Simplicity and Podcast Learning

It probably obvious to the outside world, I'm overthinking, over-complicating, over-confusing my goal for eating and maintaining my weight.

I'm taking a page from Brooke Castillo and podcast #206 (my homework!!) and making a damn decision.  Worth the quick listen BTW.

She gives a list of questions to ask yourself -- oh, they are GOOD.

Here are some of the questions.  As usual, Brooke says it best (podcast #206).

What would you choose if both choices were a TOTAL success?
What choice is based in love?
Can you have both options -- i.e. do you really NEED to choose?
What would you choose if there were no HISTORY BIAS?
What if failure is no big deal for this goal?
10 years from now what would your future self choose and why?

I talked to Holly at the beginning of coaching about my GOAL possibly being wrong and feeling confused -- what SHOUD I be fighting/working toward.  I was right.  My goal IS wrong.  I don't want the restricted, perfect eating.  That's not fun -- not the way I want to live my life.

NO FOOD is off the table anymore -- it's all my choice.

I can trust my instincts.

I want to feel well, so my choices will reflect it.

I won't eat in a negative emotional state.

Can it be this simple?  Can I make that work when I'm feeling down and out?  That's something I need to work on believing.

For now, I'm setting an experiment -- living by holding on less tightly.  I'm also believing that it MIGHT be possible.  That's a belief I can believe NOW.  Searching my history, I CAN support that as a viable option (just as easily as I can support restriction).  But, if I ask which I want more if either can succeed, well, duh, bring on the freedom.

Here's the deal for me.  Don't overthink about food.  Period.  Simple.  You know there will be lots more on this as I try this experiment.  Fingers crossed ...

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In other podcast news ... Oprah's Super Soul Conversations: Paster John Gray -- The Bridge (July 15)

Remember how I was upset about bookclub and the hateful rhetoric?  THIS podcast is all about that.  It's helped calm me down.  It's amazing and laugh-out-loud funny.  I've listened to it several times.  This is a man you wish you knew personally.  YouTube and I have a date to watch him in action.

UPDATE:  google search revealed some YouTube sermons AND an "emotional cheating" scandal --- ut-oh.  Not perfect, but I'm still checking out his sermons.

That said, I'm over bookclub.  I want a fun, relaxing evening about a good book.  I don't want to talk politics -- on either side.  It gets me fired up and I don't want that energy.  Another bookclub bites the dust.  Good news is I'll still see what books they read and that's a big part of enjoying it -- new book ideas.

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The "wellness" fair was a total bust BUT dinner was fun and we stayed for a couple of hours.  The fair was from 6-9 -- we got there at 8:30 and everyone had left but one vender who was packing up.  Oh well, I don't think we missed much and my wallet is fuller for it.

Dinner was enlightening.  Turns out, my feelings about bookclub and the "mayor" of our neighborhood is felt by quite a few (including my neighbor).  Doesn't fix the issue, but I feel better.  I thought I was alone in that thinking.

Today is the start of moving day for my eldest and DIL.  I'm taking a couple of car loads over and helping with the dogs (of course).  We are helping again on Sunday (moving TVs and pictures).

My great idea of taking a sandwich sub tray to tomorrow's party is a bust.  She said she was providing grill items and asked people to supplement -- most are bringing side dishes.  I messaged for a head count in case I needed to bring two platters -- she changed her mind and is doing sub trays (great minds).  She suggested a veggie platter?!?!?  NO ONE eats the veggie platter at things like this so I ordered a fruit platter.  It's a little more $$ having it made, but it saves me the work and that was the point.  I'm keeping the sub platter to take to moving day for the kids.  Problem solved.

Today is a rest workout day -- good since lots of stair climbing ahead.

TREAT is probably a cold brew coffee.  It sounds good as a treat after moving in this hot, hot, hot weather.

TOOL is being PRESENT.

Happy Friday -- later gators.