One minute we're giving high fives, the next we're up at 2 am tossing and turning.
Too much to think about. Too much to do. Too many questions unanswered about what life will look like this year.
I think it's like any big news ... time is going to help process this new (temporary) normal. Until then, we're on the rollercoaster of emotions and thoughts.
I try to have perspective -- again, not bad news, but simply CHANGE. Why is this so hard for me?
When I'm up and refreshed, all is good. Then I get tired or lose control of my night dreams and the worry starts again.
The good news is I'm up, coffee in hand and feeling better this morning. Once I can talk about it and let it out in the open, it's going to feel better. It's crummy to keep this quiet -- makes it feel shameful somehow. I think that's part of the reason my brain keeps "naming" this bad news.
Tonight is the last night in this house, last night sleeping in our bed (it's going to be at least a month on the mattress on the floor - oh boy). This change is hard too. I can't say enough -- I need baby steps with change -- but I'm leaping instead. I want MY bed. MY Tivo. My old life ... for just a few minutes. A quick visit back to all my CERTAINTY, but I don't want to stay there. I want ALL this change. I'd be upset to go back -- that's how I know it's okay.
Change = growth = meaningful life.
I'm ACCEPTING (trying hard at least) and moving forward. Believe it or not, meditation is helping (who knew??). After I finish meditating, I'm excited, feeling strong and feeling happy.
Heading to close on the house this morning -- we'll own 2 house and have zero jobs. Hah. An adventure rollercoaster. Later gators.
Thursday, March 28, 2019
Wednesday, March 27, 2019
Dang, I'm tired
I'm trying to handle ALL this change well, but it's mentally exhausting. That probably means I'm not handling it as well as I thought underneath the surface.
I slept okay and am up early for a workout before the packers come.
It'll help when we can tell people what's going on. All hush-hush until the formal announcement next week. This kind of news is toxic as a SECRET. Open and honest. Tell the world. No shame.
It's odd, because it's not bad news. Yet, my brain keeps saying it MUST be bad news because it's UNCERTAIN. Please, shut up, dear brain.
I don't want to move to my new house with bad feelings floating around -- somehow marking everything with yucky mojo. I know, my choice. I'm trying. More meditation today.
I shooting for an 'A' for this test (but I'll settle for a passing grade).
I slept okay and am up early for a workout before the packers come.
It'll help when we can tell people what's going on. All hush-hush until the formal announcement next week. This kind of news is toxic as a SECRET. Open and honest. Tell the world. No shame.
It's odd, because it's not bad news. Yet, my brain keeps saying it MUST be bad news because it's UNCERTAIN. Please, shut up, dear brain.
I don't want to move to my new house with bad feelings floating around -- somehow marking everything with yucky mojo. I know, my choice. I'm trying. More meditation today.
I shooting for an 'A' for this test (but I'll settle for a passing grade).
Tuesday, March 26, 2019
Unexpected News
Well, what a night last night.
We knew this was coming, just not so soon. Hubby is unemployed starting in June. It was a management transition with the writing on the wall for about a year.
He's well taken care of and nothing changes about our move decision (i.e. no regrets). This was all part of the consideration in the do-we-move decision.
Still -- it's a slap.
This is HEAVILY testing my new beliefs. Just to remind us (ME) ...
Accept what is.
How do I know it's suppose to happen? Because it did.
The Universe works for me, not against me.
When things look like they are falling apart, they are usually coming together.
Embrace UNCERTAINTY.
Live with abundance (not scarcity).
Trust the timing.
Dang. I thought the move was my big test (final exam). Guess it's only a mid-term.
The biggest issue for me ... UNCERTAINTY.
Hubby said what I believe too. We can look at this as a great situation or a crappy situation. OUR CHOICE and when you look at the details -- it's a win for us. A win that has to move through UNCERTAINTY first and that's the catch for me.
There's some interesting opportunity in this change. I'm sure I'll elaborate more on this as it goes along. For a long time, I think our relationship could use some more honesty on my part. Case in point -- he doesn't know I journal here. It's my secret. It shouldn't be. I casually mention meditation, but don't talk about it with him. He knows very little of my life coaching experience. Since we will be spending a lot of time together starting SOON, it's a chance to show him more of my morning routine, etc. Show him the parts that I've kept quiet about because it feels too personal, too different.
It will test our personal space a lot. This test is good. Heading into next stages of life, we get to trial retirement and see what that will look like and it will help us make that decision when it's the right time.
Another interesting thing -- I knew yesterday this was happening. He had the meeting scheduled and I had the thought -- this is it tonight. I waited up for him to finish the late dinner meeting. The first thing I said when I answered his call was "what happened at the meeting?" I had asked if there was any concern with this meeting last week. It was pinging my gut all over the place. I kept trying to talk myself out of the feeling -- I'm stressed and looking for something "bad" to happen. That's all, reading too much into things. But I didn't. More and more I'm trusting my gut.
My gut says this is all good. My brain is panicking with the uncertainty. It wants to know, needs to know ... is everything going to be okay, what's going to happen, where will we be in a year? My gut knows it's not only fine, but it's good. I need to quiet my brain. Hello, meditation.
That's all I have time to write this morning. I'll be checking in sporadically this week as the move is at the NOW point.
What a week.
What a year.
2019 had a huge make-over and it looks nothing like I expected it to look. Life is an adventure?!?!?
We knew this was coming, just not so soon. Hubby is unemployed starting in June. It was a management transition with the writing on the wall for about a year.
He's well taken care of and nothing changes about our move decision (i.e. no regrets). This was all part of the consideration in the do-we-move decision.
Still -- it's a slap.
This is HEAVILY testing my new beliefs. Just to remind us (ME) ...
Accept what is.
How do I know it's suppose to happen? Because it did.
The Universe works for me, not against me.
When things look like they are falling apart, they are usually coming together.
Embrace UNCERTAINTY.
Live with abundance (not scarcity).
Trust the timing.
Dang. I thought the move was my big test (final exam). Guess it's only a mid-term.
The biggest issue for me ... UNCERTAINTY.
Hubby said what I believe too. We can look at this as a great situation or a crappy situation. OUR CHOICE and when you look at the details -- it's a win for us. A win that has to move through UNCERTAINTY first and that's the catch for me.
There's some interesting opportunity in this change. I'm sure I'll elaborate more on this as it goes along. For a long time, I think our relationship could use some more honesty on my part. Case in point -- he doesn't know I journal here. It's my secret. It shouldn't be. I casually mention meditation, but don't talk about it with him. He knows very little of my life coaching experience. Since we will be spending a lot of time together starting SOON, it's a chance to show him more of my morning routine, etc. Show him the parts that I've kept quiet about because it feels too personal, too different.
It will test our personal space a lot. This test is good. Heading into next stages of life, we get to trial retirement and see what that will look like and it will help us make that decision when it's the right time.
Another interesting thing -- I knew yesterday this was happening. He had the meeting scheduled and I had the thought -- this is it tonight. I waited up for him to finish the late dinner meeting. The first thing I said when I answered his call was "what happened at the meeting?" I had asked if there was any concern with this meeting last week. It was pinging my gut all over the place. I kept trying to talk myself out of the feeling -- I'm stressed and looking for something "bad" to happen. That's all, reading too much into things. But I didn't. More and more I'm trusting my gut.
My gut says this is all good. My brain is panicking with the uncertainty. It wants to know, needs to know ... is everything going to be okay, what's going to happen, where will we be in a year? My gut knows it's not only fine, but it's good. I need to quiet my brain. Hello, meditation.
That's all I have time to write this morning. I'll be checking in sporadically this week as the move is at the NOW point.
What a week.
What a year.
2019 had a huge make-over and it looks nothing like I expected it to look. Life is an adventure?!?!?
Monday, March 25, 2019
Hello, Monday
I underestimated the work we had left to do. It was HARD! We are FINALLY at the final stages of prepping for the packers to come on Wednesday.
Believe it or not, another HUGE load went for donation and another extra large trash load. Where does it come from? I vow to never accumulate, but time goes by and it happens again -- it can't be stopped!!
Kids didn't want some of our good furniture so we put it on neighborhood online sites. Sold the last of it this weekend and gave the young lady some free stuff too. Perfect!
Update on dinner -- WE WENT. We got to try the Italian neighborhood restaurant minutes before we move. I was happy to have gone, but not for us again. Old school Italian, super little tables, very crowded table placement and totally packed. We ended up with a good table by the door (thankfully, it was so warm in the restaurant). The food was good, but HEAVY. The bread was SATURATED with melted butter (it was dripping) -- not for me (and not about calories, just too MUCH). Butter and garlic repeat all night.
I thought I could handle a pasta dinner. Nope. My joint issue was in full swing Sunday. Back to when it was so bad that I can't put weight on my foot for hours at a time. It slowed me down a lot in the afternoon. Perfectly fine today. It took me about a year to figure out what was causing that problem -- I swear it feels like I broke my foot one minute and then it's fine the next (seems like I'm faking it). Goes on like that for the day. Taking a total GLUTEN break this week. I should've requested the gluten-free -- my poor choice and my doing -- live and learn, again.
It was nice to be taken to dinner (we paid the bar bill) and I'm glad I got to experience this restaurant (since people talk a lot about it). Plus, it was a fun break from packing.
NETFLIX Update:
How did I miss the series with Michael C Hall -- Safe? Oh, it's so good! My foot was un-walkable by Sunday afternoon, so I sat down to elevate it and found THIS. Took a minute to not "see" Dexter and get over a poor British accent, but then ... fantastic. Per usual, all about the ending. I have a few episodes to go. Stay tuned. (And, dang, he's such a cutie!)
Today is my hair day. It's not the best timing, but I'll get some book reading time. I have a few things on my list to get ready since I had to give up walking yesterday (labeling stuff, etc). Tomorrow is the final BIG day of prep and packing a suitcase for the week -- sort of like a trip. I need clothes for workouts, moving and some nicer outfits for the closing and lunch.
Even with the crazy time, I said YES to a Tuesday lunch with my aunts (one is visiting from NY). I'm trying to keep a little bit of a balance -- fun, not-fun.
Quick note ... I've said before, our move should be sponsored by Magic Eraser. It continues to save our butts by "fixing" problems. I try to clean something, nothing happens -- try Magic Eraser and PERFECT. No need to repaint, re-do or anything.
Off to the gym for an elliptical day. My foot feels good, but I don't trust it to run yet. Later gators.
Believe it or not, another HUGE load went for donation and another extra large trash load. Where does it come from? I vow to never accumulate, but time goes by and it happens again -- it can't be stopped!!
Kids didn't want some of our good furniture so we put it on neighborhood online sites. Sold the last of it this weekend and gave the young lady some free stuff too. Perfect!
Update on dinner -- WE WENT. We got to try the Italian neighborhood restaurant minutes before we move. I was happy to have gone, but not for us again. Old school Italian, super little tables, very crowded table placement and totally packed. We ended up with a good table by the door (thankfully, it was so warm in the restaurant). The food was good, but HEAVY. The bread was SATURATED with melted butter (it was dripping) -- not for me (and not about calories, just too MUCH). Butter and garlic repeat all night.
I thought I could handle a pasta dinner. Nope. My joint issue was in full swing Sunday. Back to when it was so bad that I can't put weight on my foot for hours at a time. It slowed me down a lot in the afternoon. Perfectly fine today. It took me about a year to figure out what was causing that problem -- I swear it feels like I broke my foot one minute and then it's fine the next (seems like I'm faking it). Goes on like that for the day. Taking a total GLUTEN break this week. I should've requested the gluten-free -- my poor choice and my doing -- live and learn, again.
