The LIST is made. Breathe. I can remember everything now!
Half the returns are done. What a relief! And how ridiculous that was a stressor for me?!? I'm going to another location today to do the rest (one dress still hasn't arrived - bummer). I'm heading in that direction today, but I'm really just chicken to go back to that same store!!
The best news from yesterday??? A friend asked me to ride along to the outlets to check out a kitchen table with her. We stopped into Ann Taylor and I found 2 dresses that fit the bill PERFECTLY. They are simple, not overly girly, comfortable, pass the sweat-mark test and inexpensive. What luck!! And I can wear them all summer. Joy of joys. All the online dresses are going back. Time wasted, but money saved. I count that as a win. I won't do that mega online ordering again - I think I went a bit crazy in the head!
On my errands today, I'm going to stop into the party store. We have 4 young kids coming and I thought I'd get a couple of party favors for them. I haven't been to a party store in years!
Then I need to finish out my to-dos from yesterday. Bill paying got bumped in lieu of outlet shopping -- well worth it though.
Today is a rest day for working out. I'd love to workout because the day is completely schedule free (no specific time to do anything). I like that relaxed feeling for a workout. But, alas, my muscles are tired. Listening to my body. Tomorrow morning is time crunched, but I'll do another split workout and get it all to fit in.
Other than that pesky bill paying, today is all about fun. Shoe shopping (with coupon - yea me), pedicure, finish returns (with confidence!), party store and maybe even lunch on the run. Tomorrow begins the rapid fire party prep staring with grocery stores galore!
Shoe shopping is interesting for me. I have one main criteria and everything else is a distant second - COMFORT! Let's just say I'm not known for cute shoes - oh well. But my feet thank me. My usual comfortable summer shoes are pretty worn and haggard -- I can do better. Cute, maybe not. Clean, probably appropriate. DSW here I come. (My friends call my black flip-flops Fred Flintstone shoes. I have two pair. They are a dream to wear. Their feet are probably jealous!) Maybe my good shopping karma will continue today.
My INTENTION today is to stay calm and enjoy the process. Not exactly a higher calling, but that's all I've got - later gators.
Wednesday, May 31, 2017
Tuesday, May 30, 2017
Picture
I stumbled upon this picture last week. It's taken on July 2nd (I don't remember the year) which is hubby's actual birthday. It was his present from me -- a rock scramble and brunch. I was TERRIFIED (the scramble, not the brunch lol)!!
It was the first and only time (thankfully) I've ever had a real-deal panic attack. It wasn't pretty at the time but now we laugh about it every birthday. It's a long and funny story of the day and why I chose the scramble in the first place. We love to tell and retell it.
The story is funny but the picture reminds me of where I was in my life at that moment -- not so funny. It was during my 4 years of unhappiness which left me 75+ lbs heavier for 2 of those years. And miserable.
Miserable came first (for lots of reasons); the weight was a symptom. I figured out the "why" of the misery, fixed it, but couldn't get the weight off. A new form of miserable and frustration and self-esteem issues began for the next 2 years.
That place scares me. The memories and feelings are so powerful from that time, I can close my eyes and be right back there again. That's why I fight so hard to find my HAPPINESS and not eat my feelings and not go back to that place. I'm scared if I do go back, I won't find my way out this time.
As is said, a picture is worth a thousand words.
It was the first and only time (thankfully) I've ever had a real-deal panic attack. It wasn't pretty at the time but now we laugh about it every birthday. It's a long and funny story of the day and why I chose the scramble in the first place. We love to tell and retell it.
The story is funny but the picture reminds me of where I was in my life at that moment -- not so funny. It was during my 4 years of unhappiness which left me 75+ lbs heavier for 2 of those years. And miserable.
Miserable came first (for lots of reasons); the weight was a symptom. I figured out the "why" of the misery, fixed it, but couldn't get the weight off. A new form of miserable and frustration and self-esteem issues began for the next 2 years.
That place scares me. The memories and feelings are so powerful from that time, I can close my eyes and be right back there again. That's why I fight so hard to find my HAPPINESS and not eat my feelings and not go back to that place. I'm scared if I do go back, I won't find my way out this time.
As is said, a picture is worth a thousand words.
(Almost) Empty House
Back to work day for the masses - including hubby. Sigh of relief for me. Some quiet space. The youngest is home, but will be sleeping and studying most of the day.
Yesterday was low key as promised. I ended up with a full interval run - it felt fine. Golf sucked though lol! I lost my mojo again. It was crowded and backed-up as everyone tried to get in a round before the storms. Not my cup of tea. We spent the afternoon watching Band of Brothers. It's been years since I've seen it. We have the rest recorded to finish watching. A poignant, beautifully made series. I forgot how many "known" actors were in it.
Today is list day (not to be mistaken for lift day - which it is too). I'll feel so much better when I accomplish two things this week - my big, detailed list and my mega returns. List today, returns tomorrow. Bam.
I went searching for some new books to read yesterday (success BTW!) and stumbled upon a book on the NY Times Bestseller List -- Mark Manson's new book, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F$$%. It's reviewed as a "raw, refreshing" way to weed out the crap and find what's important. Sold. A new perspective. As Tony Robbins says ... if there is just one good point, it's worth it. Stay tuned for my literary review lol. I need to finish a current book which I'm quickly losing interest in -- it gets another 100 pages to improve or I'm out. I used to read multiple books at the same time but lately I found I was "forgetting" to finish books or leaving them so long I couldn't remember the beginning (thanks old age). So relatively new (but maybe temporary) rule ... finish the book you start or decide not to read it before you move on. Of course, now I'm super excited to read my new finds. Patience my dear girl, patience.
Oh and P.S. Mark Manson has a blog site. I bookmarked it. Some articles are by subscription, but I thought I'd check it out if his book resonates with me. I read 5 blogs regularly Nerd Fitness, Runs For Cookies and 3 bloggers that I've linked from her site (2 of whom rarely post lately - bummer - hope they are doing well). I check out blogs all the time, but don't read regularly. These 5 captured my interest for different reasons. It's weird to feel like I know someone (sort of) whom I've never met.
Back to today ... it's my split workout but cardio will be mellow this morning. My darn knee is complaining again. Too much running?? And I don't know what today's lift is (arms, legs, both) so best not to overdo. Then chores (sheet day, bill day, etc), but no cooking (thanks FoodSaver).
I'm stuck for an intention today. Nothing is grabbing me. Meditation is back on though. Dare I say I missed it ... maybe just a little ... could this be the start of a beautiful relationship -- me and meditation?? I'm still doing my 10 day trial ... I'm a little over half way, 15 or so days later lol!! Best to take new relationships slowly, right??
Yesterday was low key as promised. I ended up with a full interval run - it felt fine. Golf sucked though lol! I lost my mojo again. It was crowded and backed-up as everyone tried to get in a round before the storms. Not my cup of tea. We spent the afternoon watching Band of Brothers. It's been years since I've seen it. We have the rest recorded to finish watching. A poignant, beautifully made series. I forgot how many "known" actors were in it.
Today is list day (not to be mistaken for lift day - which it is too). I'll feel so much better when I accomplish two things this week - my big, detailed list and my mega returns. List today, returns tomorrow. Bam.
I went searching for some new books to read yesterday (success BTW!) and stumbled upon a book on the NY Times Bestseller List -- Mark Manson's new book, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F$$%. It's reviewed as a "raw, refreshing" way to weed out the crap and find what's important. Sold. A new perspective. As Tony Robbins says ... if there is just one good point, it's worth it. Stay tuned for my literary review lol. I need to finish a current book which I'm quickly losing interest in -- it gets another 100 pages to improve or I'm out. I used to read multiple books at the same time but lately I found I was "forgetting" to finish books or leaving them so long I couldn't remember the beginning (thanks old age). So relatively new (but maybe temporary) rule ... finish the book you start or decide not to read it before you move on. Of course, now I'm super excited to read my new finds. Patience my dear girl, patience.
Oh and P.S. Mark Manson has a blog site. I bookmarked it. Some articles are by subscription, but I thought I'd check it out if his book resonates with me. I read 5 blogs regularly Nerd Fitness, Runs For Cookies and 3 bloggers that I've linked from her site (2 of whom rarely post lately - bummer - hope they are doing well). I check out blogs all the time, but don't read regularly. These 5 captured my interest for different reasons. It's weird to feel like I know someone (sort of) whom I've never met.
Back to today ... it's my split workout but cardio will be mellow this morning. My darn knee is complaining again. Too much running?? And I don't know what today's lift is (arms, legs, both) so best not to overdo. Then chores (sheet day, bill day, etc), but no cooking (thanks FoodSaver).
I'm stuck for an intention today. Nothing is grabbing me. Meditation is back on though. Dare I say I missed it ... maybe just a little ... could this be the start of a beautiful relationship -- me and meditation?? I'm still doing my 10 day trial ... I'm a little over half way, 15 or so days later lol!! Best to take new relationships slowly, right??
Monday, May 29, 2017
Happy Memorial Day
I'm so stinking sore this morning (in the GOOD way). I amped up my weights yesterday (I had dropped some strength after Italy) and I feel it today. So much so, I think I'll modify my workout - my legs will thank me. I'm also golfing so it will be interesting to see if my swing suffers.
The steak was really good last night. We'll absolute make it again. Flavor was delicious and hubby did a good job with the doneness. We also perfected the pina colada while hubby was golfing (eldest said it was the best he's ever had). Bam.
The bummer news was the crab cakes did not hold up for freezing - the texture wasn't the same. I think I could tweak a little and do better, but I'm not taking the chance. Same day it is ... it's going to be a long, crazy day!
All but one of the dresses came. I like one, but it's out of my usual style by quite a bit. It's a sweet, girly dress and I usually do relatively plain basics. I want to feel comfortable and I don't want to look like I'm trying too hard - you know what I mean? It needs a shrug to cover my shoulders and upper back (I feel too exposed in the back fat region!). I ordered one so if it works, I'll go for it. If the shrug is a bust, I'll look for something else. I'm nervous about so many returns. I almost want to mail them back just so I don't need to face anyone. I might return in stages. I've never done this many returns before - return guilt is real lol!!
This week is all about the actual party prep (practice over). Dinners will be from the freezer stash and self-serve. I need to do a very detailed shopping and to-do list, but I have to wait until hubby isn't around. Some things are a surprise! Once I have my list in place, I'll feel better. I'm overwhelmed right now. I'm worried too much cooking has to happen the day of the party. That's what happens when I go "fancy" instead of the usual suspects. I want this party to feel different though and that's the pay-off for an average cook.
And in my defense, here's the "dietary requirements" that I need to work around. One of our best friends eats no gluten, dairy, onions, peppers or alcohol. My cousin can't eat anything with poultry (including chicken stock). One person is deadly allergic to peanuts (and possibly tree nuts). One vegetarian. One person highly allergic to shrimp. There are a few gluten-free and a few dairy-free in the mix too. And all this while I'm trying to make hubby's "favorites" and be a bit special. It's a challenge to say the least and it knocked out some easier options from the possibility list.
I also need some spit shining for me. Manicure, pedicure and eyebrows. The usual maintenance. Plus pup is headed to the groomer later in the week. Busy, busy week.
