Trust

I made some progress on the raised garden bed. I'm glad for the time table to get plants in the ground or this had potential to be the "LFL of 2024" lol. 

Sealing. It's way easier than I expected. Downside -- the odor. I read reviews about the smell being strong, but it was fine when I was sealing and the space is large so I wasn't worried. I had to keep opening windows and doors to air out the basement -- it was horrible after it sat for a bit. I was worried about it being flammable since the furnace is downstairs. I finally took the pieces out to the porch overnight. Each piece needs two coats (24 hours to dry in-between). I need to do this outside -- hopefully, next couple of weeks, weather permitting.

Duke was fascinated by the open windows. No screens so I couldn't leave them open and unattended. Too many birds, critters, etc. All I need was a fox in my basement. They have a den behind our fence. 

Ta-da!!
Here are a few I first coated.

I also got the schematic for the garden bed so I can start planning out the garden. Both are good steps that were stressing me and holding progress up -- for no reason, as it turns out (duh).

I had to hold a boundary yesterday -- twice for the same thing. I decide what "available" means for me. Two separate friends changed plans and asked me to adjust to times when I had made plans for myself. Their change was so they could do things they wanted (not an emergency or otherwise). I said no. What I want to do has a window (outside stuff, so weather, etc.) and I held the commitment to myself. BTW, just as much as I hold the commitment to them. One was able to reschedule and the other plans got canceled. Why does this feel so hard? Why do I still get so undone about it? Why do so many people do this? We had the plans first, say no to the other plans. Seems easy to me. It's frustrating. And also, both plans were suggested and made by my friends -- they picked the day and time. I worked my schedule for the week around those plans. Also, both changes were a bit sneaky. Vague at first -- didn't want to let me know why plans changed because then it was obvious that it wasn't a "need to change plans" it was a "want to change plans."

I have brunch plans with a friend and her wife today. Scheduling this has been crazy and rescheduled twice. I keep checking my phone waiting for the cancelation. I really have trouble trusting most people when they make a commitment. I don't think they are like this though (both reschedules made sense and were well in advance). This will be the last time I schedule though -- it's today or it's not. I need to clean up my attitude -- separate out the situations. 

Anyway ...

I replanted a few plants yesterday and tried to clean up some indoor little ones too. I put a pot in this old bucket I got last year. It looks cute in my office. The plants were propagating in water and I moved them to soil. Fingers crossed for all the replants. It's hit and miss sometimes if the move stresses them.

Off to clean up my mood with a workout and meditation. Have a good Sunday. Later gators.