Package Day!

It was a fun mail day!  Here's what I got ...

My favorite lip glosses - flavored and the best sale I've ever seen!
They might feel too sticky for some people, but I like the flavor and the shine a lot.
I bought the body gel as a throwback.  Long, long time ago, this was MY scent.
It's too sweet for me now as a perfume, but I thought it would be nice for the shower.
One sniff and I was right back - scent and music memories are so powerful.
I bought on the Philosophy website.  They sell it on Amazon too, but the sale was through the company. 

I LOVE packing cubes and this was my last need for organization.  It will hold all small electronics, cords, charges, adapters, bud ear phones, etc.  It's so nice - very well thought out.  Even the outside pockets are perfect.  It comes in lots of colors and size options- Amazon Prime day selection (thanks to an Instagram Influencer).  

Mini charger.  The family got the big one for Christmas.  This is half the size and a big special on Amazon Prime day.  I got the bright color to see it easily in a bag (or my new organizer on a trip!).  

The printed copy.  Can't say enough about it.  Tons of thoughtful gems.  I gifted it to a friend too.  This will be a go-to gift this year to my girlfriends.  It's a quick, easy read (most of the pages are worksheets).  Her podcasts are also good, short and FREE.  I'm a new, big fan.

I had a weird morning yesterday.  I totally TANKED at boxing.  Sugar drop like I haven't had in a long time.  I could barely finish!!  Monday, I forgot to get sweet potatoes.  Tuesday-Wednesday was my car issue so I planned to grab some during my next grocery run.  I was so tired after boxing, but I needed CARBS so I stopped at a store near the boxing.  I got the sweet potatoes and then grabbed a container of pre-sliced butternut squash to make ASAP.  Turns out it was bad - I opened it, smelled funny (I thought maybe a gas they add to stop it browning), cooked it -- one bite and I knew.  Turns out it was past due (ugh - I usually look at dates!!).  So I shredded the sweet potato and cooked it up.  In my crazy hungry state, I double salted.  OMG.  I thought I'd never eat.  I mixed it with some unsalted veggies and called it a morning.

Lesson learned about needing carbs.  I felt fine until I didn't.  We ordered takeout last night from a good Whole30 option restaurant.  I got an entire naked chicken and 4 plain roasted sweet potatoes (part of a dinner plan option).  This will cover me today and I'm freezing the leftovers for EMERGENCIES!!

Last night was some family STRESS about youngest and job situation. Long story, but the point is I held it together (inside too - not just on the surface).  It's all working out fine - imagine that.

Are you ready for this?!?  I meditated for 4 minutes yesterday!  I hit the timer a second time because I wasn't relaxed after 2 minutes.  Look at me go.  I'll start with 2 again today (no pressure to grow too fast LOL).

The theme of my meditation is This Weekend.  Lordy, I'm trying to use my STANDARDS.  The closer it gets, the more I have to stop myself from thinking about it!!  I'm breathing with thoughts of people first, etc.  My mind WANTS to negotiate the plan on the drinking.  I'm ignoring myself (trying at least).

Some of the issue is a bit of social nerves.  Sometimes I get this way.  We are going to visit our friends at their brother's house on Lake Lanier Saturday.  I don't know most of the people and what to expect and I feel a little nervous about it.  It's ridiculous - I know, but sometimes it happens.  Then, they are coming to us on Sunday.  Again, we don't know what time, etc.  This leaves me little room to plan something fun.  Sunday is a bit of a lame night for local stuff too. Without a plan, I get feeling awkward again.  Hopefully, once we are in the thick of it, all will be fine.  Maybe this is my BRAIN trying to convince me I NEED to drink.  Who knows - is it this diabolical?  LOL.

I get "social nerves" so I PUSH myself to be social, entertain, cook for people, get out of my box.  This is one of those things I've done well with over the years.  If you knew me 20 years ago, I'd be very, very quiet and unlikely to entertain, etc.  I wanted to be someone different, so I became someone different.  When the nerves rear up, I push through (sadly, with a glass of wine to ease the transition most of the time - this is what I'm trying to avoid this weekend).  Liquid courage.  I don't want to use wine as a fix and I want to use Worth-It strategies for all my food and drink.  Running to a glass of wine the minute I meet these people is NOT part of that plan.

I'm still facing some bloat this morning.  Now it's sweet potato bloat.  I'm starting the probiotic again today.  Kombucha seems to help me with digestion, but I'm not drinking it for a couple of days (because wine Saturday and Sunday).

I'm a hot mess!!

This is a super long post - I needed my "therapy" this morning!  I've been a chatty Cathy lately.  Happy Weekend!  Later gators!