Today feels like Sunday, so I'll be "off" all week and lose a day in my mind. Happens every holiday Monday.
On that note, my INTENTION today is remembrance and respect to all those who have sacrificed for our country and for humanity around the world.
The steak was really good last night. We'll absolute make it again. Flavor was delicious and hubby did a good job with the doneness. We also perfected the pina colada while hubby was golfing (eldest said it was the best he's ever had). Bam.
The bummer news was the crab cakes did not hold up for freezing - the texture wasn't the same. I think I could tweak a little and do better, but I'm not taking the chance. Same day it is ... it's going to be a long, crazy day!
All but one of the dresses came. I like one, but it's out of my usual style by quite a bit. It's a sweet, girly dress and I usually do relatively plain basics. I want to feel comfortable and I don't want to look like I'm trying too hard - you know what I mean? It needs a shrug to cover my shoulders and upper back (I feel too exposed in the back fat region!). I ordered one so if it works, I'll go for it. If the shrug is a bust, I'll look for something else. I'm nervous about so many returns. I almost want to mail them back just so I don't need to face anyone. I might return in stages. I've never done this many returns before - return guilt is real lol!!
This week is all about the actual party prep (practice over). Dinners will be from the freezer stash and self-serve. I need to do a very detailed shopping and to-do list, but I have to wait until hubby isn't around. Some things are a surprise! Once I have my list in place, I'll feel better. I'm overwhelmed right now. I'm worried too much cooking has to happen the day of the party. That's what happens when I go "fancy" instead of the usual suspects. I want this party to feel different though and that's the pay-off for an average cook.
And in my defense, here's the "dietary requirements" that I need to work around. One of our best friends eats no gluten, dairy, onions, peppers or alcohol. My cousin can't eat anything with poultry (including chicken stock). One person is deadly allergic to peanuts (and possibly tree nuts). One vegetarian. One person highly allergic to shrimp. There are a few gluten-free and a few dairy-free in the mix too. And all this while I'm trying to make hubby's "favorites" and be a bit special. It's a challenge to say the least and it knocked out some easier options from the possibility list.
I also need some spit shining for me. Manicure, pedicure and eyebrows. The usual maintenance. Plus pup is headed to the groomer later in the week. Busy, busy week.
Today feels like Sunday, so I'll be "off" all week and lose a day in my mind. Happens every holiday Monday.
On that note, my INTENTION today is remembrance and respect to all those who have sacrificed for our country and for humanity around the world.
Sunday, May 28, 2017
Grilling Queen
Another delicious bbq last night. Full house and a rather intense game of UNO to end the night (I lost by triple to the #4 loser - not my night). Fun time though. I did a trial cook of crostini with steak and horseradish cream. It worked well. Added to the cocktail hour for the big night.
I took the crab cakes out of the freezer this morning. The recipe is good, now to see if they hold up for freezing (I'm testing thaw time and hold-the-crunch factor). If it works well, I can make these early in the week and it's off my plate. I'm an okay cook, but it doesn't come naturally. I have to practice and test everything. (I am a good baker though!)
We're also doing a flank steak recipe (W30) tonight. Something different. It had to marinate overnight and it smells great.
The older kids are coming over this afternoon to finalize the pina colada recipe. I'm doing it from scratch and it's almost where we want it. Final touches today. I'll make the "lava flow" just for the party. A trial run on everything makes it feel like I'm hosting this party for weeks!! The strawberry "flow" looks simple and isn't critical (it's hubby's favorite so it gets added). I'm living on the edge and taking the risk lol.
I'm back on caffeine again. Why? A girlfriend brought me back kona coffee from Hawaii. The real deal and it's delicious. I can't pass on it! I made cold brew and it's so smooth. Heaven help me - good stuff.
Golf was good yesterday (even after my crazy intense bitching about it). Hot, but not horrible. I played well (for me). Credit is going to lifting. I don't get swing fatigue as I play and it's a huge help. Makes golf a lot more fun when you can hit the ball with (some - lol) success.
Total body lift workout at home today. Lots of kitchen time and a few errands. This party is a lot of work!!! Kids are very excited and so am I -- we want the old man to feel special.
My head seems to be on better these last 2 days. Hope to keep it going. I hate feeling angry all the time. Sticking with the INTENTION that's working for me. WORK HARD. Okay, peeps are getting up - got to run. Later gators.
I took the crab cakes out of the freezer this morning. The recipe is good, now to see if they hold up for freezing (I'm testing thaw time and hold-the-crunch factor). If it works well, I can make these early in the week and it's off my plate. I'm an okay cook, but it doesn't come naturally. I have to practice and test everything. (I am a good baker though!)
We're also doing a flank steak recipe (W30) tonight. Something different. It had to marinate overnight and it smells great.
The older kids are coming over this afternoon to finalize the pina colada recipe. I'm doing it from scratch and it's almost where we want it. Final touches today. I'll make the "lava flow" just for the party. A trial run on everything makes it feel like I'm hosting this party for weeks!! The strawberry "flow" looks simple and isn't critical (it's hubby's favorite so it gets added). I'm living on the edge and taking the risk lol.
I'm back on caffeine again. Why? A girlfriend brought me back kona coffee from Hawaii. The real deal and it's delicious. I can't pass on it! I made cold brew and it's so smooth. Heaven help me - good stuff.
Golf was good yesterday (even after my crazy intense bitching about it). Hot, but not horrible. I played well (for me). Credit is going to lifting. I don't get swing fatigue as I play and it's a huge help. Makes golf a lot more fun when you can hit the ball with (some - lol) success.
Total body lift workout at home today. Lots of kitchen time and a few errands. This party is a lot of work!!! Kids are very excited and so am I -- we want the old man to feel special.
My head seems to be on better these last 2 days. Hope to keep it going. I hate feeling angry all the time. Sticking with the INTENTION that's working for me. WORK HARD. Okay, peeps are getting up - got to run. Later gators.
Saturday, May 27, 2017
Winner, winner chicken dinner
I love my post title - just saying. Here's why:
I thought about why I've been struggling so much at night. When I'm "doing" a Whole30, nights are easier (although those witching hours!!). Anyway ... I realized I was making a good breakfast and lunch and winging dinner. Eating it in quick shifts in front of the TV or at the counter. That would start the picking and snacking. You know the rest.
So I'm back to having a sit-down, freshly prepared dinner. Last night was a new W30 recipe for grilled asian chicken kebabs with pineapple and vegetables served over asian coleslaw. Oh my YUM!! And it worked. Dinner was satisfying, delicious AND I didn't snack or overeat.
A WIN! Praise all that is good. FINALLY. Now to keep the crazy streak of ONE going.
Today is a rest day. I was going to do an arm workout, but I'm golfing later. I'll to a combo leg and arms tomorrow.
Lots of errands and house stuff on the list today. Hubby is up and lingering so this will be a quick one.
I'm sticking with the WORK HARD intention today. It felt good yesterday. Meditation is unlikely, but I'm watching for an opportunity.
Later gators!
I thought about why I've been struggling so much at night. When I'm "doing" a Whole30, nights are easier (although those witching hours!!). Anyway ... I realized I was making a good breakfast and lunch and winging dinner. Eating it in quick shifts in front of the TV or at the counter. That would start the picking and snacking. You know the rest.
So I'm back to having a sit-down, freshly prepared dinner. Last night was a new W30 recipe for grilled asian chicken kebabs with pineapple and vegetables served over asian coleslaw. Oh my YUM!! And it worked. Dinner was satisfying, delicious AND I didn't snack or overeat.
A WIN! Praise all that is good. FINALLY. Now to keep the crazy streak of ONE going.
Today is a rest day. I was going to do an arm workout, but I'm golfing later. I'll to a combo leg and arms tomorrow.
Lots of errands and house stuff on the list today. Hubby is up and lingering so this will be a quick one.
I'm sticking with the WORK HARD intention today. It felt good yesterday. Meditation is unlikely, but I'm watching for an opportunity.
Later gators!
Friday, May 26, 2017
Now for the regular stuff ...
Hubby (finally) left for golf (aka - working from home) lol. So I'm back to chat about my day.
My regular lift classes are cancelled until next week. The instructor is away for the weekend and no one enjoys a substitute - ouch, but true. So workouts are my own until Tuesday. Today is a cardio day - intervals on the treadmill. I like the music, the big sweat and the breathless-I-might-die feeling -- it's hard but so awesome when it's over!
One of the girls from my lift class suggested I go to a pilates class at noon today - I gave her a definitive "maybe" since I didn't have my schedule in front of me. I'm not a big fan of a noon workout and that means double shower too. I'll see how I feel after the run. It would be nice to try the class but it will be an out-of-the-box experience. Core and flexibility are a challenge. Maybe all the more reason to go??
I've gathered a few new recipes for the grill and plan to hit the grocery store today. All Whole30 healthy and delicious (I hope). Even thought I haven't posted much about trying new recipes, I've been pretty much hitting the mark with a new recipe a week (except vacation, of course). Lately, the recipes haven't exactly hit the healthy mark though - ugh.
One of the dresses came for the party. I was pleased to fit into the smaller size I ordered (the company runs big in their fit) and the dress is beautiful. The problem is it's held up by these weird little straps that tie. I have nothing on the top to "hold up" but the straps won't stay tight so the fabric falls. Since I'm hosting and moving all around, I don't think the top will stay in place. And it's not that kind of party lol! Some of the reviews commented on this, but usually that doesn't bother small chested folks like me so I ordered it anyway. Guess they were right.
More should come over the next few days. I actually ordered a couple more (since I feel comfortable about what size to order). I realized both styles I ordered originally will have that same problem. I'm nervous about going to the store to return them. It's a lot of returns - I feel sort of bad about it.
That's my day in a nutshell. My INTENTION today is to WORK HARD. I need a win ... workout, healthy eating ... beginning the climb up. Fingers crossed and luck welcomed -- it all helps lol!
My regular lift classes are cancelled until next week. The instructor is away for the weekend and no one enjoys a substitute - ouch, but true. So workouts are my own until Tuesday. Today is a cardio day - intervals on the treadmill. I like the music, the big sweat and the breathless-I-might-die feeling -- it's hard but so awesome when it's over!
One of the girls from my lift class suggested I go to a pilates class at noon today - I gave her a definitive "maybe" since I didn't have my schedule in front of me. I'm not a big fan of a noon workout and that means double shower too. I'll see how I feel after the run. It would be nice to try the class but it will be an out-of-the-box experience. Core and flexibility are a challenge. Maybe all the more reason to go??
I've gathered a few new recipes for the grill and plan to hit the grocery store today. All Whole30 healthy and delicious (I hope). Even thought I haven't posted much about trying new recipes, I've been pretty much hitting the mark with a new recipe a week (except vacation, of course). Lately, the recipes haven't exactly hit the healthy mark though - ugh.
One of the dresses came for the party. I was pleased to fit into the smaller size I ordered (the company runs big in their fit) and the dress is beautiful. The problem is it's held up by these weird little straps that tie. I have nothing on the top to "hold up" but the straps won't stay tight so the fabric falls. Since I'm hosting and moving all around, I don't think the top will stay in place. And it's not that kind of party lol! Some of the reviews commented on this, but usually that doesn't bother small chested folks like me so I ordered it anyway. Guess they were right.
