Good Lord

You guessed it -- back to overwhelm. Apparently this is going to be A WEEK -- lots in flux, add-ons, etc. I can't get a handle on things and I'm slowly falling behind in a way that's making me nervous. I keep telling myself -- get to Saturday and you can catch up.

I need to regroup on perspective again and it would be helpful to get a period so my hormones settle too hah!

So much and it's all good, but even good can be work and stress (at least for me). I should know "real problems," right?!?! I get it and I tell myself the same thing. Perspective without making my feelings wrong is a goal. Geez.

Anyway, the hike yesterday was a mixed bag. More good than bad though. Hiked with someone I enjoy talking with and she just got back from an interesting hiking trip so we had a lot to chat about. The hike pace was as advertised, but the leader stopped at every trail marker -- way too frequently for way too long. The trail got narrow and everyone got quiet -- spontaneous silent hike for about 30 minutes and that was lovely. Sunny, cold morning, bird sounds, feet through the dried leaves -- meditative. Then someone fell hard -- hit his face. He's okay, but hurt. A fall can happen to anyone and it's always scary. Glad I hiked, but I'll be mindful with this hike leader's love of stopping. 

Hiking with my Tuesday friend group this morning. It's a hard hike, but I think everyone might decide to sag out the last half and go around the mountain, not back over. The friend who usually hikes back over hurt her back and she'll need to go around -- that will probably draw everyone with her. Totally understandable. I need to decide what I want to do though. Should I hike back over myself? I'm leaning toward it.

Chaos tomorrow (I say dramatically) and that's a solid part of my overwhelm. I have a big video conference call with the volunteer group -- must be confidential so I can't take this in public and it's important. Hubby also has a video call for his board company right before. Add on a showing in the middle of it all. We're scrambling to find a solution. Working a few options. We'll figure it out, but it's an add-on that is messy to a week that's already messy. 

I'm holding tight to being able to keep myself on the calendar. I could cancel hikes and ease up my week, but that's the part of the week that's for me -- just me. Baring an emergency, I am the priority for me. I cancel myself too much and what I'm learning is there will ALWAYS be a reason (or season) that pushes me out unless I hold the priority.

On that note, best get going. Meditation up next and that'll be interesting with my mind buzzing. Also, can't close my jaw because the TMJ is swollen and my teeth won't line up. Fun times. Poor me. Blah, blah, blah, lol. 

Have a good day. Later gators.