Here's the new cushion for the back bench. I got it from Etsy and it's exactly what I wanted -- price was the best of 3 quotes and it was fast. It's a company in NC and they did a great job from start to finish. Dog pillow is from Target. I ordered some blue/white striped pillows, but they don't work. I need to find a couple darker color and bigger pillows to add.
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| Target -- how cute. Looks like Parker. They had a yorkie too, but it was a lady. |
Working on the back deck. Hubby's idea to get a large carpet for the sitting area. Also Target. I ordered a matching one for the door area. Full sun in the afternoon -- not cool, but no way to block that angle. It's the only time the chairs are in the sun so we'll live with it. I needed a blue muted enough to go with the house, but bright enough to stand with the chairs. It's a little hard to see in the lighting, but the color works perfectly.
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| My sun-loving little GA dog!! I tell him this is the reason I know he's adopted. Even in the high heat, little man loves sunning himself. |
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My youngest called off work yesterday and came over for the day. It was a productive day and I think he's off to the start he needed. Sometimes you need someone to help you with the process when it feels overwhelming. He applied for 7 jobs, has a list of more, called career center at school, made a plan. He got pampered with dinner and brownies and left-overs for tonight.
Hubby left this morning for his golf trip.
I get up at 5 o'clock to have quiet time -- while he's gone, I don't need to get up that early and now I don't know what to do with myself - hah. I'll still get up early, but probably closer to 6 o'clock.
Coaching call went well yesterday. Holly had a lot of questions for me and by the end of the call, we identified an area that might be THE problem.
Decision fatigue. I head talk to myself all day about what I should allow or not. That's why the extremes work well. No head talk. I am either allow it ALL or allowing NOTHING, but it quiets my constant negotiations. (P.S. I even do this with non-food stuff.)
We are going to work on a DECISION. Making a decision means quieting the negotiations. I don't want to eat perfectly. I want desserts back. I want to lessen restrictions, BUT I don't want it to get out of control.
Sometimes, I want wine and cheese for dinner. Not copious amounts, but I want that unbalanced dinner. I tell myself NO, it's an unhealthy choice, will set off binge eating, etc. and I fight that all day and evening. Sometimes I white knuckle and win ... sometimes I eat the pantry before I give in and have wine and cheese (and usually a lot of it because "this is the last time.").
Holly thinks it's doable and when I stop this habit, a lot of the issues will fall away. I'm up for trying it -- I have homework to work on it and I'll share when I know more :)
Today is the busiest day of my hubby-less-vacation. I need to walk my grand-dogs 40 minutes away and then drive to lunch with my high school friend. We always long lunch and chat and then an extra long trip home. I have book club at 7 o'clock. Full day.
I know it'll be fun, but I'm not jumping for joy. I'm fighting the desire to hibernate today. Not sure why when I was bored silly the last couple of weeks.
This week has been a heavy FEELINGS week. I'm going with it and trying not to overthink the why. I still have a headache which is super unusual for me (outside of monthly issues). Advil is keeping it at bay though, but it's adding to my mood.
TREAT today is lots of human interaction (maybe a little too much - hah).
TOOL is relaxing my mind between people chats -- headache makes me want some silence and I'll try to find that space on the long drives.
Later gators.
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