More should come over the next few days. I actually ordered a couple more (since I feel comfortable about what size to order). I realized both styles I ordered originally will have that same problem. I'm nervous about going to the store to return them. It's a lot of returns - I feel sort of bad about it.
That's my day in a nutshell. My INTENTION today is to WORK HARD. I need a win ... workout, healthy eating ... beginning the climb up. Fingers crossed and luck welcomed -- it all helps lol!
Chicken or the Egg
I had a coming-to-God talk with myself yesterday. Enough of this already. It made me wonder ... which came first ... eating crappy so mood ... or mood so eating crappy. Chicken or the egg.
The Whole30 program talks a lot about how certain foods (particularly grains) can play a big role in mood. My trip to Italy was one big grain fest which is unusual for me. I haven't eaten a lot of grain products for 2 years (relatively speaking), but since Italy I've been eating them regularly. Maybe this is the cause of my very PMS like mood every day.
So grains are gone. Let's see if that helps. Of course the party is in a week and that will include alcohol and CAKE!! But my normal days, meals, etc need to be cleaned back up. I pulled grains because I don't miss them and they make me feel sluggish. I get plenty of carbs from potatoes, squash, vegetables, fruit, etc. For me, grains push vegetables off my plate. Not good.
BTW - I'm not a grain hater. We are all individuals and food choices are individual too. No to low grains works for me. Most of my grains come in the form of dessert - I love me those sweets.
I listened to Jim Rohn videos yesterday. Powerful stuff - always. The first time I listened to him, I thought he sounded boring. After years of listening to Tony Robbins, Jim Rohn's mellow, quiet ways seemed lack-luster. But as he is TR's mentor, I kept listening and was hooked. I LOVE his message (and I love his voice!). Just what my crappy mood needed - a good dose of Jim Rohn.
"The same wall you put up to keep out disappointment, also keeps out happiness." -- Jim Rohn
See?? Good stuff. Simple. Powerful. Mood altering!!
I listened to my mediation too. Yea ME.
I hope that yesterday morning was my low point ... my rock bottom (it felt that way). Time to climb up, out and back to ME. I get so bummed I take the fall and the climb over and over. Is that what everyone does?? The fall happens too easily and the climb is tough. Wouldn't it be easier, smarter, logical to just stay up?? That folks is the mystery to life ... at least to my life.
Effort and work yields results. Always.
The Whole30 program talks a lot about how certain foods (particularly grains) can play a big role in mood. My trip to Italy was one big grain fest which is unusual for me. I haven't eaten a lot of grain products for 2 years (relatively speaking), but since Italy I've been eating them regularly. Maybe this is the cause of my very PMS like mood every day.
So grains are gone. Let's see if that helps. Of course the party is in a week and that will include alcohol and CAKE!! But my normal days, meals, etc need to be cleaned back up. I pulled grains because I don't miss them and they make me feel sluggish. I get plenty of carbs from potatoes, squash, vegetables, fruit, etc. For me, grains push vegetables off my plate. Not good.
BTW - I'm not a grain hater. We are all individuals and food choices are individual too. No to low grains works for me. Most of my grains come in the form of dessert - I love me those sweets.
I listened to Jim Rohn videos yesterday. Powerful stuff - always. The first time I listened to him, I thought he sounded boring. After years of listening to Tony Robbins, Jim Rohn's mellow, quiet ways seemed lack-luster. But as he is TR's mentor, I kept listening and was hooked. I LOVE his message (and I love his voice!). Just what my crappy mood needed - a good dose of Jim Rohn.
"The same wall you put up to keep out disappointment, also keeps out happiness." -- Jim Rohn
See?? Good stuff. Simple. Powerful. Mood altering!!
I listened to my mediation too. Yea ME.
I hope that yesterday morning was my low point ... my rock bottom (it felt that way). Time to climb up, out and back to ME. I get so bummed I take the fall and the climb over and over. Is that what everyone does?? The fall happens too easily and the climb is tough. Wouldn't it be easier, smarter, logical to just stay up?? That folks is the mystery to life ... at least to my life.
Effort and work yields results. Always.
Thursday, May 25, 2017
Mental Blah
This might be is a Debbie-downer post today. I have a case of the blahs. It started last night. A mood descended on me and hasn't left this morning. I need to figure out how to fix it.
It started brewing yesterday when I tried and tried to get 10 minutes to do my meditation. Every time I was interrupted ... revolving door. Including hubby texting me non-stop and then texting to see if I saw his texts. I got very annoyed. (The meditation is on my phone, so every text with double notification kept over-riding the voice.) Delivery people with multiple phone updates, cleaning ladies with changing time, etc. You get the gist. So by the end of the night, I was pissed off, grumpy and feeling sorry for myself. I felt smothered by my life. P.S. no meditation.
I just wanted 10 minutes of UNINTERRUPTED time. No wonder I get itchy about space. Here is actual evidence that an entire day (most of the day) can go by and I can't find 10 minutes for ME.
The other parts of my day were filled with party errands and getting the spare room up to speed for company next weekend. Again - it felt like doing for everyone and I just wanted 10 minutes for ME.
I realize I have time in the morning -- this journalling time, but I need other moments too. My morning routine is nicely set and it works. I don't want to add meditation now, I want to do it later. That shouldn't be too much to ask. I shouldn't need to spend the rest of the day for everyone else.
Because I feel claustrophobic, everything is bugging me. Hubby is forcing golfing down my throat this weekend. I have to pull together a bbq for Memorial Day. Again - everyone else. I have a list of things I'd like to do this weekend (read, go to a movie, go the the dog park, etc) and none of them will happen. I'll end up doing what everyone else wants me to do. I want to be left ALONE for just a little while!!
It feels disrespectful and frustrating. I'm resenting people needing stuff from me ... all. the. time. Ugh.
Am I making a mountain out of a mole-hill? Maybe, but it's how I feel and it's dragging me down. I don't know how to fix it until I get those glorious days in 2 weeks.
I don't like a post to be nothing but one big complaint - sorry for the rant. This mood is strong and I don't know when it's going away.
I have lifting this morning and house chores this afternoon. I'd love to take some time for ME today, but my youngest is home and hubby might be home early. I don't know if I can find it. That revolving door is in constant motion.
Okay. Enough is enough. I'm even getting sick of hearing myself. My INTENTION today is extra self-serving. Do ONE thing that is completely and only for me today. Force the time. Wish me luck (otherwise wish my family luck lol). It's not even that time of month (I checked!!).
It started brewing yesterday when I tried and tried to get 10 minutes to do my meditation. Every time I was interrupted ... revolving door. Including hubby texting me non-stop and then texting to see if I saw his texts. I got very annoyed. (The meditation is on my phone, so every text with double notification kept over-riding the voice.) Delivery people with multiple phone updates, cleaning ladies with changing time, etc. You get the gist. So by the end of the night, I was pissed off, grumpy and feeling sorry for myself. I felt smothered by my life. P.S. no meditation.
I just wanted 10 minutes of UNINTERRUPTED time. No wonder I get itchy about space. Here is actual evidence that an entire day (most of the day) can go by and I can't find 10 minutes for ME.
The other parts of my day were filled with party errands and getting the spare room up to speed for company next weekend. Again - it felt like doing for everyone and I just wanted 10 minutes for ME.
I realize I have time in the morning -- this journalling time, but I need other moments too. My morning routine is nicely set and it works. I don't want to add meditation now, I want to do it later. That shouldn't be too much to ask. I shouldn't need to spend the rest of the day for everyone else.
Because I feel claustrophobic, everything is bugging me. Hubby is forcing golfing down my throat this weekend. I have to pull together a bbq for Memorial Day. Again - everyone else. I have a list of things I'd like to do this weekend (read, go to a movie, go the the dog park, etc) and none of them will happen. I'll end up doing what everyone else wants me to do. I want to be left ALONE for just a little while!!
It feels disrespectful and frustrating. I'm resenting people needing stuff from me ... all. the. time. Ugh.
Am I making a mountain out of a mole-hill? Maybe, but it's how I feel and it's dragging me down. I don't know how to fix it until I get those glorious days in 2 weeks.
I don't like a post to be nothing but one big complaint - sorry for the rant. This mood is strong and I don't know when it's going away.
I have lifting this morning and house chores this afternoon. I'd love to take some time for ME today, but my youngest is home and hubby might be home early. I don't know if I can find it. That revolving door is in constant motion.
Okay. Enough is enough. I'm even getting sick of hearing myself. My INTENTION today is extra self-serving. Do ONE thing that is completely and only for me today. Force the time. Wish me luck (otherwise wish my family luck lol). It's not even that time of month (I checked!!).
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
A Sundress Motivation
I ordered a few (4 actually) dresses online yesterday. Two styles, two sizes each. All can be returned to the actual store without a problem. I thought I'd like something new to wear for the party and maybe help me find some motivation. I'm not sure any of them will fit. I have 10 days. Let's see what can be done. If not, I'll head to the stores next week to look for something. I'm not a fan of shopping at a store (usually).
The new cleaning crew starts today. Yippee!! My back already says "thanks." They come around 3:30 p. I can go run errands, etc and all the stores are open (when we had the 8am clean it was a challenge). But I don't want to leave the dog for the first clean since he loves to steal (and eat) cleaning rags. Given his health issues ... well, I'm concerned. But it's too hot to leave him in the car, or go hiking, or do anything. I'll see what the afternoon brings. Maybe we'll stay home and sit outside. Or even better, maybe I'll let him stay with my son. After his room is cleaned he can study and babysit the dog. Yes!!! Good idea!
I made chia seed pudding last night with light coconut milk and cinnamon -- no sweetener. It's good-ish. I'm not sure it's good enough to justify those calories and fat grams. I guess when a dessert is needed, it's a healthy option. But at that point, just eat dessert. It satisfies the "creamy" craving though.
Our spare room mattress is being delivered today too. I have the undergarments (pad, sheets) but I need the fun stuff. I'll pick up a cheap headboard (maybe Overstock.com) and put a skirt on the bed. Simple and perfect for a spare room. I bought new bedding just before my son moved out thinking he and his girlfriend would choose something for themselves. They both liked the bedding, so now I get to shop again. I might get the same one if I can find it - Target :)
Meditation update. Well, I like headspace.com much more than anything else I've found. I'm doing the 10 day free stuff. I realized yesterday part of my problem with meditating is I'm often paranoid about being interrupted (I could barely focus). I don't know why is feels so personal and private to me. Like I'm being caught - it's embarrassing. I need to get over it and/or find a solution.
Foster mama update. A plea was sent yesterday begging for fosters. A group finished training (all abused and very fearful) and need foster homes. I said YES but haven't heard anything. They are difficult fosters and this being my first time, it might not be a match. I'm trusting and exercising patience, but I'm so darn excited to get going!!