It was nice to be taken to dinner (we paid the bar bill) and I'm glad I got to experience this restaurant (since people talk a lot about it). Plus, it was a fun break from packing.
NETFLIX Update:
How did I miss the series with Michael C Hall -- Safe? Oh, it's so good! My foot was un-walkable by Sunday afternoon, so I sat down to elevate it and found THIS. Took a minute to not "see" Dexter and get over a poor British accent, but then ... fantastic. Per usual, all about the ending. I have a few episodes to go. Stay tuned. (And, dang, he's such a cutie!)
Today is my hair day. It's not the best timing, but I'll get some book reading time. I have a few things on my list to get ready since I had to give up walking yesterday (labeling stuff, etc). Tomorrow is the final BIG day of prep and packing a suitcase for the week -- sort of like a trip. I need clothes for workouts, moving and some nicer outfits for the closing and lunch.
Even with the crazy time, I said YES to a Tuesday lunch with my aunts (one is visiting from NY). I'm trying to keep a little bit of a balance -- fun, not-fun.
Quick note ... I've said before, our move should be sponsored by Magic Eraser. It continues to save our butts by "fixing" problems. I try to clean something, nothing happens -- try Magic Eraser and PERFECT. No need to repaint, re-do or anything.
Off to the gym for an elliptical day. My foot feels good, but I don't trust it to run yet. Later gators.
Friday, March 22, 2019
Weekend
Hubby left so I'm here alone with my dogs and morning drinks.
The weekend is here. Final weekend living in this house - we'll probably own it for many more weekends though (fingers crossed for a quick and easy sale).
First, my massage was classic April and FANTASTIC. I was sore, and after the massage, not sore. That's what I'm talking about -- medically necessary hahaha.
I continued with a bunch of errands and lunch with my youngest (see, I do miss him).
This weekend is a culmination of a zillion little things that we need to do (but needed to wait to do). Nothing hard, but tons of stuff to remember. LISTS all over the place. Little details. I'm glad we have so much of the big stuff finished.
I've been really focused on being curious, accepting what IS, embracing uncertainty (even Eckhart Tolle talks about it). Saw this on Instagram yesterday. Yep, perfect.
I'm holding on by the skin of my teeth keeping my sanity together. I got my monthly last night and I think that's going to help a lot. Once we get through the next 2 weeks, the crazy of things will settle down tenfold. Still stressful, still lots of stuff to do, but a definite ease of this jammed packed time.
We have an interesting situation with our neighbors (friends). They invited us out to dinner before we move (named the restaurant even). She texted me a couple of weeks ago and asked if we could change the date to this Saturday. I texted back - no problem. Haven't heard a thing again -- not even a response from the text. She had to have seen it, because it cancelled our original date and that day has long gone.
We've seen her several times THIS WEEK alone and she's said nothing. We are busy and "holding" the night for dinner. Are we going?? I think it's odd she hasn't confirmed a time or mentioned it again. It's a super small restaurant and you have to have reservations for a Saturday night. We decided not to say anything because it feels strange to remind her. It's possible we could get a text at 7 o'clock saying let's go.
I think she forgot. We're holding the night open and maybe we'll go out to dinner ourselves if she doesn't confirm. Normally, I'd text her, but they offered to TREAT us to dinner. Reminding her feels self-serving in this case. We'd like to go to dinner and they don't need to treat, but now it's strange. If I don't hear from her today, I'd guess it's a no-go.
I'm ending with some funny Twitter posts about spring cleaning (saw on yahoo -- I don't have Twitter). These 3 because they are TOTALLY us! I know we're not the only ones :-) Enjoy a few Friday laughs.
The weekend is here. Final weekend living in this house - we'll probably own it for many more weekends though (fingers crossed for a quick and easy sale).
First, my massage was classic April and FANTASTIC. I was sore, and after the massage, not sore. That's what I'm talking about -- medically necessary hahaha.
I continued with a bunch of errands and lunch with my youngest (see, I do miss him).
This weekend is a culmination of a zillion little things that we need to do (but needed to wait to do). Nothing hard, but tons of stuff to remember. LISTS all over the place. Little details. I'm glad we have so much of the big stuff finished.
I've been really focused on being curious, accepting what IS, embracing uncertainty (even Eckhart Tolle talks about it). Saw this on Instagram yesterday. Yep, perfect.
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We have an interesting situation with our neighbors (friends). They invited us out to dinner before we move (named the restaurant even). She texted me a couple of weeks ago and asked if we could change the date to this Saturday. I texted back - no problem. Haven't heard a thing again -- not even a response from the text. She had to have seen it, because it cancelled our original date and that day has long gone.
We've seen her several times THIS WEEK alone and she's said nothing. We are busy and "holding" the night for dinner. Are we going?? I think it's odd she hasn't confirmed a time or mentioned it again. It's a super small restaurant and you have to have reservations for a Saturday night. We decided not to say anything because it feels strange to remind her. It's possible we could get a text at 7 o'clock saying let's go.
I think she forgot. We're holding the night open and maybe we'll go out to dinner ourselves if she doesn't confirm. Normally, I'd text her, but they offered to TREAT us to dinner. Reminding her feels self-serving in this case. We'd like to go to dinner and they don't need to treat, but now it's strange. If I don't hear from her today, I'd guess it's a no-go.
I'm ending with some funny Twitter posts about spring cleaning (saw on yahoo -- I don't have Twitter). These 3 because they are TOTALLY us! I know we're not the only ones :-) Enjoy a few Friday laughs.
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| This is ME. I'm purging some of the family stuff from my mom, but I have 2 drawers in my kitchen and pantry filled with TEA. |
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| Hubby and I "collect" different things. He collects cords and boxes. He admits he has a problem. |
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| He has so many, he made 2 boxes. In his defense, most are useful when he needs a cord or extension, etc. But still ... 2 boxes?!?! Do we need that many? |
Thursday, March 21, 2019
What I'm Reading
I have a strange quirk. If I start a book and instantly love it, I don't want to read it. I want to SAVE it. It's like an unopened Christmas present -- so much better wrapped with anticipation.
This happened yesterday, but I fought against it and read anyway (slowly for short snippets of time).
It's a Melissa Hartwig Urban recommendation for a suspense book with a great ending. The Silent Patient -- Alex Michaelides. It's all about the ending. Anyone can write a suspense story and then end with something outrageous. If you can nail thelanding ending, you nail the book. A good ending can even transform an okay book into a GOOD book. I hope it reads up to the hype!
I'm ever so slowly (like one page a night - true story) reading Eckhard Tolle -- Power of Now. I loved A New Earth. I thought this would be the same. The writing is less clear (so far - I'm only a few chapters into it). It doesn't wow me, inspire or anything. It's kind of like a prequel to A New Earth, but doesn't have the same magic. Nothing quotable or worth marking the page so far. I'm not ready to give up on it yet. I might move to spot reading certain chapters to see if it's worth finishing.
Speaking of magic ... I read the dumbest book, yet I finished it in 2 nights. Silly, stupid and I kind of, sort of, liked it. Not enough to read the next in the series, but it was something lite and cheap on kindle. Witch is When It All Began -- Adele Abbott You guessed it -- she's a witch and doesn't know it, then she knows it, then she's super powerful. Typical cheesy magic book with holes in every direction. But, wouldn't it be fun to be a witch? Reminds me of fantasies as a little girl reading all those kind of books. One and done on this series, but it was a welcomed break to personal growth reading.
I thought I pre-ordered Gretchen Rubin's, Outer Order, Inner Calm -- I didn't. I hesitate to buy it now because I wonder if she's given away most of the information (like Rachel Hollis). I listen to her podcast, follow her on social media, do that yearly Happiness Project. After reading reviews of the book, I decided I was right and not worth the purchase price. Sorry GR. It seems good, but mostly a repeat of all the stuff she's said before. I love her tips on organizing, etc, but didn't need to read it in another format. She's hit and miss for me with her books. LOVE a couple of them (The Happiness Project and Better Than Before). Other ones, not so much.
Mindset -- Carol Dweck. This is one of those books that I'd never heard of and then it kept appearing EVERYWHERE. It's good (I'm a little over halfway), but now it's redundant. I think it's said what it intended to say and now it's filler. Example after example of the same idea - with study after study. A podcast on this subject would have been better. I'll probably skim the rest to see if there's anything new on the subject and call it READ.
I cleaned out an entire two book cases of books last weekend. Now, I need to edit down what I saved. I might wait until the new house to see where I put my books - see how much room I have to give them. We are working hard at not saving STUFF, but some things are harder than others to let go. These are either books I LOVED or books I haven't read yet -- all back from the day when I bought my fiction in ACTUAL books. Since I rarely do that now, I don't want to give them up. I can't imagine a house without books around. I'm allowed to save SOME stuff - right?!
P.S. I never watched any of those movies yesterday. Lots of TV shows recorded and I want to watch before we move (everything recorded will be lost). And I found some work to do in-between reading the new book and watching TV. Movies are on the back burner for now, but all saved so I can remember the names.
We are heading into another packed weekend of move related work. Not nearly as physical as last weekend though. My body HURT (still does - massage today). Only two big things to lift and take to dump (old area rugs), other stuff is packing pantry, files, clothes, etc. and errands.
Tomorrow, hubby is leaving later in the morning for a work event, so I possibly won't be writing until Monday (depends on when he leaves). Next week is our last week in this house. Wow. It's crazy to think about -- exciting and a little scary. Train has left the station - no stopping it now.
Later gators.
This happened yesterday, but I fought against it and read anyway (slowly for short snippets of time).
It's a Melissa Hartwig Urban recommendation for a suspense book with a great ending. The Silent Patient -- Alex Michaelides. It's all about the ending. Anyone can write a suspense story and then end with something outrageous. If you can nail the
I'm ever so slowly (like one page a night - true story) reading Eckhard Tolle -- Power of Now. I loved A New Earth. I thought this would be the same. The writing is less clear (so far - I'm only a few chapters into it). It doesn't wow me, inspire or anything. It's kind of like a prequel to A New Earth, but doesn't have the same magic. Nothing quotable or worth marking the page so far. I'm not ready to give up on it yet. I might move to spot reading certain chapters to see if it's worth finishing.
Speaking of magic ... I read the dumbest book, yet I finished it in 2 nights. Silly, stupid and I kind of, sort of, liked it. Not enough to read the next in the series, but it was something lite and cheap on kindle. Witch is When It All Began -- Adele Abbott You guessed it -- she's a witch and doesn't know it, then she knows it, then she's super powerful. Typical cheesy magic book with holes in every direction. But, wouldn't it be fun to be a witch? Reminds me of fantasies as a little girl reading all those kind of books. One and done on this series, but it was a welcomed break to personal growth reading.
I thought I pre-ordered Gretchen Rubin's, Outer Order, Inner Calm -- I didn't. I hesitate to buy it now because I wonder if she's given away most of the information (like Rachel Hollis). I listen to her podcast, follow her on social media, do that yearly Happiness Project. After reading reviews of the book, I decided I was right and not worth the purchase price. Sorry GR. It seems good, but mostly a repeat of all the stuff she's said before. I love her tips on organizing, etc, but didn't need to read it in another format. She's hit and miss for me with her books. LOVE a couple of them (The Happiness Project and Better Than Before). Other ones, not so much.
