Valentine's Day -- almost forgot. Hike with the club today. Guess that's my gift to myself. Hubby and I have a dinner and movie night at home tomorrow so we'll call that our celebration.
I'm working on how to do friendship differently with different friends -- more specifically, how to change how I do friendship when the friendship changes.
The friend I didn't invite to walk and lunch? I texted her and reached out with a fun memory and pictures (I passed a church in mid-town on Wednesday where we started a food tour in 2018 for her birthday). We texted back and forth. Friendship in a different way.
Had I invited her to walk and lunch ... most likely she wouldn't have been available because she's babysitting (which annoys me and it shouldn't -- working on this) OR she would've canceled because it was still misty and wet out (super annoying -- not working on this reaction lol). Instead we had a nice "walk" down a memory and a little friendship bonding. Much better.
And, I spent time with someone who holds a reasonable commitment and a friendship I'm happy to put time and effort into because we share a lot of interests. I don't see her often and that's okay. It's an honest friendship -- both show up authentically in the amount that works for us. No promises, no sneaky excuses, no expectations (on both our ends), no resentments.
Friendship relationships have a huge learning curve for me now that I want to be represented too. Apparently, I accepted a lot of one direction relationships because I didn't speak up or put myself at the friendship table too. Baby steps to figure this out without overreacting. Spoiler alert -- it's learning about me (not them). I have some baggage and it's taking a lot to work through it. I manage one thing and then, bam, something else pops up. I'm making progress though and it's very, very worth the work.
My jaw is still a mess. Chewing and yawning hurts {fighting the urge to yawn now lol}. I'm back in a stress panic over the house selling (market it going to pot and no showings this long weekend) and wedding stuff (getting so close so no time to diddle around).
Is anyone surprised? It's my pattern. Good day, panic day, and repeat. I listened to too much news related stuff yesterday. It's a hard balance to stay informed, but stay sane. People like to inform me and that's hard too.
Trying to remember this too (as it relates to the house selling).
Hope you have a good day. I have a sloppy 8 mile hike. Not hard, but fast. New trail for me and I'm excited to try it. Later gators.
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