These 2 weeks are a challenge on the "space" front. Lots of early days home for the family both weeks and a long weekend in between. I'm trying to deal well with it - trying - not necessarily succeeding. The week following the party, hubby travels. I'm hanging onto that thought for dear life. It's NOTHING about him. It's all me. The house has been a revolving door of people always home. My cup is very low and I don't have the reserves I need going into these two weeks. Breathe ...
My INTENTION today is to be GRATEFUL. Lots of good stuff happening and I need to focus on the GOOD. Later gators.
The new cleaning crew starts today. Yippee!! My back already says "thanks." They come around 3:30 p. I can go run errands, etc and all the stores are open (when we had the 8am clean it was a challenge). But I don't want to leave the dog for the first clean since he loves to steal (and eat) cleaning rags. Given his health issues ... well, I'm concerned. But it's too hot to leave him in the car, or go hiking, or do anything. I'll see what the afternoon brings. Maybe we'll stay home and sit outside. Or even better, maybe I'll let him stay with my son. After his room is cleaned he can study and babysit the dog. Yes!!! Good idea!
I made chia seed pudding last night with light coconut milk and cinnamon -- no sweetener. It's good-ish. I'm not sure it's good enough to justify those calories and fat grams. I guess when a dessert is needed, it's a healthy option. But at that point, just eat dessert. It satisfies the "creamy" craving though.
Our spare room mattress is being delivered today too. I have the undergarments (pad, sheets) but I need the fun stuff. I'll pick up a cheap headboard (maybe Overstock.com) and put a skirt on the bed. Simple and perfect for a spare room. I bought new bedding just before my son moved out thinking he and his girlfriend would choose something for themselves. They both liked the bedding, so now I get to shop again. I might get the same one if I can find it - Target :)
Meditation update. Well, I like headspace.com much more than anything else I've found. I'm doing the 10 day free stuff. I realized yesterday part of my problem with meditating is I'm often paranoid about being interrupted (I could barely focus). I don't know why is feels so personal and private to me. Like I'm being caught - it's embarrassing. I need to get over it and/or find a solution.
Foster mama update. A plea was sent yesterday begging for fosters. A group finished training (all abused and very fearful) and need foster homes. I said YES but haven't heard anything. They are difficult fosters and this being my first time, it might not be a match. I'm trusting and exercising patience, but I'm so darn excited to get going!!
These 2 weeks are a challenge on the "space" front. Lots of early days home for the family both weeks and a long weekend in between. I'm trying to deal well with it - trying - not necessarily succeeding. The week following the party, hubby travels. I'm hanging onto that thought for dear life. It's NOTHING about him. It's all me. The house has been a revolving door of people always home. My cup is very low and I don't have the reserves I need going into these two weeks. Breathe ...
My INTENTION today is to be GRATEFUL. Lots of good stuff happening and I need to focus on the GOOD. Later gators.
Tuesday, May 23, 2017
I LOVE a Rainy Day
Steady rain all day. Sun is up, but it's dark and snuggly in the house. Don't get me wrong - too many rainy days are a bummer. One is PERFECT!
It one of those not-the-normal things about me. I like cozy. I like dark. I like lower ceilings (not two story grand rooms). I like lots of things smaller, crozier. I love fall when we "fall back" and it gets dark early. I love getting up in the morning before the sun comes up. I like running in the dark.
Anyway, I'm happy about the rainy day. P.S. Rainy is different than stormy - we get some doozer storms down here. Me and the pup hate those days.
Today is my split workout. Some cardio at home and lift mid-day. I planned to hit Trader Joe's after my workout (I'm halfway there already) but we'll see with the rain.
Today is another low-key day which I'll gladly take because there is a big build up coming over the next 2 weeks. If the rain quiets down, the gang is going to a baseball game in the new stadium tonight. Being a non-sport person (except Steelers) and with only 4 comped tickets, I made the sacrifice and am staying home. WOO HOO. I can't celebrate yet because they may not go with the rain. Rain - a curse and a blessing lol. I'd love the evening to myself. Fingers crossed.
I'm drinking one of my last caffeinated coffees this morning. I move to 1/2 caff. next week. I'm in no hurry. I'm handling the caffeine well -- sleeping fine, no hand tremors, no "nervous" feeling.
I decided after the rush of the party for hubby, I'm making a schedule for getting crap done. The crap I don't want to do. Period. It's happening. I feel better about it. It might still seem a bit procrastinating-like (and it is) but it works for me. I can get myself back to feeling good, good routines, etc and then get working. It makes it all less overwhelming. It needs to get done, but doesn't need to be today.
The party has me overwhelmed enough. I love to entertain, but I also hate to entertain. I get really nervous about it. Is the food okay, are people going to have fun, are they going to stay, do they really want to come? Insecurities left-over from growing up. I force myself to do this because I don't like this part of me. I don't want fear to dictate. I've become okay with most casual entertaining. And I've redefined myself - most friends say I'm an entertainer. Mission accomplished.
But this party is more than casual. Some extra people are coming (Fred's buddies). It's a mix of family and friends (never done that). I'm trying really HARD for this party - aka not casual entertaining. I'm out of my element and it has me nervous. I'm trying to label this as VARIETY and go with it lol. I feel like I need to "host" more than normal. Make sure everyone has someone to talk to, feels included, feels good. Usually, it's all peeps who know each other well, so I can relax and let them socialize. This is an eclectic mix. Some say that makes for a more interesting party - I'm not one of those lol.
Then all the new foods I'm making. Hence the trial runs for almost everything. I can make something a dozen times and when I need to make it for other people, I flop it. Ugh.
Okay. I'm working myself into a nervous sweat. Enough of that for now. Plus this post is already long.
My INTENTION for today is to be PROUD of myself. I need that today. My insecurities are showing, but I have lots to be proud and confident about - we all do. Today my focus is on those things. Amazing me lol!!
It one of those not-the-normal things about me. I like cozy. I like dark. I like lower ceilings (not two story grand rooms). I like lots of things smaller, crozier. I love fall when we "fall back" and it gets dark early. I love getting up in the morning before the sun comes up. I like running in the dark.
Anyway, I'm happy about the rainy day. P.S. Rainy is different than stormy - we get some doozer storms down here. Me and the pup hate those days.
Today is my split workout. Some cardio at home and lift mid-day. I planned to hit Trader Joe's after my workout (I'm halfway there already) but we'll see with the rain.
Today is another low-key day which I'll gladly take because there is a big build up coming over the next 2 weeks. If the rain quiets down, the gang is going to a baseball game in the new stadium tonight. Being a non-sport person (except Steelers) and with only 4 comped tickets, I made the sacrifice and am staying home. WOO HOO. I can't celebrate yet because they may not go with the rain. Rain - a curse and a blessing lol. I'd love the evening to myself. Fingers crossed.
I'm drinking one of my last caffeinated coffees this morning. I move to 1/2 caff. next week. I'm in no hurry. I'm handling the caffeine well -- sleeping fine, no hand tremors, no "nervous" feeling.
I decided after the rush of the party for hubby, I'm making a schedule for getting crap done. The crap I don't want to do. Period. It's happening. I feel better about it. It might still seem a bit procrastinating-like (and it is) but it works for me. I can get myself back to feeling good, good routines, etc and then get working. It makes it all less overwhelming. It needs to get done, but doesn't need to be today.
The party has me overwhelmed enough. I love to entertain, but I also hate to entertain. I get really nervous about it. Is the food okay, are people going to have fun, are they going to stay, do they really want to come? Insecurities left-over from growing up. I force myself to do this because I don't like this part of me. I don't want fear to dictate. I've become okay with most casual entertaining. And I've redefined myself - most friends say I'm an entertainer. Mission accomplished.
But this party is more than casual. Some extra people are coming (Fred's buddies). It's a mix of family and friends (never done that). I'm trying really HARD for this party - aka not casual entertaining. I'm out of my element and it has me nervous. I'm trying to label this as VARIETY and go with it lol. I feel like I need to "host" more than normal. Make sure everyone has someone to talk to, feels included, feels good. Usually, it's all peeps who know each other well, so I can relax and let them socialize. This is an eclectic mix. Some say that makes for a more interesting party - I'm not one of those lol.
Then all the new foods I'm making. Hence the trial runs for almost everything. I can make something a dozen times and when I need to make it for other people, I flop it. Ugh.
Okay. I'm working myself into a nervous sweat. Enough of that for now. Plus this post is already long.
My INTENTION for today is to be PROUD of myself. I need that today. My insecurities are showing, but I have lots to be proud and confident about - we all do. Today my focus is on those things. Amazing me lol!!
Monday, May 22, 2017
Daily Stuff
My freezer is packed with FoodSaver success!! I actually need to move some stuff into the basement freezer to make room. Why did I wait so long to try a FoodSaver?? It's fabulous. And it's a great way to share with my eldest and his girlfriend. I sent them home with a bunch of stuff to start their freezer supply when they want a break from cooking. I just finished vacuuming all the pork.
I did a trial run of the crab cakes for the party yesterday. Yum! I baked them instead of pan frying because it's way easier to do a big batch. They were crunchy and marvelous. I FoodSaver froze a portion (after freezing first) to make sure it will thaw and still cook crispy. If so, perfect to make ahead of the party. I'll try them later this week.
Today is a homebody day. I have a cleaning crew starting Wednesday, but the house is too dirty to wait. I need to do a bit of a clean ahead (don't want to shock them the first time). I'm going to workout, clean and then start some of my HAPPY list stuff (my post from earlier). The "what" remains to be seen, but it will be something. I need to push forward.
I had a bad eating day yesterday. Cue the post-of-shame. I had eldest for dinner last night and I was cooking, baking, etc. We stocked up on wine for the party and I had wine-on-the-brain. After taste testing food and wine, it went to hell and a handbag. I enjoyed it a lot (too much - it's already on my mind today - ugh) but regret it this morning. Bummer. Lord this war is hard - I'm losing too many of the battles lately.
Otherwise, yesterday was a really productive day. Tons of food cooked, lots of party stuff purchased, mattress and bedding shopped to fill the empty bedroom and double star day at Starbucks - winner all around. I think that makes the eating choices extra disappointing - there was no good reason for the overkill on sweets and wine.
Best cure for my over-the-top cravings this morning ... workout and stay busy.
I get tired of posting my yo-yo days - it's annoying. Unfortunately, it's me. Off to workout - bye!!
I did a trial run of the crab cakes for the party yesterday. Yum! I baked them instead of pan frying because it's way easier to do a big batch. They were crunchy and marvelous. I FoodSaver froze a portion (after freezing first) to make sure it will thaw and still cook crispy. If so, perfect to make ahead of the party. I'll try them later this week.
Today is a homebody day. I have a cleaning crew starting Wednesday, but the house is too dirty to wait. I need to do a bit of a clean ahead (don't want to shock them the first time). I'm going to workout, clean and then start some of my HAPPY list stuff (my post from earlier). The "what" remains to be seen, but it will be something. I need to push forward.
I had a bad eating day yesterday. Cue the post-of-shame. I had eldest for dinner last night and I was cooking, baking, etc. We stocked up on wine for the party and I had wine-on-the-brain. After taste testing food and wine, it went to hell and a handbag. I enjoyed it a lot (too much - it's already on my mind today - ugh) but regret it this morning. Bummer. Lord this war is hard - I'm losing too many of the battles lately.
