Let's Go

No Crumbs Left (on Instagram) is having a cookbook signing tomorrow in Atlanta.  I think I mentioned, she's fantastically doing it DURING THE DAY!  You get a signed copy of her cookbook with the ticket.

Yesterday, she mentioned needing help with the event.  I'm signed up as a "bag stuffer" for a few hours ahead of the book tour presentation.  ("Let's go" is her tag line.)

I need to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE and do something NOT DOG related.  By myself.  No interruptions.  Podcasts are loaded for the car ride.  I'm stopping to eat before and after.  Getting a Starbucks on the way.  I am totally pumped to do this.  All ME channel most of the day.

This is the joy of doing things alone sometimes.  Friends, connection, family -- all good, but so is alone.  If I'd been going with a friend to the event, I bet they wouldn't have been interested in the volunteering.  I would have been "stuck" with my original plans and not able to do something spontaneous that I wanted to do.  Since it's ME only -- I can do whatever I want.  Change to fit my whim.

I'm in a funk and the usual things I do at home are not happening -- I'm trying, but interruptions and people (hubby) changing my plans.  Contractors late to the house (45 day inspection repairs), changing days, times.  Every time I TRY to hold space for MYSELF it gets eaten up.  Yesterday was a particularly difficult day on that front.  Then I saw the Instagram story asking for help -- giving me a day to MYSELF (with hundreds of strangers - but they don't count).  Strangers don't ask, interrupt, need, judge -- the same way someone you know does.  Does that make sense?  Lately, I can't go to the bathroom without a questions about where I'm going and an interruption while I'm on the toilet.  It's bad, folks.

I went back to basics and realize I need to PROBLEM SOLVE.  Where can I find space?  How can I start building back something exclusively for me -- time I don't need to share or compromise?  Outside of what usually works.  USUAL doesn't exist right now and trying to do/have the SAME is frustrating me.

Wish me luck.  I'm putting a lot of pressure on this day being wonderful.  That might backfire.  But, it also might be glorious.  It's giving me some spring in my step today.  Yesterday, I face planted in crappiness.  180 spin (hopefully, maybe, pretty please).

Today should be nice because of the anticipation of tomorrow.  (It's THAT exciting to me to have a day to myself.)  Space to an introvert is essential to existing.  (Dramatic, but true.)

We are FINALLY getting our mattress delivery.  Not PB -- so triple the price.  That means I can set up the spare room in the basement using our old stuff -- it's a hot mess.  Wednesday we get plantation shutters.  Things are moving along.  A bit slowly, but forward is happening.

Pictures coming later this week :)  Off to enjoy my anticipation day.  Later gators.