Mindset -- Carol Dweck. This is one of those books that I'd never heard of and then it kept appearing EVERYWHERE. It's good (I'm a little over halfway), but now it's redundant. I think it's said what it intended to say and now it's filler. Example after example of the same idea - with study after study. A podcast on this subject would have been better. I'll probably skim the rest to see if there's anything new on the subject and call it READ.
I cleaned out an entire two book cases of books last weekend. Now, I need to edit down what I saved. I might wait until the new house to see where I put my books - see how much room I have to give them. We are working hard at not saving STUFF, but some things are harder than others to let go. These are either books I LOVED or books I haven't read yet -- all back from the day when I bought my fiction in ACTUAL books. Since I rarely do that now, I don't want to give them up. I can't imagine a house without books around. I'm allowed to save SOME stuff - right?!
P.S. I never watched any of those movies yesterday. Lots of TV shows recorded and I want to watch before we move (everything recorded will be lost). And I found some work to do in-between reading the new book and watching TV. Movies are on the back burner for now, but all saved so I can remember the names.
We are heading into another packed weekend of move related work. Not nearly as physical as last weekend though. My body HURT (still does - massage today). Only two big things to lift and take to dump (old area rugs), other stuff is packing pantry, files, clothes, etc. and errands.
Tomorrow, hubby is leaving later in the morning for a work event, so I possibly won't be writing until Monday (depends on when he leaves). Next week is our last week in this house. Wow. It's crazy to think about -- exciting and a little scary. Train has left the station - no stopping it now.
Later gators.
Wednesday, March 20, 2019
Day Off
Remember how I said my days were overly full? Well, I killed it yesterday. Busted a move. Made things happen. Got through an impossible list.
Guess what?
I have a day off today. Nothing left to do RIGHT NOW. Everything else needs to wait until closer to move day (packing clothes, files, pantry, etc). We have stuff to do, but it's too early. I decided it was worth punching it out to have a total day off today. I ran and ran and ran.
What am I doing today? Having a sofa surf day of NOTHING because it's the last day this can happen in the foreseeable future. No one home. Nothing to do. I'm watching Netflix movies (more on that tomorrow) and searching for a junk-read book. Fast food brain day.
I actually tried to have a social day, but everyone is busy -- vacation, working or I just saw them yesterday. Oh well, my sofa always is ready to spend a day with me :-)
I'll hang with the dogs. Possibly no shower (even with a workout). Pure LAZY and I don't care one bit.
We (dogs and I) slept until 7:30 today -- felt good. Also, I was out late last night so I think we were all feeling the need for a sleep-in morning. Even Duke didn't want to get up. This is how I found him -- I actually worried a bit when he didn't respond to my "good morning." I turned on the light and found him contently under pillows with no interest in getting up.
The GNI group was nice last night. It's been steadily declining for about a year, but is on a slow rise a bit lately. We had a few people drop out and fewer people showing up. That makes for a better numbers. Smaller group means better conversations, seating for everyone, etc. We made citronella torches out of old wine bottles. Not sure if I can (or will) move mine because of the oil, but it's really cool. I'd like to use it at the new house.
The movies that are a possibility today are ...
1. Instant Family
2. Music and Lyrics
3. I Can Only Imagine
Off to start being lazy (after a workout). Have a happy Wednesday. Later gators.
Guess what?
I have a day off today. Nothing left to do RIGHT NOW. Everything else needs to wait until closer to move day (packing clothes, files, pantry, etc). We have stuff to do, but it's too early. I decided it was worth punching it out to have a total day off today. I ran and ran and ran.
What am I doing today? Having a sofa surf day of NOTHING because it's the last day this can happen in the foreseeable future. No one home. Nothing to do. I'm watching Netflix movies (more on that tomorrow) and searching for a junk-read book. Fast food brain day.
I actually tried to have a social day, but everyone is busy -- vacation, working or I just saw them yesterday. Oh well, my sofa always is ready to spend a day with me :-)
I'll hang with the dogs. Possibly no shower (even with a workout). Pure LAZY and I don't care one bit.
We (dogs and I) slept until 7:30 today -- felt good. Also, I was out late last night so I think we were all feeling the need for a sleep-in morning. Even Duke didn't want to get up. This is how I found him -- I actually worried a bit when he didn't respond to my "good morning." I turned on the light and found him contently under pillows with no interest in getting up.
The GNI group was nice last night. It's been steadily declining for about a year, but is on a slow rise a bit lately. We had a few people drop out and fewer people showing up. That makes for a better numbers. Smaller group means better conversations, seating for everyone, etc. We made citronella torches out of old wine bottles. Not sure if I can (or will) move mine because of the oil, but it's really cool. I'd like to use it at the new house.
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| We lit it and it works great! |
The movies that are a possibility today are ...
1. Instant Family
2. Music and Lyrics
3. I Can Only Imagine
Off to start being lazy (after a workout). Have a happy Wednesday. Later gators.
Tuesday, March 19, 2019
Eerily Quiet
Hubby left on a business trip, youngest is at his apartment, the house is semi-packed and feeling empty (people and things and even dogs since no foster). It's strange sitting here this morning. I'm sure strange will turn into GOOD very quickly. You know I like time to myself.
Can I scream for a little minute though? I'm so stinking BUSY. Even doing weeks of prep work, the days keep filling up. I knew this was going to be the biggest crunch time, but holy moly it's a lot -- especially with hubby gone. We tag team well. Now, it's on me for the week again.
P.S. I think we finished the last BIG load to the Goodwill. Still have furniture, but that will need to be picked up from our garage another day. I'll probably find a few things here and there, but so happy it's finished.
Even with the busy, there's FUN this week. Lunch with a friend today, GNI tonight with a craft project and dinner, massage on Thursday and Container Store shopping for some pantry organizing.
The house tour was AWESOME yesterday. I didn't take pictures because it looks the same -- well, I guess the basement rooms are finished, but that's ordinary. Workout room, bedroom and bathroom.
I love it so much. Every single thing -- love it. I showed hubby the other house we were considering because it's finished and we both raved and raved about how much MORE we love our house and our lot. Probably, most people in the development feel exactly the same about their house - as they should. This is the first time I got THE HOUSE I wanted in the neighborhood. I'd pick it over every other lot or house. All other moves were on a relocation -- school district first, neighborhood second and then whatever house was available. Never the house that was the most ME. Even this house. I like it a lot, but there are others in the neighborhood that I like more.
The house next door to us sold over the weekend. They move in 2 weeks after us - so construction won't be long. The other house (on the other side) is also for sale, but it's finished so even after it sells, not much construction (only changes that they want to make).
I think I'm handling the "stress" well, but I had a doozy of a water dream last night. That's a sign of stress for me. It's the kind that's still lingering this morning. That's probably why the quiet feels strange -- I'm still feeling the yucky from that dream.
I planned to go to the early boxing class, but my back is tender from moving stuff. Tender like it's on the verge of an injury. Not worth it. I guess I'll do a make-shift workout at home. I ran yesterday so not many options for today with my back wonky and leg still healing.
Have a great day - later gators.
Can I scream for a little minute though? I'm so stinking BUSY. Even doing weeks of prep work, the days keep filling up. I knew this was going to be the biggest crunch time, but holy moly it's a lot -- especially with hubby gone. We tag team well. Now, it's on me for the week again.
P.S. I think we finished the last BIG load to the Goodwill. Still have furniture, but that will need to be picked up from our garage another day. I'll probably find a few things here and there, but so happy it's finished.
Even with the busy, there's FUN this week. Lunch with a friend today, GNI tonight with a craft project and dinner, massage on Thursday and Container Store shopping for some pantry organizing.
The house tour was AWESOME yesterday. I didn't take pictures because it looks the same -- well, I guess the basement rooms are finished, but that's ordinary. Workout room, bedroom and bathroom.
I love it so much. Every single thing -- love it. I showed hubby the other house we were considering because it's finished and we both raved and raved about how much MORE we love our house and our lot. Probably, most people in the development feel exactly the same about their house - as they should. This is the first time I got THE HOUSE I wanted in the neighborhood. I'd pick it over every other lot or house. All other moves were on a relocation -- school district first, neighborhood second and then whatever house was available. Never the house that was the most ME. Even this house. I like it a lot, but there are others in the neighborhood that I like more.
The house next door to us sold over the weekend. They move in 2 weeks after us - so construction won't be long. The other house (on the other side) is also for sale, but it's finished so even after it sells, not much construction (only changes that they want to make).
I think I'm handling the "stress" well, but I had a doozy of a water dream last night. That's a sign of stress for me. It's the kind that's still lingering this morning. That's probably why the quiet feels strange -- I'm still feeling the yucky from that dream.
I planned to go to the early boxing class, but my back is tender from moving stuff. Tender like it's on the verge of an injury. Not worth it. I guess I'll do a make-shift workout at home. I ran yesterday so not many options for today with my back wonky and leg still healing.
Have a great day - later gators.
Monday, March 18, 2019
House Tour
Today is the builder house tour. It's the first of 4 inspections (and walk-throughs) the first year. This is the LONG one -- about 4 hours. They tell us how EVERYTHING works. We're taking notes LOL.
I'm excited. This opens the door to the next stuff with the house. Utilities, bug control, lawn mowers.
We packed most of the stuff we're moving ourselves (except for our clothes). I have a few more baskets to place my family's china (it was my "inheritance"). We're moving what is extra expensive for movers to take (clothes and wall pictures because of the boxes) and what is likely to get broken by less experienced movers. (And, of course, all open liquids, freezer food, etc.) Local movers are much less expensive, but much less experienced. Some things are not worth the risk of breaking.
Remember the Hubby-Heads from hubby's 50th birthday? Put to good use "guarding" the breakables. I laugh every time I go in the room. The gift that keeps on giving (to me LOL).
This also starts the getting-ready for the big spruce up for THIS house. I need to pick paint color, carpet color and get the final list of what we are fixing finished. It's happening!
This is another full week, but less PHYSICAL -- my back is happy about this good news. That should open up time to do more of my self-care stuff. I need to keep the new parts going. These are slipping every weekend because it's so dang busy.
Youngest is moved in. Apartment looks great. Pictures hung, unpacked (because I needed my bins back) and mounds of moving trash gone (because I took it to the dumpster). Still "mommy-ing" him a bit but he's working hard too. It helps to feel like someone is helping too - he needed some of the work off his plate. He'll be home for a few lunch breaks these next 2 weeks before he's transferred to the airport for the 4 month rotation. (Still glasses on the counter and espresso machine left on -- that won't change.)
We're on the final stage of de-clutter, give-away, throw-away. Now that youngest has his apartment figured out, we have a better idea of what can GO AWAY. I'm really using LETTING GO skills this time. We have the space, but WHY move it and keep it? It's hard for hubby too -- we're keeping each other in check.
The only thing left to be organized is the 10 (or so) containers of memorabilia. It will take DAYS (if not weeks to do). It was under control (even with all the boxes from his parents after they passed). Then my mom and aunt downsized last year and gave us SO MUCH STUFF. It needs to be sorted, purged and stored. Some is great - some is redundant - some is junk. It's a huge job for another time for ME and The Container Store! For now, it gets moved and stored in an extra closet. It's a good project for later this summer.
Focused on this week - let's have a good one. Later gators.