Otherwise, yesterday was a really productive day. Tons of food cooked, lots of party stuff purchased, mattress and bedding shopped to fill the empty bedroom and double star day at Starbucks - winner all around. I think that makes the eating choices extra disappointing - there was no good reason for the overkill on sweets and wine.
Best cure for my over-the-top cravings this morning ... workout and stay busy.
I get tired of posting my yo-yo days - it's annoying. Unfortunately, it's me. Off to workout - bye!!
Healthy, Happy List
I need a reminder of what was working -- My Happiness Project. This is the list in no particular order - just as I think of things - and I might edit it as more things come to mind today.
Remember to be HAPPY. Sometime I forget and just get grumpy in my head for no particular reason. It's simple and obvious, yet (for me) it's not my default. It needs to be a conscience decision.
Eat healthy. I feel so much better - ridiculously better. And when my pants fit, all is okay in my universe. Petty, but it's my reality. This is the hard one for me. This is the most important one for me. That's why it occupies most of this journal. It's a daily effort and often a struggle. Ugh and double ugh!
Get crap off my plate. I have a list of things that I need to work on. Resume update, reviewing nursing notes, looking for job openings, figuring out what I want to do. Having these linger creates stress -- stress is the antithesis to HAPPY and HEALTHY.
Have goals. Be productive. Rosetta Stone comes to mind. I want to work on Spanish and I will work on it for short bursts. Nothing consistent long term though. I have plenty of time - no excuses. I love when I do it, yet I let it go a lot. I make some progress and then I stop.
Meditate. It continues to "pester" me at every turn. I think about giving up on it and it comes back and smacks me in the face. I think the universe is sending a message. (BTW headspace.com is going well.) Meditating must be important. I want to give up, but the dang universe won't let me. I guess I need to give in and just figure it out.
Variety. But maybe better called BALANCE. I need to push myself outside of my routines, do something exciting, something beyond CERTAINTY. That makes for an interesting life, an interesting day ... puts some zip in the old step. But ... too much variety sends me over the edge. I like routine, need routine. CERTAINTY is my default and who I am. I'll take a cup of CERTAINTY with a slash of VARIETY and I'm a HAPPY gal.
Exercise. I put this on my list for a win lol. No matter my situation in life, no matter my size (even 75+ lbs heavier), no matter how busy -- I workout. I guess it's burned in my DNA. It's a good win to have in my back pocket. I've tried to figure out the "why" so I can apply it to other thing (particularly the healthy eating) but there is some magical element that I can't explain. I have my theories, but they don't work when I apply them elsewhere. But a win is a win. Yea ME on this one.
Reviewing My Happiness Project, I have a lot of wins ("wins" was originally a typo of "wine" ... that too) and lots of good learning about ME. I need to take what I've learned and continue forward. It's funny how easy it is to slip back into "less-than" default settings. Even if the new setting is AWESOME.
My INTENTION today is to take steps to return to the AWESOME setting. Baby steps, but the direction is forward. Later gators.
Remember to be HAPPY. Sometime I forget and just get grumpy in my head for no particular reason. It's simple and obvious, yet (for me) it's not my default. It needs to be a conscience decision.
Eat healthy. I feel so much better - ridiculously better. And when my pants fit, all is okay in my universe. Petty, but it's my reality. This is the hard one for me. This is the most important one for me. That's why it occupies most of this journal. It's a daily effort and often a struggle. Ugh and double ugh!
Get crap off my plate. I have a list of things that I need to work on. Resume update, reviewing nursing notes, looking for job openings, figuring out what I want to do. Having these linger creates stress -- stress is the antithesis to HAPPY and HEALTHY.
Have goals. Be productive. Rosetta Stone comes to mind. I want to work on Spanish and I will work on it for short bursts. Nothing consistent long term though. I have plenty of time - no excuses. I love when I do it, yet I let it go a lot. I make some progress and then I stop.
Meditate. It continues to "pester" me at every turn. I think about giving up on it and it comes back and smacks me in the face. I think the universe is sending a message. (BTW headspace.com is going well.) Meditating must be important. I want to give up, but the dang universe won't let me. I guess I need to give in and just figure it out.
Variety. But maybe better called BALANCE. I need to push myself outside of my routines, do something exciting, something beyond CERTAINTY. That makes for an interesting life, an interesting day ... puts some zip in the old step. But ... too much variety sends me over the edge. I like routine, need routine. CERTAINTY is my default and who I am. I'll take a cup of CERTAINTY with a slash of VARIETY and I'm a HAPPY gal.
Exercise. I put this on my list for a win lol. No matter my situation in life, no matter my size (even 75+ lbs heavier), no matter how busy -- I workout. I guess it's burned in my DNA. It's a good win to have in my back pocket. I've tried to figure out the "why" so I can apply it to other thing (particularly the healthy eating) but there is some magical element that I can't explain. I have my theories, but they don't work when I apply them elsewhere. But a win is a win. Yea ME on this one.
Reviewing My Happiness Project, I have a lot of wins ("wins" was originally a typo of "wine" ... that too) and lots of good learning about ME. I need to take what I've learned and continue forward. It's funny how easy it is to slip back into "less-than" default settings. Even if the new setting is AWESOME.
My INTENTION today is to take steps to return to the AWESOME setting. Baby steps, but the direction is forward. Later gators.
Saturday, May 20, 2017
HeadSpace
Hello for a quick check-in!
My HAPPY & HEALTHY list needs to wait as I only have a few minutes before the house is full.
But here's some scoop ...
I signed up for the free 10 day trial to headspace.com -- first 10 minute session was good -- positively cheerful (lol). Fingers crossed ... maybe this is the answer to my meditation woes.
I started a new eye cream for under eye bags and dark circles. Allergy season has "aged" me terribly in that area and I have a friend selling stuff. Why not. It was $60 with the promise to last 4-6 months depending on use. I got suckered in.
My circuit class was a substitute (from now on I'm checking the website before I go). It's an instructor I don't care for - style or personality. She does out-dated, willy-nilly aerobic stuff. Waste of my time. I should have walked out and worked out at home. It felt too rude though.
Got some party stuff finished. Ordered a few more decorations and hit Total Wine for rum, ginger beer and Italian white wine. Success on all fronts. Everything is safely hidden while hubby golfs.
I decided to cater the birthday party dinner (even after I decided not to - oh well). I have tons of stuff to make, lots to coordinate and it takes the pressure off a bit. The restaurant is one of the local favorites and the price isn't outrageous. Hubby agreed (thankfully). I'll order it this week.
I'll make the pulled pork (since I already bought the pork butt) and ... guess what ... FoodSaver it!! Fabulous!
Next party project on the list is rope lights on the deck. I've always wanted them. It's a good time for a hubby project. I might have to go old school and get them from a store. Online was backordered. I guess you can find them this time of year. It's going to rain all day tomorrow so shopping works.
I listened to the the final bit of a podcast by the Whole30 founder. The discussion ended with a big revelation on having space. Apparently, she also enjoys alone time and needs space to function at her best. She had great advice for stock-piling time before a crowded life event (i.e. vacation) and how important it is to find moments of space in a busy day. Ummmm ... just what I was talking about. Universe did me right again - thank you! It made a lot of sense to me. It's also reassuring that others feel the same way. I sometimes think I'm crazy or a bad *insert relationship* (mom, spouse, friend, etc).
Ooops - I had to run. Family came home. Dinner is finished, pork is in the slow cooker for an overnight cook (it takes a long time!!) and the kitchen is cleaned and CLOSED. Time for some reading and then early to bed. Until tomorrow ...
My HAPPY & HEALTHY list needs to wait as I only have a few minutes before the house is full.
But here's some scoop ...
I signed up for the free 10 day trial to headspace.com -- first 10 minute session was good -- positively cheerful (lol). Fingers crossed ... maybe this is the answer to my meditation woes.
I started a new eye cream for under eye bags and dark circles. Allergy season has "aged" me terribly in that area and I have a friend selling stuff. Why not. It was $60 with the promise to last 4-6 months depending on use. I got suckered in.
My circuit class was a substitute (from now on I'm checking the website before I go). It's an instructor I don't care for - style or personality. She does out-dated, willy-nilly aerobic stuff. Waste of my time. I should have walked out and worked out at home. It felt too rude though.
Got some party stuff finished. Ordered a few more decorations and hit Total Wine for rum, ginger beer and Italian white wine. Success on all fronts. Everything is safely hidden while hubby golfs.
I decided to cater the birthday party dinner (even after I decided not to - oh well). I have tons of stuff to make, lots to coordinate and it takes the pressure off a bit. The restaurant is one of the local favorites and the price isn't outrageous. Hubby agreed (thankfully). I'll order it this week.
I'll make the pulled pork (since I already bought the pork butt) and ... guess what ... FoodSaver it!! Fabulous!
Next party project on the list is rope lights on the deck. I've always wanted them. It's a good time for a hubby project. I might have to go old school and get them from a store. Online was backordered. I guess you can find them this time of year. It's going to rain all day tomorrow so shopping works.
I listened to the the final bit of a podcast by the Whole30 founder. The discussion ended with a big revelation on having space. Apparently, she also enjoys alone time and needs space to function at her best. She had great advice for stock-piling time before a crowded life event (i.e. vacation) and how important it is to find moments of space in a busy day. Ummmm ... just what I was talking about. Universe did me right again - thank you! It made a lot of sense to me. It's also reassuring that others feel the same way. I sometimes think I'm crazy or a bad *insert relationship* (mom, spouse, friend, etc).
Ooops - I had to run. Family came home. Dinner is finished, pork is in the slow cooker for an overnight cook (it takes a long time!!) and the kitchen is cleaned and CLOSED. Time for some reading and then early to bed. Until tomorrow ...
Cheerful
I'm up early for my Saturday circuit class. I was in the middle of a good dream when the alarm went off - and it was a good dream - I was laughing, happy. Now I'm a zombie trying to wake up. Getting up early is usually easy for me since I naturally wake up early. Today I'm grateful for the caffeine (as soon as it cools enough to drink it!).
Speaking of caffeine, I wonder if having a caffeinated cup-of-joe in the morning is helping me sleep. My sleep has been off the charts good. Of course, I have the time zone going for me and hubby has taken a break from snoring (thank God - that was a long run this time). Yet, it still seems better than normal. I think I remember reading that early caffeine can actually help sleep if it's timed well and just one cup. I'll have to experiment with it.
Anyway ...
FoodSaver success. I also learned it's one word lol. My meatballs have been "saved." Now I look at food through the eyes of "can it be saved?" I have some hard cheese that's next in line. It was way simpler than I expected and way more fun. There is something satisfying watching it vacuum!
My eating was as expected yesterday. Compliant, but not enough vegetables and too many nuts. Those are going away today. The nut and apple combination left my stomach not-so-happy. Still dealing with those issues this morning.
Okay - autocorrect needs to do better today. One letter off and it doesn't help a gal out??
