Switch-A-Roo

I'm switching some of my week around.  I've been craving a break from the same routine -- I'm in some kind of slump.  Not even sure what kind.  The only thing I know is I don't want to COOK, CLEAN, GROCERY SHOP -- none of it.  If this were an "alone" week, I'd do none of it.

I want to do NOTHING.  But not in a depressed kind of way -- more in a "I need something different" kind of way.

I need to hang on for a few weeks.  Gibbs Gardens is opening in late February.  Spring is around the corner for GA and for that, I'm grateful.  I need to get out of the house into nature in some capacity of normal.  

I'm postponing grocery store until tomorrow and doing bare minimum cleaning until next week.  Letting myself have a little space of the same old thing.  Not sure this will even help.

The walk with my friend was postponed for nicer weather.  Bummer.

I'm having a moment where I feel like my time is not my own, yet I have nothing but time on my hands.  This week feels like a compromise to accommodate EVERYONE but me.  Not sure why this feeling is so strong, but it feels that way.  The thing is -- I don't know what to do about it.

I start to read and I get interrupted over and over (hubby, dogs, phone, doorbell).  I make myself a cup of tea and hubby asks to save some hot water for him.  I turn on the TV and hubby starts throwing a ball for the dogs down the hall.  I start meditation and hubby brings dogs in basement to play and it's loud and distracting.  I set a schedule for the week and it gets changed multiple times which means my things get messed up.  

Maybe this is hormones again??  Maybe some of this ... it's a good list.

I need to dig a little deeper.  I need to find space.  I'm feeling frustrated.  I'm feeling depleted. 

Switch up SOMETHING.  I just don't know what yet, but I know it will be me, myself and I.

Off to find some good and some happy stuff today.  Wish you the same.  Stay well.  Later gators.