I'm excited. This opens the door to the next stuff with the house. Utilities, bug control, lawn mowers.
We packed most of the stuff we're moving ourselves (except for our clothes). I have a few more baskets to place my family's china (it was my "inheritance"). We're moving what is extra expensive for movers to take (clothes and wall pictures because of the boxes) and what is likely to get broken by less experienced movers. (And, of course, all open liquids, freezer food, etc.) Local movers are much less expensive, but much less experienced. Some things are not worth the risk of breaking.
Remember the Hubby-Heads from hubby's 50th birthday? Put to good use "guarding" the breakables. I laugh every time I go in the room. The gift that keeps on giving (to me LOL).
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| We "clear" a room before the move and label it as DO NOT MOVE. This is less confusing to the moving crew and helps keep us organized too. The living room (and our closet) are those areas this move. |
This also starts the getting-ready for the big spruce up for THIS house. I need to pick paint color, carpet color and get the final list of what we are fixing finished. It's happening!
This is another full week, but less PHYSICAL -- my back is happy about this good news. That should open up time to do more of my self-care stuff. I need to keep the new parts going. These are slipping every weekend because it's so dang busy.
Youngest is moved in. Apartment looks great. Pictures hung, unpacked (because I needed my bins back) and mounds of moving trash gone (because I took it to the dumpster). Still "mommy-ing" him a bit but he's working hard too. It helps to feel like someone is helping too - he needed some of the work off his plate. He'll be home for a few lunch breaks these next 2 weeks before he's transferred to the airport for the 4 month rotation. (Still glasses on the counter and espresso machine left on -- that won't change.)
We're on the final stage of de-clutter, give-away, throw-away. Now that youngest has his apartment figured out, we have a better idea of what can GO AWAY. I'm really using LETTING GO skills this time. We have the space, but WHY move it and keep it? It's hard for hubby too -- we're keeping each other in check.
The only thing left to be organized is the 10 (or so) containers of memorabilia. It will take DAYS (if not weeks to do). It was under control (even with all the boxes from his parents after they passed). Then my mom and aunt downsized last year and gave us SO MUCH STUFF. It needs to be sorted, purged and stored. Some is great - some is redundant - some is junk. It's a huge job for another time for ME and The Container Store! For now, it gets moved and stored in an extra closet. It's a good project for later this summer.
Focused on this week - let's have a good one. Later gators.
Sunday, March 17, 2019
Almost Finished
Another car load of little stuff and an afternoon hanging things and the move is FINISHED for our youngest.
Next stop ... OUR move.
We're sore and tired, but stuff is getting done at lightening speed.
Hubby took apart a top cabinet on this big hutch we had in the bedroom (so we can put it in the trash). Youngest took the bottom part for his apartment and the top was useless for anything else.
It looked like a stage so I was playing around and made it a "puppet" show for Duke. Here's how it went down. (P.S. I'm the only one who thinks this is ADORABLE!) Duke was totally curious and playing. Parker heard him, came upstairs and stole the toy. Brothers! (And if you feel sorry for Duke, know that he's usually the thief in the relationship -- probably why I find it so funny.)
Come on - that has to make you smile just a little.
Last funny move story. Hubby and I got home after returning the U-Haul and were totally high-living having launched our youngest child. We were excited to have no more glasses left on the counter, no more overuse of my espresso machine -- since I came home to the machine left on and glasses on the counter to put in the dishwasher. (Occurrences that happened multiple times a day, no matter how many times we asked otherwise - yes, good parenting LOL.)
He called about 5 minutes later and said he forgot his chargers so he'd be back in a few minutes to collect more things. He had a glass of water (left it on the counter) and used the espresso machine (and left it on). Touché, universe.
I'll miss HIM, not THAT though!! P.S. He did work his butt off yesterday making that move happen.
In all seriousness - super grateful no one got hurt in the move, nothing got damaged and it didn't rain. A glass on the counter is a-okay at the end of the day. Happy Sunday. Later gators.
Next stop ... OUR move.
We're sore and tired, but stuff is getting done at lightening speed.
Hubby took apart a top cabinet on this big hutch we had in the bedroom (so we can put it in the trash). Youngest took the bottom part for his apartment and the top was useless for anything else.
It looked like a stage so I was playing around and made it a "puppet" show for Duke. Here's how it went down. (P.S. I'm the only one who thinks this is ADORABLE!) Duke was totally curious and playing. Parker heard him, came upstairs and stole the toy. Brothers! (And if you feel sorry for Duke, know that he's usually the thief in the relationship -- probably why I find it so funny.)
Come on - that has to make you smile just a little.
Last funny move story. Hubby and I got home after returning the U-Haul and were totally high-living having launched our youngest child. We were excited to have no more glasses left on the counter, no more overuse of my espresso machine -- since I came home to the machine left on and glasses on the counter to put in the dishwasher. (Occurrences that happened multiple times a day, no matter how many times we asked otherwise - yes, good parenting LOL.)
He called about 5 minutes later and said he forgot his chargers so he'd be back in a few minutes to collect more things. He had a glass of water (left it on the counter) and used the espresso machine (and left it on). Touché, universe.
I'll miss HIM, not THAT though!! P.S. He did work his butt off yesterday making that move happen.
In all seriousness - super grateful no one got hurt in the move, nothing got damaged and it didn't rain. A glass on the counter is a-okay at the end of the day. Happy Sunday. Later gators.
Friday, March 15, 2019
Launching the Youngest
Tomorrow is LAUNCH day.
A good friend of mine explained (years ago) the difference between EMPTY NEST and LAUNCHING. Launching means the child is OFF your bank account -- no more covering expenses, providing all meals, using my house for things like laundry and constant espressos.
It's a far more exciting day than empty nest day.
In typical young 20-something male fashion, he's unorganized, last minute and has no understanding of how much needs to be done.
Example:
son: Make sure the laundry is available tonight. I need to do laundry all night.
me: Why did you wait until the last minute?
son: Because I work ALL THE TIME and have to do things like my taxes. (which took him 30 minutes last night with his dad's help)
me: Didn't you go out with friends last night?
son: Whatever.
In typical mom-who-does-too-much fashion, I have a lot organized, planned and am ready for tomorrow. I do that for 2 reasons. One, I'm his mom still and I'll probably "help" my kids through eternity (hahaha) AND two, I need him gone so I can get on with my packing, organizing, etc.
One side .... awwww, my sweet boy who I'll miss so much. The other side ... get out!
It's the way of life. I've never been upset with the next steps for my kids. I never cried when they got on the bus for kindergarten. I never cried when they left for college. These are happy next steps.
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In other news:
April was back and my massage was good. Not great though. She forgot it was 90 minutes so I got 30 minutes of a foot rub. Bummer. I have another scheduled.
Taking a friend out to lunch for her birthday today. Should be fun, but the timing is a bit rushed.
Probably won't check in until Monday. The move is happening early with a total flurry of activity. The last of the BIG things before WE move. I shouldn't wish this time away, but I kind of do ... my back hurts just thinking about this weekend.
Later gators.
A good friend of mine explained (years ago) the difference between EMPTY NEST and LAUNCHING. Launching means the child is OFF your bank account -- no more covering expenses, providing all meals, using my house for things like laundry and constant espressos.
It's a far more exciting day than empty nest day.
In typical young 20-something male fashion, he's unorganized, last minute and has no understanding of how much needs to be done.
Example:
son: Make sure the laundry is available tonight. I need to do laundry all night.
me: Why did you wait until the last minute?
son: Because I work ALL THE TIME and have to do things like my taxes. (which took him 30 minutes last night with his dad's help)
me: Didn't you go out with friends last night?
son: Whatever.
In typical mom-who-does-too-much fashion, I have a lot organized, planned and am ready for tomorrow. I do that for 2 reasons. One, I'm his mom still and I'll probably "help" my kids through eternity (hahaha) AND two, I need him gone so I can get on with my packing, organizing, etc.
One side .... awwww, my sweet boy who I'll miss so much. The other side ... get out!
It's the way of life. I've never been upset with the next steps for my kids. I never cried when they got on the bus for kindergarten. I never cried when they left for college. These are happy next steps.
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In other news:
April was back and my massage was good. Not great though. She forgot it was 90 minutes so I got 30 minutes of a foot rub. Bummer. I have another scheduled.
Taking a friend out to lunch for her birthday today. Should be fun, but the timing is a bit rushed.
Probably won't check in until Monday. The move is happening early with a total flurry of activity. The last of the BIG things before WE move. I shouldn't wish this time away, but I kind of do ... my back hurts just thinking about this weekend.
Later gators.
Thursday, March 14, 2019
Spider Bite
It wasn't a burst growth on my old dog -- it's a spider bite. Gross picture coming up; red, swollen and fur falling off. He's on antibiotics. Another trip to the vet. Poor sweet boy.
Yesterday was a jumble of a day again, but by nighttime a few things were off my list -- progress. Contractors were late, vet stuff all day (until finally took him into office at 5 o'clock), changes in appointments ... lots of jumble.
I know when the calendar is full, it makes sense there are more hiccups in the mix on the regular. I handled it FAIRLY well. I think I had a gluten SAD mood yesterday. Sensitive to a lot of things that don't matter to me this morning. But, the sandwich was WORTH IT! I mean, I actually dreamt about it.
I turned the corner a little bit more, but still have some turning to go today. Why is it that I can't make that transition BACK to healthy habits in one day, but I can turn off healthy less than an hour?
What I did well:
workout
meditation
green drink
What I didn't do:
goal journal (tried, but contractors interrupted and never went back to it)
podcast during packing (I complained about family situation in my head instead)
reading (watched TV instead -- This is Us and Real Housewives of Beverly Hills)
eat healthy at night (no veggies and ate at counter)
My (former) coach, Holly, came clean on Instagram this week about going through a rough patch and needing space to work through it. It's not a straight line. Her "off time" stemmed from a move too. It's always going to be EFFORT to keep on track for those of us (most everyone, I think) who's set point is somewhere near the pantry junk drawer.
I hesitate to even say this out loud, but my MASSAGE is today. Got the confirmation call yesterday. April has a newborn though, so cancelation is still possible. Shhhhh ... not announcing anything too loudly.
Planning my FULL turn around day today. Can I do it? Will I do it? Will the massage happen? Cliff hanger LOL. Inquiring minds (ME) will have to wait until tomorrow to find out ... later gators.
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| Bite makes more sense. Vet says the skin might flake off too. |
Yesterday was a jumble of a day again, but by nighttime a few things were off my list -- progress. Contractors were late, vet stuff all day (until finally took him into office at 5 o'clock), changes in appointments ... lots of jumble.
I know when the calendar is full, it makes sense there are more hiccups in the mix on the regular. I handled it FAIRLY well. I think I had a gluten SAD mood yesterday. Sensitive to a lot of things that don't matter to me this morning. But, the sandwich was WORTH IT! I mean, I actually dreamt about it.
I turned the corner a little bit more, but still have some turning to go today. Why is it that I can't make that transition BACK to healthy habits in one day, but I can turn off healthy less than an hour?
What I did well:
workout
meditation
green drink
What I didn't do:
goal journal (tried, but contractors interrupted and never went back to it)
podcast during packing (I complained about family situation in my head instead)
reading (watched TV instead -- This is Us and Real Housewives of Beverly Hills)
eat healthy at night (no veggies and ate at counter)
My (former) coach, Holly, came clean on Instagram this week about going through a rough patch and needing space to work through it. It's not a straight line. Her "off time" stemmed from a move too. It's always going to be EFFORT to keep on track for those of us (most everyone, I think) who's set point is somewhere near the pantry junk drawer.