I have the song "I Think I Love You" stuck in my brain. Why?? Apparently, my second sentence is strangely similar to the lyrics ..."I was right in the the middle of a good dream when all at once ..." You get the idea. Sorry for the steal, but karma will have me singing this song all day.
My post title is CHEERFUL in part because I couldn't think of a title and in part because I heard this word yesterday and I LOVED it. I haven't heard or used this word in forever. Be warned, it's my new word. I use HAPPY, JOYFUL, BLESSED, GRATEFUL ... but never CHEERFUL.
Consider it added (and probably promptly overused). I like repeats. If I use "..." you'll see it over and over. Capitol letters - yep. Dashes - also yep - as evidenced by this sentence. I write like I think. But I actually speak well (I get told this a lot - it's an odd compliment but I hear it often) -- not a humble brag, just a regular brag lol!
I don't have much of my day planned out. My to-do list went until Friday (and is nicely finished thank you very much). The next list starts for Monday (party stuff galore). I know I have to cook something -- I froze all my meatballs. I couldn't stop myself - it was that fun! It seems like a waste to open it up the very next day. I need to watch the snacking on a day like today - red zone for sure.
Speaking of lists, I might work on a post with a list of my healthy routines. I've stepped away from a lot of the daily stuff and stepped out of my routine for too long, too many times (hello vacations). Time to remember and "see" what I know works.
So CHEERFUL is harder than it looks to fit into my conversation, but I'm determined. Can you guess my INTENTION today? Yep ... to be more CHEERFUL (and no snacking!!). Okay, that works.
Cheers! (Does that count?)
Speaking of caffeine, I wonder if having a caffeinated cup-of-joe in the morning is helping me sleep. My sleep has been off the charts good. Of course, I have the time zone going for me and hubby has taken a break from snoring (thank God - that was a long run this time). Yet, it still seems better than normal. I think I remember reading that early caffeine can actually help sleep if it's timed well and just one cup. I'll have to experiment with it.
Anyway ...
FoodSaver success. I also learned it's one word lol. My meatballs have been "saved." Now I look at food through the eyes of "can it be saved?" I have some hard cheese that's next in line. It was way simpler than I expected and way more fun. There is something satisfying watching it vacuum!
My eating was as expected yesterday. Compliant, but not enough vegetables and too many nuts. Those are going away today. The nut and apple combination left my stomach not-so-happy. Still dealing with those issues this morning.
Okay - autocorrect needs to do better today. One letter off and it doesn't help a gal out??
I have the song "I Think I Love You" stuck in my brain. Why?? Apparently, my second sentence is strangely similar to the lyrics ..."I was right in the the middle of a good dream when all at once ..." You get the idea. Sorry for the steal, but karma will have me singing this song all day.
My post title is CHEERFUL in part because I couldn't think of a title and in part because I heard this word yesterday and I LOVED it. I haven't heard or used this word in forever. Be warned, it's my new word. I use HAPPY, JOYFUL, BLESSED, GRATEFUL ... but never CHEERFUL.
Consider it added (and probably promptly overused). I like repeats. If I use "..." you'll see it over and over. Capitol letters - yep. Dashes - also yep - as evidenced by this sentence. I write like I think. But I actually speak well (I get told this a lot - it's an odd compliment but I hear it often) -- not a humble brag, just a regular brag lol!
I don't have much of my day planned out. My to-do list went until Friday (and is nicely finished thank you very much). The next list starts for Monday (party stuff galore). I know I have to cook something -- I froze all my meatballs. I couldn't stop myself - it was that fun! It seems like a waste to open it up the very next day. I need to watch the snacking on a day like today - red zone for sure.
Speaking of lists, I might work on a post with a list of my healthy routines. I've stepped away from a lot of the daily stuff and stepped out of my routine for too long, too many times (hello vacations). Time to remember and "see" what I know works.
So CHEERFUL is harder than it looks to fit into my conversation, but I'm determined. Can you guess my INTENTION today? Yep ... to be more CHEERFUL (and no snacking!!). Okay, that works.
Cheers! (Does that count?)
Friday, May 19, 2017
It Begins (Again)
YEA!! Whole30 for a couple of weeks. Just what I need and want (of course the "want" will be tested during the witching hours - stay tuned for the "why me" afternoon pity parties).
It takes me much longer than I think to get back to healthy habits after a run of unhealthy. Is that because I think it will (therefore, don't make a real effort) or does it really take time to get mentally ready? I'm not sure but I'm leaning toward the former. Something to work on.
I'm back full force with workouts (that's always easy). My triceps are screaming today. I lost noticeable strength in my arms from my hiatus of lifting. Leg day today.
I feel a big weight lifting as I move back to my healthy routines. Maybe I can't overcome unhealthy as easily as I age or maybe I know how great "good" feels and anything less is not acceptable. Look at me contemplating the hard questions this morning. (I'm still on caffeinated coffee so the old brain is wide awake today -- I'm tapering next week.)
Effort, effort, effort. It's the only way. I know what "giving up" got me and it wasn't a happy place. I'm grateful for the desire to stay the course and do the work.
Okay, onto the regular stuff.
No Food Saver yesterday. With peeps home there was nothing left to freeze lol. Meatballs in the refrigerator overnight so hopefully Food Saver today. Can you use it with the sauce? I have some learning to do!
Didn't make it to GNI last night. Major stomach issues - enough said. She served hot fondue with no air conditioning on - no one was happy. I guess it worked out okay for me.
I'm approved to be a doggie foster mama!! I can't wait!! I should hear more details in the next couple of days. I can't believe I didn't lead with this breaking news - maybe my brain isn't all that marvelous this morning.
A full day ahead - distraction is good. My INTENTION today is to remember WHY I need to make this effort. WORTH IT every single time without exception. Returning to ME is always a good path.
It takes me much longer than I think to get back to healthy habits after a run of unhealthy. Is that because I think it will (therefore, don't make a real effort) or does it really take time to get mentally ready? I'm not sure but I'm leaning toward the former. Something to work on.
I'm back full force with workouts (that's always easy). My triceps are screaming today. I lost noticeable strength in my arms from my hiatus of lifting. Leg day today.
I feel a big weight lifting as I move back to my healthy routines. Maybe I can't overcome unhealthy as easily as I age or maybe I know how great "good" feels and anything less is not acceptable. Look at me contemplating the hard questions this morning. (I'm still on caffeinated coffee so the old brain is wide awake today -- I'm tapering next week.)
Effort, effort, effort. It's the only way. I know what "giving up" got me and it wasn't a happy place. I'm grateful for the desire to stay the course and do the work.
Okay, onto the regular stuff.
No Food Saver yesterday. With peeps home there was nothing left to freeze lol. Meatballs in the refrigerator overnight so hopefully Food Saver today. Can you use it with the sauce? I have some learning to do!
Didn't make it to GNI last night. Major stomach issues - enough said. She served hot fondue with no air conditioning on - no one was happy. I guess it worked out okay for me.
I'm approved to be a doggie foster mama!! I can't wait!! I should hear more details in the next couple of days. I can't believe I didn't lead with this breaking news - maybe my brain isn't all that marvelous this morning.
A full day ahead - distraction is good. My INTENTION today is to remember WHY I need to make this effort. WORTH IT every single time without exception. Returning to ME is always a good path.
Thursday, May 18, 2017
It's so CRAZY HOT!
This week will approach 90's in the ATL. Humid, hot ... where is SPRING?? I opened the door this morning and felt like I was in a sauna. I'm not ready for another summer of HOT. It's too soon!
I'm continuing on my chore list today. If all goes as planned, the Food Saver is making its debut today (pulled bbq chicken). The foster rescue inspection was postponed until today, so I might be a little tight moving through my entire list. Whole30 meatballs hit the crockpot today. Slowly building up my freezer.
I'm doing a double workout again today. Quick interval cardio and then lift. My body likes cardio, but I realize it also needs rest. Doubling up on the workouts allows another rest day. It's technically not a real double - more a divided workout. Unfortunately, since I have the home inspection, I have a double shower today too - a real double lol.
I tried chia seed pudding for the first time yesterday. Oh my goodness - yum!! It was made with coconut milk. We found a new trendy breakfast/lunch place. Lots of interesting choices. They were nice enough to give me a little sample to try (I had a veggie omelet - delicious).
Friday starts a Whole15 for me. I need to feel better and get TOTALLY back on track. AND I need my clothes to FIT!!!! I have my GNI group tonight and it's a fondue party. That doesn't work for W30 so Friday is my start. I won't go hog wild tonight (there will be cream in the chocolate and maybe in the cheese - who knows maybe I won't be able to eat any of it!). I debated declining, but I'd like to see everyone. I'm sick of eating like crap though.
This post is a bit blah today - it's even boring me - ha :) I can't even think of an intention. On that note, it's time to call it a post. Later gators.
I'm continuing on my chore list today. If all goes as planned, the Food Saver is making its debut today (pulled bbq chicken). The foster rescue inspection was postponed until today, so I might be a little tight moving through my entire list. Whole30 meatballs hit the crockpot today. Slowly building up my freezer.
I'm doing a double workout again today. Quick interval cardio and then lift. My body likes cardio, but I realize it also needs rest. Doubling up on the workouts allows another rest day. It's technically not a real double - more a divided workout. Unfortunately, since I have the home inspection, I have a double shower today too - a real double lol.
I tried chia seed pudding for the first time yesterday. Oh my goodness - yum!! It was made with coconut milk. We found a new trendy breakfast/lunch place. Lots of interesting choices. They were nice enough to give me a little sample to try (I had a veggie omelet - delicious).
Friday starts a Whole15 for me. I need to feel better and get TOTALLY back on track. AND I need my clothes to FIT!!!! I have my GNI group tonight and it's a fondue party. That doesn't work for W30 so Friday is my start. I won't go hog wild tonight (there will be cream in the chocolate and maybe in the cheese - who knows maybe I won't be able to eat any of it!). I debated declining, but I'd like to see everyone. I'm sick of eating like crap though.
This post is a bit blah today - it's even boring me - ha :) I can't even think of an intention. On that note, it's time to call it a post. Later gators.
Wednesday, May 17, 2017
Scary Day Yesterday
I'm feeling blessed today.
Yesterday, I met a friend for a walk in a public, well populated park in the heart of town. Then drove down the street to wait for my lift class.
Just minutes after we left the park a woman was brutally attacked just where we had walked. The police K-9 units tracked the man to the Lift Studio area and put the studio in lock-down (just after I walked into the class). I waited by myself in the parking lot for about 10 minutes before the class opened. I usually wait outside, but stayed in my car yesterday because I was hot from the walk.
The police thought he was hiding in the woods next to the studio. Armed and dangerous. Dressed in a security-like uniform.
My heart goes out to the woman attacked. The police officer said she was badly beaten, but not life threatening. She got away using Mace and screaming. I can't image how hard the emotional recovery will be for her - life changing.
Hubby brought home Mace for me yesterday.
It keeps life in perspective when you realize how quickly things can change. My mood yesterday vanished.
I hope the woman knows how many of us wish her well and admire her strength.
Yesterday, I met a friend for a walk in a public, well populated park in the heart of town. Then drove down the street to wait for my lift class.
