She's a Monster

Well, friends, I have a new problem. Guess that climb on the hike aggravated a hemorrhoid and she's a monster. Big enough to modify workouts. I ran yesterday and that was a mistake. It's a little better this morning (of course), but I'll see how it goes during the day. No Peloton today. Exchanging shirt pictures with a friend -- run went well (getting faster) but then misery hah! I didn't hike with the Tuesday group because I'm in relative isolation mode ahead of the wedding

Wanted a finishing treat.

All done. Beautiful morning.

I wasn't a very happy camper after the run. Our realtor decided to do a broker open house next week. Seriously? Right before the wedding -- sure, add this to the mix. Our other realtor scheduled a followup inspection at the new house, but they're out of town for a funeral so we need to manage it. Same day, same time. Neither can easily be postponed (long stories). So much for the blackout period that we told both of them. It's really nice to be listened to and believed. Guess the jokes on me because they got what they wanted. 

Between my jaw and backside, it was a full mood. 

I'm better this morning -- back into problem solving mode. I have a hair appointment this morning and working on welcome bag notes.

Speaking of notes, got my first postcard from my new penpal lol. We wrote very similar things -- hope she gets mine this week. It's fun and book-ish. 

I'm excited about the wedding, but I'm excited to have it finished in equal measure. I'm ready to have time and mental space for other things. I miss crafty stuff. I miss gardening (I'm going to set up a few containers for a little garden). It's time. Next week is a big, big week -- trying to not get overwhelmed ahead of time. Trying to be relaxed and go with the flow. Trying to remember to have fun and take in all the joy of friends and family. Some success, but, it's Me and that's not my default. I need to work on redefining Me.

I listened to a podcast and there was a discussion on adaptive reasoning vs transformation (new identity). Exactly! Difference between I'm not drinking, but I wish I could (adaptive reasoning) vs I'm not drinking because I don't want to (transformation). This can apply to the above too. It's an interesting concept to remember in a variety of situations and beliefs. 

Okay, enough pondering -- hope you have a good day. Off to meditate on a soft pillow to keep the monster at bay today. Later gators.