To Do or Not to Do

Of course, that IS the question.

I'm debating on doing an actual Whole30 (which I started and stopped AGAIN after my back/neck saga).

I'm starting with Holly (life coach) next week.  6 weeks.  The plan is an official Whole30.

Whole30 works for me and works well.  It does all the things.  Gets me back in my jeans, gets me back to healthy meal timing, gets me off the sugar train, gets me back to CRAVING HEALTHY FOOD!  It's only 30 days.

But ...

I don't want to adjust my social life for a month.  30 days is 30 days is 30 days.

 ++ Part of the problem day-to-day is there is not enough fun.  It's been all the stressful things and far fewer fun things.  I want to get back to the fun stuff.  Fun includes social eating and social drinking -- for me and I don't see that changing in forever the near future.

++ Part of my problem day-to-day is I'm eating like crap, feeling like crap and repeating.

So which is more IMPORTANT?

Do I need to choose?  Can I have my cake and eat it too?

I don't know.  I'm so far off the path that I think only a committed Whole30 can fix it.  But what if there was a more gentle solution?  Food freedom will take me there on the slow train and the ride is nicer.  However, I don't know if I'll stay on that train -- too easy to get derailed (love a tacky metaphor -- hah).

I'm probably being a tantrum-throwing 2 year old and I NEED to do the Whole30.  What is so scary about it?  I've had many successes and I KNOW the results are EXACTLY what I want -- seems like a no-brainer.

Yet, my brain is THINKING, PLOTTING, BEGGING for a different option.  Sounds like it's my 2 year old brain screaming the loudest -- right??

I know the answer.  I don't want THIS answer.  Dang.

30 days.
Fun that is not food related.
FIX the problem.

Being grownup is HARD sometimes.