Another Missing Piece

In the name of PROBLEM SOLVING ...

I think part of my struggle with home time and alone time is that hubby and I are stuck in task mode AT HOME. We are tethered to the house because of extra dogs or contractors or delivery appointments.  We haven't been able to have fun together in too long.

We all know how deliveries work.  Big time window and then expect the delivery outside the window.  Lately, some deliveries have been early -- but early can be as disruptive as late.  One interrupted my workout.  Early by 90 minutes.  They had to assemble the table so it wasn't just a 5 minute drop-and-go.

One contractor showed up at the door with no notice (downside of no gate).  Crew in hand.  "I thought I'd see if you were home."  Yes, but no.  Ugh.  It's frustrating.

After we finish babysitting our grand-dogs, we are taking a break from ALL OF THIS.  Deliveries can wait (we should be finished for the immediate future anyway), contractors (who have been ignoring us for weeks) can wait.  We are going out and DOING things - having some fun together.  Fun we BOTH like.

Unexpected things got in the way of our free days.  (Like a contractor no showing up for 2 days he reserved to come -- so we were tethered to the house for NOTHING.)

Hubby is off from work and we haven't done one fun thing (outside of the house) together since we moved in.  Honest truth -- not one thing.  We went to brunch as a group -- but not just the two of us.  It's been all home "chores" or entertaining at our house.  At first, that was nice.  Hanging out in our new house, sitting on the porch, walking in our new neighborhood.  Now it's isolation.

Isolation can get me down.  Even when it hasn't been on purpose.  I know I need to get out when I suddenly don't want to leave the house for anything.  I get a case of apathy for anything.  That's when I need to push myself out.  Put on regular clothes, do my hair and GET OUT OF THE HOUSE.

I told my accountability partner that I am bummed about how much effort I'm expending to only be slowly rolling backwards.  But, I haven't given up.  That's a big difference for me.  I'm still pushing -- everyday, as much as I can muster.  But it's time to make progress forward again. I don't know what that looks like or how to actually get there, but I'm trusting that the effort and ideas will eventually find the next step.

Today is one of those ideas -- I'll try to get some pictures.  I was changed promoted from "bag stuffer" to "picture taker" for the people meeting Teri.  Later gators.