goals ... aka VARIETY!!  I'm going to give it some thought.  Stay tuned ...

I noticed all this because NYE is fast approaching and even though I decided I'd had enough gluttony to last me awhile, I find myself thinking ... maybe just a little bubbly.  Not good.  I need some "on" days to counter my "off" days.  Not worth-it.  Another circumstance, a couple of drinks - no big deal. But now, in this moment ... a big deal.

I wondered why I changed to feeling it could be worth-it.  Because I had no reason to counter it.  Bam.  That's the problem.

I know I've rambled a bit and it might not make sense as written, but I get it.  And since I'm both writer and reader ... no need to worry.  Lol.

This post has gone LONG.  Time to sign off.  Later gators.