I hesitate to even say this out loud, but my MASSAGE is today. Got the confirmation call yesterday. April has a newborn though, so cancelation is still possible. Shhhhh ... not announcing anything too loudly.
Planning my FULL turn around day today. Can I do it? Will I do it? Will the massage happen? Cliff hanger LOL. Inquiring minds (ME) will have to wait until tomorrow to find out ... later gators.
Wednesday, March 13, 2019
Still Trying
Yesterday didn't go as expected so working on yesterday's goals today.
Parker had one of his "growths" burst (blood everywhere = vet visit), extended family drama so on the phone all morning and pine straw peeps stood me up.
I didn't overreact to any of it, but I also didn't get to that "healthy" day that I planned.
Also, my eating ... 12 inch sub for dinner. Why? Because I was craving it and that's what the guys were having so I ordered one for me too. It was so good. So far, the gluten is laying low (maybe a little mood stuff though ) ... pretty please no cold sore.
I have NOTHING to say today (so maybe also gluten brain fog??).
I bought Meyer lemons for my hot water because the regular lemons were hard as rocks. It's a nice change this morning. That's the news for today.
Pine straw today (maybe), termite inspection (yearly) and NOTHING. I was supposed to have some fun with a friend, but looks like that's not happening. No excuse to let those healthy things go today. I have plenty of time.
Okay, I'm boring myself. Have a great day - later gators.
Parker had one of his "growths" burst (blood everywhere = vet visit), extended family drama so on the phone all morning and pine straw peeps stood me up.
I didn't overreact to any of it, but I also didn't get to that "healthy" day that I planned.
Also, my eating ... 12 inch sub for dinner. Why? Because I was craving it and that's what the guys were having so I ordered one for me too. It was so good. So far, the gluten is laying low (maybe a little mood stuff though ) ... pretty please no cold sore.
I have NOTHING to say today (so maybe also gluten brain fog??).
I bought Meyer lemons for my hot water because the regular lemons were hard as rocks. It's a nice change this morning. That's the news for today.
Pine straw today (maybe), termite inspection (yearly) and NOTHING. I was supposed to have some fun with a friend, but looks like that's not happening. No excuse to let those healthy things go today. I have plenty of time.
Okay, I'm boring myself. Have a great day - later gators.
Tuesday, March 12, 2019
Daylight Savings Time
Does anyone else have a devil of a time making the "spring forward?" Somehow this ONE HOUR messes with me for a good couple of weeks. Every year, there's a political push to end it. I don't care what time we choose, just choose one and stick with it. That's my vote.
Yesterday was all packing, sorting and moving stuff to the main level. I worked up a good sweat going up and down the stairs. More of the same today.
I'm in a pattern of NOT doing my personal growth stuff over the weekend. No real meditation, no journal book, no goal review, no book reading, no podcasts. Monday comes and I forget to do it. Legit forget. Tuesday comes and I "panic" I've lost my mojo and might take a deep dive to where I was before. I hope this is from the move and the unusually busy weekends. I don't like the STARTING OVER feeling every week.
Guess what I'm doing today ... starting over. Probably a little dramatic, but it feels like I need to force it again. I miss feeling strong and focused -- it makes a difference when I do this stuff. It doesn't take long and it's not hard. It's probably going to happen again this weekend since we are moving my youngest into his apartment -- all day, both days. Maybe I need a better plan, but I can't think of one. I don't intend to let the stuff go, but, it gets busy and I get pulled away and that's that.
I have planning fatigue. Decision fatigue. Problem solving fatigue. Every part of my life is LIT right now -- changing at lightening speed. At least, for me. I don't like to move through CHANGE quickly and definitely don't like to change so much at once (even the TIME changed!!).
What helps maneuver all the change is the consistency of my good habits -- so, dang, I need to figure this out.
Here's a funny from Facebook. I read it and cracked up. It's stupid and stinking FUNNY!
Today's agenda is waiting for a pine straw delivery (that's a southern thing - like mulch, but ugly LOL). I have my call with Darcie. We postponed last week because both our schedule's needed a different day. Trader Joe's run if pine straw comes on-time. More packing, moving, organizing. AND ... my personal growth stuff.
Have and make it a good Tuesday. Later gators.
Yesterday was all packing, sorting and moving stuff to the main level. I worked up a good sweat going up and down the stairs. More of the same today.
I'm in a pattern of NOT doing my personal growth stuff over the weekend. No real meditation, no journal book, no goal review, no book reading, no podcasts. Monday comes and I forget to do it. Legit forget. Tuesday comes and I "panic" I've lost my mojo and might take a deep dive to where I was before. I hope this is from the move and the unusually busy weekends. I don't like the STARTING OVER feeling every week.
Guess what I'm doing today ... starting over. Probably a little dramatic, but it feels like I need to force it again. I miss feeling strong and focused -- it makes a difference when I do this stuff. It doesn't take long and it's not hard. It's probably going to happen again this weekend since we are moving my youngest into his apartment -- all day, both days. Maybe I need a better plan, but I can't think of one. I don't intend to let the stuff go, but, it gets busy and I get pulled away and that's that.
I have planning fatigue. Decision fatigue. Problem solving fatigue. Every part of my life is LIT right now -- changing at lightening speed. At least, for me. I don't like to move through CHANGE quickly and definitely don't like to change so much at once (even the TIME changed!!).
What helps maneuver all the change is the consistency of my good habits -- so, dang, I need to figure this out.
Here's a funny from Facebook. I read it and cracked up. It's stupid and stinking FUNNY!
Today's agenda is waiting for a pine straw delivery (that's a southern thing - like mulch, but ugly LOL). I have my call with Darcie. We postponed last week because both our schedule's needed a different day. Trader Joe's run if pine straw comes on-time. More packing, moving, organizing. AND ... my personal growth stuff.
Have and make it a good Tuesday. Later gators.
Monday, March 11, 2019
What a Weekend!
Let's start with the drama.
Duke and I went for a run on Saturday and were attacked by 2 large dogs. The owner lost control of them and they snatched Duke. Lifted him, death shook him and flung him. Thankfully, most of the bite landing on his harness. He pulled out of the harness and one of the dogs was going for another kill bite. I grabbed Duke (so lucky that I didn't get bit) and ran. We were so stinking scared. Hubby came and picked us up. The man was an asshole.
Duke went to the vet for a dog bite and deep scratches. He's on antibiotics and pain meds. Poor little boy. He's a mess with nerves. It was scary, but we were so dang lucky. Without the harness, I have no doubt Duke would have been in surgery or killed. It was that bad.
BUT, no more energy to that experience or the jerk of a man. I'm choosing to be grateful we are both okay.
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Here's some FUN stuff:
We toured the kids' wedding venue. Oh, it's pretty. Rustic, nature, beautiful outdoor space. They get the venue for the entire day. There's a house for the bridal party, a party room for the men. She designed the space to contrast the masculine and feminine energy. I commented on that and she told me that's exactly what she intended! It really fits the kids -- they chose well!
We had lunch at a recommended rehearsal dinner place. Super cute, but no private room so not a go for the rehearsal.
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Sunday, I ran all over Atlanta on Releash "work." Last stop was for our sweet foster.
Aspen went to her retirement home. Holy Cow!! What a great rescue. The owner was fantastic and Aspen was happy immediately. She loved the dogs, loved the outdoor space that she could explore without leash or pen. She was rolling and running and SMILING. Have the best life little lady - it's oddly "off" with you gone. She was our longest foster so far.
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Then headed to youngest's apartment to measure. Good thing we did. Lots of changes to what he's taking.
Yes, it's downstairs, but he failed to mention 2 flights after a LONG hallway with switchback stairs. I have no idea how they are going to lift the recliner sofa. The apartment is nice -- I thought it was "underground," but the way the land slopes, they walk out to ground level. Big windows, nice place. Difficult moving in though. He's rallying some friends to help (otherwise -- no sofa).
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I put some good furniture up for sale on community garage sale sites. We gave away most of our stuff, but this was really nice and no one we knew wanted it -- so let's try selling it.
Sold our living room furniture to a youth minister's family. Great condition, great price ($200 for 3 pieces). They're super happy. They got an incredible deal. We never used it -- it was in perfect condition, oversized and comfortable. Glad it went to someone who needed it. I was doing dog-things when they picked it up. If I had known the story, they could've had it for free (hubby was glad I wasn't home - he said he knew I'd give it away - stinker!!). It paid for the vet bills this weekend.
One of 2 coffee tables sold to our neighbor for their beach home. Pottery Barn - still available for $600 at the store and we sold it for $75 in perfect condition. Good deal.
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Duke and I went for a run on Saturday and were attacked by 2 large dogs. The owner lost control of them and they snatched Duke. Lifted him, death shook him and flung him. Thankfully, most of the bite landing on his harness. He pulled out of the harness and one of the dogs was going for another kill bite. I grabbed Duke (so lucky that I didn't get bit) and ran. We were so stinking scared. Hubby came and picked us up. The man was an asshole.
Duke went to the vet for a dog bite and deep scratches. He's on antibiotics and pain meds. Poor little boy. He's a mess with nerves. It was scary, but we were so dang lucky. Without the harness, I have no doubt Duke would have been in surgery or killed. It was that bad.
BUT, no more energy to that experience or the jerk of a man. I'm choosing to be grateful we are both okay.
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Here's some FUN stuff:
We toured the kids' wedding venue. Oh, it's pretty. Rustic, nature, beautiful outdoor space. They get the venue for the entire day. There's a house for the bridal party, a party room for the men. She designed the space to contrast the masculine and feminine energy. I commented on that and she told me that's exactly what she intended! It really fits the kids -- they chose well!
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| It's beautiful even NOT decorated! |
We had lunch at a recommended rehearsal dinner place. Super cute, but no private room so not a go for the rehearsal.
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Sunday, I ran all over Atlanta on Releash "work." Last stop was for our sweet foster.
Aspen went to her retirement home. Holy Cow!! What a great rescue. The owner was fantastic and Aspen was happy immediately. She loved the dogs, loved the outdoor space that she could explore without leash or pen. She was rolling and running and SMILING. Have the best life little lady - it's oddly "off" with you gone. She was our longest foster so far.
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| After running through a pile of leaves ... what a face. |
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Then headed to youngest's apartment to measure. Good thing we did. Lots of changes to what he's taking.
Yes, it's downstairs, but he failed to mention 2 flights after a LONG hallway with switchback stairs. I have no idea how they are going to lift the recliner sofa. The apartment is nice -- I thought it was "underground," but the way the land slopes, they walk out to ground level. Big windows, nice place. Difficult moving in though. He's rallying some friends to help (otherwise -- no sofa).
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I put some good furniture up for sale on community garage sale sites. We gave away most of our stuff, but this was really nice and no one we knew wanted it -- so let's try selling it.
Sold our living room furniture to a youth minister's family. Great condition, great price ($200 for 3 pieces). They're super happy. They got an incredible deal. We never used it -- it was in perfect condition, oversized and comfortable. Glad it went to someone who needed it. I was doing dog-things when they picked it up. If I had known the story, they could've had it for free (hubby was glad I wasn't home - he said he knew I'd give it away - stinker!!). It paid for the vet bills this weekend.