Just minutes after we left the park a woman was brutally attacked just where we had walked. The police K-9 units tracked the man to the Lift Studio area and put the studio in lock-down (just after I walked into the class). I waited by myself in the parking lot for about 10 minutes before the class opened. I usually wait outside, but stayed in my car yesterday because I was hot from the walk.
The police thought he was hiding in the woods next to the studio. Armed and dangerous. Dressed in a security-like uniform.
My heart goes out to the woman attacked. The police officer said she was badly beaten, but not life threatening. She got away using Mace and screaming. I can't image how hard the emotional recovery will be for her - life changing.
Hubby brought home Mace for me yesterday.
It keeps life in perspective when you realize how quickly things can change. My mood yesterday vanished.
I hope the woman knows how many of us wish her well and admire her strength.
Italy!!
Here is a little sample of the hundreds of pictures we took. I chose mostly food pictures to highlight (you know me!). The country and people are amazing.
Food tour in Rome. Day 2.
We ate those simple pizza slices - delicious!
Sippy wine!
Italian spritzer drink - bitter orange. But gotta love the ice!
Part one of a 30 euro meal. Bottle of table wine - best we had. That's the best olive topping!
Part two of the 30 euro meal. Everything is so simple, but so much flavor and so inexpensive in Rome.
Gelato. Everyday for hubby!
I had pizza everyday except 2 ... I mean, come on!
More pizza and house wine. We really enjoyed the white wine which was a big surprise.
Meal chosen by owner in small hill town of Orvieto. The is second course.
Fresh sliced cheese and meat platter.
Famous food court in Florence. This was the starter :)
One of 3000 selfies lol.
See the little "boats" in the back. So cute!
Waiting for the pizza place to open lol and watching the kids play in the square.
Private tour in Tuscany. Grandma made us a 5 course truffle meal (this is her house). Italian wine and coffee while enjoying the views.
Scared to death to fall out of the gondola.
Another food tasting! We met so many awesome people along the way! Our tour guide reminded me of Celine Dion!
Tuesday, May 16, 2017
Almost there ... maybe
I hit a big old wall yesterday afternoon. I was busy and productive all day, then bam ... it hit. Junk food withdrawal. How to fix it? Eat healthy. What I did? Eat junk. Bummer.
We have a kid back in the house and that means junk food has arrived with him. My being-healthy state is weak and temptation was strong. Today will be better.
I have an active morning. Quick cardio workout, meeting a friend to walk and then my noon lift class. I find the more active I am, the less likely I am to eat junk. I need all the help I can get right now. Then the afternoon is filled with errands (more grocery stores) and chores (hello bills). Going to fight the wall today.
My massage felt great - I needed it. My nails look great too - back to basics on them. I cooked up some healthy food yesterday (lots more to go). Started the house pick-up. Big cleaning is on hold until my back is fully rested.
Broken record time again ... I need SPACE. My youngest is home all day, everyday (he's studying for LSATS and not working). Hubby is coming home early today (he likes to spring it on me - so bill paying and hubby home is a bad combination). If I had a heads-up I would've planned differently, but bills need to be paid today. Dinners have become expected again. The kitchen is always in a state of a bit messy (crumbs, full trash, full dishwasher, etc). Hubby invited all the kids for dinner and snacks to watch the hockey game Wednesday. And just like that ... I've lost myself again.
I hate that I'm complaining about this. I just had two weeks of a fabulous vacation, my family is awesome, my life is blessed. But I don't have enough ME in this mix. This week is full with EVERYONE ELSE.
I take a step forward with my chores and then someone messes up something ... or needs something ... or adds to my list ... or eats all the food I just made and I feel like I've made no progress. Everyone's stuff is more important than mine right now.
I realize I'm making time for my workouts, friend visits, massage, nails, etc. But that's still not the ME that I need. When I don't get the space I need, everything feels like a chore, a compromise. This week is filled with me saying "yes" to only have the "yes" grow to something bigger, something needier, something harder. This was a problem before my trip and I need to figure out a solution. Why? Because I always eat my way to feeling better when I need SPACE.
I've tried explaining this to hubby and it doesn't register with him. I can't really blame him. This is a ME thing - always has been - and it's hard to understand.
Well, this post turned into an unexpected bitch session.
I'm going to call it a post and start prepping my chores while I drink my last collagen tea. My INTENTION for today is to not kill my hubby ... just kidding ... we have a no-kill policy in our marriage lol. I think my INTENTION needs to be STANDING UP FOR ME. Not taking on bigger "yeses" ... not adding to my pile until the pile is manageable again. And, maybe a double INTENTION to look for SPACE in my crowded life.
BREATHE.
We have a kid back in the house and that means junk food has arrived with him. My being-healthy state is weak and temptation was strong. Today will be better.
I have an active morning. Quick cardio workout, meeting a friend to walk and then my noon lift class. I find the more active I am, the less likely I am to eat junk. I need all the help I can get right now. Then the afternoon is filled with errands (more grocery stores) and chores (hello bills). Going to fight the wall today.
My massage felt great - I needed it. My nails look great too - back to basics on them. I cooked up some healthy food yesterday (lots more to go). Started the house pick-up. Big cleaning is on hold until my back is fully rested.
Broken record time again ... I need SPACE. My youngest is home all day, everyday (he's studying for LSATS and not working). Hubby is coming home early today (he likes to spring it on me - so bill paying and hubby home is a bad combination). If I had a heads-up I would've planned differently, but bills need to be paid today. Dinners have become expected again. The kitchen is always in a state of a bit messy (crumbs, full trash, full dishwasher, etc). Hubby invited all the kids for dinner and snacks to watch the hockey game Wednesday. And just like that ... I've lost myself again.
I hate that I'm complaining about this. I just had two weeks of a fabulous vacation, my family is awesome, my life is blessed. But I don't have enough ME in this mix. This week is full with EVERYONE ELSE.
I take a step forward with my chores and then someone messes up something ... or needs something ... or adds to my list ... or eats all the food I just made and I feel like I've made no progress. Everyone's stuff is more important than mine right now.
I realize I'm making time for my workouts, friend visits, massage, nails, etc. But that's still not the ME that I need. When I don't get the space I need, everything feels like a chore, a compromise. This week is filled with me saying "yes" to only have the "yes" grow to something bigger, something needier, something harder. This was a problem before my trip and I need to figure out a solution. Why? Because I always eat my way to feeling better when I need SPACE.
I've tried explaining this to hubby and it doesn't register with him. I can't really blame him. This is a ME thing - always has been - and it's hard to understand.
Well, this post turned into an unexpected bitch session.
I'm going to call it a post and start prepping my chores while I drink my last collagen tea. My INTENTION for today is to not kill my hubby ... just kidding ... we have a no-kill policy in our marriage lol. I think my INTENTION needs to be STANDING UP FOR ME. Not taking on bigger "yeses" ... not adding to my pile until the pile is manageable again. And, maybe a double INTENTION to look for SPACE in my crowded life.
BREATHE.
Monday, May 15, 2017
Back to HEALTHY
I hope - fingers crossed. The weekend is over. Back to the business of feeling good, being healthy, having energy, etc, etc, etc.
BTW - brunch from the kids was amazing! I'm glad I didn't restrict. Homemade cinnamon pancakes (best I've ever had), bacon, eggs, champagne, fruit with cool whip, sweet rolls, toast -- WOW!! They did a great job and I ate everything joyfully. I kept with my intention and enjoyed the day.
This week is oddly full of tasks to get finished. I'm not sure why it feels so overwhelming to me. Maybe because my energy is low from all the indulging. It must be some sort of mood, because even the massage and nail appointment today feels too much. I have a number of contractor appointments lingering and that just takes up so much time in my schedule. Plus my pants don't fit (most of them) and that puts me in a crappy mood - always!
Best cure - a good workout and getting busy getting busy! The more I finish, the better I'll feel. (Sheets in the washer, two weeks of doggie doodie picked up & out for trash day and emails returned -- all before the am drinks ... I'm trying!)
I MUST get to the grocery store today - at least one of them. We are at slim picking levels and that's never good for making good choices. I have the Food Saver on the counter begging to be used! Hopefully, by week's end I'll have a freezer full of good choices. I planned to fill the freezer before we left, but the sweet pup's recovery changed that plan. I'm excited about trying the Food Saver, but since it's new to me, it feels like another thing on my list. Wow - this IS a mood. I need to fix it soon. My massage needs to be relaxing, not a head spinning worry session.
As I'm sitting here typing and thinking, maybe I need to break my to-do list down to a daily one. I made a list for this week (it's daunting) and maybe that's why I feel so overwhelmed. One day at a time. And I love a good list to scratch off to completion.
Now I'm itching to get at that list so I'll say so long for now. Maybe I'll be back for a witching hour check-in. Journalling works for me. It took me years to finally commit to it. Now for that darn meditation thing! I'll give it a try during the massage today.
My INTENTION today is to PACE MYSELF. Rome wasn't built in a day. (I have tons of these -- drove hubby nuts -- lol!) Later gators.
BTW - brunch from the kids was amazing! I'm glad I didn't restrict. Homemade cinnamon pancakes (best I've ever had), bacon, eggs, champagne, fruit with cool whip, sweet rolls, toast -- WOW!! They did a great job and I ate everything joyfully. I kept with my intention and enjoyed the day.
This week is oddly full of tasks to get finished. I'm not sure why it feels so overwhelming to me. Maybe because my energy is low from all the indulging. It must be some sort of mood, because even the massage and nail appointment today feels too much. I have a number of contractor appointments lingering and that just takes up so much time in my schedule. Plus my pants don't fit (most of them) and that puts me in a crappy mood - always!
Best cure - a good workout and getting busy getting busy! The more I finish, the better I'll feel. (Sheets in the washer, two weeks of doggie doodie picked up & out for trash day and emails returned -- all before the am drinks ... I'm trying!)
I MUST get to the grocery store today - at least one of them. We are at slim picking levels and that's never good for making good choices. I have the Food Saver on the counter begging to be used! Hopefully, by week's end I'll have a freezer full of good choices. I planned to fill the freezer before we left, but the sweet pup's recovery changed that plan. I'm excited about trying the Food Saver, but since it's new to me, it feels like another thing on my list. Wow - this IS a mood. I need to fix it soon. My massage needs to be relaxing, not a head spinning worry session.
As I'm sitting here typing and thinking, maybe I need to break my to-do list down to a daily one. I made a list for this week (it's daunting) and maybe that's why I feel so overwhelmed. One day at a time. And I love a good list to scratch off to completion.
Now I'm itching to get at that list so I'll say so long for now. Maybe I'll be back for a witching hour check-in. Journalling works for me. It took me years to finally commit to it. Now for that darn meditation thing! I'll give it a try during the massage today.
My INTENTION today is to PACE MYSELF. Rome wasn't built in a day. (I have tons of these -- drove hubby nuts -- lol!) Later gators.
Sunday, May 14, 2017
Happy Mother's Day
I'm back!!!
Wow - what a trip! I'll post some pictures as soon as I download them. Italy was everything I expected and MORE. Beautiful country, lovely people and AMAZING food. This logs as one of my favorite vacations ever. I'll post some of the fun details when I do a picture post this week.
