Granny Panties

I need my big girl, granny panties today.

(PS I wear granny panties - proudly.  Long gone are the days of thongs LOL.)

First, I'm in granny role today.  Grand-dogs for 5 days, starting this afternoon.  I love them.  It's fun.  It's WORK.  Chihuahua in charge - or so she thinks LOL.  Chihuahua ain't happy, ain't no one happy.

And, of course, I need to get my shit together and be a big girl and do what big girls do (things they don't always want to do).

I feel like I've beat this subject to death.  I listened to podcasts yesterday and it was helpful.  All the self-help and meditation, learning, listening -- it's helpful, but sometimes you simply need to do the work and not analysis everything.

Today is a DO THE WORK day.  Plain and simple.

First - a hard workout.  Still up-in-the-air on specifics.  It's a boxing day, but I'm on the fence about boxing.  I want to mindlessly run today.  I'll do something and I'm not worried about the WHAT it is - anything that works me hard will be what I need today.

Next - 2 minutes of meditation.

Next - eat healthy in 3 meals - no snacks.  Something that tastes good and is vegetable heavy.  Healthy food works for me.

Next - get some of my rescue work done.  It's been hanging over my head and I'm in full dread mode.  Off my list = stress relief.

Next - no negative head talk.  No obsessing over this-is-hard.  I'm doing a horrible job, etc.

Next - get to my list of house chores.  Getting stuff finished feels good and productive and helps me out of a funk.  Laundry, sheets and bills!

Next - make a decision about pictures in August.  She sprang "additional" charges on me and I need to decide if this is too much money.  It's like pulling teeth to get her to answer me and now I feel guilty canceling at this late of a date (but she's the one who didn't get back to me again and again AND she never mentioned these charges when I asked for pricing - yet, it's bothering me).  Once the decision is made, I can get over the feelings and the head negotiation.

Hopefully, this helps this funk.  Is this the start to menopause?  I'm so moody lately.  Funks left and right.  Good lord.

I have 5 HARD days ahead of me and that's the PERFECT time to get back to work on ME.  I'm focusing on the fact that by Monday evening, I will feel GREAT, the dog-work will be over and I can get back to some regularly scheduled ME stuff.  That's the plan, the goal and the focus.  Fingers crossed ...

Later gators.