One of 2 coffee tables sold to our neighbor for their beach home. Pottery Barn - still available for $600 at the store and we sold it for $75 in perfect condition. Good deal.
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| They made it - OMG. They had an hour drive with rain on the way. |
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Kids came over on Sunday. We did our first grill-out for the season while we went over wedding guest list. Fun night. I was bone tired though.
Because of the time change, stress of the dog situation and all the driving on Sunday, I decided to wait to try the meditation at the Unity Church. It's a 45 minute drive, meditation at 8 am. Too much for this weekend. It's still on my list ...
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Pottery Barn on Friday night was crazy. It took so long! I STOOD for hours. 5 o'clock to close. I was there so long, people thought I worked there - true story. I was able to help a couple of people - also true story.
The project has begun. First wave of ordering finished. Some missing items that we'll work on after this stuff comes in.
The big "mistake" I made was not realizing that ALL bedroom stuff was going to take 2 months to come in. We ordered our mattress from PB too because it was a lot cheaper and then 30% off. No brainer - even if it doesn't last as long as the one we picked out, it has to be more value overall.
We'll be sleeping on our old mattress ON THE FLOOR for 2 months. Oops. The bed is going in the basement and it's too big and heavy for us to move. We'll bring the mattress up and move it down after the new one is delivered.
Problem solving because no other option!!
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Today is lots of house moving stuff. Organizing for the packing. Bringing up what youngest needs from the basement. Consolidating everything on the main level to ease the day of the move. It makes a difference not having to move it upstairs the day of the move.
We are in the crunch weeks.
I need to remember to slow down, continue some ME time, add some downtime. I'm in a better headspace than a couple of weeks ago. I'm handling the ups and downs pretty well. Fingers crossed.
Okay - that's enough updates for today. It's already late - I'm not a fan of SPRING FORWARD :-) Later gators.
Saturday, March 9, 2019
Memes and My Nails :-)
Friday, March 8, 2019
All About the Nails
I'm making this the title because ME time is taking front and center today. I have other things, but my focus is lite & fun today. And I had a dream that I got the cream color!
I'm not sure why this is so exciting to me. Lite & fun in a month of hectic -- probably. If I get the cream, prepare yourself for complaining about it in about 4 days LOL.
Met with the closet organizer and designer yesterday. Everything went smoothly. Meeting at Pottery Barn today to go over a plan (goodbye $$$). It's sale time at PB and I want to take advantage of it. That seems to be our theme - just squeaking under the sale dates. Better than missing it. We've saved a bundle on things we already planned to buy.
Pottery Barn is pricey, but I've never tired of anything I bought from them. Classic. Forever. It's worth it to me to do our family room. And, when you look at some of the higher priced stores, the prices are comparable. Plus FREE interior design.
Last time I was at the new house, I had bad mojo. It was the day Parker fell at the new groomers. Pouring rain. I felt deflated in every way. Driving there today, I notice those feelings coming up again. The "good" visit zapped it away and last night the new groomer called to check on Parker and talk about a plan for next time. Good feelings are back again! Thanks, Universe. It feels RIGHT to be at that house - feels like home.
I decided to run outside with Duke for my workout yesterday. If my leg hurt at all, I would've stopped. All was good. Rest day today ahead of the long, fun boxing class tomorrow.
3 of the 5 cook-ups are finished. I need to Food Save them today and cook meatballs. I'll have hubby grill the chicken this weekend. It feels good to stick with that plan -- meals ready for move-in month. I'm spread thin with "favors" and I almost decided to let this plan go. Future me is super happy I cooked.
I RSVPd to the luncheon at the new house. Slowing down and enjoying the process (I keep telling myself).
We're starting the LETTING GO part of the downsizing (de-cluttering). This is the hard work. We cleaned out the junk and the stuff we really didn't like -- now we are letting go of stuff we LIKE, but have no use for anymore. We're saving some things for the kids as they start to upsize living, but a lot is not worth storing for years (on the off chance they want it).
The first wave was more practical. This wave is more the does-it-bring-me-joy phase enough to potential store it for years in our basement.
Also, we don't want to pay to move something we are donating the next week. The movers are by-the-hour and we are on the edge of needed a second truck which increases the cost dramatically. LETTING GO.
My brain is murky with design too. Where I thought I was putting that dresser, I'm not -- everything changing and moving around. I'm trying really hard because it's just me and hubby. I need to get the pieces on the right floor. Stairs, lifting and me do NOT go together.
Happy weekend -- make it a good one. Later gators.
I'm not sure why this is so exciting to me. Lite & fun in a month of hectic -- probably. If I get the cream, prepare yourself for complaining about it in about 4 days LOL.
Met with the closet organizer and designer yesterday. Everything went smoothly. Meeting at Pottery Barn today to go over a plan (goodbye $$$). It's sale time at PB and I want to take advantage of it. That seems to be our theme - just squeaking under the sale dates. Better than missing it. We've saved a bundle on things we already planned to buy.
Pottery Barn is pricey, but I've never tired of anything I bought from them. Classic. Forever. It's worth it to me to do our family room. And, when you look at some of the higher priced stores, the prices are comparable. Plus FREE interior design.
Last time I was at the new house, I had bad mojo. It was the day Parker fell at the new groomers. Pouring rain. I felt deflated in every way. Driving there today, I notice those feelings coming up again. The "good" visit zapped it away and last night the new groomer called to check on Parker and talk about a plan for next time. Good feelings are back again! Thanks, Universe. It feels RIGHT to be at that house - feels like home.
I decided to run outside with Duke for my workout yesterday. If my leg hurt at all, I would've stopped. All was good. Rest day today ahead of the long, fun boxing class tomorrow.
3 of the 5 cook-ups are finished. I need to Food Save them today and cook meatballs. I'll have hubby grill the chicken this weekend. It feels good to stick with that plan -- meals ready for move-in month. I'm spread thin with "favors" and I almost decided to let this plan go. Future me is super happy I cooked.
I RSVPd to the luncheon at the new house. Slowing down and enjoying the process (I keep telling myself).
We're starting the LETTING GO part of the downsizing (de-cluttering). This is the hard work. We cleaned out the junk and the stuff we really didn't like -- now we are letting go of stuff we LIKE, but have no use for anymore. We're saving some things for the kids as they start to upsize living, but a lot is not worth storing for years (on the off chance they want it).
The first wave was more practical. This wave is more the does-it-bring-me-joy phase enough to potential store it for years in our basement.
Also, we don't want to pay to move something we are donating the next week. The movers are by-the-hour and we are on the edge of needed a second truck which increases the cost dramatically. LETTING GO.
My brain is murky with design too. Where I thought I was putting that dresser, I'm not -- everything changing and moving around. I'm trying really hard because it's just me and hubby. I need to get the pieces on the right floor. Stairs, lifting and me do NOT go together.
Happy weekend -- make it a good one. Later gators.
Thursday, March 7, 2019
Update Day
Random order ...
Earache:
Almost gone. Only a few ziggers during the day. Good choice to wait and see. Even though Dr. Google says it can't be the loud music at Soul Cycle, I still wonder. The timing was interesting since, oh, and I haven't had an ear infection in 45 years!!
Leg injury:
Holding good after the runs this week. I'm not pushing the frequency yet. My calf muscles are sore. Hello, hills! I did arms and abs yesterday. On the fence for this morning ... boxing, elliptical or rest day. Normally, I schedule out the workout week, but I'm listening to my leg and playing it day-by-day.
Boxing membership:
Speaking of boxing ... I might let this go. Here's why. The classes during the week aren't good for me anymore (boring instructor, switched to kickboxing, etc). The only class I like is Saturday and that's a lot of money for once/week (and some Saturdays I can't go). I'm using it for the elliptical during my leg injury and that's been great. It takes a month to cancel. I'm still thinking it over. Also, the drive is 20 minutes longer from the new house. I'll need some sort of cross training to replace it (that's going to take some time to figure out). For now, I'm still going. It's on a possible cancelation list though.
Books:
Mindset -- Carol Dweck
I finished this book last night. Interesting. Fixed mindset vs growth mindset. Well worth the read. I'll say that I read-skimmed the last half. Examples of mindset in business, sports, teaching, etc. It became redundant. Made me think about my mindset and how both have played roles in my life (good and bad). I heard about the book and now I KEEP hearing about it. It's making rounds again.
The Power of Now -- Eckhart Tolle.
Started, but only through the introduction. I love his writing, the feel of the book (such nice paper) and the message.
Podcasts:
Nothing new. I need some recommendations. Jen Hatmaker is on a music series and that's not my jam (love a pun). Rachel Hollis is hit-or-miss for me (she does a lot of business ones). Even Brooke Castillo is business focused a lot lately.
Jen Hatmaker Event:
My out-of-town bestie went silent about it after suggesting we go. Probably for the best. Logistics would be challenging doing airport runs. Tickets are available so I messaged a local friend about going. It keeps showing up, so time to say YES. We'll do an early dinner downtown and maybe miss some of the traffic. It's not until mid-May, so plenty of time to get settled after the move.
Nails:
I'm getting another SNS over the moving months. I need strength in the nails or I'll rip them lifting stuff, opening boxes. I saw this color on Instagram and am thinking of trying it. I usually regret anything but an american (like french, but more subtle white). Should I, shouldn't I? It'll be a game day decision on Friday (also, they might not have this color). I'm leaning toward YES -- an adventure for my nails (because cream is such a wild choice hahaha).
CBD oil for my old dog:
It's a wait and see. About 2 weeks before any results.
Aspen:
Remember when I mentioned some things magically correctly at Costco this week? One of the phone calls was about Aspen. She's been accepted into a retirement home and I'll drop her off on Sunday. It's a long drive but worth it for this little lady to live out her best life. It's a perfect scenario for her. Miss you already, love.
Saying YES:
I've been angry and annoyed about doing favors, people standing me up when I'm helping them out and it's made me go into NO mode. Too much so. Hubby helped me see that light ... don't turn away from friends just because strangers are pissing you off. Got it.
In the name of YES, I'm saying yes to a yearly neighborhood lunch for the ladies in our new place. The day after we move in -- hectic, but it would be a big miss to not go.
The Weekend:
The weekend is full. We are in crunch mode and things are moving fast now. I need to be on my game to make this happen. It's got something for everyone ... fun, work, self-care.
Saturday: Boxing, touring wedding venue, buying mattress, more GoodWill drops.
Sunday: Early meditation at Unity Church, training a foster in the city, dropping off Aspen, touring youngest's apartment to measure for move in the next weekend.
Today:
I'm meeting the closet measurer at the new house followed by the Pottery Barn decorator (free service) to start planning furniture for the family room and master bedroom. Exciting stuff!
I managed another good day yesterday, but still some underlying stress. Didn't "eat my feelings" though and that's a win. Going for #3 today. Later gators.
Earache:
Almost gone. Only a few ziggers during the day. Good choice to wait and see. Even though Dr. Google says it can't be the loud music at Soul Cycle, I still wonder. The timing was interesting since, oh, and I haven't had an ear infection in 45 years!!
Leg injury:
Holding good after the runs this week. I'm not pushing the frequency yet. My calf muscles are sore. Hello, hills! I did arms and abs yesterday. On the fence for this morning ... boxing, elliptical or rest day. Normally, I schedule out the workout week, but I'm listening to my leg and playing it day-by-day.