As for today's post ... I need some tough love to get back into the swing of things. I'm withdrawing from pizza, wine, cheese, sugar and coffee. Oh boy!! (But worth every bite - no regrets and I rarely say that!) We walked everywhere and I worked out so the damage is easily correctable IF I correct it quickly. Staying this eating course will be devastating to my pants fitting if I don't.
I'm giving myself the weekend to move back on track. Why? Well, I might die from withdrawing all at once lol and my boys (plus my eldest's girlfriend) are hosting a Mother's Day lunch for me today (probably more her than them lol). I didn't want any restrictions and didn't want to insult their effort. They've never done this before and I want to be a good, gracious guest. So some healthy mixed with some indulgences. Baby steps.
Monday I've scheduled a massage and nail appointment. A little bit of fun as I start back to healthy habits. I'm considering another quick blast of Whole30 days to get back to feeling great. These next 2 weeks are going to be really busy and I need to get on my game.
Back to regular workouts will feel great too. I used a gym in Rome - really nice. Tested my math in the morning converting from metric numbers lol. Ran outside along a river in Florence - perfect weather, beautiful scenery and I used my GPS watch to track distance (I was much faster than I expected). I didn't workout the 2 days in Venice. I twisted my back on the train and was in bad shape. Almost back to normal (but I need to clean this week - yea massage though!). Today is supposed to be back at it, but (I kid you not) I stepped funning walking down the stairs and hurt my calf. Good Lord!! I hope it feels well enough to run. Otherwise, I'll lift. I desperately need a good sweat!!
The time difference in this direction is much easier for me to adjust. I feel no jet-lag this time - it's all food coma energy issues! I have a mountain of house stuff to get done this week. No surprise, but it feels like I just did all this stuff before I left (and I did). Clean house, pay bills, grocery shop, cook ... the usual suspects. I'm grateful for my work hiatus.
My INTENTION for today is to ENJOY the day - not get overwhelmed by my to-do list, ENJOY the efforts from the kids and be grateful for a safe, wonderful trip.
I loved the trip and I love being back. It can't get much better than that. Later gators.
Wow - what a trip! I'll post some pictures as soon as I download them. Italy was everything I expected and MORE. Beautiful country, lovely people and AMAZING food. This logs as one of my favorite vacations ever. I'll post some of the fun details when I do a picture post this week.
As for today's post ... I need some tough love to get back into the swing of things. I'm withdrawing from pizza, wine, cheese, sugar and coffee. Oh boy!! (But worth every bite - no regrets and I rarely say that!) We walked everywhere and I worked out so the damage is easily correctable IF I correct it quickly. Staying this eating course will be devastating to my pants fitting if I don't.
I'm giving myself the weekend to move back on track. Why? Well, I might die from withdrawing all at once lol and my boys (plus my eldest's girlfriend) are hosting a Mother's Day lunch for me today (probably more her than them lol). I didn't want any restrictions and didn't want to insult their effort. They've never done this before and I want to be a good, gracious guest. So some healthy mixed with some indulgences. Baby steps.
Monday I've scheduled a massage and nail appointment. A little bit of fun as I start back to healthy habits. I'm considering another quick blast of Whole30 days to get back to feeling great. These next 2 weeks are going to be really busy and I need to get on my game.
Back to regular workouts will feel great too. I used a gym in Rome - really nice. Tested my math in the morning converting from metric numbers lol. Ran outside along a river in Florence - perfect weather, beautiful scenery and I used my GPS watch to track distance (I was much faster than I expected). I didn't workout the 2 days in Venice. I twisted my back on the train and was in bad shape. Almost back to normal (but I need to clean this week - yea massage though!). Today is supposed to be back at it, but (I kid you not) I stepped funning walking down the stairs and hurt my calf. Good Lord!! I hope it feels well enough to run. Otherwise, I'll lift. I desperately need a good sweat!!
The time difference in this direction is much easier for me to adjust. I feel no jet-lag this time - it's all food coma energy issues! I have a mountain of house stuff to get done this week. No surprise, but it feels like I just did all this stuff before I left (and I did). Clean house, pay bills, grocery shop, cook ... the usual suspects. I'm grateful for my work hiatus.
My INTENTION for today is to ENJOY the day - not get overwhelmed by my to-do list, ENJOY the efforts from the kids and be grateful for a safe, wonderful trip.
I loved the trip and I love being back. It can't get much better than that. Later gators.
Monday, May 1, 2017
Addio!
Today was a satisfying day. My to-do list is finished and I even knocked out some of tomorrow's list.
I pushed really hard on my interval run. I was sucking wind in a good way. Rolling helped with some of the kinks and I should be no worse for wear tomorrow.
Starbucks messed up my coffee so I got a free one. Unnecessary, but totally appreciated.
I ate healthy and cleaned out the refrigerator. The witching hours were manageable tonight. Thank God. I needed a break from the test of willpower.
Tomorrow is all the last minute chores (run dishwasher, empty trash cans, etc) and packing the final items (make-up, wallet, etc). We'll leave early afternoon because of the road closure to the airport. The drive is long and possibly unpredictable.
I'm debating taking Benadryl to sleep tonight. I'll be excited, nervous and worried about getting enough sleep. That can be a recipe for disaster. But sleep without aid is always a healthier sleep. Do I take the chance? I'll have to see what tonight brings.
Signing off until I'm home from Italy. My INTENTION tomorrow is a SAFE day, SAFE flight and a SAFE trip. Thanks in advance to the Universe for granting my INTENTION. (Can you tell I'm nervous?)
Addio!
I pushed really hard on my interval run. I was sucking wind in a good way. Rolling helped with some of the kinks and I should be no worse for wear tomorrow.
Starbucks messed up my coffee so I got a free one. Unnecessary, but totally appreciated.
I ate healthy and cleaned out the refrigerator. The witching hours were manageable tonight. Thank God. I needed a break from the test of willpower.
Tomorrow is all the last minute chores (run dishwasher, empty trash cans, etc) and packing the final items (make-up, wallet, etc). We'll leave early afternoon because of the road closure to the airport. The drive is long and possibly unpredictable.
I'm debating taking Benadryl to sleep tonight. I'll be excited, nervous and worried about getting enough sleep. That can be a recipe for disaster. But sleep without aid is always a healthier sleep. Do I take the chance? I'll have to see what tonight brings.
Signing off until I'm home from Italy. My INTENTION tomorrow is a SAFE day, SAFE flight and a SAFE trip. Thanks in advance to the Universe for granting my INTENTION. (Can you tell I'm nervous?)
Addio!
Chores Today -- Italy Tomorrow
Not a bad situation!
I have some remnants of packing to finish - nothing major. Bill paying, quick clean-up of the dust bunnies around the house, a few errands and that's all.
The good news is today is busier than yesterday. That was a rough, LONG witching hour. I made it through with healthy choices, but too much food. Today's meals are the must-goes from the refrigerator. A hodgepodge of veggies and some leftover meat. I think a veggie omelet is on the horizon.
I'm doing an interval run this morning. Lifting tomorrow so I can let my running shoes dry out tonight. My back is still tight. It's going to be a tough flight tomorrow. I started using my foam roller (finally) and it feels good (after it feels bad lol). I'll use it today and tomorrow. I tried to get in for a massage, but my usual suspects were booked. I didn't want to use someone new before the flight. I've had some yucky experiences with over-zealous therapists. I would have called earlier, but I didn't know when my back would feel well enough. Oh well. I should book it for when I get back -- now there's an idea!
I used to fall asleep as soon as the plane engines started. White noise and I'm out. The last couple of years, I don't. I'm hesitant to take anything (Benadryl) and I don't drink alcohol before a flight either. Red-eye flights mean I lose a night's sleep. Although flying in this direction is loads better for me. The vacation forces me awake in the morning and coming home it's all about waking up early. I adjust so much better.
As usual before a big flight, I have a mixture of excitement and nerves. This time is no different. I was nervous for Hawaii and then nervous flutters the entire trip since we were doing so many water sports (the last day was SCUBA). At least my nerves will be fine once we land in Italy. I get less nervous for the flight home. Weird, strange -- I know it.
*TMI Alert*
I'm bummed to have my period AGAIN this trip. For Hawaii, I had it for the flight out (what a joy) but it tapered enough that I could do all the water adventures. This time it will hit mid-trip (unless the travel messes it up). I'll get a few days in and, hopefully, not have it strong for the flight home. What a pain. These are the moments I hate being a girl lol!
*TMI Alert Over*
Okay, time to get moving. I might check-in later today, but probably not tomorrow. I'm going to let myself sleep in since I'll be losing sleep and then hubby is working the morning from home. Airport in the early afternoon and ITALY BOUND!!!
My INTENTION for today is ZEN. I need to be chill and not let my nerves get the best of me. Maybe I'll meditate. Wow - 2 ideas in one post - I'm on a roll. Later gators.
I have some remnants of packing to finish - nothing major. Bill paying, quick clean-up of the dust bunnies around the house, a few errands and that's all.
The good news is today is busier than yesterday. That was a rough, LONG witching hour. I made it through with healthy choices, but too much food. Today's meals are the must-goes from the refrigerator. A hodgepodge of veggies and some leftover meat. I think a veggie omelet is on the horizon.
I'm doing an interval run this morning. Lifting tomorrow so I can let my running shoes dry out tonight. My back is still tight. It's going to be a tough flight tomorrow. I started using my foam roller (finally) and it feels good (after it feels bad lol). I'll use it today and tomorrow. I tried to get in for a massage, but my usual suspects were booked. I didn't want to use someone new before the flight. I've had some yucky experiences with over-zealous therapists. I would have called earlier, but I didn't know when my back would feel well enough. Oh well. I should book it for when I get back -- now there's an idea!
I used to fall asleep as soon as the plane engines started. White noise and I'm out. The last couple of years, I don't. I'm hesitant to take anything (Benadryl) and I don't drink alcohol before a flight either. Red-eye flights mean I lose a night's sleep. Although flying in this direction is loads better for me. The vacation forces me awake in the morning and coming home it's all about waking up early. I adjust so much better.
As usual before a big flight, I have a mixture of excitement and nerves. This time is no different. I was nervous for Hawaii and then nervous flutters the entire trip since we were doing so many water sports (the last day was SCUBA). At least my nerves will be fine once we land in Italy. I get less nervous for the flight home. Weird, strange -- I know it.
*TMI Alert*
I'm bummed to have my period AGAIN this trip. For Hawaii, I had it for the flight out (what a joy) but it tapered enough that I could do all the water adventures. This time it will hit mid-trip (unless the travel messes it up). I'll get a few days in and, hopefully, not have it strong for the flight home. What a pain. These are the moments I hate being a girl lol!
*TMI Alert Over*
Okay, time to get moving. I might check-in later today, but probably not tomorrow. I'm going to let myself sleep in since I'll be losing sleep and then hubby is working the morning from home. Airport in the early afternoon and ITALY BOUND!!!
My INTENTION for today is ZEN. I need to be chill and not let my nerves get the best of me. Maybe I'll meditate. Wow - 2 ideas in one post - I'm on a roll. Later gators.
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