Boxing membership:
Speaking of boxing ... I might let this go. Here's why. The classes during the week aren't good for me anymore (boring instructor, switched to kickboxing, etc). The only class I like is Saturday and that's a lot of money for once/week (and some Saturdays I can't go). I'm using it for the elliptical during my leg injury and that's been great. It takes a month to cancel. I'm still thinking it over. Also, the drive is 20 minutes longer from the new house. I'll need some sort of cross training to replace it (that's going to take some time to figure out). For now, I'm still going. It's on a possible cancelation list though.
Books:
Mindset -- Carol Dweck
I finished this book last night. Interesting. Fixed mindset vs growth mindset. Well worth the read. I'll say that I read-skimmed the last half. Examples of mindset in business, sports, teaching, etc. It became redundant. Made me think about my mindset and how both have played roles in my life (good and bad). I heard about the book and now I KEEP hearing about it. It's making rounds again.
The Power of Now -- Eckhart Tolle.
Started, but only through the introduction. I love his writing, the feel of the book (such nice paper) and the message.
Podcasts:
Nothing new. I need some recommendations. Jen Hatmaker is on a music series and that's not my jam (love a pun). Rachel Hollis is hit-or-miss for me (she does a lot of business ones). Even Brooke Castillo is business focused a lot lately.
Jen Hatmaker Event:
My out-of-town bestie went silent about it after suggesting we go. Probably for the best. Logistics would be challenging doing airport runs. Tickets are available so I messaged a local friend about going. It keeps showing up, so time to say YES. We'll do an early dinner downtown and maybe miss some of the traffic. It's not until mid-May, so plenty of time to get settled after the move.
Nails:
I'm getting another SNS over the moving months. I need strength in the nails or I'll rip them lifting stuff, opening boxes. I saw this color on Instagram and am thinking of trying it. I usually regret anything but an american (like french, but more subtle white). Should I, shouldn't I? It'll be a game day decision on Friday (also, they might not have this color). I'm leaning toward YES -- an adventure for my nails (because cream is such a wild choice hahaha).
CBD oil for my old dog:
It's a wait and see. About 2 weeks before any results.
Aspen:
Remember when I mentioned some things magically correctly at Costco this week? One of the phone calls was about Aspen. She's been accepted into a retirement home and I'll drop her off on Sunday. It's a long drive but worth it for this little lady to live out her best life. It's a perfect scenario for her. Miss you already, love.
Saying YES:
I've been angry and annoyed about doing favors, people standing me up when I'm helping them out and it's made me go into NO mode. Too much so. Hubby helped me see that light ... don't turn away from friends just because strangers are pissing you off. Got it.
In the name of YES, I'm saying yes to a yearly neighborhood lunch for the ladies in our new place. The day after we move in -- hectic, but it would be a big miss to not go.
The Weekend:
The weekend is full. We are in crunch mode and things are moving fast now. I need to be on my game to make this happen. It's got something for everyone ... fun, work, self-care.
Saturday: Boxing, touring wedding venue, buying mattress, more GoodWill drops.
Sunday: Early meditation at Unity Church, training a foster in the city, dropping off Aspen, touring youngest's apartment to measure for move in the next weekend.
Today:
I'm meeting the closet measurer at the new house followed by the Pottery Barn decorator (free service) to start planning furniture for the family room and master bedroom. Exciting stuff!
I managed another good day yesterday, but still some underlying stress. Didn't "eat my feelings" though and that's a win. Going for #3 today. Later gators.
Wednesday, March 6, 2019
A Spoonful of Sugar ...
(Inside joke -- my HANGRY son was mouthing off on a hike years ago and I gave him some candy. Minutes later he was skipping and singing Mary Poppins. True story. We laugh about it all the time. "Spoonful of sugar.")
I was able to shift my attitude a few degrees yesterday.
Brain-dump ... is it true? (sort of, but not completely)
Outside run with Duke (I took chances on my leg - okay so far, but my muscles are sore, ha!)
Made some plans for regular old fun this week (slowing down)
Listened to Eckhart Tolle (reminded to embrace UNCERTAINTY - life is an adventure)
Guess what? I felt better. Stayed present better. AND during a trip to Costco most of my "worries" corrected themselves. 2 phone calls and a text message and most things were back to okay. God was hanging out at Costco yesterday (if you're looking)
I swear it was divine intervention. Or as Eckhart says, when you are aligned with the present moment things flow more easily.
Big breath in ... and out. That was a rough ride. Like Dorothy, I had the power the entire time.
I slept like I was dead last night (so did sweet Aspen who is happy to be back with us). Couldn't figure out the alarm noise this morning -- full on deep sleep. Flowing with the Universe. Sound wacky? Yep. True -- I think so.
Today is some of that slow-down, have some fun stuff. Brunch with a friend. Corned beef hash - my favorite (as my mouth waters). It's the ugliest plate of food, but one of the best flavor of corned beef hash I've ever tasted.
Back to Costco ...
I ventured into the non-food area to get my youngest some silverware for his new apartment. (That's another one of those words ... silverware or flatware?) Found some awesome CHEAP rugs. We have hallways in our new house and need runners for the dogs. Until we figure out the colors, etc, I found runners (with rubber backing) for $9 at Costco (maybe they will stay - I like them). Also, found an outdoor mat for a door (I think our front door since we'll need a big one.) Tweed gray. I need to check out that section more. I usually cruise straight to the back.
I went to Costco to get meat. While I'm running the kitchen to empty on old freezer and pantry things before we move, I want to FoodSaver some meals for those first few weeks in the new place. That will move easily in a cooler and be a time saver while we unpack.
Here's a messy picture of the mats:
Keeping the streak of ONE DAY of a good mood and going for #2. Fingers crossed. Happy Wednesday. Later gators.
P.S. On Instagram. Timely and true.
I was able to shift my attitude a few degrees yesterday.
Brain-dump ... is it true? (sort of, but not completely)
Outside run with Duke (I took chances on my leg - okay so far, but my muscles are sore, ha!)
Made some plans for regular old fun this week (slowing down)
Listened to Eckhart Tolle (reminded to embrace UNCERTAINTY - life is an adventure)
Guess what? I felt better. Stayed present better. AND during a trip to Costco most of my "worries" corrected themselves. 2 phone calls and a text message and most things were back to okay. God was hanging out at Costco yesterday (if you're looking)
I swear it was divine intervention. Or as Eckhart says, when you are aligned with the present moment things flow more easily.
Big breath in ... and out. That was a rough ride. Like Dorothy, I had the power the entire time.
I slept like I was dead last night (so did sweet Aspen who is happy to be back with us). Couldn't figure out the alarm noise this morning -- full on deep sleep. Flowing with the Universe. Sound wacky? Yep. True -- I think so.
Today is some of that slow-down, have some fun stuff. Brunch with a friend. Corned beef hash - my favorite (as my mouth waters). It's the ugliest plate of food, but one of the best flavor of corned beef hash I've ever tasted.
Back to Costco ...
I ventured into the non-food area to get my youngest some silverware for his new apartment. (That's another one of those words ... silverware or flatware?) Found some awesome CHEAP rugs. We have hallways in our new house and need runners for the dogs. Until we figure out the colors, etc, I found runners (with rubber backing) for $9 at Costco (maybe they will stay - I like them). Also, found an outdoor mat for a door (I think our front door since we'll need a big one.) Tweed gray. I need to check out that section more. I usually cruise straight to the back.
I went to Costco to get meat. While I'm running the kitchen to empty on old freezer and pantry things before we move, I want to FoodSaver some meals for those first few weeks in the new place. That will move easily in a cooler and be a time saver while we unpack.
Here's a messy picture of the mats:
Keeping the streak of ONE DAY of a good mood and going for #2. Fingers crossed. Happy Wednesday. Later gators.
P.S. On Instagram. Timely and true.
Tuesday, March 5, 2019
Self-Care becomes a Pity Party
I feel like screaming, but since I'm new and improved, I'll simply say the Universe is offering me a chance to learn and grow. *gag*
My re-scheduled massage got CANCELLED. April is only working on Thursdays now (instead of 5 days a week). So suddenly she had to cancel her schedule this week. You know what that means ... she's out the door any minute. Writing's on the wall. The exit has begun. I have it rescheduled again, but holding out little hope. I think she's quitting sooner rather than later.
I'm trying to continue self-care in my schedule --- pockets of fun and whatnot. It's not working for me. I'm living self-yuck instead. UGH. Doing the meditation and the "things" but nothing feels good or helpful. It's the biggest dump-fest every time I turn around. Practically NOTHING is going easily right now. My week is a Pity Party for One.
Aspen is being returned from her new foster today. She can't handle her and isn't willing to give her enough time to adjust. I told everyone she'd take a lot of time to get settled. Shouting from the mountaintop and no one is listening.
Duke discovered "something" in the master bathroom. Maybe a cockroach? He's gone crazy. Crying, scratching, racing around. I had to take him and sleep in another room last night. 24 hours of CRAZY DOG. I gave him calming supplements and it's not working.
I keep thinking there will come a moment I will either EXPLODE or CRY at some random moment.
But, you know I'm trying all this new stuff. Paid for all this LIFE COACHING and damn it, I'm going to WIN at it. Period. I refuse to cave in.
Today's plan is ALL THE THINGS. Pulling out the big guns of life coaching, personal growth, self-care.
The biggest, most important thing I need to focus on is the PRESENT MOMENT. Not for enjoyment's sake, but to ditch the worry and anxiety. You can't have either of those emotions if you stay in the moment. I've been hanging out in future worry all week. And, of course, a lot of the stuff I worried about is over (some worked out fine, some didn't) but EVERYTHING was worse because I lived some future fantasy in my head over and over.
That's the lesson. Crap happens. Usually, when crap happens it's quick and done. What makes crap seem so much bigger is worrying before it happens and reliving it after it's over. I AM TRYING to live this lesson. Why is it so dang hard?
Living present doesn't mean NOT taking action. It's the opposite. Take action, but action from a place of PROBLEM SOLVING not from a place of over-emotion.
That's my sermon today - preach it! Now, I need to live it.
First up ... I'm writing a brain-dump list of all the things that prove my pity party WRONG. Is this really true?
After is a workout because that cures all things too. I'll go from there. Fingers crossed, wood knocked.
Later gators.
My re-scheduled massage got CANCELLED. April is only working on Thursdays now (instead of 5 days a week). So suddenly she had to cancel her schedule this week. You know what that means ... she's out the door any minute. Writing's on the wall. The exit has begun. I have it rescheduled again, but holding out little hope. I think she's quitting sooner rather than later.
I'm trying to continue self-care in my schedule --- pockets of fun and whatnot. It's not working for me. I'm living self-yuck instead. UGH. Doing the meditation and the "things" but nothing feels good or helpful. It's the biggest dump-fest every time I turn around. Practically NOTHING is going easily right now. My week is a Pity Party for One.
Aspen is being returned from her new foster today. She can't handle her and isn't willing to give her enough time to adjust. I told everyone she'd take a lot of time to get settled. Shouting from the mountaintop and no one is listening.
Duke discovered "something" in the master bathroom. Maybe a cockroach? He's gone crazy. Crying, scratching, racing around. I had to take him and sleep in another room last night. 24 hours of CRAZY DOG. I gave him calming supplements and it's not working.
I keep thinking there will come a moment I will either EXPLODE or CRY at some random moment.
But, you know I'm trying all this new stuff. Paid for all this LIFE COACHING and damn it, I'm going to WIN at it. Period. I refuse to cave in.
Today's plan is ALL THE THINGS. Pulling out the big guns of life coaching, personal growth, self-care.
The biggest, most important thing I need to focus on is the PRESENT MOMENT. Not for enjoyment's sake, but to ditch the worry and anxiety. You can't have either of those emotions if you stay in the moment. I've been hanging out in future worry all week. And, of course, a lot of the stuff I worried about is over (some worked out fine, some didn't) but EVERYTHING was worse because I lived some future fantasy in my head over and over.
That's the lesson. Crap happens. Usually, when crap happens it's quick and done. What makes crap seem so much bigger is worrying before it happens and reliving it after it's over. I AM TRYING to live this lesson. Why is it so dang hard?
Living present doesn't mean NOT taking action. It's the opposite. Take action, but action from a place of PROBLEM SOLVING not from a place of over-emotion.
That's my sermon today - preach it! Now, I need to live it.
First up ... I'm writing a brain-dump list of all the things that prove my pity party WRONG. Is this really true?
***** I'm trying to continue self-care in my schedule --- pockets of fun and whatnot. It's not working for me. I'm living self-yuck instead. UGH. Doing the meditation and the "things" but nothing feels good or helpful. It's the biggest dump-fest every time I turn around. Practically NOTHING is going easily right now. My week is a Pity Party for One. *****
After is a workout because that cures all things too. I'll go from there. Fingers crossed, wood knocked.
Later gators.
Monday, March 4, 2019
Ear Infection ... WHAT?!?
I seem to have an ear infection. Sharp, stabbing pain in one ear. I haven't had an ear infection since I CAN'T EVER REMEMBER an ear infection. What is going on? Most ear infections get better on their own, so I'm on the wait-and-see RX for now.
(I googled to see if the loud music from Soul Cycle could have ruptured something. Nope. Googling that made me feel VERY OLD and feel like a rather stupid nurse. Guess the music wasn't THAT loud LOL.)
I haven't taken any NSAIDS for it either. I'll see how it goes. It hurts when I drink my warm drinks - go figure. Iced coffee might be medically necessary today.
In other news ... I hate people. I said it. People are on my last nerve. I'm working the turn arounds, accepting what is, trying not to have an emotional reaction ... yet, I'm still not a fan of many people today. All week (with a huge pinnacle this weekend), people are asking things of me, standing me up for appointment times when I'm doing THEM a favor, acting like their life is the only life. It's rude and frustrating. I stood my ground, but stood my ground while being annoyed. That's not good for ME. (Even my hubby commented on people asking things of me -- how many times do you have to say no.) Why is this lesson repeated so many times for me? Maybe because I can't seem to manage standing up for myself without unnecessary emotion (frustration, guilt, annoyance). I'm trying.
Fresh day, fresh week. I'm putting it behind me. Getting it out of my head. Moving on with my big old to-do list this week.
If all goes well, by the end of this week, we should have a lot of things worked out for our move, our son's move and the house sale.
I didn't go to the meditation group and service on Sunday. Did I mention I was going? Maybe, not. There's a Unity Church my girlfriend goes to occasionally. They have a 45 minute meditation service followed by a non-denominational service on Sunday morning. It's early and about a 45 minute drive. We decided to go next weekend instead -- worked much better for me. I'm excited to try both though.
Happy Monday. We have the choice to make it good or not -- sometimes that doesn't seem true though. I'm giving it an honest go at a good day -- despite people, despite my ear. Cliff hanger hahahaha ... have a good one. Later gators.
(I googled to see if the loud music from Soul Cycle could have ruptured something. Nope. Googling that made me feel VERY OLD and feel like a rather stupid nurse. Guess the music wasn't THAT loud LOL.)
I haven't taken any NSAIDS for it either. I'll see how it goes. It hurts when I drink my warm drinks - go figure. Iced coffee might be medically necessary today.
In other news ... I hate people. I said it. People are on my last nerve. I'm working the turn arounds, accepting what is, trying not to have an emotional reaction ... yet, I'm still not a fan of many people today. All week (with a huge pinnacle this weekend), people are asking things of me, standing me up for appointment times when I'm doing THEM a favor, acting like their life is the only life. It's rude and frustrating. I stood my ground, but stood my ground while being annoyed. That's not good for ME. (Even my hubby commented on people asking things of me -- how many times do you have to say no.) Why is this lesson repeated so many times for me? Maybe because I can't seem to manage standing up for myself without unnecessary emotion (frustration, guilt, annoyance). I'm trying.
Fresh day, fresh week. I'm putting it behind me. Getting it out of my head. Moving on with my big old to-do list this week.
If all goes well, by the end of this week, we should have a lot of things worked out for our move, our son's move and the house sale.
I didn't go to the meditation group and service on Sunday. Did I mention I was going? Maybe, not. There's a Unity Church my girlfriend goes to occasionally. They have a 45 minute meditation service followed by a non-denominational service on Sunday morning. It's early and about a 45 minute drive. We decided to go next weekend instead -- worked much better for me. I'm excited to try both though.
Happy Monday. We have the choice to make it good or not -- sometimes that doesn't seem true though. I'm giving it an honest go at a good day -- despite people, despite my ear. Cliff hanger hahahaha ... have a good one. Later gators.
Sunday, March 3, 2019
Soul Cycle
It was like nothing I've ever done before (in the exercise world).
It's expensive, but they are on their game. You reserve a specific bike so they know who is riding each bike. There was a birthday celebration, hello to new riders, help with set-up for new riders, they clean everyone's bike. There were about 8 employees in the room getting the transition ready for the next class.
It was dark, sometimes totally dark (just exit signs) ... sometimes only candles (real ones) ... sometimes fancy colored lights.
You danced, did upper body workout and did crazy moves all over the bike. You know I sucked at it, but it was FUN.
While you bike, the instructor takes you through almost guided meditation exercises. It's a strange feeling. Working hard, breathing hard, in the dark, loud music (they give you an ear plug option and I should have used them) and a meditation happening. Sensory magic!
It's an individual experience but with huge group energy.
The only issue (besides my lack of coordination) was there was a moment I felt crazy claustrophobic. It was warm, dark, I was breathing super heavily and "clicked" into my bike. I felt trapped and air hungry. Once the air vents kicked on and the room cooled again, I was fine. If you are claustrophobic -- this might not be for you. (I'm not, and I was feeling it.)
The instructor was Olivia from Biggest Loser fame (won her season). She looked great and is in incredible shape. She told her story while we set up. I remember watching her season. No phones allowed in the bike studio - bummer!
It's expensive, but they are on their game. You reserve a specific bike so they know who is riding each bike. There was a birthday celebration, hello to new riders, help with set-up for new riders, they clean everyone's bike. There were about 8 employees in the room getting the transition ready for the next class.
It was dark, sometimes totally dark (just exit signs) ... sometimes only candles (real ones) ... sometimes fancy colored lights.
You danced, did upper body workout and did crazy moves all over the bike. You know I sucked at it, but it was FUN.
While you bike, the instructor takes you through almost guided meditation exercises. It's a strange feeling. Working hard, breathing hard, in the dark, loud music (they give you an ear plug option and I should have used them) and a meditation happening. Sensory magic!
It's an individual experience but with huge group energy.
The only issue (besides my lack of coordination) was there was a moment I felt crazy claustrophobic. It was warm, dark, I was breathing super heavily and "clicked" into my bike. I felt trapped and air hungry. Once the air vents kicked on and the room cooled again, I was fine. If you are claustrophobic -- this might not be for you. (I'm not, and I was feeling it.)
The instructor was Olivia from Biggest Loser fame (won her season). She looked great and is in incredible shape. She told her story while we set up. I remember watching her season. No phones allowed in the bike studio - bummer!
Saturday, March 2, 2019
Meet Lexi
Puppy came, got adopted and is back with the litter for another week (officially my cousin!). She's sweet as pie - Lexi. The name fits her. My dog-gang wasn't happy having a puppy here, but we made it. Aspen was the surprise playmate (steroids make everyone act strange LOL). It was nice to hang with the aunts as well (and one uncle too!).
Parker is feeling better this morning. Yesterday was rough again, but the kinks are slowly working out. CBD oil on the way. I'll give an update - takes 2 weeks before you notice improvement.
Today is the Soul Cycle class. Should be an adventure in exercise (so they say). I'm looking forward to seeing what the fuss is about.
We have our final closet consultation, mattress shopping and dinner with some good friends. Busy and fun day ahead. The sun came BACK out this morning for a little bit before we're hit with more storms tomorrow. We have the back door open and it smells like SPRING.
Last week was HARD. I'm happy to be at the weekend and a new week ahead. Later gators.
Parker is feeling better this morning. Yesterday was rough again, but the kinks are slowly working out. CBD oil on the way. I'll give an update - takes 2 weeks before you notice improvement.
Today is the Soul Cycle class. Should be an adventure in exercise (so they say). I'm looking forward to seeing what the fuss is about.
We have our final closet consultation, mattress shopping and dinner with some good friends. Busy and fun day ahead. The sun came BACK out this morning for a little bit before we're hit with more storms tomorrow. We have the back door open and it smells like SPRING.
Last week was HARD. I'm happy to be at the weekend and a new week ahead. Later gators.
Friday, March 1, 2019
Parker
I took the dogs to a new groomer yesterday. When my old man (12 1/2 -- 100 lbs) came out of the room, he got excited -- jumped up and fell HARD. He couldn't walk after the fall. Took 3 of us 30 minutes to get him in the car.
My heart.
I medicated him at home. A couple of hours later, he could stand a little and needed to go out. He went potty and we were walking back in when a SNAKE tried to strike him out of the grass. I kicked the snake, pushed Parker (who fell over). We could barely get in the house after that. It probably wasn't a poisonous snake, but I don't know. It was dark, I was freaking out.
I didn't go out last night. Stayed home to nurse my sweet boy. He kept trying to walk and kept falling. I'm researching CBD oil and will have him on it by next week.
I was so sad last night. I love this dog with all my heart and it's hard to watch him struggle. I think we can figure this out and it's not The Time yet. He'll let us know and we won't let him suffer.
I'm spent this morning. I have a my family coming to see their new Releash puppy today. I need to get lunch together for them, gas in my car for 2 plus hours of driving to transport today (I planned to stop yesterday) and my house ready for a puppy.
All I want to do is stay home and snuggle Parker, but today has other plans for us. Accepting what is ... is HARD. I'm trying :-)
My heart.
I medicated him at home. A couple of hours later, he could stand a little and needed to go out. He went potty and we were walking back in when a SNAKE tried to strike him out of the grass. I kicked the snake, pushed Parker (who fell over). We could barely get in the house after that. It probably wasn't a poisonous snake, but I don't know. It was dark, I was freaking out.
I didn't go out last night. Stayed home to nurse my sweet boy. He kept trying to walk and kept falling. I'm researching CBD oil and will have him on it by next week.
I was so sad last night. I love this dog with all my heart and it's hard to watch him struggle. I think we can figure this out and it's not The Time yet. He'll let us know and we won't let him suffer.
I'm spent this morning. I have a my family coming to see their new Releash puppy today. I need to get lunch together for them, gas in my car for 2 plus hours of driving to transport today (I planned to stop yesterday) and my house ready for a puppy.
All I want to do is stay home and snuggle Parker, but today has other plans for us. Accepting what is ... is HARD. I'm trying :-)
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